Hello Friends!

I has been a very long time since I have written anything in general.

AS per usual I will update until I cannot!

As of right now, I am not working and been having a rough pregnancy so most of my time has been dedicated to reading and writing!

Anyways Grounder Bellamy and sky Clarke, Post season 1 cause everything went downhill after that...

Bellamy x Clarke

Roan x Raven

Also another warning please read.

This focuses on grounder culture mixed with werewolf, meaning some rituals and traditions are old. Meaning some of the smut you may not like or agree with( no rape what so ever). Just giving a heads up.

One more note.

I love you guys xo


Clarke could see the sun setting over the settlement the 100 and ark created; by created, ruthlessly taken over. She could see the endless people puttering around the camp. Clarke felt trapped, she had lost power too easily when her mother and Jaha said she could not run a camp. She managed to keep 87 people alive, while Camp Jaha was executing people in the middle of camp. A tyrant was present, hungry for blood. Clarke knew her turn was next, she winced as Pike grabbed her by the hair and pulled her to a freshly cut tree stump. Clarke knew the moment Jaha and Pike took over the camp that their crimes would not be forgiven.

They were sent to die, and they lived. All 87 were forced to give power, Clarke and Miller handed it over unwillingly, guns pointed and raided their medical supplies. Children could not run a camp, even if they were sentenced to die. 87 had dwindled down to 39 delinquents, Finn was buried twenty feet where Clarke laid her head.

They did their best.

Wells was lucky dying within the first twenty days, his death was swift. Slit throat.

Clarke smelt the former blood of Finn on the stump mixed with freshly shopped wood. Clarke's hair was in a braid her hair hanging limply off the stump, the cold breeze sobers Clarke.

Clarke closes her eyes and thinks of her father, her protector.

Clarke looks over to Jaha and her mother who both share the same look.

Formers leaders stripped of power.

Her mother winks.

Clarke blinks in confusion.

Clarke can hear the grunt of the axe being pulled from the tree, her heart is beating erratically.

Clarke shocked gasp as she begins the names of the executed.

While she names she can hear the axe being sharped. The sound of metal scratching.

"Charlotte, Pascal, Gina, Monroe, and Finn"

The crowd is silent hearing names of deceased, she wants to crowd to do something, stop the madness.

"John, Wells, Sasha, Luke, Glass and Miller"

Clarke could feel the ground shake, hands bounded behind her back she could hear the yelling and screaming, the man still had his foot at the base of her back. She struggled to fight the brute man, she looked over and saw grounders attacking the people, Clarke could hear the clang and screams of the swords battling. The brute behind her had been stabbed, drawing his attention to his attacker, Clarke was able to pull away from Pike. His lifeless eyes stare into Clarke as she spits on his dead face.

Clarke felt a body slam into her, she hissed out in pain kicking and flailing, but her attacker pulled her cloth out of her mouth, she then felt unbound. Clarke's mother is pulling away from the battle, this was planned. Clarke pulled her arms back viscously ready to attack her mother, she did not help or stop that man from killing her.

"Clarke I don't have time to explain, hurry!" she said pulling Clarke out of the camp and away from the camp.

"Mom-" Clarke started to speak needing more answers.

"Not now Clarke!" she hisses pulling into thick trees, Clarke is struggling to move when she hears a woman's voice.

"Bring her forward, Abby" Clarke takes two more steps seeing a women on a black horse, her green eyes catch Clarkes attention.

"Clarke listen to me, I had no choice to do what I had to do, but Pike and his followers will be taken care of, I will meet up with you soon!" she said holding Clarkes face in her hands.

"Now Abby, he wants her before midnight" The green eyed women said roughly.

"Clarke go, this is the only way I can keep you safe" she begins to step back and pulls a long dagger, she gives Clarke one last look before driving herself forward into battle. Clarke knew if she stepped foot into camp someone would finish the job. Clarke had friends battling, she then turns her body to follow her mother when a blade to her neck stops her.

"Don't even think about it" she warns Clarke the tip of the long sword kisses her neck.

"Let's go" she leaves no room for argument as Clarke can feel her roughly grab her and force her on the horse.

Clarke has been alive long enough to know that is inhuman movement.

Clarkes eyes widen as she begins to dismount and quickly as she can. Inhuman movement makes her stop dead in tracks, the green eyed women holds the blade. Clarke stops and the horse begins to move and the camp is slowly disappearing and she could her the screams of the camp being decimated.

There was not much of a change of scenery, Clarke knew she was really far away from her camp which she knew she could never return to. So many had been executed before her turn, she remembered seeing Finn unfocussed eyes staring right at her. Clarke never knew the name of the green eyed women who had been her saviour or her demise. Clarke gripped the saddle a little harder than she intended, once they reached a cobblestone gate with iron bars Clarke begin to look around to find an escape route. The green eyed women had sense Clarkes energy to flee the women turned and faced Clarke with a devilish smile.

"Don't even try to run, this valley has many blood thirsty wolves" she smirked as she grabs Clarke elbow and pushes her through. People stare as Clarke pulls the hood of her cloak up blocking her face. The women walks with multiple strides as Clarke peeks through her cloak she can see so many guards with swords, men on the roofs and balconies watching the area. Clarke can sense why her mother had sent her here. The women pulled Clarke up a set of stairs and she pulls a lantern off the post, two more guards follow behind Clarke and she begins to feel the anxiety blooming in her chest.

Climbing so many stairs Clarke sees many people, looking at her with curiosity.

Heart fluttering she can see a handsome man in the throne room, his wore a crown of bones, dark brown waves and his eyes captivate Clarke she forgets for just a second why she is here, the doors suddenly close behind Clarke and she snaps out of her trance and escape plans seemed impossible at this point. Guards at every exit, and the leader in front.

"Let me see your face" he steps off his throne and begins to down a couple steps. Clarke keeps her head down refusing to look at him any longer, Clarke can feel his rough hands on her neck, she squeezed her eyes shut. Clarke shivered under his touch, slowly she opened her eyes and met his hazel eyes. Clarke froze, she could not move if she tried,

"You were right" he said over his shoulder to the green eyed women.

"I always am" she smirked back at her.

"What's your name?"

"Cleo" Clarke lied.

"Lying is not your strongest suit princess"

Clarke winces at term, the was Finns last word before his head was chopped off.

"You should know my name, I killed your people" Clarke said with her head held high.

The king glared at her and so did everyone else in the room, Clarke refused to back down as he moved so close to her she tried to move back but he pushed against the wall the cobblestone dug into her back. The king glowered at her his intense eyes made Clarke almost regret saying it.

"You are alive because I allow it, I can kill your whole camp without blinking at eye"

"Do it, I dare you" Clarke said moving forward.

Most of Clarke's people are gone.

She prays Monty Jasper and Raven got out.

The king stopped suddenly as turned his head and he smelled her. Clarke tried to move back but he stopped her again.

"You aren't pure" he said circling around her.

The green eyed women whipped her head up as if I offended her.

"Do you want me to throw her in the wastelands?" the green eyed women said.

The King kept circling around me like vulture circling his prey, he remained silent as he stood behind me.

"Kill her mother, put her in my quarters" the king supplied as if that would be the last word.

"No!" Clarke shouted.

"I have no idea what you and mother agreed on, but please don't kill her!" Clarke said advancing, he suddenly whips around.

Clarke felt the large men move forward to follow the kings order but Clarke rapidly turned around and made a way out, she managed to get through the guards, Clarke knew she wouldn't get far but she tried. A guard grabbed her arm and twisted it back and slammed her against the wall, Clarke felt blood slide down her temple, and groaned. Barely able to keep her eyes open she watched the king shift into a midnight black wolf. That was the last thing Clarke saw until her body collapsed.


Clarke opened her eyes and felt the sun rays on her skin, she was sleeping in bed, Clarke blinks a few times seeing the green eyed women sitting on an armchair braiding her hair. Clarke sits up and her back is against the wooden headboard.

"Finally" she sighed sitting up.

She roughly grabs Clarke chin inspecting her face.

Clarke attempted to push the women back but she smirked and walks away.

"Clarke I don't have all day, get dressed we are seeing my brother" she said in the doorway.

Clarke tried to piece everything together, she was thrown into a wall, she bled but why was there a wolf. How did that man turn into one. Clarke's mind begins to race as she remembered that it was a wolf, the king had changed into one. How is that possible, she read old human folklore stories before she went to the ground. Clarke is in a dress and she puts on her cloak and her braid had fallen out leaving her hair in waves, Clarke had pulled a hood over her head and began to walk out. The women was leading Clarke and she had no fight left in her.

"My name is Clarke" Clarke struggled out, she was scared and knew this women was strong and could her in a blink of the eye.

"Octavia"

No other words were said.

Octavia stops abruptly as she opens the doors into the throne room.

Clarke bit her lip and kept her head down, she didn't want to go into a wall again.

"I hope you are well, Clarke"

Clarke kept her head down, she didn't want to anger him anymore.

"I'm fine" she utters out.

"What are you?" Clarke said, her invasive questions flooded her.

"Werewolf, you humans must of read about it" he hadn't moved from his seat.

"Thats Folklore, that was never real" Clarke laughed she could remember her father reading her stories of the beast of the night.

"Why me?" Clarke said, she stared right at the beast her heart racing.

"Because we are bound together"

Clarke has never believed in love, she always thought Finn was the one until he had a girlfriend.

"I don't want to be with you" Clarke spits the words out like acid.

He was going to kill her mother and then her old village, she began to panic and feel as if the walls are closing in on her.

