Sorry for the wait. I have exams and they are about to end. If I get good grades that means I am happy, which means a lot of writing and chapters. So there is a chance there will be lots of chapters.

I am quite proud of this chapter so I hope you will like it. Oh and thanks for all the kudos in AO3 and follow/favorite in FFN. I am happy with the numbers and I hope you can keep supporting me.

Thank you to mightiesthacker from the discord server for beta reading it.

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As for some of the reviews:

Rajinmaru: To me this Subaru feels like the one who was summoned to re zero world 1 or 2 year later than canon. Still being in depression and I can see Subaru becoming like this if he was never summoned from convenience store and his parents didn't realising his condition and never able to help his problem sooner. Still it was quite the chapter I didn't expected this please try not follow the canon pattern of him going to Roswaal mansion. It would be great to see Subaru breaking the chain of fate early which was Set by Roswaal and please don't make this some kind of harem story. Infact it would be best to see him Single and Chad. I know I am demanding a lot that's just suggestion everything else is upto you man. Good luck for the next chapter I'll be waiting for you next chapter.

A: I honestly just added reasons why he has the skills he has. But I can see your point of view, just keep in mind that I made it so that Subaru's earth like make sense other than him being an only shut-in.

To be honest pairing isn't decided… and regardless him being single/paired or having polygamous relationship… it will be all in same tone. Subaru going on with his life. In the end romance won't be the goal. The woman who is able to stick with Subaru enough without him snapping wins in this fic because Subaru is just too depressed. It is more like Subaru affecting characters than characters affecting Subaru. Because they can't do that… he is the most disconnected being you can find.

And as for Roswaal and fate breaking… ahahahaha. This chapter should answer you. If not, next one will do it. Heck, even if all chapters do not, then I guarantee you that you will see that when it's 'last loop' of arc 1 Subaru will do everything with his own will with nothing binding him.

Ask yourself if Subaru who has bind with nothing would end up in Roswaal mansion or not and you will have your answer if I will follow the pattern or not. By the way arc 1 of this fic will be long.

Insane Wombat: Honestly? This probably your best story by far. I'm actually really into this. I've given you shit for bolding your words too much in this past and slightly wavy, hard-to-imagine-in-head writing, but I ain't got no problems with this one. This shit is solid.

Keep it up.

A: If we go by writing… probably. Because Star IF and No longer a Star will be rewritten. And Unsatisfied Star was hard to write since it's from the future and everything is different so I might perhaps write in a way that hard to give any image... This one takes the cake when it comes to grammar and that kind of stuff.

And for your info, I don't think I can stop myself from bolding. Sorry.

Iongenetic: (Too long to put here I think)

Just gonna correct some stuff without going into non-objective stuff.

Tappei at least written for 30 years or something like that, he says it in 10 years anniversary.

I do not know about you but you can see that this work isn't 'perfect' by the fact that your brain literally closes plot holes by headcanon. Emilia wore no robe in there. Not even in anime or LN. Just this should be enough to make you think I guess.

Iongenetic: Hey just wanted to tell thanks for the content and I don't know if you get much hate but I support the quality writing and I know it will only get better. Do don't fret to the hate for every negative boomer we got a positive chad.

A: Thanks man hahaha. I am doing my best to improve.

ArkT: The actual reason Elsa in canon is defeated in the mansion is because, as a Curse Doll, she is weak to being burned to death. Garfiel crushes her to trap her under the rock and then leaves her to be buried and burned away in the mansion's rubble. Anyway, looking forward to the next installment!

A: Elsa didn't defeated by fire until Subaru blow him while searching for Beatrice. So this shows that somewhat Elsa's regeneration stopped after being crushed by that Hippo. Which is weird since she can survive being eaten by rabbits who knows how long.

Noth Lyv:I don't care whether this will be heard or not but, make Subaru and Elsa teams up please. Better yet, if you're planning to have a harem here, make her one of his heroine. I'm just so happy to see two lunatics having a practically poisonous relationship. The emotion was so raw I loved it.

