Disclaimer: I don't own ed edd n eddy and i don't own the songs in this songfic. The songs are owned by the band Citizen soldier. These songs and this band saved lives.
The songs are let it burn, if I surrender, stronger than my storm, and hallelujah (I am not dead)
The entire school was buzzing about the upcoming talent show. But everyone was surprised when they heard that double D is in the talent show. After he was missing from the cul de sac and school for over two weeks. It was strange even for him
"He will most likely be doing an advanced form of math for his talent." Laughed the loud mouth of the school.
"But Eddy, remember the weird noises from Double D's house. He must be planning an experiment that will control the minds of the masses and bring us under his complete control. Like the trials of the mad scientist that was on last night." said the most timed and excitable member of the trio.
"Ed, don't get me started, remember last time? You had us watch those damn B movies with you for the entire spring break. We only left to go to the bathroom because of your addiction to them. I am not going to do that again. The babes must have missed me." yelled Eddy. who was walking down the hallway to his locker where he saw Kevin flirting with Nazz. he bypassed them and opened his locker to find a series of letters falling to the ground.
"My adoring fans must have missed me." he smiled to himself but to his dismay he saw the signature of someone he feared and was somewhat attracted to. "Kanker. Ed this is a level three emergency. Run now." he shouted before running to the gymnasium with his friend running with him.
They both reached their seats that they were assigned to sit.
Kevin and Nazz
"So Nazz would you like to go to the dance with me?" asked Kevin who was giving the blond girl puppy dog eyes.
"Fine, only if you smile." she said with a smile of her own before kissing his cheek.
"What would a man do without a loveable girlfriend like you?" said Kevin before laughing as he saw Ed and Eddy run towards the gymnasium in a hurry. "When do you think those two groups will change and start to date?"
"I don't know Kevin. One of the Ed's must be the one to ask one of the kankers out. But did you hear that Double D is going to be in the talent show. I saw him bring in a guitar case so maybe he made a new invention. So we better get to our seats fast." she giggled to the dismay of her boyfriend.
"If he snaps we are booking it." Kevin said as Nazz slapped his face before leading him to their seats.
The gymnasium.
"Whatever invention double d is using, I'm sure he will win. Hell the entire show had been a washout. Jonny and plank were terrible show starters." a young loud mouth spoke as she watched the talent show.
"Sarah, please be respectful to our friends. "Said her boyfriend of one year who was wearing the same nail polish as her.
"Jimmy what would I do without you." she said before giving Jimmy a kiss on his cheek. "Sarah not in public" Jimmy said before rubbing off her lipstick.
They both turned their eyes to the stage as they saw their friend sitting on the stage in a special area with a case in his hands next to him and to their surprise was a blue haired Kanker who looked nervous and sad. Next to them were three men in suits.
Double D
A skinny young man with a beanie hat on his head that looked like a sock walked towards the middle of the stage with a guitar case on his side. He was shaking with fear and nervousness. He stared at the student body and he had tears run over his face. Before he dried them on his sleeves he could see Kevin start to get up and back towards the end of the gymnasium in fear. A tear drops from Double D's face as he looks over to the blue hair woman that was sitting nervously. He opened the guitar case to show an old and worn out guitar.
"To my friends this is why I haven't been in school for two weeks. I had been dealing with things like that almost." As he tried to finish he started to cry only for the blue haired kanker to walk up to him and hold his shoulders. She whispered in his ears as she turned to the student body with tears of her own overflowing.
"I almost did something that was wrong and I am getting help for it." Double D choked out as he revealed an old acoustic guitar from the case. He started to strum the guitar into a melody as he started to clear his throat.
The audience
"Wow he is actually gonna play something. I totally thought he would reveal his next breakthrough in his scientific research." Ed spoke as he started to hum along with the chords of the guitar.
"heck, he is pretty good. Maybe he won't lose it." Keven said as he started to get back to his seat.
Double D
The first song helped me through some dark days recently. I hope you enjoy it.
As he spoke he started to sing a song that he put his emotions through.
Take my hand and look at me in the eye
There's still time left Cut these chords, and kid, run for your life Maybe you're broken, maybe you're shattered
With no reasons left to try
But you still have so much, so much worth saving
That you have left on the inside
I know you feel like you are worthless, that your day has come
The misery eats you alive until you come undone
You feel like there is nowhere left to call your home tonight
You are not alone, this is our time, and I am by your side
My friend, this is do or die
Hey kid, can you hear me?
Don't you dare pull the trigger and throw it all away
You have every reason left to stay alive
The student body
The entire theater was silent which shocked most of the teachers as they had their attention on Double D. Nazz was the first one to speak up as she saw that the other two Kanker sisters were not stunned by emotional as if they knew something.
"Odd, why is he singing a song with sad overtones?" Nazz spoke as she sat up in her chair while holding her boyfriend's hand. Kevin was speechless as if he knew something was up.
Sarah and Jimmy were holding each other's hands as Jimmy started to sniffle.
