Kiyoshi caressed the golden cross hanging from his neck

And Kiyoshi knew, that it was better to embrace it than to fight it, better than to remember than to forget. The cross symbolized his faith, even if he had lost it long ago after the rebirth, but he still wanted a thing to rely on, and religion was the only thing that could accompany him through the river of time. Though he couldn't bring himself to pray to god anymore.

The lord and savior didn't save him from anything. He could no replenish his faith even in a new skin, in a new world, in a new story.

God was ignorant of his suffering, sometimes he wondered if god created humanity just for entertainment in his never ending existence, that he created imperfect beings just to see them suffer. The miracles he performed were only done to establish his power in the minds of humans, he saved no one in the end, as death was a huge wave that consumed everything in its path, never wavering nor sparing.

And if god didn't care, why should he? He's a coward, and he knows, but he'll do anything for survival, since death became a new concept for him after he died.

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"You know the reason, no matter how much you try to bury it, more friends? For your sake? Pshh—all lies, you knew Shoyou went to a school without a volleyball club, and you ditched him for your own benefit" No!… if I did and made Shoyou go to the same school as me…I would mess up the plot! And without my knowledge, I wouldn't have a upper hand in anything! I'm not as talented like them… "your existence ha already ruined everything, you know you're an abomination that shouldn't exist! You could've went to your dearest brother'sschool and helped him, but instead, you betrayed him for your selfish gains" I… "So you admit it…you are truly the most disgraceful being I've ever seen, and I know for sure you are…because I'm you"

His knowledge of the future is the only weapon he has, and he's not going to lose it by being too soft hearted. Even if it meant sacrificing himself.