Anyway, why do I felt some JJK and Chainsaw Man's chaotic energy from this chapter? I love it!

A: Ironically I stopped watching both series at ep 1 not that they are bad but more like always something cut me off then I was too lazy to go back. Anyways… wow, it's crazy how much people love Elsa in this fic. Didn't plan for that one!

I think I said this before but Elsa's love increases in each loop because Subaru changes more and more in a way that strays away from the general rules of the world and he becomes darker. You will see that she is even more crazy for him in this chapter.

And I actually saw all of your reviews, I just send a DM in FFN but I guess it didn't reach?

nekoshiroinu: now this is what i want as a fic subaru being a badass person with his own strength and not a random power just logic and pure skills he gained when he was on earth also not being a simp

A: Yes. I have no intention to nerf Subaru for no reason. I would rather make enemies crush more swiftly while putting conflict in more 'psychological stuff' I saw how many fics fall because authors think they should just one up Subaru's obstacles every single time and then it turns into torture porn.

Yes…that's more or less it. Now let's start.


He was in a dark place similar to before.

All alone in nothingness. There was absolutely nothing. He did not have a form or soul, however… he was present nonetheless. Perhaps it was just his consciousness and nothing else.

He thought, pondering why all of this happened to him?

Satella, who was controlled by her own allies in some way or another, was someone who kept telling herself numerous lies and her comfort zone was being hated. That alone made Subaru's attempts to connect with her punished. She truly did not deserve a good end.

Puck, a wicked being covered with illusions of a noble purpose, that being protecting his daughter but that is fake. He exists to do that, hence he does that. There is no love. There is nothing at all.

Elsa, a sick freak. Apparently has a sister and a monstrous 'Mother'. He could not care for her.

A walking bomb in innocent sheep's clothing or a murderer with sick principles and equally sick common sense. Which one was worse? Well, Subaru hated to accept it but it was likely there were more 'worshippers' than Puck when it came to Satella.

Elsa was a comprehensible pervert cultivated by the darkness of society. Who knows how everything started for her? He did not care in the slightest.

Beings like Puck who shouldn't exist were delusional and saw no wrong in what they were doing. He probably justified his existence by raging against the racism Satella receives. Subaru didn't know the specifics… he didn't know about that Witch of Envy he heard in the slums but if being a witch meant having great power with no common sense and threatening people. Then 'Satella' was a Witch, no questions asked.

If Satella saw no problem with beings like Puck then she was even more responsible. Though it's not like Satella looked like a person with accountability.

The problems Satella had behind her caused pain in his non-existent head.

This new world advantage was nothing like he had expected. And that happened even though he knew he would be disappointed. He knew things would be rough but 'rough' did not cut here.

It was insane. How restrictive this world was. How annoying it was. Nothing had any meaning or deepness. There was nothing that made Subaru feel. It was such an empty feeling, it tormented him.

He hated it. He hated everything so much. He had this feeling of emptiness, not having any purpose in his home world too. Having that feeling significantly amplified despite changing worlds…

It made Subaru think that he did not belong anywhere.

Not Earth. Not this world.

But… weirdly enough this place… this place felt like home. A place where nothing exists. An unacknowledged place. Existence itself was unaware of this place. Subaru knew that.

This place where he would end up. And perhaps it was the beginning as well.

This place was understood only by Subaru, perhaps that is why he was accepted.

Some sort of love, that's what he feels.

As he concluded his thoughts. Subaru decided that it was time, time to start again, to struggle, to defy fate for his inevitable victory.

However, he did not start over.

Instead, the scenery changed. He was still similar to just being a consciousness but now he, more or less had a culmination of his being, a soul.

This new place… was pitch black as well but to a much lesser degree that it was unimpressive, this place was vastly different than the empty void Subaru peacefully resided in. The nothingness of the previous place where only Subaru and the most rejected concepts resided.

This place was acknowledged by existence itself. This place had far more concepts and it was quite magical.