"Your mother needed my army, I gave it to her, I only wanted one thing and she was more than willing to give it to me" his dark eyes followed me.

"You are my other half, you will stay here, be my wife and bear my children"

Clarke paled, she back up feeling overwhelmed with the information.

Forty-eight hours ago she watched Finn die and now she was trapped in a grounder city.

"Bellamy, she looks like she is going to faint again, you better feed her before mother finds out how skinny and sick she is"

Nausea and sharp pains in her uterus made Clarke stumble. Clarke ignored the pain and focused on Octavia and Bellamy.

While Octavia and Bellamy argue Clarke can see a balcony, no man could force her, she would simply jump, she would be with all the people she had lost. Clarkes slow movement went unnoticed as she rushed out the door dropping her cloak she had one foot on the concrete slab, just one more movement.

Strong male arms wrapped her she fought yelled and screamed being denied her bliss. He pushes her away she uses her hands to break fall. No blood this time, Bellamy slammed the doors shut locking them.

"You really think we would let you do that" Bellamy said with a smile.

Clarkes face remains impassive, she used to play checkers but now she was playing chess with the king.

"I wont be your breeding whore, I cannot conceive a child" Clarke snidely speaks out.

"She isn't lying" Octavia speaks out.

"What did they do to you" he hisses out.

"I have a contraceptive device, the ark did it before I came down" Clarke smiled as Bellamy's fall ever so slightly.

"She needs to see a healer regardless, I mean humans do occasionally fall into heat" Octavia supplied she sat in a chair eating a bowl of grapes.

"No"

Clarke charges forward rage pushing her, Bellamy is right in front of her. Clarke goes to hit Bellamy he leans back and grabs her wrist, Clarke could feel Bellamys body heat on her back. Clarke eyes widen when she felt his appendage, jumping backwards as if someone had shocked her.

"Bellamy, go for a run I'll take Clarke to the healer" Octavia ordered.

"Oct-"

"Now" she snaps.

Bellamy looks like the guy that would never take orders from his sister but he stopped took a deep breath and charged out the room. Leaving Clarke speechless once again, she hates the feeling that man gives her, Clarke pushes those feelings down deep inside and never think about it again.

"Clarke, just sit down, eat a little bit and we can talk about a few things" Octavia said.

"Clarke this will be a long road ahead don't fight me on this" she said quietly.

"I am not breeding whore, I want to leave"

"Clarke my brother can be a dick, I'm here trying to help you"

Clarke sighed and pulled a chair and sat down at the little table, there were meats and cheeses, fruits and fresh made bread, Clarke never ate much, she never always got to eat, Pike and Jaha had starved the remaining faction of the hundred. Clarke thought back to the long hours of labour, building the walls with little water and food.

Clarke eats very slowly, her stomach acid crawling up her throat. Nausea rolls through Clarke that she turns her nose away from the food.

"Have some tea" Octavia hands her a small cup with a citrus smell. Clarke sips a little and she can feel her stomach settling slowly.

"There are some things you need to know before I take you to a healer"

"My brother is the our king, which means at some point you will be crowned queen"

"Clarke, this is not a title to take lightly, I understand you are from the sky you have expectations to meet, and my mother is one of them"

"Can't he have someone else as his queen, I can walk away from all this and start a new life" Clarke begins to start a plan.

"He won't want anyone else, just you and only you" Octavia said placing her tea down.

Octavia stand up and calls Clarke to follow her, Clarke knows if she refuses she will be forced to and it will hurt.

Clarke follows Octavia, she makes sure her head is down, no one should see her face.

The healing quarters make Clarke look up, all the beds are bigger than the makeshift tarp ones in camp, real wooden beds, multiple sinks, sterilized tools, the amount of labeled herbs caught Clarkes attention. This was a well managed medical room.

"Healer Nyko!" Octavia said cheerfully.

"Hello Octavia" he said looking up from his large book.

"Is that her?"

"The one and only" Octavia said grimly.

"You killed my sister with your rocket fuel" he said from his desk.

"She tried killing me first" Clarkes reply is instant without thinking.

"No worries, I'm glad you did, quite the tyrant" he said with a smile.

Clarke felt sick to her stomach hearing that, she likes to act tough about what she did, but she did it to survive. Clarke wonders every night, if it's worth it. The survival. How the 100 imprisoned criminals deserved life when they've done nothing to prove it, especially Clarke, she should of been dead.

Clarke had to do multiple tests and by the end of it she is agitated, the healer is documenting everything.

"She is very fertile, she lied, the implant is there but no longer a contraceptive, the implant is unfortunately in her uterus and will need be removed before she has children"

"It's staying in" Clarke speaks up.

"I understand that you would like to keep it in, but I can see early signs of your body rejecting it, your body wants it gone, it needs to be removed"

"Clarke, you are a healer, he wouldn't lie to you, read his findings" Octavia said.

Clarke quickly skimmed the notebook and he was right all the signs were there.

"Please no" is Clarke's reply.

"Clarke your body is rejecting it, you will bleed a lot and possibly die"

"Is this happening because of Bellamy"

That was Clarkes first time ever saying his name, Clarke can already feel the cramping and nausea.

"I know this doesn't seem like you have a choice but I will give you one, if you get this removal I will lock you somewhere far away from Bell"

"Clarke, that's why your body is rejecting it, you will go into heat" Octavia said.

"Promise me, he won't go anywhere near me"

"I promise"

"Do you have another healer that can do this?" Octavia said looking at Nyko

"I'll grab Madja" he said going into another room.

Clarke leaned her head back as a women came in, she was in her fifties and Clarke felt a little better until another cramp.

Clarke had no warning when the healer grabbed pliers and began to move quickly.

Why were they doing this so fast?

Clarke began to feel lighter, her head didn't feel as heavy the pain was fading.

"Madja, you have to stop the bleeding"

"The device wasn't put in properly, get back"

Clarke felt white hot pain, eyes squeezed shut she can't help when she shrieked, the device was in Madja's hands.

"She started her heat, send her somewhere where the king can't find her" Madja ordered.

Clarke could barely keep her eyes open, Clarke head tilted back. Octavia went to pick her up but Madja stopped her.

"I'll hold her, you'll have to fight, every male will want to claim her, Bellamy definitely heard her scream, we are running out of time"

Octavia pulls her sword out and begins to lead the way out of clinic, Clarke could smell her own blood, Clarke was about to start dry heaving but her body started to feel lighter.

Clarke opened her eyes to see her being put on a bed, the room was dark.

"Drink this" Octavia ordered.

Clarke too weak to open her eyes Octavia shoves a bottle in her mouth.

Clarke closes her eyes and calls to the darkness.

When Clarke opens her eyes she pukes on the floor, her body coated in sweat, she is shaking. The room is no longer dark Octavia is in that same chair she is whittling what looks like a vampire stake.

"I guess you don't feel well" Octavia said not looking up from her nails.

"No I feel fantastic" Clarke vented; her fist curling around sheets, her eyes watered after the dry heaving she leans back on the bed, ignoring the fact she had puked on the floor.

"How long was I out for?" Clarke asked.

"Three days" Octavia said finally looking up from her her whittling.

"My brother wants to speak with you one on one"

"You should bathe" Octavia said standing up stretching and making her way out.

"Octavia?"

"Yes, Clarke" she turned around giving her a glare.

"Thank you, for giving me a choice"

Surprise is etched on Octavia's face, she clears her throat awkwardly and then leaves the room.

Clarke runs a bath and she wasn't in there long when she realized how much blood she lost.

Clarke knew if she was at her old village they would be able to save her easily, but they had equipment. They gave her a potion and she magically restored all her blood. Clarke braided her long bangs making a crown with her hair. Clarke walks out of her bedroom and bumps head to head with Bellamy.

"Hello princess" he said lazily.

"Bellamy" Clarke snippily replied.

"I'm glad you are okay" he said honestly.

"I bet you mounted some bitch, you horny dog" Clarke said looking at him with hate.

Bellamy had grabbed Clarke and he roughly pushed her against the wall.

His had snaked up to her throat, he was gentle but held his hand against her throat as a warning.

"Remember princess, I miss one heat, that doesn't mean I'll miss the next one" he smirked.

"I'm not stupid, your healer sent me away from you, I know you ordered her to keep me away from you" Clarke said breathlessly.

His hand was still at her throat.

"For a king, you aren't very good at chess" Clarke clipped back.

Clarke met eyes with Bellamy and could tell she struck a chord with him, she loved playing this game with him. She liked seeing him upset, Clarke especially loved when he was mad. He was careless when he angry.

"Keep talking like that and I'll send you your mothers head" He whispered into her neck.

Clarke attempted to shove Bellamy but he did not move the slightest.

"What did you want with me" Clarke said getting straight to the point.

"Would you like to see my Kingdom" he said, his face did not show any emotion.

Clarke wanted nothing more than to hide in her room but she knew she could not escape from her room.

"Yes"

Clarke follows Bellamy, he talks about his village, he is very proud. Lot's of children running around, Clarke and see Bellamy approaches a little girl, she had blonde hair with pink ribbons in it. She looked no more than seven, Clarke watched as she twirled in front of the king with a giggle.

"Clarke this is Cara" he said as the little girl had approached Clarke.

"You are so beautiful" she whispered in awe.

"She really is" Bellamy utters.

Clarke pretend she did not hear Bellamy, her cheeks had flushed red but then stopped when she remembered he wants to kill her mother. Cara is right in front of Clarke touching her blonde hair.

