Chapter 10 Mission Learn to forgive:

With Yami offering us the SC jet we are having a fast travel towards Japan for our mission, we finally land in Domino, we first go to an apartment arranged by Seto, to settle and sleep off the jetlag. I feel nervous but I if I want to become better then I need to do this before five years are up.

The next morning, we are heading towards Domino prison for woman, she maybe is the most difficult mission I have to face right now, when we are checked over even till the embarrassed point of them demanding me to remove my diaper to check if I smuggled weapons with me, which I had used luckily only by peeing, and after I'm diapered again by the guard which made me shiver because of the cold urine, we are allowed to be let inside. A window stands between me and the side where she will be sitting it was a request from me because I don't want to risk getting hurt by her. Atem stands on a safe distant ready to catch me when I need him but out of her sight, the guard who diapered me standing next to him.

When she enters the room and sees me walks over with the same air she had as when I assumed she was still my mom. I pick up the phone and she did the same. I start the recorder, we managed to convince the guard I need those for my recovery. "Took you over two years to visit your mother in jail? And I carried you for nine months. Have you no shame?" she asks right away.

"Cut the crap Vivian, you never brought me to the world, was never my mom and never will be, why did you kept me when he died! Why not send me to the Sennen's where I was truly happy!" I say harshly.

"He was rich, I was broke, and how could I not keep you? You where an amazing role-model for my baby-girl, how is she?"

"I don't know yet and you never will know."

"Well soon I will know, I'm sick boy, they diagnosed me with cancer and in order to treat me they need to set me free. My lawyer already is fixing my release." She says and I feel my throat close for a moment, I know she is lying but still her attitude makes me almost willing to believe her, Seto called us when he got the letter and send it via email to Atem.

"Who cares, I want to know something, did you ever love me or daddy?"

"Nope, like I said, I needed money to keep the house, it was a good thing I managed to get child support otherwise we needed to move out sooner, all those men who came around, well they provided me and I wanted to divorce Duke as soon as I had my inheritance from Solomon but when I found out I would not get any, so I didn't see any choice than to stay with him until your 16th birthday, same reason for keeping you."

"And almost destroying my life by putting me into that boarding school after you found out I didn't have my money yet!"

"Well, when I didn't get the money that rightfully belonged to me in the first place, I was furious to find out he authorised the Sennen's with my money, I wanted to get rid of you. You have lived way to long under my sweet gentle and loving care."

"I weight little over 20 kilos' because I often only ate the school surprise when Atem found me! He made sure I gained at least 15 kilos' when you putted me in that boarding school! And when I escaped that place only a week later, I lost 10 kilos' again and was overdosed with drugs! They still are having me on a strict diet to get my proper weight back! I need to take tons of pills I probably need until I end in the grave thanks to you!"

"Oh boo-hoe, you were the one destroying my perfect new car! Little brat! I needed to send it to the dump-jar because it wasn't possible to clean it again and I needed to ride in a second-hand car because I was low on cash!"

"You deserved it, and for your info, I'm fully in the diapers now, thank you for ruining my chance to become an adult male and even the chance of becoming a father myself because you messed me big time."

"Number thee time!" the guards call out and I look to the right corner of the glass, that's me so I nod towards him.

"Thank you for showing me you didn't change at all; I hope you get better soon Miss Wong." I say stand and bow towards her, I place the horn back on the hook and walk away not showing any weakness yet. Atem follows me together with the guard.

"She told me she has cancer and because of that you need to set her free."

"She is as healthy as a fish, but she is sentence to death next week, the prisons here are over-crowded so the people who will have to sit more than 50 years get the lethal injection within the next five years, because she is costing to much trouble the court decided she is one of the first to go."

"Yeah, I have received a letter of that, do I have to be there when it happens?"

"No, it's up to you to decide." The guard says laying a hand on my shoulder making me face him. "But if I, was you, I would go kid, it would ease your mind." He says with a smile.

"Aren't you disgusted over me?"

"Why? Because you have a disability? Kid my older sister also is in diapers, I don't look to people who are ill. I treat them with the same respect I wish to be treated with." The man says with a gentle smile. "Even if you crapped that thing when you walked inside, I would have asked your partner for wipes a clean diaper and cleaned you no trouble at all." He says making me stop for a moment.

"Thank you…." I say and wish him the best.

With that the two of us leave the prison and the limousine from KC stands ready to bring us to our apartment, but first a fresh diaper, I have baked some breads in there. We decided we would go to the Kaiba mansion as soon as we had completed this mission.

In the car I'm quiet and allowing the conversation run through my head again, she never loved me. Never. She only cared for the inheritance I would get when I turned 16 and could snitch it away from me. "Baby-boy? The driver wants to know if you want something to eat." Atem asks me silently bringing me out of my musings. I'm not hungry but I guess it's better to eat something, so I simply nod. The driver goes to burger world and takes on request from Atem the drive in. I ask only for a small hamburger, but Atem tells the driver to take a medium menu for me and a big menu for him. When the driver has paid and hand us the food, he seeks a parking, and we eat in silence.

"Thanks for picking me the medium menu, I had more hunger than I originally thought." I say softly.

"Yugi, I know you your whole life, you didn't change that much in the years we didn't see each other, do you really think after this many years you still can fool me?" he says with a smile. I only laugh. "I texted Ryou while you were having your thoughts for yourself, he thinks the guard is right, it will be good to go one more time and see her go for-good."

"I don't know if I can Atem, she said some pretty harsh things." I say allowing to show my tears for the first time. "What if she thinks I want to say sorry?"