And yet… This place was also deeply connected to Subaru, so much that it felt like it could not exist without him. The aspects of this place seemingly begged for him to stay.

—Nonetheless, Subaru wanted to leave.

This place felt like the new world he was transported that place, it didn't feel like relaxing. Why was he here? Why? Why? For what purpose?

No, he couldn't even assume he had any purpose. He definitely had no grand purpose whatsoever…

It was Subaru himself who came here instead of starting over. Subaru himself didn't know why… he only knew that his own determination brought him here. There was a purpose to his arrival. Something he chose… but why?

As he was questioning that, the empty place started to change more and more… it was at first incomprehensible to Subaru but then he understood. The place was adjusting itself so that someone else could also join.

Darkness was more and more covered with shadow, Subaru did nothing, he did not feel threatened, he did not think he could be threatened in this palace where he was unleashed. But there was a slight unease and Subaru could not deny that.

Now the place felt more magical instead of unknown.

A shadow rose from the 'ground' and it started to take a shape. It was turning into something humanoid.

Even though it was nothing but a shadow to the naked eye… Subaru knew that this 'humanoid-shaped shadow' was a female. He just knew it, he knew about this place, he knew about this shadow's nature and he knew that it was him that allowed these circumstances. Even the question "Why?" was dishonest because if he truly wanted to know, all the answers were inside of him.

However, even though he did not fear the shadow, Natsuki Subaru hesitated to look for those answers. Why was that? He asked himself but he could not think of any answers.

As the 'woman' started to adapt to this realm Subaru just made it into reality. There was a feeling that she was overjoyed with something. Searching for something…

Subaru did not have eyes, ears, or body but he could see her. Until now he did not require any shape or physicality but now her arrival changed. Because no matter how much shadow searched the place with her shadowy hands it would not matter, she failed and failed without getting closer to finding him.

—The distance between them was an illusion. Natsuki Subaru thought.

Time and space were irrelevant in this place, no matter how close they looked, even though the distance between them looked like only 30 steps or less. It was totally meaningless. Her efforts were meaningless. There was an infinite gap between them, likely even further.

'Perhaps if I make it so that I have a body, I can easily get close to her,' such a thought appeared in his mind. It's not like the fact that there was an infinite distance between the two or perhaps even greater did not change. But Subaru doubts this place's restrictions would apply to him. That would be weird.

—Especially when it was this place, stopping that woman from reaching him.

She looked more complete but that was a lie too. She had eyes but could not see him. Perhaps she was strong but 'power' was meaningless here. Perhaps she had a long life span… but it wasn't 'life span' that stopped you from fading away in this place.

So she was lonely. Perhaps she was even scared. Even so, no, especially so, she did not stop searching for him.

He decided.

He would have 'eyes.'

Not complete, not definite. But for now, they would suffice. He required eyes, so the darkness itself had no choice but to bestow it on him.

It's not that he could not see before and needed eyes. No. He did not need them. He required them so that she could feel his gaze.

"..." A gasp. He heard it, even without ears. Because he was Natsuki Subaru.

Her shadowy hands slowly reached towards him with hesitation, with excitement, and numerous feelings. Subaru did not know how she perceived him. He had no shape but perhaps her mind perceived him as she wished. Did she see him as a soul? His self? He didn't know.

Hands reached to him. The feeling they gave was… that…

'Why?' It was almost as if….

"I love you."

What?

"I love you."

What?

What?

Love? Why? Why does some woman appear at this late stage and confess?

It was weird.

"I love you."

And she just kept muttering that too… She did nothing but repeat those words. They carried immense love. That one thing wasn't a lie. She loved him or whoever she thought he was.

"I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you."

Subaru just decided to leave. There was no meaning in staying. He got the message and he even had weird feelings rousing from his 'chest' for her. But there was no way he would answer her now.