"You are very cute" Clarke chuckled at she kept playing with her hair.

"Cara!" A women called.

She runs forward and relief floods the mothers face.

"My apologies! My king! Cara darling we have to go" her mother ushering her away.

Cara never moved.

"Go to your mother" Clarke whispers.

"But I want to play with your hair"

"How about I braid your hair next time I come out" Clarke said smiling.

The girl agreed and ran back to her mother with a skip in her step.

"So beast at night and friendly wolf during the day" Clarke said with an eye roll.

"Why do you feel the need to fight me on everything?" Bellamy said walking at a slow pace so Clarke wouldn't overexert herself.

"You threaten my mother any chance you get" Clarke said as she stopped walking causing Bellamy to turn around and face her.

"Clarke, I've wanted you since you stepped foot on the ground two years ago"

"Wait, you've been watching me this whole time?" Clarke glares at him.

"Of course" he said nonchalant.

Clarke is agitated but she keeps walking and ignoring the looks she receives from his people.

"So you are probably wondering, why you? why would I go through all these minimal tasks to get you" Bellamy started.

"Well its simple, as I said you will be my wife, queen, I understand children is too soon, we will start with courting" he said helping Clarke up the stairs.

"I knew you had that male before me, but he is dead now I assume?" Bellamy stated offhandedly.

"Yes" Clarke gritted out.

"I mean he was unworthy of your affections" Bellamy continued.

"Stop"

Clarke has tears brimming her eyes, she loved Finn and he was her first, and he did have a girlfriend. Clarke found her on the ground kissing Finn and thats an image Clarke will remember forever.

Bellamy eyes widen.

Clarke held her hate close to heart, she walk towards Bellamy.

"I loved him, and he always was a good fuck" Clarke seethed out, watching her words wound the beast. She knew he had this deep possessiveness towards her, she used that to her advantage.

"If anyone is an unworthy male, it's you Bellamy" Clarke whispered out of his ear.

Clarke felt him tremble with rage.

"Break it up lovebirds" a male said coming beside Bellamy.

"Not now Murphy" Bellamy said.

"Bellamy, contain it or go for a run, we have kids here" Murphy warned.

Clarke knew she had a problem with keeping her thoughts to herself, slowing backing away from the mess she created. Clarke looks and see the gate is open, men are coming in on horses.

"Don't run" Murphy eyes glare at her.

Clarke begins to feel her hands shake with adrenaline, if she runs he would catch her and she would be sent back. Clarke relaxes knowing if she runs fast enough she can close the gate and get out. Clarke can feel the excitement in her veins with just the idea of leaving.

"Octavia get her inside" Murphy said pushing Bellamy out the gate and closing it behind him.

"I don't blame you for doing that, but you cannot speak to my brother like that"

Clarke said nothing the whole way back.

Not a single damn word.


Clarke knew she was being avoided, three days after her altercation with Bellamy whenever Clarke entered a room he would leave, Clarke tried not to let it bother her but she had to give him time. Clarke stopped dead in tracks and realized she was putting his feelings into consideration.

Clarke noticed that the gates were closed now, Clarke had two guards at her door. One of them had brought her supplies to keep her busy, Clarke noticed she had gotten some paints and brushes, she looks around the room and starts on the tile floors.

Clarke blinks and sees that daylight is fading, the gate opens again but then closes right away. Clarke stopped watching the gate hours ago when she painted the valley she when she had first landed on earth, all the earthy greens and the crisp blue sky. Her door opens and Clarke whips her head up, her hair was blocking her vision, brushing strands aside she seeing a older women who looks a lot of like Octavia.

"You must be Clarke" she said closing the door.

"I'm Aurora" she said offering her hand.

Clarke looks at her hands covered in paint. She shakes her hand anyways.

"My son seems to fancy you" she said pulling a chair near the balcony.

"I'm aware" Clarke said moving her paint water away.

Clarke takes a seat across Aurora while she pours herself a cup of herbal tea.

"My son can be a little hotheaded, but he loyal above all"

"I understand this is all new to you, but we will need you to step up"

Clarke looks up at Aurora, she looked like she had been through it. She had a long scar on her neck that caught Clarke's attention, she looked away.

"I understand your people make deals am I correct?" Aurora said placing the cup down.

"Yes" Clarke looking up.

"You give him once chance, just one, in return if you cannot handle any of this I will personally make your scent dormant and you can go where ever your heart desires"

"He will never find me?" Clarke questions.

"No he would never be able to find you" She said assuringly.

Clarke bit her lip, she didn't want to be with Bellamy at all but she would have to make an effort.

"It's a deal" Clarke said offering her hand.

Aurora pulls a knife and slices her hand.

"This is oath, if I fail my end of the deal I will die"

"Like I said Clarke, I can give you my word"

Clarke takes the handle of the blade and cuts her hand and shakes hands with Aurora.

Clarke is leaning on her balconey watching the guards do their rounds when she hears shouting, her name being called. Clarke runs down the stairs in she almost trips over her dress but opens the doors and she sees Raven, Monty, Jasper. Clarke doesn't care as she runs and gets smothered.

"Your alive?!" Clarke is feeling Monty's tiny head and crushing him.

Clarke holds him close.

"What about me?" Jasper whines.

Clarke turns around and hugs Raven tightly.

"How did you get here?" Clarke gasps out. Raw emotion escapes Clarke she doesn't care she fully cries holding them close.

She's lost so much. All three of them, minus two.

Finn and Miller.

"Pike and his followers are dead the grounders now they run the camp" Raven said.

"They allowed us here"

"How did you know I was here" Clarke asked.

"Your mother told us"

Clarke sighed in relief, she knew Bellamy was using her mother and leverage but part always wondered if he would cross that line. Clarke shook the thought and hugged her friends closely.

A throat being cleared made Clarke pulled back from Jasper.

"Clarke, you should go back to your room" Octavia said.

"He won't like the smell of a male on you" Octavia sang warningly.

"What is she talking about?" Raven said raising her eyebrows.

"There is so much I have to tell you" Clarke said quietly.

"Clarke now" Octavia intervened again.

Clarke winced but knew she had to, if she made Bellamy more angry she wouldn't be able to see them.

"It's different here, come by later" Clarke said quickly.

Clarke had turned around and went back into her room giving Raven a look.

Clarke sat on her bed when Raven walked in, she was wearing worn down pants that more rips than anything else. She sat down on the end of Clarkes bed and she looked at her.

"Monty and Jasper are getting settled in" Raven said.

"Werewolves" is all Clarke can get out.

"What?"

"The legends are true" Clarke said.

"Clarke are you okay?" Raven said concern in her voice.

"No, I am not okay! My mother sent me to the wolves, one thinks I'm his soulmate and apparently I'm some sort of queen!"

"Have you lost your damn mind!" Raven said

"It's all real Raven"

"No!" Raven said shaking her head.

"I just learned about this days ago!" Clarke said.

"Okay what else" Raven said sighing sinking deeper into Clarkes bed.

"He wants to have me as a wife and give him a heir" Clarke said leaning her head back.

"This is not normal" Raven said shaking her head.

"To be fair we came from the sky" Clarke said shrugging.

"Fair point Griffin"

Raven had ended up staying the the room which had been painful as Raven kicked a lot. Clarke slowly crawled out of bed and got ready for the day, Clarke knew how much Raven enjoyed her sleep. Clarke left the room silently she closed the door and made her way to the dining hall, Clarke saw Monty and Jasper eating berries and bread, Monty throwing blueberries into Jasper mouth.

"Hey guys"

Both of them turn and face Clarke with goofy smiles.

"So tell us about the king that wants to plow you like a cornfield" Jasper said with a sly smirk.

"Get it? Monty?"

"Why would I get it?"

"Cause your family worked on the farm station"

"Oh I thought it was my job here" Monty said.

"Wait? your farming here?"

"Okay, please stop smoking the herb so damn early" Clarke snapped but a smile enters her features.

"Want some?" Jasper said.

"I've matured" Clarke said turning her nose but pocketed the small bag on the table.

"Okay princess" Monty said with a smirk.

"Hey!" Clarke said shoving him.

All of them erupt in laughter, this was the first time in months since she had laughed that hard.

Raven takes a seat beside Monty while Clarke is snacking on grapes.

"What jobs are you guys doing here?" Clarke inquired.

"Jasper and I have applied for a liquor license to run a tavern, also you should get Bellamy to approve it" Jasper said slyly.

"I'll get on that" was Clarke's sarcastic reply and she popped a piece of cheese in her mouth.

"Seriously what is going on with you guys?" Raven said.

"You haven't said a single thing" Jasper pointed out.

"I'm going to give it a try" Clarke said looking down at her food.

"Clarke.."

"I know, but I have the option to leave"

"Yeah that's why the gate is always closed" Raven supplied taking a bite of bread.

Clarke had no reply, instead she started playing with her empty tea cup.

"Clarke is he forcing-"

"Raven I haven't even kissed him"

Clarke didn't want to even mention she felt his dick on her, because that was a memory Clarke was going to bury and never think about again.

Instead Clarke ate another grape to distract herself.

Murphy saunters over and sit beside Raven, Clarke could tell she was very irritated.

"I'm over here for one reason, and Raven love it ain't for you, I'm to let you know there is a celebration of life for one our elder passed away, bring yourself and dress up other leaders will be there" he said before winking at Raven.

Just like he was gone again, and Clarke knew she was staying in her bed room tonight.

"I'm heading back into my room" Clarke said.

"Clarke, common we could all go and meet everyone" Clarke looked up confused.

