Chapter 2 My saviour:
I feel better, we are fed, and I have a fresh diaper around my bum, because Atem changed me before dinner. When we all sit down in the nursery again, I cuddle myself against Atem and continue. "Now where was I? Oh, I know."
Flashback 1:
By the time Sun was five she started to realise I was a slave in my own home, and she made sure I would suffer only more, there was one time, I think it was the first time I realised it ... she was just five and I was doing my homework in the living room and already noticed how she was fiddling but didn't realise right away what for, until my horror I saw the girl suddenly stood and peed in her pants, then she ran to mom. "Mommy! Yugi was a meanie! He peed over me while saying he didn't want to go to the toilet!" she yelled and cried fake tears.
"She lies mother, she just peed over herself and tried to blame me!" I denied and wanted to return to my homework, but Vivian slapped the book close and with flaring nostrils she says. "Three days no food, You, clean the mess you made over there and then go to your room, when you return from school you go directly to your room!" That was my punishment.
Sun tried all kind of things to punish me and peeing herself and blame me for it became a usual thing to do for her. Sometimes I even heard Vivian say what the little girl needed to do to get me punished. Because school was my outlet, and I couldn't do my homework when she did something again, I started to do my homework after school in class and when I was sent home by the last teacher in the building, in my room when it was bedtime.
I was happy I could go to high school at age twelve while my age mates needed two more years in middle school, and because my schoolwork became my outlet and I was a top student always working hard to achieve my goals, but then again, I didn't have any friends to hold me back.
Flashback 1 ends:
"A cute little nerd if I may say, nice going Atem." Heba teases. "But how no friends to hold you back Yugi?" he then asks me.
"It became an obsession for Vivian and Duke to move out every two to three years, and were Sun easily made new friends and forgot her old friends with basically a snap of her fingers, I realised if I had friends, I needed to say goodbye to them eventually, and with the fact I was a bed wetter I was afraid they would bully me. Also, I still missed Atem badly. I realised if I continued my life like I did now I could go as soon as I graduated high school, find a place of my own and then start to work at myself.
But for that I needed money, and that was a luxury I only had at the Sennen's and the first two years when daddy was still alive.
Vivian and Duke got child support for two children, but they all spent it to Sun giving her pretty dresses, expensive toys, you name it, she wanted it she got it. But as soon as I asked for that one cool T-shirt with the Kuribo on it, Vivian said it was too expensive and if I wanted it, I needed to find myself a job. And she would drag me to a second-hand store to buy me the cheapest clothes there. In a way I was glad when I entered high-school.
Flashback 2:
Because I was going to high school now, I was required to wear a school uniform, the first high school I attended to, the uniforms were red. The second and last high school I attended they had a soft purple colour. And because the school provided me my uniforms, I didn't get any clothes from mom anymore, the only thing she bought me now were boxers, socks a few PJ's that were way too big for me, and one set of clothes for when we would have a family day.
I was still sleeping in my old toddler bed because Vivian didn't want to buy me a single bed. Every night I was laying in my bed in my too big PJ all cramped up completely because the bed simply was too small for me.
The only thing she bought me new every two years was a matrass with a plastic cover because at some point the plastic was rot from the urine and couldn't protect the matrass anymore, and it didn't matter how many times I cleaned my room with the cleaning supplies I was provided, it didn't matter, my room always stunk to urine, it had affected the wood from the bed to seriously.
I was jealous of Sun, she always got what she wanted and I nothing. When we went out on a family-day together the only times they allowed me to come along simply for the picture-perfect idea, she was always the first who called dips, if we went to the movie she always was the one choosing and it always was a stupid girly movie, she decided to which theme park we would go and in which rides we went, if I wanted to go somewhere I always got no as an answer.
Because of her I really started to hate, and I cannot explain where it is coming from but I also started to fear girls in general, it even came to the point, when a girl came in my vision for a simple friendly talk, I ran away screaming, almost peeing and pooping my pants in fear, afraid they would be like Sun, spoiled rotten to the core brats who were nothing but trouble.
Woman much older than me were okay but within limits, girls of my age or younger, I hated them to the core and was absolutely terrified of them, the idea of having to share the bed with a girl one day even sickened me.
It happened at my first High school, the girls-uniforms were made from dresses, and they barely covered the bum from the girls. One of the boys always liked to tease the girls, always trying to get his hands in their panties, one day he took a stick inside with him, and he lifted the skirt from one that was known the most popular girl in school.
She had no panties on and the underside of her... uh... you know... uh her hairy box, it came in my full vision, my stomach turned and I vomited in class before I even had the chance to run to the bathroom, I was sent to the school nurse, but because I had no fever the school nurse said it was probably something I ate, she send me back to class and I got detention because I didn't tell what really was wrong with me. But how can you explain that I saw the lower female part by the hand of a classmate, and it sickened me? I didn't know so I kept my mouth shut.
It made me swear to never start dating a girl, I soon realised I am gay but didn't know if was because of Sun like it was an act of rebellion like I have heard more than once, or if it was something I always knew but never realised before. And because of that I didn't want to admit it just yet.