His feelings… he rejected all the feelings she roused from insidethrough unnatural means. Subaru had no intention to play with the idea of some forgotten past with this woman, he killed those feelings the moment they rose up on him, and he would not make the same mistake he did with 'Satella.' He just didn't have it in him to care even if things might be different with her.

However… that didn't mean he had no feelings for someone who just confessed to him with unnaturally strong love, men were simple like that. He would also assume that the reason they could not communicate was something had to do with him.

Subaru left the place without saying anything to her.

Feeling of being lost and without purpose… Natsuki Subaru felt like she might be the 'one' to fill that hole.

Thus, he lied to himself. Escaped from the truth.

"Love me."


His whole body… hurt.

The pain traveled throughout his body.

"What the… Something…."

—Something is wrong. Something is extremely wrong.

It wasn't about his interaction with the mysterious maiden in love. It was that…

"I didn't die?"

He lives?

"How the fuck is that possible?"

And more importantly…

What happened here? Remain unsaid as Subaru's eyes met with 'something'.


"Isn't that weird?" She asked with an anxious voice using their mental link.

"What do you mean?" Puck questioned.

"That was too easy…"

"Well, I told you to be cautious for many reasons but… this outcome is favorable anyway."

"But Puck… this is too easy."

"My daughter should understand that competent magic users are extremely rare. Let alone one as powerful as us."

"Us? B-but I use your—" Emilia questioned. She didn't think she had any ability to be a magic user. She was a spirit art user… but Puck said as if she was powerful herself. That was the 'intention' she felt from his mental message.

"Oh, yes, that's just a slip of tongue!"

"Puck! You dummy! Your tongue can't 'slip', you do that while walking!"

"Phew. That was close."

As Emilia forgot the hint of truth when it comes to her immense magical power, Puck was relaxed.

He wanted to assure her even more about this situation.

"Well, perhaps it was just that we were rusty?"

"Rusty?"

"You know… both of us couldn't sense him. Even though we heard—no, even when we saw him with our eyes. We don't know how that happened but all that preparation to conceal your presence was unnecessary. He was weak after all."

"But… then… how did he know we were coming?"

"..." Puck had no answer to give. They even froze the under of her shoes so it would make no noise and Puck used magic he didn't use normally. But he knew they were coming anyway.

But he was pondering lots of things…

'I thought he was a witch cultist with all that miasma… but then, it seems he created miasma in natural ways…perhaps he hated that woman and that's what caused it? But then… How the hell he has witch scent? That much…'

No. There was no point in thinking about those things… He didn't care. He was no threat to Emilia so nothing mattered. There was nothing to think about this person. He was irrelevant.

"PUCK! LOOK!"

As his daughter called out to him… he looked at the woman this guy killed.

She moved.

"We need to heal her. Then we can take the villain to the authorities."

"If you say so." Puck materialized himself and together they rushed towards the woman. She… she…

"Augh…." The spirit who was already in the air flew towards the wall and was shocked. He did not see what happened.

"Aaaaah!" Emilia feels an impact on her whole body. The pain was unbearable… she tumbled on the ground from the sheer momentum she received thanks to the impact. She screamed as all air from her lungs kicked out forcefully… and she could not breathe.

As they were trying to get back… The woman stood up mechanically and took the sword out of her brain.

"Emilia! You sick freak, what did you do to my daughter?" Even Puck was damaged considerably. She might be a spirit and his body might be out of mana… however, if he took enough damage even he would die.

"Hehehehe….AHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!" The laugh was too sweet for a murderer to have. But it was easy on the ears nonetheless.

"What is there to laugh about human?!"

"I am laughing at you…both of you…and I am very very VERY angry at you."

"Insane… You are insane… Your eyes, that of a witch. Wait…what? Aghhh!" As he called her a witch…Puck holds his head tightly. Visibly shaken from the sudden pain.

"I really do not care what a creature like you thinks. But if you want my comment, you are the type that I absolutely despise. But my anger comes from….severing him, from me."