"Why do you want to be here?" Clarke asked.

"We always have food, and we all have little tasks and then we can do what ever we want, I mean we built a wall, starved, lost many people, this is a safe place, why would we want to leave?" Jasper said looking back at Clarke with confusion.

"I'll see you later" Clarke said walking away and not even bothering to look back.

Clarke opened her bedroom door and saw Bellamy on her balcony, she closed her door cautiously. Clarke had gone three days without speaking to him and he hadn't looked much different from when she saw him last, he wore a loose shirt he didn't fully button his chest showing tattoos and scars. Clarke tilts her head as she walks towards him, he remains still but he holds a drink in his hand.

"I've realized I have been a little harsh to you"

Clarke nervously stands closer to Bellamy the closeness makes him relax.

"It completely slipped my mind that you are human, you came from the sky"

Clarke looks up and stares at the stars, Clarke always wondered if she was fated to come down to earth.

Clarke used to hate look in the sky, all the culling's the ark did. Clarke has a hard time looking at the night sky.

Bellamy took a sip what looked like red wine. Bellamy handed her a glasses, she sat on the bench and so did Bellamy.

"I'm willing to give you a chance" Clarke said taking a large sip of wine.

Bellamy smiles looking at Clarke nervously looks down.

"But I don't want children" Clarke said looking straight into his eyes.

"I need a heir but not anytime soon, we will go at your pace"

Clarke dimmed, she felt herself losing every battle she faced. Clarke liked making her on choices and for the last few weeks Clarkes felt she had no control.

"How about I decide, if that ever happens" she tries again.

Bellamy face changed he wanted to fight again and Clarke was tired of the fighting.

"Fine"

"You cannot let males touch you"

"I will work on that" Clarke forces her words out.

"Sorry to hear about one of the elders passing" Clarke said looking straight ahead.

"She was very old" is Bellamy's reply.

Bellamy stand up offering his hand to Clarke, he pulls her up gracefully.

"Clarke would you like to accompany me, to the celebration of life?"

"I find it morbid" Clarke said walking away.

"When people die, we mourn we cry" Clarke starts.

"Inga lived for two hundred years, we celebrate her life together as a community"

Clarke nods and walks back into her bedroom which had become alot cooler since the doors have been opened. It was early spring. Clarke had only been on the ground for a couple months.

When Bellamy walks back in Clarke sees his hazel eyes her eyes trail down to his chest, Clarke suddenly feels warm and Bellamy notices and suddenly she in his arms.

"Why do you feel so nice" Clarke mumbled.

Clarke's skin feel warm, Bellamy's large arms caging her in.

Clarke ever so slightly moves her head, she is so close to his lips, her breathing becomes shallow her hands slowly making their way to his chest, Bellamy grabs her face suddenly and kisses her deeply, Clarke cant help but let out a soft moan, her body felt warmer and warmer, the more Bellamy touched her. Clarke jumps into his arms and begins kissing down his neck cause him to growl. Clarke let him explore her neck, she let out another moan as he kissed up her neck.

Clarke stopped her eyes going wide.

"What the hell!?"

Clarke can feel the blood sliding down her neck, Bellamy looks at Clarke in pure horror.

"Clarke-"

"Get the hell away from me!" Clarke runs out the door slamming the door as she picks up the pace, Clarke can remember where the clinic was, if no one is there she can give herself stitches. Clarke makes plans on what she will do after, how can she get the hell out of there, the pain remained still. Clarke stops herself from vomiting, and makes the three extra steps. Clarke grabs everything she needs and Bellamy is there.

"Get away from me!" Clarke yells.

Clarke is hysterical, Bellamy watches her horrified with shaky hands she moves hair aside and more blood pooled into her hand.

"Clarke" Bellamy again tries to approach her.

Clarke looks at Madja who just walked in with a bin of supplies.

"He fucking bit me, get him out of here!" Clarke shouted.

"Clarke-"

"OUT!" Madja shouted to the male. Clarke knew this women enough that she ran the clinic.

"I am your king-"

"Bellamy Blake, you will come back later when my patient is not bleeding, I don't care if your my king, you are in my clinic" she spoke with authoritative which made Clarke relax when she could hear his retreating steps.

"It's okay to cry Clarke" Madja said quietly.

Clarke sat down and turned her neck for Madja, the bite was deep, What disturbed Clarke was the bleeding stopped and Madja left a cloth to her neck, no need for stitches? Clarke was baffled.

"Rest Clarke, tomorrow is a new day" Madja said leaving her room and locking the door for Clarke. Slowly she crawls out of bed complete the other two locks on the door.


Clarke did not open the door for days, her food came delivered, and she never answered the door. Clarke created a safe area where no one could hurt her, she could paint, read and watch the outside world. She would be isolated but she did it before and could do it again. Another knock at her door, Clarke ignored it.

"Clarke, don't make me kick down this door" she knows instantly.

"You fucking bit me" Clarke anger was laced in her voice.

"Let me explain!"

Clarke suddenly unlocks the door and opens it with ease.

"Talk then"

"You have thirty seconds"

"Clarke!" Bellamy hisses.

"How did the kiss feel?" Bellamy blurted.

"I'm not answering that"

Clarke said not looking at him.

"You know exactly how you felt"

Bellamy slowly turns Clarke's loose strand of hair and twirls his finger.

"You may see me as your enemy, but I would burn down the world if anyone were to harm you" he spoke.

"You still hurt me" Clarke said moving back.

"I regret it, if I could change that moment I would" he utters out.

"What will happen to me?" Clarke said feeling the dread was to follow.

"You already know" he said.

Clarke whipped around, she was thinking of the heat spreading around her body.

"You put me into heat?" Clarke yells.

"I'll leave but you will need a healer with you, no one has ever skipped more than three heats" he warns.

"What because I'm human?" Clarke snips out.

"Clarke, this is a strong bond, the more you fight the more pain it will cause, I know what happened with the contraceptive device, Madja had never seen that until you"

"Make me a promise" Clarke moves closer to Bellamy.

Bellamy visibly gulped as Clarke moved very close to Bellamy.

"Don't get me pregnant" she said fiercely.

Bellamy pauses and nods, his fingers are near his lips.

"I'll get Madja to brew wolfbanes"

"Better hurry, I'm already starting to sweat" Clarke said quietly as if she has admitted defeat.

Bellamy walks out locking the door, Clarke knew she had the choice to not let him in and that was the reason she kept watching the door.

Clarke begins to feel her legs shake by dusk, Clarke knows she will in for the night for at least for three nights. Clarke clenches her teeth as another cramp causes her to groan out. Clarke is gripping the sheets with her fists, Bellamy had walked in and laid beside her. He rubbed Clarkes lower back as she hisses out.

"Clarke just relax"

"Have a bath, you'll feel better after" Bellamy advises.

"I give up!" Clarke throws the blankets off the bed and straddles Bellamy.

Clarkes body feels lighter, the sweating and cramps stop instantly. Just by touching this beast.

"Clarke have a bath and I'll put you to bed" Bellamy said coaxing her off his lap.

"This is exactly what you wanted" Clarke whispers into his ear.

"Not this way" Bellamy pulls himself away.

"My instincts took over, I don't want to hurt you again" he said putting the blankets on the bed.

"Wait you aren't in heat?" Clarke said looking up.

"No Clarke, if you ever mark me I will want to fuck you in every surface, but we won't be completing this bond" he said seating himself in a chair with a book in hand.

Clarke sat from the bed with a smirk dancing on her lips. The door was locked three different ways, she was away from any males. Clarke had noticed he was pouring a rancid bitter tea. Clarke gagged as Bellamy poured the tea into a glass. Bellamy cringes at the smell and moves back.

"This will kill any wolf pups" he assured Clarke.

Clarke felt queasy looking at the tea, Clarke placed ice in the tea to cool it down.

Clarke gripped the cup and tilted it back, just like of shot of moonshine. Clarke place the cup down and stares at the ground her arms supporting her body.

"Wow that was worse than moonshine" Clarke laughs.

"How long will this last me?" Clarke asked Bellamy who still hadn't said a word.

"Three days" he replied still looking at the floor.

"Are you mad?" Clarke said bending down to his level.

"It's not a easy thing for me to watch Clarke"

"It's my choice" Clarke said puzzled.

"It is Clarke, but I'm not happy about it, just like your little deal with my mother"

"How do you-"

"Doesn't matter Clarke" he quipped.

"I want you gone after your heat" he seethed

"What do you mean?" Clarke said.

"You bet my mother's life without a second thought, I knew this would take time, but I trusted you" Clarke could tell by Bellamys tone he was angry, she looked up.

"I don't regret it, not one bit" Clarke said moving forward.

Bellamy rages and grabs Clarke, just like she wanted, him touching causes Clarke to moan. He couldn't walk away even if he wanted to. Clarke scent was stifling under nose. Bellamy's eyes widen when he realized what she done.

"Clarke" he voice is deep and animalistic.

Clarke nervously takes a step back but Bellamy storms forward with a new found prey, eyes narrowed he looks down at Clarke.

Bellamy swiftly picks up Clarke and passionately kisses her, he kisses the nasty mark on her neck, he whispered in her ear.

"After your heat, I want you out"

Clarke doesn't answer instead she begins to take Bellamy's clothes off.

"Do we have a deal Clarke" he said grabbing her throat making her face his deadly gaze.