Flashback 2 ends:
"Yikes, you didn't tell me that baby-boy."
"Sorry, but I was afraid of losing you again, even till the fact you would push me away."
"Never, I love you and no matter what I always love you. Please continue baby-boy."
Flashback 3:
Whenever we moved out the last thing placed in the car, and the first item that came out the car was that ugly mailbox, Sun had made it her mission to every time we would move out place a sticker on it, it made look that ugly thing a little bit better, but not much. Vivian and Sun were always crying when Duke took the thing out the ground and looking with pride to how Duke pinned the stupid thing in the ground again and making sure the names were into a good full view, I was already taking out my stuff into my new room, I refused to look to that stupid thing when it was hammered into the ground. I never got mail, so I didn't care.
I didn't even bother to claim a bigger room anymore because I knew they would send me out to the smallest room. The first thing I placed in my room was my nightstand, then my box with my stuff, and lastly my bed, I always took my bed apart alone and I always puzzled it together alone, since I didn't have much stuff of my own, I was the first one ready with packing and unpacking.
Because of the constant moving, I was given one huge plastic box for my important things and things I needed to use daily in it so when I putted my bed together, I emptied that one single box and turned it around so I could use it as a desk and I could do my homework, I believe my toys were left behind the second or third time we moved because then they were still in the moving boxes. I never bothered though the only thing I kept from my childhood was the childish nightlight so I could do my homework in my room at night.
If only I did think by then to write a note to the new residents of the house to contact the Sennen family. But by that time Vivian had fed me the lies the Sennen's hated me and wanted nothing to do with me and because of me and them hating me they moved out. My heart however told me they still loved me, but in a way, I think I had given up already.
It was when Vivian, Sun and I went to a phone store on my fourteenth birthday, according to Vivian there was added a new school rule for every high school child that needed to go to school alone because parents were working. A cell phone WITH subscription was needed to attend school. I needed to go along because they needed an autograph from both a parent and the child who got the subscription.
I think she wanted me out the house for a period of time otherwise she defiantly would pull me off school and lock me inside making me a real slave.
Vivian bought me my subscription and an expensive phone however the new phone went to Sun, and I got her old model, an ugly pink thing I painted black as soon as we went to the convenient store, and I shoplifted a black marker.
I still feel ashamed over it, and it was the only time I did it, but after that I decided it would be safer if I would steal some money from Sun when I needed a new pencil or notebook for school.
It was then I followed Vivian and Sun to the isle for woman, Sun just had her first period, and they needed those pads for her, that's when I saw them for the first time, I couldn't possibly think they were even in adult's sizes.
The first thing I did was trying to call Atem's house number I had memorised it within my heart, but the number didn't exist anymore. I tried to locate a cell phone number on Atem or his parent's name, but those were according to the telephone provider secret, I was only allowed to get them if one of them gave me the number themselves.
Sigh, I never wanted to believe it, but I feared they really didn't want to see me anymore, I truly start to believe what mom told me, Atem hated me and mama and papa Sennen thought I was a brat, it made my habits for peeing only worsen more, and because I didn't get pocket money, and could not steal to often money from Sun, I couldn't buy those diapers I saw a few days back for myself so at least I get some decent sleep without changing the bed every night, I'm ashamed over the fact I wanted actually start wearing them. I fell at lost...
I felt so lost I didn't want to live anymore but was a coward to make an end to it. I have heard if you are abused the child in question at some point manages to gather their strength and stand up to the one abusing them. But I couldn't because I was weak, if you have only one single meal a day then you simply can't find the strength to fight back.
By that time Sun also discovered the fun of sleepovers and almost every weekend she had one, the nights she was out were heaven to me no giggling and screaming girls that were pestering me at my bedroom door, when they were at our place however, I locket myself in my room and tried my best to ignore those giggling and loud brats and cocooned myself into the safety of my blankets, glad to have a lock on my door otherwise they would probably come inside and they would see that I was still sleeping in a toddlers bed and smell the permanent urine stank that hung in my bed no matter how many times I had my window open for fresh air and cleaned the bed every night with a refreshing sent.
I wanted friends badly, but I forced myself to keep focusing on my schoolwork, friends would come later, if I was out of house maybe to college I don't know, I needed to hold on for a few more years.
Flashback 3 end:
"They never tried to figure out why you became a bed-wetter, never found it weird you didn't have friends, and forced you to sleep in a toddler bed that stunk badly to urine, why didn't you call child protection?" Heba asks.
"I tried more than once since I had my own phone, but by the time they had time to look at my case we were moved out again. As soon as we moved into a new house, I tried contacting them, they simply told me we will visit as soon as we have a counsellor free for you. I called multiple times a year but because I didn't have the support from an adult, a teacher, or friends, and because my parents didn't use their hands when I got punishment, they thought I was simply seeking attention.
It went like this until I would be 15 half. That was the time I got a light in my life again all did I hope it went a little bit different.
I never got a birthday card, and my birthdays were always forgotten by them, although real strange and a mystery I still have not figured, but I always found new drawing supplies on my birthday hidden under my bed and I still don't know from who.