"Let her think that, Yugi she is the one who needs to apologise, and for closure I think this indeed will be good. And you know we always are there for you to help you out."

"I know, please let me think about it okay?"

"Okay, but maybe it also is a good idea to talk with another counsellor, too see how they think over it, Ryou gave me a number from a colleague he met here two years ago, she followed your case, and she is willing to guide you during our time here."

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"To be honest, I would go for it, many kids especially with a past like yourself find closure if they see the biggest demon in their lives go. I have reason to believe you are no difference." Miss Mai says, I took her guides while in Japan on advice from Ryou, they both keep in contact when I have the need to talk. "Yugi many kids who didn't go told they were happy when their demon was gone but they didn't go for the last time, they had strong relationships and were sure they could handle it, in the end they ended in the mental hospital, became drugs addicts, alcoholics, and within five year most of them took their own lives."

"But do you also say people not to go?" I ask the blonde woman next to me. Atem called her when we returned, and she was willing to visit us at the apartment. We are seated on the couch and Atem went out for groceries as soon he figured Mai and I were going to be okay. I told her about my life and also what happened the other day in the prison.

"It depends on the situation, if I deem my clients not healthy enough to face them I tell them no. You on the other hand I believe it's necessary to go to prevent your PTSD to take control and do some of those stupid things I just mentioned like lets simply say OD yourself with your meds in the near future."

"But I want to live, I have my brother and mommy finally back and when I'm back in Egypt Atem and I want to marry for real in a year. My brother recovered from cancer and fought really hard for it because he and I want to grow old with our loved-once. And I never took my way to drugs, cigarettes, or alcohol. I took a kink to cover my fears, if anything I wished I didn't have to take those stupid pills!" I cry out with the tears in my eyes. "I already had an OD and it wasn't even my own doing."

She looks at me with a smile and rests her palm on my knee. "Then go for it Yugi, show her no fear, show her what of a strong man you have become. From what Atem told me when we did meet each other you showed no fear towards her when you faced her in jail. You even kept strong after that."

"But I craped my pants when she insulted me. And I don't even know when that happened."

"A pants that was protected with a diaper because you are in need of them. And you walked out with your head up high. Yugi, I know for sure even if you crap your pants again, you can do this, and when you do you feel reborn. Also, I find it amazing you are able to channel your fears towards there, I'm kinda curious, how did you manage that? Care to share?"

I feel my mouth form a small smile. She is right I can do this. "When Rebecca stayed with us in the mansion, she told me with meditation you can channel your fears to a part so it isn't noticeable, in my case the diapers, I tried and it worked... Can you come along with me and Atem?"

"I think we need to show Atem you can do this without him, but I will go with you. And if you can do this, then you can handle Sun no problem at all." She says gently.

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"I love you baby-boy, I'm right here in the car waiting for you" Atem says giving me a big hug. Then he makes sure my tie sits right and the wrinkles are out my clothes. "Remember I'm very proud of you." He says softly. And I see he means it. He wasn't happy when I told him I needed to see Vivian go without his guides. But Miss Mai told him the reason why I needed to do this alone. And after that he was okay with it but he would be there for me to catch me when I walk out. Miss Mai had no objections against that.

So, with her I walk inside, the same guard as last time is there, he takes me to the private room and removes my diaper, thank Ra this time it's clean because Atem changed me a few minutes before, the guard straps me up again, with a smile. "You did the right thing to see her go. It's a shame her daughter won't see her go. She talked always about her."

"Thank you." I say when I pulled my pants back on my place and buckle up.

"No recorder this time?"

"No, my therapist thinks I won't need it, she will be filming however, because she probably won't be able to say much. Um I'm curious though, what happens with her body?"

"We wanted to ask you what to do with her body, we are eager to learn where her aggression comes from so, we hope you want to give her body to science. Otherwise, we need to give her body to the government and it will be burned and her ashes is spread out on a governments chosen place." the guard explains me and hands me a form.

"But I'm not her real son by genetics, she also never adopted me as her own." I say confused when I have read the letter which says only relatives can make that decision.

"It doesn't matter, for as long as you remembered she was in a way your mother."

"And when they don't need her body anymore, what will happen then? And do you often send a body over to them?"

"That is up to the scientists to decide… And yes, many families wish to send them so they can figure out why, on this spot you can ask if they also want to inform you to the why.

I read it again look at miss Mai and sign the form with my choice of what they can do with her body.

"Will she see me sitting here?" I ask her.

"Only if we find it okay, she sees us, if one person objects she will only see the mirror on the other side."

"Is this the only death-penalty they give in death-row?"

"Over here they only give the lethal injection because the government thinks it's barbaric to give them the electric chair, hang them, or shop their heads off, and to tell you the truth, I agree with that. I wouldn't even wish my worst enemy for those methods."

I gulp, when I hear those other ways to bring a person's life to an end, no I think I also would prefer the lethal injection.

Miss Mai and I are the only once to see her die, when it's time they bring her inside and install her on the table binding her arms wrists legs and ankles to it with leather cuffs. Next, they bring in the syringes in both her wrists, but they don't empty them yet.

"Miss Vivian Wong, you are hereby sentence to death to console you 625 years in total to which you already completed 2 years, when you pass on you will be offered up for science on order of your relatives. Do you have a last wish before your final moment reaches?" The guard says, but it confuses me, she got 575 years total for doing wrong to Heba, mommy and me. so why did they add another 50 years?