"Yes"

Bellamy wasted no time picking Clarke up and begins to ravage her, Clarke was whimpering and moaning loudly, normally Clarke would be embarrassed but she didn't care. His touch did that to her, Bellamy didn't waste time as he slowly slid into Clarke causing her to moan she wanted more. He was not gentle, he was rough and taking his anger out on her.

"Relax Clarke"

Clarke couldn't keep her hands to herself, her hands trailed down Bellamy's arms and his torso, her lips moved around the tattoos that had scattered his body. Clarke gasped as Bellamy slammed into her, sweat gleamed off their bodies as Clarke arched her back with another moan. The sweat was coated on Clarke's skin, her scalp was damp, Bellamy grabbed her hair forceful and slammed her body into the bed.

Clarke was on all fours, ready for him. He thrusted into her slowly. Clarke relaxed thinking he would go easy. Once her guard was down, he slammed into full while Clarke gasped out.

Clarke had been ready for a long while, she was soaked, her arousal was sliding down her legs, the loud slapping of his cock slamming into Clarke made her gasp.

She couldn't scream, he had kept ruthlessly fucking her at every angle that Clarke couldn't hold back and she came. Her eyes are glassy fighting the tears but Bellamy keeps going.

"Two more orgasms and you can be done" he pulls her hair angling her head to him, his words puncturing every thrust.

Clarke is weak from her orgasm and is slowly shrinking into the bed, Bellamy grabs her and flips her over, her back on the bed.

He opens her legs feeling all her wet cunt, the sweet smell of Clarke has Bellamy close. He slides into her once again, cause a wanton moan from Clarke, her eyes are closed moaning into the bed.

Bellamy can feel Clarke on the brink again, he thrusts harder grabbing her by the throat, she is gasping and crying her moans out, he speaks dirty words to her. But she isn't hearing it, so Bellamy bites down on her breast enough for her to moan in pain.

"Eyes open" he grabs her throat as a warning.

Clarke squeezes his cock which has him groaning.

Clarke is withering and squirming under Bellamy and can feel her shaky legs. One more which feels a long time for Bellamy.

He love the feeling of her orgasms on his dick. He can feel her relaxing, so he picks up his pace again, and thrusts into Clarke harder snd faster, the poor blonde is coated with sweat and her breasts move as he fucks her hard.

"One more Clarke" he hisses into her ear.

"I can't-" she's gasping.

Bellamy takes it as a challenge as he pumps into her nice and slow, Clarke relaxes, feeling all of his cock with each thrust.

"Relax" he utters.

Clarke is gasping, silent screams, he can feel the pressure within Clarke. She tries to touch Bellamy but he wants her to be done first. Slowly he fully inserts himself and he can feel the liquid coming out of Clarke. Her moans turn into screams and he can feel another climax, Bellamy finally lets himself go. He is drenched in sweat and Clarke sweet scent coats the room.

Clarke chokes her words out.

"Consider me gone"


Clarke is sitting in a field beside Monty, Jasper and Raven. All of them staring at the overcast clouds, spring was slowly turning to summer. Clarke sits up and looks at everyone.

"I'm going to leave"

"Where to?" Raven questions.

"The ocean" Clarke said looking past the mountains.

Clarke takes another sip of the bottle of moonshine, Clarke coughs and hands it back to Monty who takes a large gulp as well.

"Clarke, we don't want to leave" Raven said her unwavering gaze hurt Clarke.

"I know, this is something I need to do"

Clarke spends the next couple of hours in bed sobering up for dinner, she was planning to eat something before she leave. Clarke decided to leave at night, less people would see her.

Clarke closes her door going down the stairs meeting Octavia, her fierce green eyes glare at her.

"I see you are ready to leave"

Clarke did not give Octavia the satisfaction of her speaking to her, Clarke moves pass her without another look. Sitting With Monty Clarke bites into a piece of bread.

"Will you send mail?" he asked.

"Of course Monty" Clarke smiles handing her meat portions to him.

"Why-"

"I don't like the smell" Clarke said diving into another roll.

"Do you need me to walk you to the gate?" Monty asked.

Clarke nods as she pulls her cloak over head, she slowly advances out of the large room and avoids any eye contact.

Clarke grabs the small bag and ventures to the front gate, Clarke looks up and curses.

The iron clad gate blocked her from the freedom she desired.

Clarke knows there is another gate where the latch was inside, Clarke begins to venture to the other gate, both of Bellamys men are standing outside, swords blocking her way.

"The king has requested that I take my leave" Clarke said looking at the men.

"You cannot pass"

Clarke was frustrated and tried not to let it show, she had a bad feeling, a really bad feeling when both guards did not move. Clarke watched the guards, and without any thinking Clarke sliced the guards neck with a dagger, blood sprayed she kicked the other guards and stabbed him in the stomach, both men crumble as she pulls the latch the gate opens. Clarke quickly jumps up and closes the gate. She quickly looks around her area until her eyes land on a large stick. Clarke jams the gate, no one would be able to chase her out of camp.

Without another look she runs towards the stable, finding the midnight black one. Clarke mounts the horse and slowly guides the horse of the barn. Clarke could hear the shouting as she advances farther away from the village. Clarke wanted to feel the freedom she lacked, her friends would be fine, her mother would be okay.

Clarke would have find someone to help her with the scent hiding. Clarke knew she should of seen a healer before she left, Clarke thinks back to the last time she had been at the healer. Bellamy biting her, the endless amount of blood. Clarke wanted to feel the ocean on her toes, Clarke wanted to fall back into healing. Her plan wasn't perfect but she wanted her freedom and choice.

Clarke manages to stay on the road, she knows she has a few days of travel ahead of her. The scenery did not change much, Clarke wondered why Bellamy told her to leave and him stopping her, Clarke knew a couple things about the werewolves, the lunar cycle was a myth and partially the mating thing. Clarke did not want a brute king as her husband, he never asked about her life, her past her parents. He never tried, Clarke paused. She didn't try either.

Were they doomed from the start?

Clarke had read about the wolves once she discovered what a monster he was.

The dark and morbid the beasts have been treated made Clarke nauseous, Clarke knew she wanted to be more than wife.

Clarke could feel someone watching her Clarke pulls out her dagger, preparing herself for the worst.

Clarke managed to cross a bridge when she begin to see movement, Clarke couldn't burn down the bridge and her horse was not going as fast as she intended.

"Remember, she is wanted alive"

Clarke jumps hearing the guards screaming.

Clarke has done a lot of crazy things in her life.

Without another glance Clarke stops her horse. Throwing off cloak the wind caught it backwards as Clarke advances to an edge of a small cliff she can see where the water fall is. Clarke who has never swam for a second in her life threw herself in blissfully off the cliff, heart racing Clarke felt the cold water knock her out cold.

Clarke coughs and dry heaved as her wet hair sticks to the sand her eyes squint and see a vibrant sun. Clarke groans as her body painfully aches.

"You never fail to surprise me"

Bellamy smiles, it's painful for Clarke to see because she know he is not sincere.

"I am not going back there!" she seethes.

"I lost my temper, you did put my mother life at risk"

"You threatened my mother"

Clarke does bother hide the fact she still has her bloodied dagger in her hand.

Bellamy notices the redden blade.

"I killed two of your men" Clarke said indifferently.

"Call me the monster but you killed two innocent people"

Clarke back peddled as she pushes herself away from Bellamy.

"I am never going back there" Clarke said her eyes cold as steel.

Clarke watches as her words wound Bellamy.

"Clarke- I know this was never meant to happen. But I cannot force you to stay here with me, I will let you go for awhile but I will come back for you, you cannot fight me on it, you can have your freedom for now, but once its done you will come back and become queen"

Clarke is stunned at the offer, she didn't want to go back to him.

Clarke didn't know why he kept bargaining with her. Clarke didn't even pull herself up, Bellamy did and silence followed them all the way back.


Clarke spent most of her days on the balcony watching grounders go about their day, weapon repair shops, seamstresses shops, home made goods. Clarke had never seen a such an established city built.

Clarke thought of the delinquents, she watched at one of the boys who was critically injured on the second day of the ground, barely made it through. The boy was now an eating an apple and laughing.

Clarke felt responsible for the kids, when the ark forcefully took over, half of the camp was decimated. All of their crimes were not forgiven, everything was recorded, any power struggles anyone who wanted more rations.

Clarke hated to admit that this city was better for the 100, her mother healing, Raven trying to advance technology, Monty and Jasper growing food and other things. Finn would of love it here, even if he was with Raven, Clarke knew everyone would love the peace.

Clarke had coffee for the first time, the bitterness made her chest swell, sipping her hot drink she watched her people assimilate so well. No complaints by any of them, the only problem for Clarke was the king.

Clarke's door opened, still looking outside she didn't bother looking behind her as she sipped her drink quietly.

Clarke could tell by the footsteps that he mother was here, she sat down silently beside Clarke taking a cup and kettle and pouring herself coffee.

"I owe you a explanation"

Clarke hummed and let her fingers play on the rim of the coffee mug.

"Kane and I decided to overthrow Pike and Jaha, Kane made an alliance with the king, he asked what we had to offer, we had a list of everyone's attributes to the village but he only wanted you"

Clarke nodded still looking down, she had a hard time looking at her mother.

"I understand this has not been easy but you as a leader will always put yourself first"

"I still would of done it" Clarke intervened, her offence was not taken lightly.

"I'm aware Clarke, me and Kane were ready to marry a grounder but they needed you"

Clarke nodded, she knew why her mother did this, her mother needed validation, she needed to know that she didn't mean to hurt Clarke.