I had forgotten one time Sun's birthday and all hell broke free. They kept me home for a week from school and I needed to work very hard to gain up on that schoolwork I had missed. since then, I always made sure I made her a birthday card presented with the theme she was having her party on this year, I always was the perfect host until 9pm, that was my bedtime but for me it was relaxing or doing my homework.
Because I was in my last years of high-school they promised me to move out once I was 17, so I could focus. I found that generous of them when they told me. Although I never told them I was in my senior and last year already and secretly was trying to figure out how I could get a bank account and a job.
I worked hard on my schooling and did everyday my shores at home and try to make them proud for the first time since years, but with all the pressure I already had from home, it gave me a problem more to add to my list."
Flashback 4:
Only six months before I will become 16, I'm walking home feeling very uncomfortable because the school bullies blocked the toilets all day long forcing money if you wanted to go, if you didn't pay or weren't popular you needed to suck it up and keep walking.
I saw how one kid tried to go inside and he was beaten up until he literally peed his pants, because I didn't have any money and already was a target for bullying, I sucked it up and went home with a full bladder. Till some point I regret I didn't go in a bush next to the school, but on the other hand I'm now happy I didn't.
Between my walks home I press my hands against my manhood, and I cross my legs in the hope it would release some of the pressure, I was scolding myself when I took the small break. "Idiot, why did I drink so much water? Stupid PE, stupid Ushido, they are also at fault if it goes wrong!" when the pressure took off, I continued only to stop after five steps and repeat the previous action. My need to go is high, really high.
I felt the people looking at me, wondering if I was okay but they never came towards me to ask if I was okay. It made me ashamed really bad, but I kept going.
I'm not the kind of boy who just jumps in an ally and do my business there like most men do, if anything I find it smelly in there and it makes me want to vomit, but with my bladder pressing merciless in my stomach until it becomes painful, and realising I need to go three more blocks until I'm home I won't make it on time for sure, not at this pace, so I decide against my own rule and dive in the first ally I see.
Desperately I try to open my pants, but the zipper is stuck, and till my horror my bladder decides I waited long enough and can't hold it anymore… I feel how my bladder empty's, I feel my pants getting wet with warm urine, and see how my soft purple school uniform pants gets a dark wet spot in the front down to the legs, I keep trying to loosen the zipper and prevent worse. "No, no, no, no, please stop!" I beg, but realise it's to no avail, for the very first time since I was potty trained, I actually peed my pants in the open.
My bladder is already becoming weak because I am most of the times late at home simply because Sun is hogging the bathroom that we both need to share only to pester me and to give me trouble, but to do it in the open? Walking home while everybody can see me with my wet pants?
And knowing Sun is home because she faked to be sick this morning, when she sees me walking in like this, she sure as hell will tell mother and Duke, probably also peeing her own pants and telling I did it when I crawled in her lap again! I only just am allowed to eat again because two weeks ago she told them I tried to rape her! I wished the school uniforms were black, then I could easily walk in without her seeing me wet, change and wash my clothes without them knowing.
I have nowhere to go. I want to run away from home badly, especially now, but were to? Sinking down I press my face against my knees smelling my own urine, and softly start to cry... because I'm completely at lost.
Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder, I look up and my eyes meet familiar stern, but worried and tired crimson surrounded with dark rings under the eyes as if they didn't sleep properly for a very long time, and before I can even say something, I'm being crushed in a hug. "Ra Yugi, where have you been?" the male sobs in my ear. I leave my tension behind for a little while and hug the male back who I missed for those 10 and a half long years, both not able to say a word, both crying because we are finally together again.
When we both are calmed down, I take a good look at him, his facial contours are sharper than I remembered, and when he hugged me I felt he has formed some serious muscles over the years.
While I'm observing him, Atem takes a good look at me. "Shit Yugi, you look like a ghost, do you eat properly?" he asks while placing his warm hands against my cheeks and rubbing the tears away with his soft thumb in a gentle way.
I can't help it, suddenly I remembered what Vivian told me I tense up again and slap his hands away and I snap at him. "Why do you even care, you hate me, your parents think I'm a bad influence so don't act coy with me and leave me in my misery!" In an instant I see Atem turning confused, hurt, and mad at the same time.
Crossing his arms in front of his chest. "What the hell Yugi? How can you say that? I never hated you, and mom and dad loved you! I tried to find you! When we came over to celebrate your birthday, we were greeted with an completely empty house, if anything you are to blame for not telling me you were moving out and disappearing with no way of contacting you! All those fucking years I slept terrible wondering what had happened that you suddenly were away from me while we were the best of friends!" Atem snaps back. Those words hurt; they really did. But he is right, I know only Vivian's side of the story, and I believed her. Guilt pours over me.
Tearing up again I start to sob "I-I-I wanted to, I d-d-did I r-r-really did want to t-t-tell you we would m-m-move out, but they t-t-told me on my birthday, it was p-p-packing at once. When I tried sneaking away to putt the quick note I-I-I wrote you in your mailbox, they called m-m-me back telling there was no time.