"Can I please see who is there?" I hear her asking bringing me out my musings. The guard on our side of the window looks towards us. I take a deep breath and nod the guard presses a few buttons and the window becomes clearer. "Yugi, you came, please listen to me, I want to say sorry, I know what I did was wrong, and I should have treated you with respect and the same care I gave to Sun. Please if you see her, tell her I still love her, and tell her she must not follow my footsteps. And you did the right thing to give your first smile to the one who deserved it." she begs me.

A strange calm feeling washes over me, I open my eyes after I realised I had them closed while drinking in her words a tear escapes my eye and I ask the guard if she can hear me, he presses one other button and I stand from my chair and walk to the front laying my hand against the glass "I forgive you." I say with the tears in my eyes and see how the injections slowly empties into her wrists. She is crying and for the first time I see her truly looking at me with pride. Before she closes her eyes for-good. Tears still stream down my cheeks when they declare her death. She is gone and I am set free from one of my demons, the biggest demon who terrorised my life.

"Why did they give her another 50 years?" I ask the guard.

"For the murder on her first husband, his family had sued her for that. Also, with the trouble she coasted over here." He explains. I thank him and with a much lighter heart I walk outside with my head high, but the tears still streaming down my cheeks. And when we step outside, Atem stands ready to catch me as promised.

"He did more than we could ever imagine. You can be very proud at him. I will send you the recordings in a bit." Miss Mai says, and they small talk a bit while I cuddle myself against Atem before she walks to her own car and driving off.

In the car back to the apartment I tell Atem everything I saw; I spilled my tears for the fact she said sorry and with how much pride she looked to me when she got the injection. Miss Mai had sent the video she made, and Atem saw what I did and when the film was ready, he gave me the biggest bear hug you can think off.

"I would never imagine you would give her body to science baby-boy, and how do you feel now?"

"Free. Reborn? It's too soon to say that now, I think. And I did it because when they can truly figure out what is making a person have a black heart, I'm more than willing to help. First, I need to overcome my fears towards Sun."

"That's fine, we go there in a few days, come on, we need to go to the store, I have arranged a little surprise for you tomorrow."

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Dressed in a completely new one-sie, bleu contacts and a black wig on my head, I'm strapped in my stroller while Atem rings the door from a beautiful house. This morning he told me what my surprise was and why we did buy the items I said just now. He called Anzu and Tea yesterday when I was seeing Vivian, and today we go and visit them to come clean towards them. I smile happily when the door opens and a happy squeal from Anzu sounds. She helps Atem with my stroller and helps me out onto his back.

In the living Atem carefully lays me on my back and Anzu gives me a kiss on my cheek and then hugs Atem also kissing his cheek. She serves Atem coffee while Atem prepares me a lemonade in a bottle. Tea comes downstairs. "Honda is asleep the little man was tired." She says while stroking my head "Hello sweetie, how are you doing." She whispers in my ear, and I coo, then she goes to Atem and giving him a hug.

"That's okay, we wish to talk to you in private anyway." Atem says taking place on the couch. I decide to sit up. Atem realises it is time and nods. The ladies see what I am doing, and their faces look surprised.

"Samir has Hikari had the surgery after-all?" Anzu asks.

"No, in fact, we want to come clear ladies, you see, Hikari and Samir are stage-names, the day you did meet us we were on the run. Do you remember that huge case around Yugi Muto, his mother, his brother, his stepparents, and stepsister two years ago?" Atem asks them.

"Yeah, we did follow that, poor boy, he, his brother and mother must have gone through hell, I always wondered what happened with him after those trials." Tea says.

"Well, he is closer by then you think." I say silently. And both ladies look towards me. I peel out the contacts and then take off the wig, even Atem is peeling out his contacts. "It's true I'm in diapers because of my past, but I never had a car accident, that was a cover up story to take me safely to Egypt."

"And your name?" Anzu asks with a bit of anger.

"My name truly is Yugi Muto, and my real age is 21 right now, his is Atem Sennen, he is 23 years old, we decided to change ours to a regular name and older age only for my safety, both Atem and I felt guilty we needed to lie to you about what was going on and we are truly deeply sorry for that."

"So, you aren't married?"

"We were when we fled, but when we were in Egypt, we realised this wasn't the right thing, so we divorced and I proposed to him again, but we plan to marry next year, and you three are invited, all expenses paid of course." Atem says. Handing them the cards with the details.

"And the fact of you two being gay?"

"That is true, also the fact I know him since he was a new-born." Atem says.

"But you told you are in the diapers?"

"Yes, and I can tell you the complete story but then we are maybe weeks further and we kinda have a tight schedule during our stay in Japan, so how about I promise you both a book written by Hikari Otum for free, you may even pick if you want it written in Japanese, Arabic or English or simply all three languages."

"Wait, you are writing a book about your life?"

"It's finished, but since it is written in handwriting, I am working real hard to finish it on my laptop, I use the name in the book I used when we made our hasty flee and we did meet you. My brother is helping me with the translation towards Arabic because I'm not fluent in that one."

"Then I am happy to receive an English one please, but with both your autographs of-course." Tea says and I write it down.

"May I please have Japanese?" Anzu asks and I also write that one down. I ask to which address the books needs to be send to and also write that down.

"I didn't know you lived here Anzu?" Atem says.

"Well, my trip to Egypt didn't go as planned, I saw my husband with another woman and filed a divorce, Anzu was an amazing help and support, and real soon I discovered I loved her in more ways than one. Also, Honda adores her." Tea admits.

"Never fun to discover the one you loved sleeps with many others, what about his parental rights?"

"I have full custody over Honda, with him traveling allot and not knowing his son this seemed to be the best. And some men can be pigs, I'm happy I found out I'm in love with this girl."