"I've heard you haven't been adjusting well"

"There's a lot you don't know, mother" Clarke's bitterness was not missed by her mother.

"The wolves I'm aware"

Clarke cup rattled, she immediately whips and meets her mother's eyes.

"I've been meaning to talk to you about this"

Clarke is stunned no words could come out if she tried.

"On the ark we carried the gene but with being in space, we are able to dilute the gene and make it completely dormant, that's why you feel what you feel towards Bellamy." Her eyes show remorse, another lie she buried for years.

"Clarke, don't fight this, just take some time, I don't want to be a grandmother yet, but the nature of this beasts.. just be careful" her mother finishes her coffee and kisses Clarke's head and walks away.

Clarke lays her head on the concrete railing and rests her head, Clarke could vividly remember pulling a knife out of Finn during a storm, now this was her problem.


Clarke decided she was done with the bond for the day, instead she puts on her cloak and makes herself down to the medical bay where Madja is folding towels.

Clarke lifts her hood and hangs her cloaks and walks towards Madja and just silently folds with her. Madja has a few patients and Clarke familiarizes herself to the healers bay, she finds an empty working station and looks at the different mediations they have stored.

"I'm glad you are here, this can be your station, I trust you are able to take anything on" Madja asks.

"Anything but births" Clarke said writing in her notebook.

"We have one in active labour, you can shadow" she leaves no room for argument.

Clarke fixes her hair, she had two loose curls by her ear she can't pull into her braided bun. Clarke walks into one of the rooms and the women is coated with sweat, and hissing curse words, she is alone.

Clarke can sense the women is scared, she sits down beside her in a chair and pulls her sketch book.

"Tell me about your other half" Clarke said awkwardly, this women needed a distraction from the pain and Clarke was more than willing to help.


Clarke stumbles into her room just before dawn, her eyes are tired and bloodshot. Her hands and hair are covered in blood, the women died just as the child came out. Clarke knew there was nothing she could do, the guilt does not fade.

Clarke did not expect her first patient to die, Madja could not help her either. Clarke did not bother to change her clothes, covered in vomit and blood, Clarke throws her shoes off and throws herself into bed. Clarke closes her eyes and hopes she never has to open them again.

By mid afternoon the the loud bells wake Clarke, the bells signalling a death in the village. No one bothers Clarke and for once she is entirely grateful, she hates herself for what happened.

Another death she could not save.

Clarke changes and washes her hair, she smells as if she didn't spend hours helping that poor women, and now orphaned child. Clarke wore a tunic and pants and made her way to the healers bay.

Madja was surprised but ignored Clarke's teary eyes. She walks into the mother's old room and seeing a sleeping baby, Clarke hated herself even more watching this small baby move and opening her eyes. Looking for her mother.

Clarke backs away silently and leaves the baby. Madja picks up the child and hums a song that makes the baby closes her eyes.

"Clarke death happens, don't blame yourself, now go, come back in a couple days and we will pick up where we left off" she said ushering her out.

Walking around the kingdom Clarke finds a tavern, Monty sitting drinking and Jasper working the tables. Clarke sits herself down, and takes Monty's drink without another thought.

"Another"

Clarke and Monty have demons and both of them are drinking them dry.

"Why are you drinking" Clarke said not making eye contact.

"Harper broke up with me"

Clarke doesn't say anything, but she orders another drink for her and Monty.

Four more drinks later Clarke is laughing, Jasper sat down and began to play quarters, Clarke is laughing at every shot Jasper misses. A grounder is running the bar now, he left the bottle and gave Clarke some bread to sober up.

Clarke ends up throwing bread at Jaspers head. It drops on the ground and he picks it up and eats it. Monty starts dipping his bread in this drink.

"Why hasn't anyone done this" he said excited.

Clarke laughs but stops immediately when Bellamy, Murphy and Octavia walk in causing Clarke to remain silent.

"Act sober you knobs" Clarke said hitting Monty's head which was licking the table.

"Clarke you look like you need a laugh" Jasper says.

"Remember when we ate those berries?" He said cackling.

"That was the last time we let you doorknobs forage" Clarke said laughing.

"I could go for those" Monty said.

"No" Clarke said deadpanned.

"Wait why are you evening drinking" Jasper said as he polished off his shot.

"Why are you drinking Jasper" Clarke said.

"Because we are friends, Clarke" he said sarcastically.

"Also for my best friends heart" Jasper added.

"Hello sky people" Murphy sits down beside Jasper as he ushers the bar man to bring another bottle.

Clarke ignores him but welcomes another sip, her stomach churns but she needs to feel numb.

Bellamy and Octavia are at the bar speaking to the bartender, he smiles and has been very kind. Clarke turns and moves the candle as Monty tries to drink it.

"How is it, you drank more than us and you still take care of us" Jasper points out.

"Wait the queen is drinking" Murphy said mildly surprised.

Clarke grabs the bottle and pours herself a hearty drink, she squeezed her eyes closed and let her throat burn.

"Oh god, are you dying?" Jasper whispers.

"Think Monty, when was the last time Clarke drank like this" Jasper said dramatically.

Monty smiles drunkenly until he straightens up and looks concerned at Clarke.

"Finn"

Clarke winces and throws her head back with another shot.

Clarke stops her drinking for a bit and nibbles on bread.

"Clarke.." Jasper urges her to speak.

"I'm not talking about anything, can't a women drink in peace?" She said rudely.

"No" Murphy supplied taking a drink for himself.

Clarke did her best to ignore Bellamy but she could feel his stare across the tavern, instead she stayed comfortably in her chair chewing on bread.

Monty hit his head on the table again a pained moan.

"I say I love you, and she breaks up with me" Monty slurs out.

"Are you serious" Clarke whipped around.

"I'll kick her ass" Clarke insists.

"I can too, I can just tuck it in" Jasper insists.

Murphy looks around and bursts out laughing.

"I'll get the next round, you guys are so entertaining" he muses before standing up.

Clarke watches Octavia kissing the man at the counter and walking towards her.

"Bellamy is cutting you off" she said awkwardly.

"Too bad" Clarke said finishing Jaspers drink.

"Your brother had no control over what I do" Clarke said offhandedly she had no more energy to fight.

"Don't shoot the messenger, but I will stick for a drink" she said pulling another chair.

Bellamy was gone and Clarke kept drinking until the sun rose the next day.

Clarke was very intoxicated, but Monty was worse, Clarke and Jasper hike up many flights of stairs and put Monty to bed.

Clarke kisses his forehead, and tucks him in.

"You are too good for Harper, remember that" Clarke whispers to him as he nods he rolls over and begins to snore.

Jasper collapses on the other bed and part of Clarke did not want to walk all the way back to her room.

Clarke closes the door behind her and make her way up the stairs awkwardly and uncoordinated, she bumps into her door and tries not to giggle and fails.

Clarke feels the urge to puke and luckily she has a bucket beside her bed, she grips the bucket and her door opens.

Bellamy is there and he holds her hair as she vomits into the bucket.

"You can really drink princess" he murmurs which causes Clarke to puke even more, her mouth is dry and the nausea is prominent, she lets Bellamy make her bed and take her clothing off.

"I heard what happened to that women, don't worry Clarke, you did your best" he said as he braided her hair and tucking her into the blankets.

Bellamy cleans the bucket and is about to leave when he hears Clarke say ever so quietly.

"Stay"


After Clarke left the tavern, Raven was taking one last shot when she eyed the man that was with Bellamy earlier.

"Raven right?" He said taking Clarke's old spot, everyone had left.

"Roan" he said with a smirk.

"So Roan, you are the exiled prince, why are you here" Raven said looking up.

"Claiming my land" he replies.

"Tyrant things I assume" she said with the click of her tongue.

"I see us grounders have rubbed off on you" he said with a sly smirk.

"So Roan it's late, and I'm curious why on earth you think you have a shot with me?"

He smirks and doesn't answer, instead take a long drink.

Raven finds herself licking her lips on anticipation. She had to move on she just had no idea how.


Clarke groans painfully her head throbs she curses the alcohol, Clarke can see she isn't in her clothes, she is in a shirt and no undergarments, Bellamy is beside her breathing quietly.

Clarke pulls the bucket and pukes which to no surprise wakes up Bellamy.

"Oh my god" Clarke hisses into the bucket.

"I hate to break it to you princess but we have a few things that need to be done today" Bellamy said rolling over and facing Clarke.

"Did we do anything?" Is Clarke's first statement.

"No, I didn't sleep much, you puked a lot last night" Bellamy shrugged.

"Since I'm queen, I'll be spending the day in bed" Clarke mumbled as she bravely took a sip of water.

"We have our ceremony in fortnight, we have to discuss a few things and prepare"

"Why are we doing this now? We already slept together" Clarke groaned out.

"Yes, but this ceremony is important for the village to see" Bellamy said.

"What is it then?"

"I'd rather wait until later" Bellamy said offhandedly.

After an hour Clarke finally makes it down for breakfast, Jasper is putting piles of eggs in his mouth while Clarke's stomach churns.

Monty has his head on the table while Murphy stirs his oatmeal.

"Look who finally arrived" Murphy chimes cheerfully.

"Murphy what ceremony is Bellamy talking about" Clarke said sitting down and begin to nibble on bacon.

"Ceremony.." he thinks and then stops.

"Oh I'm definitely not telling you" he said shaking his head.

"How bad is it?" Clarke tone is not kind.

"Ask Bellamy" he returns.

Clarke rolls her eyes and drops the subject she will find out soon enough, she slowly gets her appetite back and Monty lifts his head and grabs a piece of sausage.