When we sat in the car, they t-t-told me you hated me and y-y-your parents said I-I-I was a bad influence on you so w-w-was no longer welcome, t-t-that's the reason why we moved out." I say while stuttering out the words and start to shiver violently, it's still winter, freezing cold and the urine which was warm when I peed is turning really cold against my legs, I need to start moving before I freeze to death.
Atem's eyes soften, he loosens the tense stands and he must have seen me shivering because he takes of his jacket and lays it on my shoulders "Here." Atem says softly. "Why are you hiding here Yugi? You are obviously cold; are you being followed by bullies?" He ads also offering me a tissue to clean my nose and then starts rubbing my arms to warm me up.
I nuzzle my nose in his jacket taking in his sent, it was heavenly, and a sent I always missed. I Force myself to calm down and then speak up. "Sigh... the s-s-school bully's, t-t-they blocked the t-t-toilets all day and I-I-I needed to pee badly, I k-k-knew I couldn't h-h-hold it much l-l-longer so a-a-against all odds I r-r-ran into this ally, b-b-but the z-z-zipper got stuck." I whisper, Atem is looking to my groin, and he sees the wet spot. "If I go h-h-home like this Sun w-w-will tell on me and I get a-a-again no food." I tell in all honesty with clattering teeth from being cold and try not to see the face from Atem, because I know that's it, he is going to dump me, I'm sure of it.
Instead, he lays his hand against my cheek and forces me to look up, he doesn't look discussed but mad, only I realise he is not mad at me, but at my parents. "They denied you of food as punishment? Whoa, they really have hit the bottom of the pit this time! Come on little one, I live only a street away, I can wash your clothes, you can take a shower to clean and most of all warm-up, and I give you a proper meal. And if they ever deny you off food, I want you to come to me, I will feed you." Atem says first angry but softening his voice to a gentle tone when he offers me his help, reaching out his hand and when I take it, he pulls me up, he takes his jacket off my shoulders and binds it around the waist, so the wet spot is hidden, laying his arm around my shoulder giving me some of his warmth until we are at his apartment.
In the apartment I call my parents to tell them I have a school project I need to work on and will probably return home late, after lying to Vivian saying my project partner is a girl, she allowed me to stay behind. Atem points me the bathroom and helps me with my still stuck zipper, I feel embarrassed for him opening my peed and still wet but really cold pants, but he doesn't seem to mind, as promised he washes my clothes and lends me a sweatpants and clean boxer for as long as my clothes aren't dry yet.
He helps me with my homework while also doing his own homework, and then cooks a nice dinner, and after we together have a fun evening of playing games, when my clothes are clean and dry, he drives me home stopping a few houses away so they can't see him and telling me once again I'm always welcome to visit him when they drive me against the wall. He waits until I'm safe inside before he goes home himself.
Flashback 4 ends:
"So, you assumed he played coy with you, and you snapped?" Malika says with a stern voice.
"Don't rub it in please, I still feel ashamed of that."
"Malika please remember they brainwashed Yugi, I know it always takes two to tango, but in this case, Yugi is the victim." Diya says.
"I wonder who gifted you the drawing supplies and why? And where they not for Sun?" Heba muses.
"Next to games and puzzles I love to draw, Sun on the other hand didn't like activities that needed creativity. So, it was pretty obvious they were for me, and I made thankfully use of it." I say and see Atem walking to my cleaning bag. He takes a book I have drawn in the last couple of months and shows it to them.
"You really have talent Yugi." Heba exclaims while looking at the drawings. "Can you teach me?"
I nod yes. "But not now Heba, please Yugi continue." Yami says.
"Atem and I left off like nothing had ever separated us, if anything I have a feeling, we became stronger friends than before, we were happy we had each other again.
With him finding me again I noticed Atem started to look better, his tired eyes look more alert and the dark circles under his eyes are disappearing. He told me that when he found me a rest came over him, so he slept a whole lot better now.
Atem started to focus on my eating habits, because when I was punished, I only got the free but absolutely gross school surprises and because I didn't get any pocket money to buy me tasty food, I had simply taught myself to vacuum the food inside without tasting what I was eating, Atem saw that and taught me to eat like a person again to chew and taste the food instead of inhaling the food. I explained to him I vacuumed the food because the school surprises always were gross and if I tried tasting it, I would vomit it out again, and when I was allowed to eat at home, Vivian always forced me to eat my plate empty before they were finished or she would take it away…. Not that I was given much.
He forced me to sit up straight again and told me whenever I was eating like a pig, I was a pig and reminding me there was enough food to feed a whole family of four. When I started to taste and eat slower, I also started to enjoy meals again and he made me promise to come by in every morning before school because he had a bento ready for me, so I got a proper meal at school.
He also created a diet for me because for a boy that needed to weigh around 50 kilos with my height give or take, I was at least 30 kilo to light. So, he needed to let me gain weight at a slow pace. And when the first month was over, I noticed I already needed to go to the school nurse because the uniform was too slim for me.
During dinner I told him about school and my secrets, but there is one thing I didn't tell Atem yet, he saw my wet pants a few times if the bullies were at it again, but I didn't tell him how weak my bladder really had become at night, and only a month after we found each other however he would find out..."