"Well, Yugi and I felt guilty we needed to lie to you, and although it took us a while because of his recovery, we are glad we did now. Am I right Yugi?" Atem asks me and I nod.

"Thank you, Yugi, Atem for coming clean towards us." The ladies say and hug Atem first and then me.

"And how are you recovering now Yugi?"

"My recovery goes well, I just have found closure around my stepmom, next week we visit my stepdad and in a month my stepsister." When we return in Egypt my brother takes me and Atem along to a convention for adult babies. And what I was sceptical about it first I now look forward to it."

"But will you be able to drop the baby act eventually?"

"Maybe, for now I am happy to be a baby, and when I decide I want to become really adult, Atem and I start potty training again." I say and chuckle.

The ladies look confused. "Yugi trained himself to be fully depended on the diapers before you even met him, he doesn't feel when he needs to pee and as my own brother and I both have learned to keep a close eye on his manhood when we are changing him where his brother could warn us when he needed to, this one simply showers you." Atem explains with a smile.

"You can't change yourself?"

"I tried a few times, but I always leak when I did, so eventually I gave up and let my brother, mother, Atem or Yami change me."

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Domino's male prison, also this time Atem stays with the car, and I go inside with Miss Mai. This time they don't check me out so I'm glad I don't have to take of my diaper, it's not that strange, this prison is for males with small crimes, they will be free within 10 years and can continue their lives hopefully with a clean record this time. Duke already sits at a table, and I go sit in front of him. Again, I have a recorder so I can relisten this conversation later again. "You look good kid, better than I have seen you two years ago in court." He says with a gentle smile.

"Thank you."

"You've gained weight and have a nice tan, where are you living now?"

"Egypt, I'm getting married next winter."

"I hope he takes good care of you son."

"He does, and if he forgets I need him, my twin, and his twin brother are happy to remind him of that."

"I regret what I did, I didn't realise what a bitch she was until it was too late."

"I visited her. They put her to rest two weeks ago, until she was given the injection, she kept stubborn but as soon as they injected her she said sorry, and she meant it. I have given her body to science. But I do not wish to know why she was how she was."

"Woman can be dangerous son, how are you feeling now?"

"Relieved that one of my biggest demons is gone, I sleep with more ease now."

"Did she say anything about me?"

"Only that she used you like she used my father and a man before him, for the money."

"What a stupid woman, I regret I did marry her. I was so angry when I heard you ran away and I turned myself in when I realised who she was, that helped me allot during court, otherwise I probably would have many more years to spare in this god-forsaken place."

"Well, she kidnapped me, and she took me to the only boarding school to which we were allowed to go out on Saturday if we were good all week and which I made use of and took off. With my roommate."

"Again, what a stupid woman she was, and Sun will end the same way if she doesn't want to change. Did you see her already?"

"No that will happen after we are finished here, if we see she truly is willing to change within the next five months we adopt her and offer her a job in Egypt."

"What kind of a job?"

"Probably something in cleaning, it depends on my mother what she can offer, but she needs to show us first if she truly did change."

"I have one wish, and maybe you are the only one to for-fill that for me."

"I don't know if I'm in the position to do so Dad, and you know that." I say already knowing what he wants.

"Please Yugi, maybe you didn't see it when I was with her, but when the two of you were at school, she didn't treat me well at all. When I saw how she started to treat you after Sun was born, I tried to involve you. I didn't know she stole you and your father the day after you was born until they questioned me when I turned myself in, if I knew I would have saved you and authorised the Sennen's to take you away safe and sound."

"Well, I discovered only a few days after Atem and I fled to Egypt that she wasn't my real mother, and that she never had parental rights over me. I regret that my dad could not change the will in a way that I would go directly to the Sennen's after his passing it would have made my life so much easier right now"

"What are you saying son?"

I feel the tears briming but force them back. "I'm incontinent dad. I'm in diapers simply because I lost all feeling to when I need to go, I'm also diagnosed with PTSD, depression, panic and anxiety attacks and have a severe phobia towards girls." I whisper softly.

"He still loves you son, otherwise he would have dump you shortly after he found you and he figured of all your problems. And how are you coping with that? I can't imagine there are no females in Egypt."

"Last year a girl stayed at the mansion we live in, she helped me a great deal overcome the worst of my reactions. Before I met her, I ran away screaming and filing my pants. Now I'm only filling my pants when an unfamiliar girl touches me without permission."

"You've grown son, and not only in hight." Duke says with a smile.

"Did you ever love me?" I ask out of the blue.

"I still love you as if you are my own, it was Vivian who kept me away."

"It was you huh? Who gave me the drawing stuff each birthday?" I finally realise.

"It was kiddo. I hate the fact I needed to do it in secret, but I always loved your drawings and hated it when she tore them down every time. Do you still draw?"

"On a more professional level now, I want to illustrate the pictures on my own book."

"I love you son. I feel sorry for not fighting for you. And can I have a copy when finished?"

"I know dad" I say feeling guilty about what happened to him two years ago. "I was planning on sending you a copy when it is finished."

"Please when it is possible, can you arrange me one visit last with her? Although I don't have any parental rights anymore, she still is my seed. And even if you are not my son by blood, I still love you as one of my own."

"Time for the table visits!" the guard calls out.

"I see what I can do, but I promise nothing. But if you are okay with it, can we keep in touch dad? Maybe if you get out you can come live with us in Egypt? Our gardens are in desperate need of refreshment, the gardener needs to go with his retirement but doesn't want to until he finds a new one." I say with a sad smile.