"Clarke, thank you for yesterday" he said awkwardly.

"Monty I love you like a brother, I'll always take care of you" once those words Clarke feels that guilt again.

"Well thanks" he said taking a bite of his food.

Bellamy seats himself beside Clarke, she is just moving food around her plate.

"Are you ready?" He asks.

Clarke nods and follows him out.

The sun is out, the children are running and shouting. Clarke follows Bellamy until they reach the gate.

"I trust you won't run" he said with a smirk.

Clarke rolls her eyes but mounts the horse with ease, she is beside Bellamy and the take a trail.

"I wanted to have this talk with you, with no distractions"

Clarke grips her saddle with anxiety as Bellamy speaks.

"This ceremony is a sacred in our village, it's something that has been done for centuries, especially for the wolves"

"What I will be asking is a lot, but we need to prove the bond, in front of my people"

"Can't you kiss me?" Clarke asks dumbly.

"No Clarke"

Clarke whipped and looked at Bellamy.

"Are you saying what I think you are saying" Clarke said.

"Yes" Bellamy said plainly.

"So your sister and mother and all you friends will watch you fuck me?" Clarke bluntly repeated.

"It's on our nature to reproduce" he said looking forward.

"How do you expect me to be okay with this?" Clarke said.

"I didn't, that's why we are in private talking" he supplied.

"What happens if this isn't done" Clarke said looking at him.

Clarke is trying to find reason.

"Anyone can challenge me, take my throne and Clarke I will never go back to scavenge for my family, I worked hard for my spot and my people, please consider this"

"Can we make it comfortable for me" Clarke utters out.

Clarke had fought for years and now she was negotiating.

"If we do this, I can make arrangements for certain people not to be there, and when you birth our heir it will be private" he reasoned.

"Are you expected to impregnate me?" Clarke can feel her anxiety blossoming in her chest.

"Yes"

Clarke remains silent for a long time that Bellamy forgets that they are taking a casual horse ride.

"You know this isn't fair for me" Clarke spoke up.

"I'm well aware of it, Clarke, I tried to rid this tradition but the people won't let it, the traditional roots run deep with my people" Bellamy sounds defeated.

"This a big sacrifice for me, I'm a modest women, I do need people watching us do something that should be between us" Clarke shared her thoughts openly.

"Is this only once?" Clarke asks.

"Yes"

Clarke remind silent for awhile and Bellamy breaks the silence.

"It will take place after sunset, there will be multiple fires near us, I will be returning from a run with my pack and you will be waiting for me"

Clarke swallows a lump in her throat, she wants to tell Bellamy where to go and how to get there, but if she doesn't do this her people can be at risk. This was the final sacrifice she would have to make.

The idea of being impregnated set alarms off in Clarke's head, she knew they had to see her conceive a child and she could not handle that.

"I can do the ceremony but I refuse to carry your child, I'm young and I would like to wait" Clarke states.

"I know you are doing this for your people" Bellamy said as then begin to approach the outskirts of the kingdom.

"I wish you had other reasons"

Clarke didn't look back at Bellamy, instead for the rest of the ride the sat in silence.


The next couple days Clarke spends her time in the healers bay, she fixes a broken leg and a stab wound. Clarke finally feels like she is finally fitting in, the grounders are thankful of her work, no nasty slurs towards her.

Madja leaves for the afternoon leaving Clarke alone tidying up Raven comes in and sits herself on the bed.

"I'm still mad at Finn, I loved him and didn't love me as much"

Clarke raises her eyebrows as Raven begins to vent.

"I mean Roan is a real man, he is strong and takes battle head on"

"What is it Raven" Clarke said sitting beside her.

"He wants me and I want him, but I feel guilty" she said with her head in her hands.

"Finn would want you to be happy" Clarke said rubbing her back. Clarke gets up and sits on her stool and table across from Raven.

"Roan only wants me" she emphasizes carefully.

"Nothing wrong with that, why are so scared?" Clarke said wiping down her table.

"Why are scared of Bellamy?" Raven counters.

"It's different" Clarke immediately defends.

"How so?" Raven challenges her.

Clarke's bites her lip thinking of telling Raven but she knows that Raven will have to see it.

"Bellamy has to fuck me in-front of his village" Clarke said hitting her head on the wooden table.

"Okay you win" Raven counters immediately.

"Remember when all we worried about was surviving the grounders" Clarke spoke.

"Hey Clarke, I know you may not want to hear this but survival was worth it, look at all of your people"

"I'm scared I'm running out of time, they want a heir soon and I'm scared" Clarke finally admitted her fears.

Raven has no words instead she sits beside Clarke and hugs her and the girls remain like that.


Clarke was back at the bar but for happier reasons, Jaspers twenty first birthday. Lots of people were cheering while he was drinking, Clarke smiled watching the boy with googles fawn over Maia. Jasper surviving the spear. Clarke watched as everyone was dancing and cheering.

"Hey Clarke, remember when you saved my life" he slurred into her arm.

"Yes Jasper" Clarke laughs.

"I'm here celebrating because of you, thank you for everything you do for us" Jasper said seriously. Which had caught Clarke off guard.

Monty was piggybacking Harper, and Clarke was sitting alone at the table nursing her drink. Of what tomorrow would bring, two weeks had gone by too fast for Clarke's liking, she watched as Octavia did multiple body shots off Jasper.

Clarke knew she should be celebrating but her heart wasn't in it, Clarke picks up her drink and walks outside, the night was filled with stars.

Bellamy was outside talking with Murphy when they advance towards her.

"Party is inside princess" Bellamy said with a smile.

"Jasper is drunk story telling, I gotta wait an hour because he keeps thanking me for saving his life one more time, I might end it" Clarke laughs.

"Feisty" Bellamy replies.

Clarke doesn't say anything.

"Look Clarke- I'm scared too" he utters out.

"Me too"

Clarke takes another sip of her drink, and thinks to herself.

"I'm going to enjoy my last night of freedom" Clarke states out loud.

"Clarke you not held captive" Bellamy replies.

"I can't leave, I must bear your child, be by your side no matter what, please tell me when I ever had a choice" Clarke said bravely.

"I wish you felt something"

Clarke felt stunned, brutal honestly.

Clarke would never tell a soul how he made her feel, how she would look at him anytime he entered a room, the sex they had together was indescribable.

"I'm going to drink until I cannot stand, I'll see you tomorrow night" Clarke said meeting his eyes.

Without another look towards him Clarke pulled her cloak off walked inside and was determined to forget him.


Surprisingly Clarke was not hungover this morning, Clarke was fairly sure she was still drunk. Clarke knew she wasn't allowed to leave her room until the evening, Clarke had a couple books, her notebook and she had food delivered. Clarke spent most of her day trying to keep down breads and salted meats.

She knew it wasn't her lingering hangover, the nerves took her body and made her overthink. Clarke always wore her hair down but for tonight her hair was braided her blonde curls falling loose she twisted her braid and created a small bun.

When dinner time arose Clarke saw that she multiple kinds of teas presented to her, one thing that caught Clarke's attention was the note on the tray.

One is wolfsbane and the other is regular tea, you will always have a choice Clarke. -B

Clarke stared and had her choice already made but she wondered if the note had a ulterior motive. Clarke grabbed one of the tea cups and downed it without thinking any longer.


By the time night fell Clarke was a nervous wreck, the drums were loud. Raven is at the door watching Clarke carefully.

"Clarke you've done enough for us, you don't have to do this" she reasons carefully.

"It's okay Raven" Clarke utters out, Clarke fixes her cloak the covers her entire body and pulls the hood out hiding her identity.

As Clarke goes down each step she can hear the drums get louder and louder, Raven's hand is on her back, a sign of support. Walking through the village many grounders are cheering, holding booze and smoking herbs, a celebration of a future.

Clarke's can hear her own footsteps on the pavement, she wants to turn tail and flee, she wants to change her name and start a new life.

Clarke remembers everything she has done has been for her people.

Clarke would easily lay her life to protect them.

The drums are so loud Clarke can hardly hear, she can see the fires and swarming of people, they all give Clarke room and she moves forward.

Soon Clarke is there, the fire feel hot on her skin but she knows the flames will only get bigger. The drums are loud but slowly getting more and more intense. Clarke reveals her face, a maid from her usual chambers hands her a small bottle.

She take a long swig of the bottle and the women takes it back, Clarke knows it's a grounder version of Adavan. Clarke stands and waits for Bellamy she refuses to take her cloak off, the heat is smouldering and causing Clarke's cheeks to flush red. She doesn't care, she waits and then drums immediately stop.

The drums change to howls, Clarke's heart races more and more until she thinks she will fall into cardiac arrest. Her hands are shaking but just as it starts, it stops. The drugs took over, Clarke sighs happily, the pain the anxiety is all gone.

Clarke's relaxed state must of worried her friends but she shakes her head and a dumb smile enters her face. Clarke was high as can be, she knew this would hurt, she was grateful.

The howls stop and the wolves begin to split, they move to the crowd but one stops in front of Clarke.

"Hello Bellamy" Clarke smiles, she so high she can't remember what she said.

The black wolf changes to Bellamy and Clarke didn't feel the panic like she did the first time, she could tell her friends were panicking.

"Don't worry about me" Clarke said looking towards her friends. She knew they would probably see her naked but she felt careless.

"Would you tell me what tea you took?" Clarke was confused, she heard that in her brain. Oh she was very high.

"You are high Clarke, but I'm speaking to you in your head, can you please let me know"

Clarke smiles at Bellamy.