"What are you-"

"Ah~ It was… magnificent. I was taken aback… I didn't expect it at all. The way he defeated me. HIM! He was so weak, terribly weak. Then I was in pain…terrible pain. I hated him so much, so very much~ but then he continued. He stabbed, stabbed, and stabbed! Didn't let me get up, it was over. I lost. The more he did the more sensitive I was~... at some point, I was so sensitive that I could feel him, his emotions. They didn't make sense at all. It was all rage and hate and then all turned into nothing but will to finish me. It was almost as if he was using everything as fuel…just for me."

Her face showed euphoria and arousal, she wanted to look back, to his unconscious face but she couldn't… it would be too much for her heart. She didn't care that the elf girl was slowly getting up or the spirit was collecting mana. She was reborn. Stronger than ever because of his touch. No way they had any chance against him. The curse inside of her… it was totally her now. She was in total control. The power that runs through her body right now… would be more than enough.

"Ah~… truly it's love. It can't be helped. He is just too special in a different way. It's not talent, being blessed, or even a gift. It's nothing but rejection that allowed him to do all that. I can feel a kinship, I can feel admiration even though I cannot compare. It was my rejection that allowed me to feel warm for the first time in my life. Ah~, if only he was awake." The love inside of her increased and increased as he thought about that man. The feelings inside of her were so intense that she could not focus on her enemies.

But she didn't need to anyway.

"Ah….." Emilia gasped as she felt the pain in her tummy.

When Elsa kicked both of them with one kick, indeed it should've been just a blunt attack. But somehow, whether it was her newfound confidence or power… she managed to inflict damage that counted as both blunt and sharp at the same time.

Puck was fine because he had no organs, he took considerable damage but that was the extent of it.

However…

"Da…ddy?" Emilia looked below at her… she was covered in her own blood. Until now she had confidence in her ability. The first time she fought in her life, she didn't even feel anxious.

It was natural for her to be able to beat people just by instinct. Just like when she did so many times back then when she was in the forest.

But now… she was going to….like it's nothing. She didn't even notice she was open. If she was careful, she could cast healing magic. But now she couldn't focus enough to do that. She looked at Puck, pleadingly.

'Save me!'

'Please!'

She pleaded to him hundreds of times in her mind.

However…

"Do you even know what you did?" Emilia, instead of being saved, feels that the contract she had with Puck is COMPLETED.

Not broken. Completed.

"Do you think threatening me is the right choice here? You do realize your daughter is dying, right?" Elsa asks questioningly. Her attention is still divided because of a certain man.

"I…can't save her, it's too late. But I refuse to live in a world without her" Puck states with his now 'scary' voice. He will not attempt to save Emilia. In his mind, it's too late, so he will not try. Why would he? It's too late after all. The cut is too large and deep and the enemy is near.

"I am willing to wait. Look, her other spirits are already trying to save her. I'd like to fight with you two in full strength, I promise to not attack. You are allowed to save your daug—"

"SILENCE! YOU PUNY HUMAN… IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. THE CONTRACT DICTATES THAT SHE IS DYING, THE MAGIC IS CONNECTED TO WORLD'S MEMORIES… HENCE IT IS INEVITABLE THAT MY DAUGHTER WILL DIE, IT IS WRITTEN… THAT IS WHY I WILL DESTROY THIS WORLD."

"P…uck…how….c…ould…you?"

"You wouldn't understand. Just close your eyes. You will go to a happy place with lots of candy."

"..." Emilia didn't say anything. The conflict between herself and her dependence on Puck fought. She wanted to live so that she can make it right, so she can save people in the forest. But Puc…her daddy….tells her to—

"I see… I see now. You are truly the limit of scum this world can produce. Telling your daughter to die and act like she is just a stupid doll… ahahahah~, now I feel no doubt about loving this person, he is the complete opposite of trash like you. The difference is night and day, after all." Elsa couldn't be more disgusted. It could be said that what she was feeling for Subaru, she was feeling the exact opposite for Puck.

She might've been given so much pain by him but Elsa wasn't a pure woman who was targeted out of nowhere. It was obvious he had a reason and Elsa had no excuse. It was fair.