Flashback 5:
I had finished my chores in house and wanted to go to my room to relax. I had allot of chores and I needed to complete for them if I wanted to get a decent meal.
Vivian and Duke had given Sun only one simple rule, never enter the brat's room without his permission, they believed privacy was needed to be given, even if I was a so-called brat and didn't deserve it. And that stupid little female brat broke that one simple rule.
She was in my room and had turned the lock, her room also was locked and the only way to enter our shared bathroom was by either her or my room. So of course, I started banging the door shouting to Sun she needed to get the hell out of my room, but like always she never listened to me. I didn't have much in there, only my school supplies, the plastic box I used as desk and as closet for my school uniforms, fresh bedding, and my nightstand with my childhood nightlight on it and in the draw that came with the nightstand a few boxers, socks and two PJ's, so what the hell was she looking there? After a while banging, I freeze suddenly, Vivian stands behind me and asking me in a kill voice. "Why the hell are you yelling?!"
"Sun broke the rule mother, she is in my room without my permission!" I say angry.
"Sun sweetie come out this is the brat's room not yours." Vivian only shouts through the door.
It opens and Sun instantly starts to defend herself with her sweet sickening I did nothing voice she used a thousand of times already and with an evil glint in her eyes. "But mommy, I didn't want for Yugi to be punished again!" She says with that one creepy smile that always gets me into trouble. She opens the door and I see my room is a wreck, all the bedding and my clothes, my school supplies scattered over the floor. I'm pissed, but I patiently await for Vivian to deny her of food.
"Aww Sun that's real sweet of you baby, but it's brat's room and you know the rules, not to enter his room, that means no cookie for you this evening young lady, now off you go." She says sweetly to Sun. "And you clean up this mess, this will earn you two weeks!" …. Wait? …What? She gives her only no cookie and me two weeks no food for something that little brat did? And I needed to clean it myself? I always kept my room nice and clean so I could easily find my stuff whenever I needed it.
Like a spiral I clean the mess in my room luckily because I don't have much I'm ready in ten minutes, but my head is overloading with emotions, I need to get out, I need to take my leave before it gets out of hand and I would do something I will regret later, so I grab my school bag throw in all my school supply's, keys and phone walking out shouting "Yami my girl classmate called that she had time to work on the project. I don't know when I'm back!" slamming the door shut not waiting for them to call me back.
Flashback 5 ends:
We see how Heba gently is pushed of his lap and then, " WHY?" Yami asks dropping dramatically on his knees and acting fake hurt because I called him a girl.
"It was the only name I could come up with that moment, and because it's a common name in Japan I don't think Ra didn't mind much. Vivian didn't anyhow. Sorry Yami." I explain "Now where was I? Oh yes, I remember. And I continue while Heba climbs back in Yami's lap.
Flashback 6:
I walked towards Atem's place, he had given me his spare key the second day I stood at his door again with a wet pants and tears in my eyes because of the school bullies, he told me if I needed to cool down and he wasn't there because his cousin needed him longer for a project or he was still at school, I could just go inside.
So, using my key I open the door, with a slam I throw it shut and a shocked Atem comes running in the hallway with a bat ready to punch the burglar his brains in, but when he sees me he opens his arms the bat falling with a clang to the ground and I ran in them telling what that stupid devil brat of a sister had done this time.
Atem gives me comfort and allows me to spill my guts even though I'm very incoherent, and when I'm calmed down enough, he says. "I think you need a little change of scenery to get your mind off, why don't you stay the night? I have a spare bed ready for you if you aren't comfortable to sleep in the same bed next to me like we used to do when we were still little kids."
Forgetting I'm a bed wetter for the moment, I nod, he is right, maybe I feel better if I stay tonight and with a bit of luck, the bed stays dry. And happy I don't have to sleep in that cramped toddler bed I sleep in for the past 13 years.
We enjoy the evening together talking about regular things, I asked him if I could leave my homework behind and do it at his place, he saw that Sun had thrown my books and notes through the room and still needed to be sort out properly, he said it was okay since I was doing my homework at his already. When I got tired, he allows me to use his shower, he borrows me a sweatpants and clean boxer for the night, and when he returns form his shower I'm already fast asleep.
I wake up realising I realised I did it again, but I also realise something is wrong, the room and the bed isn't familiar. "Did they really move me when I was asleep?" I mutter softly while getting up to change the bed when I hear something taking a deep sigh, shocked because I didn't share a room for a very long time, I turn around and see Atem in the other bed and the events from the previous evening return to me like a cold freezing shower. I'm at Atem's, and I wet his spare bed!
Carefully not to make a sound I pull the blankets off the bed and see till my horror the mattress doesn't have that protection cover like mine does, a big wet spot is soaked into the matrass. My silent tears become soft sobs and with the wet bedding I softly walk to the bathroom still sobbing because I realised, I just ruined the only real friendship I had.