A smile, he reaches his hand and cubs my chin, with his thumb he strokes over my cheek. Pulling back, I see his thumb is wet, I didn't realise I was crying. "I hoped you would ask that." Duke says reaching in his pocket taking out a card and sliding it towards me, "I have phone privileges because of my good behaviour, this is my number, sadly I can't call you, but you can call me." He says standing up and walking away. When all the prisoners are gone, I take the card stand and again with my head high I walk towards the entrance.

In the car I discuss Duke's request and Atem only says we need to see what the boarding school has to say to that and if she also is willing to.

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"Are you ready to face your final demon Yugi?" Atem asks me and I nod. This time I wanted him to stay by my side. Miss Mai agreed that now only he needed to stay with me. I nod and hand in hand we walk inside the boarding school. I press myself close into Atem's arms and he also holds me close. It's one thing to go to a school mixed with both genders, but this school only has girls, and they still give me fear.

At the information desk we say who we are and who we come to visit, the lady at the desk nods and walks us to a room. "We have camera's hanging in this room and as soon as someone visits, we watch with you. Also, we figured it could go best if you told about her mother, maybe then she shows the positive changes we want her to make." The lady says and turns back to the information desk. We take a deep sigh and walk inside. And there she is.

Sun is grown, she is taller than Atem is and a real young lady now, if only she wasn't like Vivian, she maybe could have kept herself out this mess.

"Oh my, my dear brother is here to visit me, I hope you're happy when you destroyed my life."

"No Sun I'm not happy about that, it took me two years to gather the courage to visit after those trials, and not because I felt guilty for putting you in here but for allowing you to the fear you gave me the first 11 years of your life."

"Oh, something good came out you then."

"Yes, it did, I have worked very hard to overcome my fears."

"Oh well not what I was hoping for, so tell me how you are doing?"

"I am actually doing really well, right now I am on a mission in Japan to find closure with my past."

"Ah, and still a bed wetter?"

"Sadly, that will not change anymore, I lost all feeling to that."

"And he finds it okay you twinkle the bed?"

"Not that it is any of your business, but I am in the diapers 24/7, and if he wasn't okay with that, he would have left me a long time ago."

"Ah, and where did your mission start?"

"With your mother, followed with your father, he will be released in 3 years, he wishes to see you before that because when he is free, he isn't allowed anymore."

"Well, I don't wish to see him, how is mommy?"

"She is gone Sun, half a year ago they sentenced her to death and last month they have given her the lethal injection. She however did have a massage for you." I say not giving her the change to let her interrupt until I'm ready. "She still loves you, you were always her brave baby-girl, and don't follow the path she has chosen."

"Oh, that's all?" she asks, and I nod. "Well to bad. I hope she died alone like she deserved in the first place!" she says harshly.

"She didn't die alone, I was there, and how could you say that so mean? She took better care of you then she did of me, besides she said sorry to me, and I forgave her."

"Well, I'm not willing to forgive you! Nor will I ever say sorry because I loved what I did to you! Yes, mom did give me the first push, but I made you a twinkle boy and I love it. To know the one, I saw as my brother is a diaper baby!" she suddenly stands and starts to yell manically, I force myself to stay on my place but I rather run into Atem's arms for safety. Her words hurt, they hurt far more than Vivian hurt me.

"Sun, we are willing to take you in and take you along to Egypt with us to give you a new chance but in order to do that we want you to drop this act right now, this isn't you." I say calmly but in the meanwhile I'm filling my diaper. Ra I'm so glad I learned to filter my fears towards there.

"But I don't want to change, I am happy with who I am!" she says, and I smell the penetrating smell of poop and urine, I'm confused my diapers normally don't stink that bad when I am baking breads, both Atem and I look towards her and see a puddle growing under her and she probably is pooping her panties as we speak also. Two nurses burst inside and grab the girl harshly and drag her away her evil laughter haunting me. A third nurse walks inside and sends us to a different room where we await her mentor.

There I climb in Atem's lap and cuddle myself close against him shivering slightly realising she maybe is the dangerous demon and not Vivian who we thought eventually was in the first place. The door opens and a woman walks inside. "Hello, I'm Miss Ishizu, I'm the head mentor." She introduces herself. "I must compliment you mister Muto; you have accomplished more than we have in those two years she is in here." She says and sniffs around with her nose pulled up.

"I'm sorry, but Yugi is due to his past with Sun and his stepmom completely depended on diapers, I'm afraid he took use of them when she was acting the way she did." Atem says.

"Oh, that's okay, sadly I can't give you the opportunity to change right now, we have camera's everywhere to monitor the girls that needs to be monitored, and the girls who don't need monitors probably won't agree when an adult male gets a clean diaper in their room. Also, I don't think he wants to give the monitor ladies a show."

"It's okay, I can wait a bit." I say softly but hating the bread baking in my diapers.

"Well as I said you have made more progress than we did in those two years she is with us now. How long for you need to return to Egypt?"

"Little over four months, do you think she wants to change?" Atem asks deciding he does the talking now.

"I don't know, are you willing to visit her in a few days again? If she reacts in a more positive way than maybe she is willing to change."

"And what if she meant that she doesn't want to change?"

"Then I'm afraid she will go to a mental institute she will be declared fully disabled which means once there she will never leave that place alive."

"Why the mental house?"

"As you saw she doesn't care where she does her uh… toilet needs, she does it into class, during her sessions with the counsellor, and simply when she is outside and everybody sees her doing it, it doesn't matter to her at all, she has no friends over here because with how she acts. We wanted to wait and see how she would react to you but that took two years."