Puck, however…Elsa already concluded that trash like him needed to be erased.

Just as when Puck started to increase his mana input and freeze everywhere.

Boom.

Elsa gave all of her power and skill to increase her speed with a singular step. And the result was surpassing the very sound barrier in one step. It was something she could not do this quickly, she could not reach speeds like this in an instant, but now? But she was reborn.

Puck's eyes could not see anything, but with all that mana and his restraints broken, his body moved on its own.

"Too slow." He asserted.

BOOOOOOOOM.

"Ara~ what did you say? I couldn't quite hear that."

It was her specialty. Moving on walls and all kinds of spaces. But what she did now surpassed all that. Instead of just crashing the wall and being stunned, Elsa used her legs to jump once more, multiplying her speed by using both legs and without canceling the momentum from before.

Her slash was so strong that the part of the loot house walls facing the blade from far away also cut. She literally cut the place itself. It was a feat close to Sword Demon in his prime or perhaps a slice from the Blue Lightning himself.

The cost was the reason she was able to do it. It was impossible to use momentum contrarily without stopping, Elsa knew no physics but she knew that in simpler terms with experience… That's why she gathered all that force on her legs. The same legs that disintegrated as cost.

—But they quickly healed. That's why Elsa did it. It was a feat of determination, she thought. But it was nothing close to what he did.

Even with this, Elsa's lack of self-preservation wasn't quite close to Natsuki Subaru's. Even she knew that.

But it was more than enough against this trash.

"I love…you" He turned into mana… fading away.

Emilia… until that moment really thought if she had anything real with Puck. She questioned Puck. But now with his death, that too faded away.

"Just die"

Icicles appeared from above Emilia. They targeted Elsa.

She quickly slashed all of them. Her slashes get more and more efficient. They held such power that she could probably slash those icicles without making her blade come into contact with them.

"Just DIE!"

A white mist coming from Emilia flies toward Elsa. She slashed it and it covered everywhere, freezing the place and breaking it right after. Elsa thought he was already dead. But surprisingly, somewhat, by unnatural means. He did not freeze by the temperature of the room or the mist just hit him. The magical mist that froze everything and then broke it dispelled when it came into contact with him.

Even unconsciously, he was making the impossible possible. But Elsa knew if he were to be hit by any icicles he would die.

"JUST DIE!"

Dodged.

"JUST DIE!"

Slashed.

"JUST DIE!"

Slashed into pieces.

"JUST DIE!"

Side stepped.

"JUST DIE!"

Slashed.

"JUST DIE!"

Slashed.

"JUST DIE!"

Slashed.

"JUST DIE!"

"JUST DIE!"

"JUST DIE!"

"JUST DIE!"

Elsa wasn't foreign to fighting while protecting someone. It was hard to do it without the enemy learning. But soon after that mist attack, Elsa made her intentions of protecting that person obvious. However, Emilia did not catch on to that. So she didn't hide it anymore. It made it easier to fight when she didn't need to hide her weakness of protecting him. It would not be used by Emilia. She wasn't thinking at all.

With Emilia things were different… she was getting tired far quicker. It was… it was impossible. She did far more… far more than this. She froze an entire forest! She…killed her so many times. Why did her gate feel like breaking apart? Why couldn't her body take it anymore?! Why wasn't this world frozen and dead already like her daddy wanted it?!

Little Emilia did know that her old enemy was kind and calculative enough to make her think that she was actually hitting her at all. The attacks never hit her, she never fought with her after all, she knew she would not break her promise. It was nothing but ridicule that she tried to talk with Emilia.

EMILIA NEVER STRAINED HER GATE BECAUSE SHE NEVER CAST ANY SPELLS TO BEGIN WITH.

THE ONLY THING EMILIA DID WAS FREEZE THE WHOLE FOREST.