I can't figure out how the washing machine works, so I drop the blankets, sweatpants, and boxer, in the bathtub in warm water with a bit shampoo in the hope he sees I tried cleaning it. I re-dress myself, write a note with how sorry I am for messing his bed and I totally understand he doesn't want to see me anymore; I try to creep out of the room before Atem will wake up and sees what I did to thank him and throws me out.
I freeze however when a gentle and above all worried voice asks me. "Is this one of the reasons why they deny you of food? Does it happen often?" I feel how arms closing around me and pulling me in a hug, I feel Atem's stomach and the soft bulge between his legs pressing against my lower back, I nod indicating he guessed it. "Because you are a bed-wetter? Did they ever tried to find out why you wet the bed?" he whispers in my ear giving me the feeling I'm not to blame.
"N-no, they think I do it for bad attention." I say softly and hoped he lets me go, but the arms stay around my stomach, and he presses himself even more against me. My already tense muscles only tense more.
"Yugi, I don't give a damn why you do it, I'm your friend and don't want to lose you again, I just got you back." He says and I feel him giving me soft and gentle kisses against my neck, the shivers running down my spine reaching my groin that starts to react, what is happening? Am I starting to believe I truly am gay and not because of a rebellious act? Is Atem also gay, or bi? I wonder myself, but when I feel his soft manhood isn't that soft anymore and is poking my back, I realise he is... And he wants me?
"I loved you from the moment your mother and father brought you home the first time, and when you suddenly left, they had in the hospital probably the youngest patient with a cutting depression, namely me. " He says showing me a few deep but healed cuts on his right arm I didn't notice before. "I didn't want to leave you. Not without a proper goodbye so when Uncle Kaiba died and Seto took over the company two years ago he made all schools tell the student's parents the kids needed a phone with a subscription as new school policy.
I was hoping your parents were still in Japan. Seto discovered your parents indeed bought an expensive phone with a subscription on your name, and the subscription on Sun's name was renewed, so against the law, he provided me with your number, but I was a coward, I was afraid to call you, afraid you were mad at me for some reason and that's why you left."
"But I never got the new phone, I got the phone Sun was given a year earlier, ugly pink thing." I say with a mutter. "And when I tried to get your number, they told me they could not give it to me because you had secret numbers, only you was allowed to give it to me yourself."
"That explains why you painted your phone black, but anyway my parents figured last year where you lived, they wanted to see you but when they visited your parents told them you were at school, they called me on the way home when I suddenly heard my mom scream in horror and a crash followed that it was nothing but silence. I tried calling them but didn't get an answer when suddenly someone picket up the phone from my mom, it was a police officer, he told me they were in a car accident a drunk driver drove through the red light and hit them frontal while they had green, there was only one survivor.
When I heard my parents had that car accident, I promised myself I would not start cutting again, but would try and find you, I went to the address I found in my dad's phone a few days after I returned from Egypt where the funeral was, only to discover you left again. I called Seto, and he started to locate your number again. But because you never used it, he had trouble finding you."
"How was he able to locate my phone if the number wasn't the same with the phone, they bought with it?" I ask confused. Atem takes my hand and walks me to the desk where both our phones are charging, he takes my phone and lifts the lit from the battery. He takes out the sim-card and shows it to me, it has a sticker with KC on it. Then he takes his phone and does the same, his sim-card also has KC mark on it.
"The sim-cards with a subscription are a product from Kaiba Corporation, when a person is reported missing and they find out that person has a phone, any phone with subscription, the police will turn to my cousin to locate it. You need to always keep this a secret; the locater is hidden in this KC mark. Every device he creates has this little bastard hidden somewhere." He says with a sheepish grin.
"That explains, but why me? I'm just a boy with a filthy habit, there are enough boys and girls who don't pee their pants and the bed you can sleep with and don't have a past like mine." I say and feel Atem wants to close me in a hug again, I turn so I can face him during the hug while his arms wrap around me. I wrap my arms around him and lay my cheek against his chest and listen to his heartbeat
I heard his voice rumble in his chest when he speaks up. "But I want you Yugi, I always wanted you. And yes, you have a filthy habit that probably isn't your fault little one. I know you were fully capable of holding your bladder when you moved remember? I helped my mom potty train you. And I know there is always a reason behind its why. If it is because you like the bad attention what I hardly believe in your case, or something happened which gave you a trauma, what I believe sooner is the reason why you do it." He says and presses a gentle kiss on my front head. "Please tell me?"
I pounder for a bit but then. "Sigh... it happened shortly after we moved the first time, as you probably remember there were tensions already because since before Sun was born, mother never really paid attention to me, and when Sun was born, I never got the chance knowing her. I never was allowed to help her with anything.
After we moved, I became a bed wetter, mother always told me I did it on purpose and wanted bad attention, I destroyed my clothes and bedding because I didn't know how to do laundry myself, but If I didn't do it, I would have stinky and dirty clothes because she didn't want to do it anymore. Duke explained me one day how to wash my clothes, and I believe he did it only because mother and Sun where out.
I hoped the wetting stopped when I would grow older, but Sun started to bully me, running to the bathroom when I was on my way because my bladder became a time-bomb, she did hog it until I peed my pants. When we where in the living looking a movie, she also peed her own pants in front of me and blaming me for it, and telling mother I peed over her, and she tried more things only to get me punished.