"Yugi has developed a serious phobia towards girls in general, we figured we needed to fight that battle first before we would start with this final step in his recovery. Then his brother got sick, and it took him 11 months to recover, we got that good news only a month ago."

"Well with her reputation, I can't blame you. But we really want to try one more time."

"Hmm, what do you say baby-boy?" Atem asks me.

I think about it and right now I feel for sending her to the mental house, but that would go against my standards, I take a deep sigh and say. "Let's try it one more time. I was willing to face Vivian on her deathbed, so I need to be willing to do this also."

"Very well, let's do this Friday same time?"

Atem and I look towards each other and nod. "That works for us." Atem says.

"Very well then I bid you adieu and a safe journey."

When we are outside the gates, I feel nauseous, I ran towards a bush and vomit my stomach empty. I'm glad I could keep the bile in for so long. Atem's hand gently takes my hair out my face, and the other hand rubs my back. "You did amazing baby-boy. Come on lets go to the car for a change."

Hikari-Otum.Hikari-Otum.Hikari-Otum.Hikari-Otum.Hikari-Otum.Hikari-Otum.Hikari-Otum.

This time we have Miss Mai with us, the ordeal with Sun a few days ago had taken a toll on me, as soon as we returned to the apartment Atem called her, she came over and with seeing with how I was, I had cocooned myself in a blanket and refused to come out until it was time for bed, she also realised Sun was indeed the biggest demon in my life, a clear mistake we all made. So, for my endurance she came along this time.

Miss Ishizu told us Sun was singing the past few days the same sentence over, and over again, she isn't willing to say something else but that small song, I need to try and provoke her somehow. We enter the room and I take place in the only chair at one side of the table. Miss Mai and Atem stand next to each other behind me. The girl is brought inside and placed on the other chair. Softly she is singing the song. "Tinkle winkle I have a baby brother and he need a diaper because he twinkles in his pants."

"Hello Sun, how are you doing?" I ask trying to ignore the song she is singing for the moment.

"Tinkle winkle I have a baby brother and he need a diaper because he twinkles in his pants."

"Duke and I called yesterday, he asked about you. I told him about you and what will happen if you don't change."

"Tinkle winkle I have a baby brother and he need a diaper because he twinkles in his pants." Now she sings a bit louder.

"And do you know why I am in a diaper Sun?" I ask because this song is irritating me.

"Tinkle winkle I have a baby brother and he need a diaper because he twinkles in his pants."

"Because you made me to it."

"Tinkle winkle I have a baby brother and he need a diaper because he twinkles in his pants."

"Because of you I felt like I wanted to be in diapers again like a little baby."

"Tinkle winkle I have a baby brother and he need a diaper because he twinkles in his pants."

"And because of that I lost the ability to feel when I need to go." I say softly but I'm talking to deaf ears. She only starts to sing louder and louder and before I realise it she jumped off the chair into my lap and I feel it getting wet while she now loudly sings

"Tinkle winkle I have a baby brother and he need a diaper because he twinkles in his pants!"

Forceful she grabs my wrist and brings it to her mouth biting me real hard to which I yelp and both Atem and Miss Mai jump in, she grabs the girl and Atem holding me steady, so I don't force her to bite even harder and deeper. Two nurses' storm inside and give a sedative to the girl allowing her to let me out of her bite.

I feel the bile rising and this time I don't hold it in, I drop to my knees and violently the bile rises out. Atem is holding my hair and supporting me while Miss Mai is ordering for bandages and to call the hospital because we will arrive there as soon as possible. But my blurry world slowly turns black.

Atem's pov:

With the vomiting Yugi got into a state of panic, so for as far as I'm concerned, this girl can suck it up, Yugi only can visit her if she has a metal jacket on, bound to a bed and metal bars around her the key hidden away till no return! Miss Mai comes with a cloth and wraps that around Yugi's wrist, I lift him in my arms and carry him to the car, there I change him in both a clean diaper and pants and when he is clean, I buckle him up in his chair and tell the driver to go to the hospital

Shortly before we arrived in the hospital Yugi came around, he looks to his wrist and I see the fear strike again in his eyes, and this time he is a in a worse state of mind than three days ago I hope he doesn't close himself off. "Shh it's okay baby-boy we are going to treat those." I whisper in his ear. He closes in on me and I need to carry him like a toddler.

In the hospital room a male-nurse treats his wounds, luckily, he doesn't need stitches and the wounds aren't deep, I hate the idea of her teeth marks permanently on his body for the rest of his life.

He gets a shot though and the nurse tells us to return if he gets a fever and to keep a close eye on him for a few days. With that we are free to go. Slowly he gets back to himself but still I'm worried. And I have received a text from the boarding school, in order to not let Yugi, go back in his phobia, they suggest we return and spend the rest of the day with other girls who are not mental. I think that's a great idea and I order the driver to take us back.

"Atem? Do I need to see her again?" he asks me with shivering voice when he realises where we are going.

"I don't know Yugi, let's see what they say, they however want us to spend the rest of the day with other girls." I say and kiss Yugi gently on his head. "Please baby try and if you are tired, we go home, but I want you to at least try one hour amongst those girls." I state in a no-nonsense matter.

When we arrive, Miss Mai and Miss Ishizu are ready to receive us. "Please don't let me stay alone?"

"I won't." I reassure him before getting out the car while holding his hand. Politely we bow to the two ladies and follow them inside.

