Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
Want to go to bed
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go
The scent of gasoline filled the completely dark room. A distant pounding could be heard echoing into the darkness that surrounded Beyond. "Where am I?" His crimson eyes tried to focus into the darkness as he slipped his hands into his pocket as if it was instinct, he felt a zippo in his pocket. He flicked the zippo open and struck the wheel, lighting the wick. But even with the brilliant glow of the flame he could see no further. Trying harder to focus his eyes he timidly called out, "L?"
He turned around and let out a quiet yelp as he turned to see himself. But not in a reflection, flesh and blood. His eyes were hardened and cold, even with their lively blood color. "You have to do it." Beyond flinched as his doppelgänger touched his hand. The touch as cold as ice, reminded him of the grip of death.
Beyond could feel his own stare soften as he realized his clothes were soaked. Looking down he let out a long sigh. "I thought… Could it have been a dream? Has time really not progressed? Was that a situational?" Beyond's timid stare met the twin's cynical glare.
"What are you talking about? Drop the zippo… Free yourself. Be L's final haunting case. Be the case he could never solve. Be the World's Greatest Criminal."
Beyond shivered as the voice echoed around the darkened room. "Is that what I thought this would achieve me? I see now. L would have only assumed that I had ended myself in a moment of weakness, he would have considered me cracked. That I was as weak as he always said I was…" His stare hardened to match the doppelgänger. "No. I won't do this for that. I'll do this because I'm tired. I don't want to wake up on my own anymore."
The shade smirked as he slowly disappeared into the darkness as Beyond dropped the lighter to his feet. "Maybe… I can really rest this time." Beyond could feel a creeping heat as an echoed scream filled his ears, tears falling.
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore
Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go
Beyond snapped straight up, covered in sweat. Resting his cool hand onto his face he pulled his knees to his chest. "It was… A dream…" The pale moonlight poured in through the window, cascading a serene blue into the room.
The speakers queued up as a dull monotoned voice called to the other, "Beyond?"
Closing his sanguine eyes, the younger raven sighed, "It was, just a nightmare. L? Is there anything here that will help me sleep? I haven't been sleeping real well for the last few nights."
A long humming sound came from the speakers, "Hmmm. You'll have to promise to use it sparingly. It's strong enough to put me down for a night."
A broken smile curved over the plush lips of Beyond, "Only as much as I need. I promise."
"There is some hidden behind the tank of the toilet. It's pinned against the wall, you'll have to give it a good yank. It's there for… Insurance."
Beyond stared at the inky sky outside his window as a brilliant full moon poured tranquil silver and blue rays into his room. "I understand. I'll leave it on the counter so it can be hidden in a new place."
Padding his bare feet into the tiled bathroom, he felt as if time slowed down when his eyes landed on the bottle, exactly where L said it would be. 'At last… I can rest.' Giving the bottle a strong pull he dislodged it from its resting place. He spun the bottle slightly. Triazolam. "Heavy stuff, L."
L watched from the safety of his desk, "Please only take one." Trying to focus his eyes to adjust to the darkness of the room before groaning slightly, turning the cameras to night mode, which activated a night vision.
L's eyes widened as Beyond turned to the camera and gave a huge genuine smile. "Thank you… I won't be bothering you anymore. I know I've been a heavy burden. All my life… I've been nothing but a burden to you. A weight you had to carry… But, not anymore."
"B! No!" Beyond knocked the entire bottle back as he chugged a bottle of water to assist the cluster of pills as the went down.
"L? Did you know… That I was in love with you? All I ever wanted to was to be acknowledged. All I wanted was to be by your side… No matter what that was." Beyond slowly dropped to his knees as he hugged his own chest. "And now… I can rest." The same broken smile curved around his quivering lips. He could feel his limbs growing heavier. 'It should set in within about 20 minutes.'
L beat his shoulder against the solid wood, 'Of all the stupid!' He slammed against the wooden barrier fruitlessly. "Damnit, B! You can't die! Move you piece of crap piano!" L pounded his fists against the wooden door as silent tears streamed down his cheeks. 'You're the only one I can't lose. I can't bear to lose you…'
L stepped down the steps then charged into the trap door once more, sliding the piano off as the door flew open. L hesitated at the opening, 'The piano was never over the door… You've known… The whole time. You knew where I was. You've been planning this for a while…'
Beyond closed his crimson eyes, his head slowly lowering, as the door flew open and a fuzzy image of L appeared. A tired smile caressed the younger raven's lips as he looked up to the hazy image. "Oh my. You got here awfully fast." Beyond could feel himself be lifted bridal style as his head lazily fell backwards, hanging as if he were already gone, he heard the shower start. He shivered as a cold shower ran over him. Fuzzy images of his past began to float in and out of his mind, too quickly to ever pin one down.
"Damnit, B! You can't die! I need you!" L wrapped one arm around Beyond's diaphragm and constricted down while the other hand dug deep into his mouth, forcing vomit to surface. Both getting soaked by the freezing water. Beyond's throats finally tightened as the sleeping pills made their second visit.
L crouched next to B, in his usual haunched fashion, gently rubbing the latter's back. In between violet outburst of heaving and vomit, L gently spoke to him. "It isn't your fault. You're no burden to me. I love you, too. So much that I could never let go."
There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
There is another world
There is a better world
Beyond collapsed backwards into L and let out a shuddered breath and a whole body shiver. "Why?"
Wrapping his spindly arms and legs around the raven, to cradle the younger of the two, "I don't know. I just always have." L gently kissed the back of B'S head.
Beyond nodded gently and shivered once again, "L? Will you sing me to sleep?"
A crooked smile passed L's features as he lifted Beyond from the bottom of the shower, holding him in one arm, like a child. Reaching over, he turned the knob to the shower off. "Of course."
Asleep - Emily Browning