A few weeks before we found each other she forced me to pee my pants again and she also peed herself and told mother I pulled her in my lap and tried to lift her skirt and feel her... Well, uh, you know, she said she didn't allow me in her panty and because of that I got mad, and I peed over her.
But truth is she crawled in my lap, like many times before, I believed she wanted to bond with me, so I allowed it, but when I said I needed to pee she stayed there until my bladder decided it was enough, she also peed over me.
Atem, I swear, I never ever did touch her, but still I was two weeks denied of food and I got a serious warning not to try and rape her again or they would call the police on me. It must have shocked Sun also because she said sorry for the first time ever to me. I now have two weeks because she broke the rule of entering my room without my permission and making a mess out of it and blaming me again.
I-I-I didn't do it on purpose, I had hoped I would stay dry tonight I'm so sorry for messing your bed and I totally understand if you want to throw me out. I should have told you, so you could bring me home." I tell Atem tears slipping down my cheeks.
Gentle strong hands find my cheeks forcing me to look in those crimson red eyes I always loved so much. "And do you really think our friendship will break because you are abused? If that is what you want, break our friendship because of what your mother and Sun did, then tell me now I will take you home because it's too late and not safe to walk on your own, and as soon as I graduate, I quit my job at KC and go home to Egypt and then we will see each other never again." he says with a sad but determinate voice.
"But know this Little One, I just got you back, hell I will buy a new matrass with a protective cover for you, I will fight for you now but respect your decision, please, please don't leave me, don't break the only friendship you have simply because you're abused, simply because your mom and sister are witches. I don't want another boy to love, I always wanted you." He says closing the gap between our lips feeling his member poking out against my stomach. I melt into the kiss and become officially his boyfriend.
Flashback 6 ends:
"What a way of becoming boyfriends." Yami jokes. "Drama till no end and still becoming lovers."
"Well, it has more romance than the way you did it." Heba retorts. "Yo I love you come sex me baby. And pulling me to the bedroom to pounce me senseless."
"Really Yami, didn't Uncle Seth teach you dignity?" Atem asks. "You could at least ask him if he wanted to be your boyfriend."
"It doesn't matter Atem, I'm glad he did because I got very curious to see what those clothes were hiding for me." Heba says with a smirk.
"Guys, Yugi was telling a story here!" Diya shouts to the three men.
"Sorry." The three men say and allowing me to continue my story, but Atem raises his hand, so I wait.
"It was by the way very cute to see him lying in bed like a starfish, he clearly enjoyed the space."
"Can you blame me? At Vivian's I slept in a toddler bed since I got it when the crib got to big for me." I say and see them all shaking their heads. So, I continue on to the story.
"As promised Atem bought the very next day a mattress with a protective cover, and extra plastic covers so he could wash the dirty ones easily, and glad to because it became a regular habit for me to crash at his place, even at schooldays, he made sure there was extra food in house for when I got into trouble because Sun did something and blamed me again and making me running away from home to prevent punishment.
Allowing myself to break in into Atem's home ranting and taking my anger by slamming the doors, taking a shower to cool off and go to bed only to wake up because Atem crawled against me and also fell asleep because I came in late at night, or Atem waking me sweetly and gently from my much-needed nap because dinner was ready. He never asked what happened he just let me rant, if I wanted, I would tell him, and if I didn't want to tell he didn't press. But when he saw it started to affect me, he forced me to speak."
"At some point my neighbours started to complain about us thinking we were constantly fighting and threatened me to call the police, I explained them a bit about Yugi's situation and asked my landlord if I was allowed to soundproof the walls. It wasn't possible but after my explanation the neighbours understood." Atem interrupts me shortly. "It was fun to see Yugi start to rebel towards his parents, and more fun to have him over, but I could see he was hiding something, and it was a big thing but as Yugi said, I didn't press until I started to notice it began to affect him."
Flashback 7:
Ever since I stayed over the very first night, I left my school supplies at his, and when school was over, I always stopped at his place to fix my homework and returning the bento he made me before going home and start my chores there, only to end up most of the times at Atem's because Vivian was unreasonable again. I didn't even return on Friday after school anymore and stayed the weekend always over.
Shortly after Atem and I resumed our friendship and took the next step, to become boyfriends, I took off for days the second time because I peed the bed again and woke up because of it, like always I went to get up and change the bed and myself when I could find no clean bedding, Vivian had heard me looking, came in my room and she forced me to sleep in my dirty bed, telling me she believed it would stop by doing it like this. I slept on the cold floor because I already had stripped my bed and my sheets and PJ were in the washing machine with my only school uniform. The next morning, she placed fresh bedding on my box, I cleaned my bed and when the dryer was finished I took care of myself and went to Atem.