In Miss Ishizu's office we sit down. "We are truly deeply sorry for what had occurred to you this morning and we will pay for the medical treatment you received today, if you are willing handing me the bill?" Miss Ishizu asks, and I hand her the bill. Then she turns to Yugi who is sitting in my lap. "How are you feeling?" she asks with a tone of concern. "I'm sorry for asking this once more of you, but when your councillor told us bits and pieces of your past, we knew we needed to do this."

Yugi takes a deep breath. "Hurt, afraid I want to cocoon myself in a blanket and hide myself, but I'm also happy to know I did what I could to make amends with her." Yugi answers truthfully. "I however wish to know what will happen with her now?"

"She is sedated, when they dragged her out, she managed to bite those nurses also, and we are awaiting the car to take her to the mental hospital."

"Is she awake?" ...Okay, what is he getting at?

"She is awake to know when someone speaks with her but will probably not respond."

"Is it possible to visit her in the mental house?"

"I'm afraid not, at least not the department they will place her. I believe they only allow people with a rich background, but I'm not sure."

"Can I see her one more time? Before she goes then?"

"..."

"..."

"..." Wait... What?... Is he serious? I push him away a little bit and look closely to his face and see indeed determination all over his face, he really wants this. I look towards the ladies, and they nod, they must have seen it also.

"Mister Sennen? You look stumped, is there a reason to be?" Miss Ishizu asks me.

"No, I'm simply amazed, he keeps fighting to recover and I find it simply amazing. Three days ago, he cocooned himself in a blanket and it took me until bedtime to show his face. Before we came, I had the impression that he never wanted to see her again, and now this? He has come a very long way and I'm incredibly proud at him." I say and truly mean it.

"I see, well then you can be indeed very proud at him, when do you wish to see the girl mister Muto?"

"Right now, if it's possible, I have one thing to say to her before they take her away."

"Very well, but for your safety she is bound to the bed and a nurse will stay with her until the car arrives. If you will follow me, please."

"That's okay, thank you." Yugi says, we say our goodbyes towards miss Mai and we follow Miss Ishizu to the secluded section. It is one room with several beds inside, there are three beds occupied at the moment and the one closest to us has Sun in it.

She isn't wearing the school uniform she had on this morning but has a simple night gown on, her arms and legs bound to the bed so she can't escape, by the obvious blob between her legs they also put her in a diaper, sorry for my thought but I would have done that a long time ago. Yugi takes my hand and softly tugs at it, I look down and I can tell he wants me to let him do it alone. I smile and nod allowing him to do so, and he walks towards her bed, at the foot he stops looking closely to the girl. Then he walks to the head of the bed. What he does next makes my mouth hit the ground. With gentle care he strokes her face. "Although you don't forgive me or didn't say sorry for your actions, I will forgive you Sun, I had hoped we could reconnect and become friends, but I have seen you are not willing to. Goodbye." He says bends forward and kisses her head.

He turns on his heel and walks towards me, I look to her and with a gentle nod towards her he understands he needs to see her one more time. A tear is rolling down the girl's cheek and the cold green eyes I have only seen a few times, are warm. With a smile we turn and walk away.

"That was very brave of you young man." Miss Ishizu says.

"I wanted her to know that although she treated me like crap, I was still her brother for 11 years and tried my hardest to convince her of that, it's sad to know she never will acknowledge that."

"And how do you feel now?"

"Relieved. I have faced my demons from the past and shown them I'm not the scared little boy I was before." Yugi says with a truthful smile. "Now I was promised to meet some girls from here and to be honest I want to see how this boarding school is different than the one I went to accept the fact of the genders."

"That's correct, you have given the school for troubled boys a very bad reputation. But to be honest with you, their methods were a bit too extreme if you ask me."

"Do you give the girls a drug-cocktail, so they behave?"

"We don't believe drugs are a way to help recover somebody if they are simply troubled like some of these girls, we try to help them solve their problems. Yes, we hold a strict regime over here, only the girls who go home during weekends and holidays are free to roam the city but they know to return before curfew. If I may ask, how was your school divided? And how were the punishments?"

"My boarding school was divided in three departments, kids with bad behaviour but not bad enough for juvenile, I was in a department for boys with the same and bad toilet behaviours since I started to wet the bed when I was 6 and because of my fear I turned out to be gay, my stepmom also told lies about me which made her stronger.

And then we had the department for the mental sick, not want to make use of the toilet and bad behaviour. I don't know much about the first, but I do know the third was a department which had more suicide cases than jail itself. We got a cocktail in the morning and evening to behave ourselves, but when we still were bad boys then we got a whipping. I had one that wasn't even my fault."

"How did you end up there? Because you don't seem like the kind of child that would be a bad boy. Or does the cover hide the truth?"

"No, the cover doesn't hide the truth, although I don't feel comfortable to talk about it freely, at least not over how I ended in the diapers. Thing is, however, I ended there under false accusations."

"And you managed to walk out only a week after you arrived… impressive." Miss Ishizu says and opens the door to a room, a bed stands against the wall. "We have shut down the cameras in this room for when you need a change, you are free to walk around and talk with the girls in the A and B section, and we hope you will join us during dinner before you return home with a lighter heart." She says and we nod.

She then guides us to an area where several girls are together, reading, doing homework and we even see some of the older girls helping the younger girls. I press myself against Atem and Miss Ishizu blows on a whistle. "Ladies, your attention please." She calls out. "These two young gentlemen are Atem and his boyfriend Yugi, and Yugi here had bad experiences with girls, how about we show him not all girls are bad?" she then asks, and the girls show sweet and caring smiles. "I leave you to their care gentlemen."

"You need a change now? Or before dinner?" I ask Yugi when Miss Ishizu walked off.