The other two Eds were dumbfounded as they never knew Double D to be emotional.
Double D
"The past two weeks I have been in the hospital dealing with issues, if Marie didn't show up I may not have been in this school anymore." Double D started to cry some more before catching his voice. "I almost took my life, I have been dealing with more than I thought I could handle alone. Please don't judge me." he said before strumming the guitar and started to sing with a hoarse voice.
Lately I've been feeling so ashamed
By these thoughts I'm hiding in my brain
'Cause I've been holding them down but they twist me violently
I'm hanging by a thread tonight, but this time I don't wanna be saved
So let me fall, let me break
Under everything unsaid
Just let me die 'cause I can't take
Living with what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
Will it set me free?
What's the point of holding on like this?
When no one seems to care if I exist
There is no agony like being strong when no one knows you're sick
So sick of hearing, I should stay when I know I would never be missed
The student body
The students started to burst into tears, as they couldn't get why he would try something like that, he seemed happy.
A couple men in suits walked next to Double D as he started to get overwhelmed. A couple students tried to walk towards him to see if they could help but were quickly ordered to return to their seats.
The Eds
"Sockhead, why?" whispered Eddy only loud enough to be heard by Ed who was rocking back and forth trying to comprehend what was going on.
Double D
"Over the past few weeks things have been getting tougher, we finally became better friends with all of you." He said before tearing up remembering the moments after they returned from searching for Eddy's brother. "But it just got too much for me. I still remember the times I was alone in my head, and no one knew. I had written letters for each of you when I attempted but then Marie showed up in order to start anew to become friends, she helped me to stay alive. She saved me." he started to sing again and this time he looked at her then to the rest of teh school.
Self-hatred, I'm fighting
Feels like a prison cell
But this story I'm writing
Helps me remind myself
The rock bottom only got me higher
Won't be a victim, I'm a survivor
I refuse to believe the liar in my head
The proof is stitched in my scars
I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough
I found myself through the dark
Not giving up, not giving up
I've come to understand
That tragedy's a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I'm stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
For so long I tried to
Prеtend away my pain
My secret to keep it
Lеft me one step away
Some days I couldn't get much lower
My heart couldn't beat much slower
But I decide when my story's over
(Story's over, story's over)
The proof is stitched in my scars
I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough
I found myself through the dark
Not giving up, not giving up
I've come to understand
That tragedy's a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I'm stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Being broken gave me fight
A semicolon saved my life
I wear my battle scars with pride
Being broken gave me fight
And I refuse to be defined
By what I almost did that night
The proof is stitched in my scars
I'm strong enough, I'm strong enough
I found myself fallin' so far
Not giving up, not giving up
I've come to understand
That tragedy's a second chance
My dying breath is where I was born
Now I'm stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger, stronger
Stronger than my storm
Stronger (Stronger)
Stronger
Stronger than my storm
Double D
"I have much more to heal, to be who I once was. Please don't abandon me." he said with tears, "I don't want to be a burden. We must all not judge who a person is or by their actions. We must look for the good in everyone." he started to hum a song before singing one last time.
Flatline, a breath away
I was born with one foot in the grave
Been to hell and back
Dealt a real bad hand, but I live with that
I've learned to face my darkness
Now I embrace my doubt
Don't go and plan my funeral
Don't go and count me out
(Don't go and count me out)
Living on a razor's edge
Danced with demons, tasted death
I've lost wars inside my head
But hallelujah, I'm not dead
Won't be waiting on my hearse
Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse
My heart still beats, my blood's still red
Hallelujah, I'm not dead
Hallelujah, I'm not dead
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Wake up, another fight
Am I the victim or the homicide?
What's in my head left scars behind
Every step is an uphill climb
I've learned to live in shadows
Even without the light
I've learned to love the battles
Only the strong survive
(Only the strong survive)
Living on a razor's edge
Danced with demons, tasted death
I've lost wars inside my head
But hallelujah, I'm not dead
Won't be waiting on my hearse
Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse
My heart still beats, my blood's still red
Hallelujah, I'm not dead
Hallelujah, I'm not dead
So if you're black and blue
And feeling so abused
No, it don't make you damaged
It makes you living proof
That you are so much more
Than all this hell you've known
Remember this
What doesn't kill you is what builds your throne
Living on a razor's edge
Danced with demons, tasted death
I've lost wars inside my head
But hallelujah, I'm not dead
Won't be waiting on my hearse
Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse
My heart still beats, my blood's still red
Hallelujah, I'm not dead
Living on a razor's edge
Danced with demons, tasted death
I've lost wars inside my head
But hallelujah, I'm not dead
Won't be waiting on my hearse
Pain's a gift, it ain't a curse
My heart still beats, my blood's still red
Hallelujah, I'm not dead
Hallelujah, I'm not dead
He soon left the stage and walked out with a couple people in suits, only the girl with blue hair walked up next to him and gently held his hand.