After a few days I went back, Vivian only told me "If you piss the bed you sleep in it, in the morning you will get clean bedding." I didn't say a word and because she did not punish me I stayed home for the next week only dropping by at Atem's to do my homework and hang around there until it was time for me to go. But after that week it came to the point I didn't feel anymore when I peed at night, and I just continued sleeping waking up the next morning wet. When I was at Vivian's and Duke's and I woke wet in the morning and heard Sun hogging the bathroom, I didn't even bother anymore to yell to her to hurry, no I just peed my bladder empty, gross I know, but I needed to clean it anyway so why not? It saved me also time when I was preparing myself to go to school because I didn't use the toilet no more.
Because I now slept through my peeing at night, and Atem realised I didn't wake up anymore he started joking that I was training myself to become a baby-boy, we would laugh over it, but when Sun would say something like that, I would become pissed, but from Atem I could have it. He even started to give me the nickname baby-boy because I loved it so much, and with doing that, he was slowly bringing my dream to become a real baby again to the surface and it started to bug me.
When they realised they couldn't punish me anymore with denying me of food and ground me, because I had found a save place where they did feed me and I simply ran away if she did ground me, they would give me the liberty to cool down a few days, suddenly she would call me to come home and then it went well for a few days until I took off again because I had a fight with Sun and Vivian was being unfair again.
I had finished my high school years at the age of 15 but I didn't tell them, I was afraid we would move right away so I kept my mouth shut. Atem however was there to see me getting my diploma and he was clapping the loudest for me, and I went to his graduation the next day and was clapping the loudest for him.
Because there are at least two months of school left, I went out every morning and I spend my days at Atem's and when he is out working, I am drawing, gaming, taking a nap or fixing a puzzle, after about 9 hours the time I usually was away I return home only to repeat the ritual again. Sadly, I got bored, so Atem tried to fix me a job at KC.
The last time I ran away made me make a decision I wasn't yet prepared to but in mind I already was working on. Sun pushed my limits for the last time.
June 4, for once I had a dry night and I was real proud at it, I turned 16 today but before I could go to Atem I need to do my daily chores, I left my room only for ten minutes and made the stupid mistake and forget to lock the door, when she figured my mistake Sun took the liberty to go inside and she pissed, and pooped MY bed!
"Mommy! Yugi also pooped in his room this time! I can smell it over here!" she shouted trough the hallway. Horrified I ran to my bedroom seeing Vivian already in my room looking to my bed with the filthy sheets the smell of her rotten odour reaching my nose, it made me sick to the stomach because I even gagged when I smelled my own stink.
The one time I didn't have to clean my bed, and she messed it! Ra I was so pissed, real pissed, for the first time I slapped her in the face using all the strength I had in my hand. Next, I punched the wall feeling my bone crack, in front of mom. I took my leave without cleaning the bed glad my backpack already was home.
Atem who already heard me coming opened the door and catch me in a much-needed hug, he quickly had learned when I was just pissed and needed time for myself, or when I was upset and needed comfort, he told me once he heard it by the way I was muttering.
The fact Sun peed herself and saying I peed over her fell under the common things of me being mad and 'leave me alone to cool off' but the fact she also had the guts to do both on my birthday in my bed when I for once had a dry night! That upset me greatly. The thing I was also upset about was for the fact I slapped her. Daddy, mama, and papa Sennen always told us never to hit girls no matter how bad they pushed your buttons, and I broke that promise to them. I slapped a girl!
Atem comforts me, dries my tears and says I need a shower because I had wet myself again.
Atem guides me to the shower and asks me if I need help, I say no. We may be boyfriends since five months, we still didn't have sex, and the last time he saw me naked was when I was five and we sat in bath together, I had asked him if we could take it slow because this was my first relationship, and he agreed, but he always tries asking me if he can help me showering.
When I'm clean again and I'm dressed in sweatpants, Atem sees the angry bleu mark on my hand, he also sees I'm hurting badly when I move it, so he forces me to the car, we go to the clinic only to walk out with my hand in a hard cast because I had a fracture running over my whole hand and a part of my wrist.
I told the doctor I tried picking a fight with a brick wall, sadly the wall won without even a crack to satisfy me, the doctor could laugh about it and send us out with Atem paying the bill.
Flashback 7 ends:
"Okay, that must have been one hell of a strength you used if you broke your hand." Heba says.
"I did, and I will never pick a fight with a wall ever again. Man, I was in pain the first two weeks."
"Did you ever get that job?" Heba asks.
"No, the legal age for a parttime job in Japan is 16, but I could bring him along, Kaiba let him test games together with some other employee kids and paid me under the table, I made sure that money was send to his bank account."
"And what are you saying about you peed again?" Yami asks.
"Oh, didn't I tell? Since the bullies started blocking the toilets more and more, Sun often blocked the toilet when I needed to go, and Vivian forcing me to sleep in my own urine, I slowly started to lose the ability to feel when I need to go, even when I am awake, luckily it always happens at home when my emotions were making a riot, it happens often enough I step inside still dry but as soon as the door closes and I start to rant or cry against Atem, I peed without me noticing it." I say letting out a yawn.
"It looks to me you need a little nap." Diya says stands and walks away only to return about 10 minutes later with two bottles with milk and honey, Atem feeds me my bottle softly clapping on my bum and while slowly sucking my bottle empty, I fall asleep for a much needed nap.
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