Emilia's current subconscious confidence was coming from the fact that she absolutely dominated that monster in the past. But that was just what she perceived. No spells ever hit Pandora nor was she affected by the weather. Pandora did not even allow her to self-destruct. Not out of kindness but simply because that was her vision she had aimed that no one in that forest would die that day, that was the reason why she brought the Sin Archbishop of Greed and the Black Serpent.

Emilia's gate also healed in her 100-year-long slumber. But her new enemy did not care about her well-being for any reason or was kind enough to take her attacks for the sake of giving some closure. So that her mind will accept that as reality instead of the fact that all she did was scream and her enemy was way beyond her comprehension to be reached by her, let alone beaten.

"Uh…uhuh…..uhu…" She was breathless. Her body took in so much mana from the air and strengthened itself, that was the sole reason why she was alive with her gaping wound.

However… that would not be too long.

She remembered Puck. She remembers him. He was her kind Daddy who was always with her. That was the only truth she ever needed. She should've just stayed with Puck in the forest and done whatever he had said all the time.

She was nothing but a bad girl.

A white blast froze the entire area.

"Ah… that was so close~ but I am sure it was the last." Elsa was in a big conundrum. She knew she had to escape from that big obvious blast girl was charging while muttering that beast's name. However, she could not escape with him. She decided that she would feel his warmth last time before both of them finished by that cold made by that disgusting child.

However, in that quick moment, she saw her cape.

It was a chance to survive and Elsa took it instantly and held it towards the half-demon while covering both of them against her incoming magic.

The blast was big and strong as she thought, with her weakness against magic there was no way she would survive that. However, with the magic negating cape with one use only made by that clown, they survived.

Her reward for thinking of such an escape was having an excuse to snuggle with her love interest~

'After all, I had to make sure I was covering all of him~'

Elsa shakes that kind of thought aside. She wasn't the type that would do anyone that while they were sleeping or even awake. But her body had no morals whatsoever so she did think even though it was for a moment.

"I know what I can distract myself with." She looked at the big icicle… the girl was resting inside. It seemed very durable and sturdy. If left alone, she could probably stay there for a long long very long time. However—

Slash. Slash. Slash.

Slash. Slash. Slash.

Slash. Slash. Slash.

It wasn't enough.

Emilia slowly opened her eyes…..she was terrified.

"Did you really think you could just escape from everything by freezing yourself?"

"J..ust…die"

"You really did give up on thinking, huh? Then…."

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!" With a very natural and quick movement of her blade, her right arm dropped to the ground.

"PUCK! PUCK! SAVE ME! I'LL WEAR WHATEVER YOU WANT PLE–"

"Disgusting…" Elsa put her feet on Emilia's right upper leg. Threatening to cut that one too.

"Puck…. I'LL RETURN TO THE FOREST PLEAS—-aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" Another flash and her right leg was severed cleanly from the start just like her right arm. Elsa made sure she was feeling the pain. Her only regret was that she didn't know how to do this when it comes to a spirit.

Though she had no doubt mother would know a way. She, thankfully, wasn't mother.

"Well… I guess this is who you truly are…a doll."

"..."

"Goodbye, half-demon-san. Not that I care about your looks."

As Elsa raises her blade to finish Emilia once and for all—

She heard her murmur slowly.

"Wh..y?"

There was no way to know what she was asking nor Elsa could expect her to explain thoroughly, but for some reason… She felt like she knew what she was trying to ask.

—Why was the one person who I depended on, not real?

That was the most likely true self of the half-elf called Emilia.

So Elsa, honoring that, answered.

"That was who he was. Spirits do not change their nature. Ever since he existed, this was all there is. He is just like Pooka, created by someone and given a purpose—no, a mission."

"..."

"His mission was to protect you. It was for you to decide if the feelings coming from that are real or not. I shall allow you to think about that I guess, you might actually understand something for once in your life. Though there is also the fact that now you are not as tasteless as before, so I don't feel like killing you. Not to mention I am in a good mood~, this is the first time I've felt like sparing someone… this is truly a rebirth for me~. The Dark Lord's perhaps uhuhuhhu~" Elsa walked away and disappeared in the dark of night while humming happily.