"Um I don't know." Yugi says and allows me to feel.

"I think you can handle one more filling, I change you before dinner." I say and Yugi smiles and takes my hand. Together we explore the school, we talk with the girls and some of them encourage Yugi to give them a hand. He of course tries and the girls cheering for him. We learn from the girls the ages are between 5 year and 20, the girls that have reached age 14 are to help with the smaller children. We also learn that this isn't a boarding orphanage like Yugi's school was but that many of the girls have parents who love and care for them only because of work they are living here and in the weekends they go home. The girls in the C and D section are send here because they have a juvenile past, when they are 20 they are released and if they go to the wrong path again, they will end in jail. Sun was in section D.

One of the older girls Mana, takes the liberty to show us around showing us the classrooms and some of the dorm-rooms. The girls joining us ask Yugi about his experience with boarding school, but he chooses not to answer that. I simply tell them his was allot more different that this school. They ask him questions about his diapers and if he truly is in the state, he doesn't feel the need.

To that he gives them a fair answer. To the question if they may watch when I change him, he hesitates, but when the oldest girl Mana who took the liberty to show us around says she wants to work with disabled people he only allowed her in when it was close to dinnertime. I see the question in her eyes and Yugi must have seen it also because he nods towards me. I take her hand and guide her in place, slowly I explain her what to do and watch closely if she does it right.

She doesn't gag like Yami when he needs to change Yugi or Heba, no she gently takes care of him, it's obvious she changed people before, but still is asking questions to which we truthfully answer. When Yugi is clean and dressed again, we see we have half an hour left before dinner, we sit with her and keep talking about how she got her dream to become a nurse for disabled persons. She told us her baby brother is disabled and she hates the idea when her parents can't take care of him anymore, and he will end up in a nursing home.

She wants to take him in when she is graduated, maybe even move him to a warmer country because it's obvious the warmer days do him well. We invite her if she ever considers Egypt to stay with us. When suddenly. "Ah Mana, I see you are telling our guests about your dream?" Miss Ishizu says with a smile.

"Yes Miss Ishizu, they even allowed me to change mister Yugi in a clean diaper, Mister Atem watched closely how I managed. Also, I think they are happy I showed them around and told about our school."

"Did they now, and how did she do?"

"Better than my brother, for the profession she has chosen she needs to have a stomach of steel and with Yugi's flowery odour she clearly has it, all must I say his brother is a much worse stinker." I say with a smile.

"Oh hush, I'm pretty sure you stink just as bad, maybe even worse." Mana says making us looked stunned at first.

However, when Yugi managed to choke out a "Yes, he's way worse." Having tears streaming down his cheeks obviously holding in his laughter.

"Laugh it up baby-boy." I say with fake mock, we all start to laugh loudly.

"Then I want a report from you to how you did it in detail Mana, and if I approve, we can send that to the college you want to attend. But only if mister Yugi is okay with that of course." Miss Ishizu manages to say when her laughter has taken down.

"I wish for her not to mention my name, and I like to read about how you experienced to change an adult baby." Yugi smiles.

Miss Ishizu then has a frown, and we see she is thinking about something when she suddenly asks. "Well, if you don't mind, she needs to have at least a month of experience with a disabled person for the best way of getting in a good college sadly they don't allow it to be her brother and we have no close connections in that section to help her out, do you allow her to take internship with you for the month and help you out?"

"That's not only to me but mostly to Yugi to decide, if you allow us to take her along to Tokyo were out next stop is. And if Yugi is willing to, I am happy to show her the ropes and even introduce her to an adult toddler and another adult baby since we are going to friends of ours now."

The girl looks to Miss Ishizu and a nod makes the girl turn towards Yugi. "Please mister Yugi?" Mana begs and Yugi looks to me.

I nod taking out my phone basically telling him I only have to call.

And then the girl comes with the meanest trick in the books towards him, her lip in a pout, eyes bigger than usual hands clasped together. The puppy eyes, the trick that even brings Seto to his knees. "Sure, I'm happy to help you getting into your studies. I would have done it without the puppy eyes." Yugi says taking his notebook and pen and asking what the girl needs to know to help her.

While Miss Ishizu and he are discussing the further details I call Seto and ask if they can prepare a room next to my and Yugi's room before I go to dinner with those lovely ladies in there.

When I return, I see the staff at a large table placed on a stage, it's an amazing way to overlook all your students at once. The girls are divided by age it seemed, the little kids in the front of the stage and the eldest children in the back row, what surprises me is that Yugi sits next to Mana and the other older girls, talking and laughing like it's the most normal thing to do. I see Miss Ishizu waving me over, so I seat myself next to her.

"He wished himself to sit there with the girls, and who am I to go against that wish if it is a way to help him recover?" Miss Ishizu says with a gentle smile.

The two of us talk about what Mana needs to gain her the qualification to enter college, she tells me it's allot they don't have, so decided is I will get every other day an email with her assignment. Since Yugi and I need to clean the apartment, we stayed at, we also decided to go to Tokyo the day after tomorrow, we will fetch the girl then early in the morning.

When desert is devoured, and the girls have placed their plates in the racks to be cleaned. Yugi walks over towards the stage, and I see he is done, he wants to go home. But since miss Ishizu and I aren't done discussing things yet, Yugi simply climbs in my lap and hiding his head in the crook of my neck. He allows us to finish.

When we return home the girls all are waving towards us. "Atem, I want a bath." He voices out and I know he wants to talk. Back at the apartment Yugi and I took a bath and had have a serious conversation with each other, and in the end, I managed to agree. But I need Seto's help to accomplish that.

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