Emilia… Emilia was alone.

The bleeding from two lost limbs was closed and her body still had so much mana but…

She lost everything with simple revelations.

She couldn't even hate or love Puck. She simply didn't feel anything about that person, no, that thing anymore.

With a newfound realization of the fact that the people who protect you might be selfish and bad after all, she could see all the glaring wrongs about her mot—aunt Fortuna too, despite just remembering her.

She lost two parents today and now she is going to die.

To begin with… the people she froze, she perhaps saved them … but what kind of people were they? Were they like…Puck and Fortuna too? They acted like them.

People attacked the forest. People in the forest. She simply lost any way to differentiate between them. All of them were the same.

'Everyone is just reaaaaaaaaaaaaaly selfish….. I wanna be like that too, but without hurting anyone, of course, I don't want to be like them. I don't even know what I want though, it's very sad.'

—I don't know what I want. It doesn't matter actually… since no matter what it is, I won't be able to have it, I am dying after all.

I am not going to your happy place with candies you schmuck! I'd rather go where everyone goes.

I am scared…

Someone…

I don't want to hate myself…

"How the fuck is that even possible?"


You didn't think the loop would continue, didn't you? Hah! That's what happens when you write original shit.

Now the intention was… first show Emilia with all layers and make you feel hate her and rage against her and then… Emilia at her core would show up.

Did I make you feel that angst? Suffering and sadness? I hope I did.

It's my view that sad stuff with angst should be like this and not cuck/suffering porn.

Now I will answer some stuff. First, in here, the one who added the contract was Puck so while he did add that 'If Emilia dies I will go brrrr' with Echidna in mind, it was he who did that with his contract with Emilia without her knowing. It was Emilia who was too submissive which allowed that to happen, if not for her obedient nature he couldn't just add a shitty thing like that.

Puck basically gives up instantly… I thought it was Puck-like since y'now… he is pretty calm when Emilia dies and shit. There is no rage/suffering of the kind. He just destroys the 'world' but of course not since his reach doesn't reach to the whole world and…he isn't strong enough to do that too. So it's weird that he thinks he can pull that off.

The reason Elsa protects Subaru is that her love for him increased even more in this loop so much that she is both a simp and a fan. I added that part where Elsa is aroused but still controls herself because even in canon it's evident she has her rules and things she follows. Her dark journey started when she was about to be raped. You wouldn't think she would kidnap Subaru and do that stuff…right? RIGHT?

Elsa leaves quickly because she has reasons and then she did predict Reinhard was about to come after all that shit with Puck. It was another action that she did for Subaru. If it's Reinhard he will protect Subaru after all.

About Pandora, none of what I write was headcanon when it come to how Pandora brought Snake and Regulus because she literally says that to Regulus. He thinks it's a madwoman speech. However, I don't think it's like that at all. Since Regulus also said she could do that alone. Which she answers with basically 'yes, but I don't want no harm to come that's why you and snake here' which leads me to believe that she can change the actions of others better than actions made by herself.

Whole trial thing is really fish with how it's so easy for Pandora to keep her 'word' about not hurting anyone if she can just undo snake and Regulus's actions. If snake never killed anyone that means every elf frozen without poison.

There is also things I think that are outright plot hole like how Echidna and narration state Regulus VS Guese is a fucking stalemate which is insane. I rather believe Pandora literally has a finger on that too but plot hole it is, most likely.

About Emilia's feat with her gate and magic even though she did nothing with both of them ever… I made it so that she actually harmed her gate like crazy but 100 years was a good fix for her. I think it's fair to think like that instead of just "Rules bend for Emilia" like in canon. Heck, even Roswaal wasn't that instinctual in magic like her. And while she has more mana… Roswaal's talent is insane.

Also, I think I did a great job with Emilia at the end… I hope it would make you feel too… this was more or less Emilia's chapter.

It's 4 AM. I am out!