"I'm not telling you" she smirked.

Clarke could easily tell Bellamy did not like the answer, the flames grew higher and she knew it was time.

Clarke unbuttons her cloak and meets Bellamy eyes.

"I trust you"

That seemed to set Bellamy to her because his mouth was on hers, she tried to remain quiet but he urged her to be vocal. Clarke knew most wolves didn't not like their women naked, for Clarke she had no choice. She was completely naked underneath her cloak. Which was taken off in seconds, Clarke did not feel the cold, the heat coming off the pillars fires kept Clarke warm.

As Clarke was laid down the wolves began to howl, Clarke felt relaxed, the most she ever had been in her entire life. Clarke was well aware she was naked on the ground with Bellamy hovering over her. Clarke was laid down on a soft bed of moss, mixed with fertlity plants.

Clarke feels the edges of his scarred biceps, she can see the countless tattoos, he was close to her, she could tell he was stalling.

Clarke lazily pulled herself up and kissed him, she was relaxed and giving in, something Clarke never could do. He slowly enters Clarke and she turns her heads and forces herself not to moan. Bellamy grabs Clarke's face and forces her to make eye contact, each thrust Clarke's breasts shake, she can feel a churning deep within. Clarke should feel the shame of moaning while her friends watch her get fucked, the drugs work wonderfully as she arches her back.

Clarke let's out a tiny moan, which causes Bellamy to move more quickly, the fire is making Clarke hot and she is now gasping trying to force her orgasm to stop but Bellamy sees what she is doing. He grabs her by the throat and tilts her head to the side.

"I know you want to" he utters to Clarke.

Clarke wiggles against Bellamy, causing his cock to rub her sensitive spot. She is panting and moaning, he begins to thrust into her forcefully and now Clarke is thankful for the drugs, he is slamming into Clarke, he is slamming into her, no mercy, she is moaning louder and louder until she is on the verge of screaming out.

Clarke feels amazing and she feels a good feeling that scares her. Bellamy keeps going harder and harder until Clarke tilts her head back gasping, she sees fuzzy stars, she is grasping onto Bellamy for dear life. Clarke is limp and she can hear the drums picking up again and the howls mixing. Clarke begins to sober up, she turns her head fluttering her eyes closed as she gets fucked with no mercy.

Clarke can feel Bellamy tensing, part of her want to lift her head and kiss him, but she does not have the strength. Clarke know her and Bellamy have sexual chemistry, she can feel the heat again. Her eyes have fluttered closed, but she can feel his hand snaked to her throat, Clarke opens her eyes and she meets his heated stare. He slows just enough for Clarke to gasp and let out another loud moan, he feels her closing her legs, he parts them painfully as he slams into Clarke, she is squirming and trembling.

Clarke is still on the ground and she watched as Bellamy makes sure his seed stays, the sky is filled with stars, he is close to her.

"I'm going to take you inside to rest" Bellamy tells her.

Clarke is limp and on the brink of falling asleep, Bellamy had covered Clarke back up. The wolves were howling the drums were loud again and Clarke could see some of the people drinking, yelling and cheering.

Clarke can barely keep her eyes open, instead she rests.


Clarke wakes up and it's dark outside, she has a thin sheet wrapped around her, Clarke felt pains in her uterus. There was a little blood, but Clarke assumed it was the beast in Bellamy.

Bellamy walks inside with a tray of food while Clarke is still half asleep, her body was sore from sleeping and other things. Clarke decided to bathe herself, leave no traces of what happened. Once she got out she got into bed again.

"How do you feel?" Bellamy asks offering Clarke a tray of food.

"Sore"

Bellamy nodded while Clarke slowly sat up and began to nibble on cheese and some salted meats. Clarke knew she slept for a whole day, but she slowly got up and got dressed.

"I'm going to see Jasper and Monty, is there anything expected of me now?" Clarke said.

"No, just don't over do it with the drinking" he said walking towards Clarke.

"I'm a healer, not an idiot" Clarke said with an eye roll.

"Clarke?" Bellamy calls out before she leaves the room. Clarke turns her head her hand on the door.

"Thank you"

Clarke forced a smile and walked out, she made it down many stairs until she got to the tavern, it looked dead, Clarke knew dinner time wasn't a busy time for them.

Clarke walks in and Jasper and Monty are at the bar, Clarke sits beside Jasper while Monty is at the counter.

"Hey guys" Clarke said.

"Hey.. Clarke" Monty said adverting her eyes.

"Are you going to be weird about this?" Clarke said running a hand through her hair.

"I'm traumatized" Jasper said covering his eyes.

"Grow up" is Clarke bitterly reply, Monty gives Clarke a drink, she nurses and takes her time.

"You know you can tell us anything" Monty said awkwardly.

"Really?" Clarke said hopefully.

"No" Jasper replied.

Raven waltz's in with a shining grin on her face that Clarke wanted to hit her.

"Hey Clarke" Raven said with a smirk.

"Let get a table" Jasper said getting off the stool.

Clarke follows and sit down while Raven pulls out some jerky she had gotten at the market.

"So Clarke, how are you feeling?" Raven said slyly.

"Sore" she replied while Jasper covered his ears.

"I don't blame you, I was scared he was going to break you" Raven said chewing a piece of jerky, Raven's boots were using the other chair.

"Can we talk about anything else" Jasper whines.

"Oh, apparently I traumatized the boys" Clarke said sipping her drink.

"I mean you were high as a kite, do you remember it?" Raven said seriously.

"Every detail" was Clarke's reply and she took another sip that were more generous than the rest.

"You know you will have to do that with Roan right?" Clarke said while Jasper snickered.

"I don't mind an audience" Raven sly reply as she helped herself to a drink that Monty left.

"Why would she have to that unspeakable thing?" Monty pushes ravens boots off and sits down.

"Prince Roan of Ice nation, he is only here to eliminate his mother" Raven replied.

"Raven you know how ruthless ice nation" Clarke interjects.

"I'll be fine" Raven leaves no room for argument.

Monty had a rag on his shoulder and he throws it to another table.

"So what happens now" Jasper asks.

"What do you mean?" Clarke said looking at Jasper while Monty topped her up.

"Are we here for real then?"

"Yes, you are free to do whatever, you can stay or leave, my job is done" Clarke said quietly.

"What's next for you then?" Monty said.

"It's something I'm currently fighting for" Clarke said tiredly.

"Clarke.."

"Im expected to birth his heir" Clarke whispers out and just like that the tears pour out.

Clarke let herself be naked around hundreds people but now he wants her to push his child into the world, Clarke shook her head and placed it on a table.

"Oh Clarke.." Jasper said, for the first time without sarcasm.

"I'll be a horrible mother, I mean look how the 100 turned out, I didn't fight enough and Pike killed so many" Clarke whispers.

"You are not responsible for Pike, you are no responsible for his scum follower's, you kept us alive, you sacrificed everything for us, hell Clarke you'll be the best mother out there, and for you to think so is ridiculous" Raven snapped her eyes blaze with fury.

"Raven" Clarke utters.

"It's the truth"

Clarke and everyone walk out of the tavern and right near the grand entrance Clarke could see grounders dancing, music that Clarke swayed her head too; the celebrations continued from the night before.

Clarke watched as Raven approached Roan, Clarke smiled at her friend, Clarke say Monty and Harper slow dancing and Jasper was beside her.

"Dance with me?" He said slyly.

Clarke and Jasper always laughed when they danced, she was following Jasper's lead.

"Isn't this song familiar" Jasper said furrowing his eyebrows.

"It is" Clarke agreed, she half dipped Jasper. She could tell some of the grounders were staring, she and Jasper had a couple drinks and doing the waltz when one partner was drunk, was no easy task.

Clarke watched her fellow people dance, laugh and drink. Clarke felt happiness swell within her, she handed Jasper to a girl named Maia.

Clarke was dancing with Lincoln until she was spun to Bellamy, she smiled freely.

"Do you know the waltz?" Clarke asked raising an eyebrow.

"Yes, I also know a few others" he said with a smirk.

Clarke followed his lead there were so many people dancing and Clarke felt like she did her job with her people. They are safe and protected just as she wanted them. Maybe she could do this.

"You wanted to know if I took the tea" Clarke asks. Bellamy almost missed a step but caught himself.

"I didn't" Clarke can sense he tensed but the dance continued.

"But my job is done with my people, as long as we rule together fairly, I have no problem giving you a heir" Clarke said looking at him.

"Thank you for giving me a choice" Clarke said meeting his eyes.

"You mean it" he utters.

"Of course, my next heat I'm all yours" Clarke whispered to him.

"I'm out of practice" Bellamy said into Clarke's ear.

Clarke smirks, as she lets Bellamy lead her out of the crowd.


Clarke woke in the Bellamy's room, she never spent the night in there. He was holding her tightly, she watched him sleep, his face was relaxed and she lightly touched his biceps.

"Clarke, don't start something you cannot finish" his morning voice made Clarke insides melt.

Clarke smiles slyly and places herself on top of Bellamy, Clarke slides herself down on Bellamy, a loud moan exhales of of Bellamy. She slowly and torturously takes her time. Bellamy's feels her sides and move to her breasts.

"Oh gods" he hisses out, Clarke bits her lip and arches her hips and places a light kiss on his neck.

The door suddenly opens and Octavia has her swords sheathed.

"Ice nation is attacking, you can fuck Clarke later" she orders and begins to bark orders to guards.

Clarke quickly jumps off Bellamy and begins to dress herself, she gets her tunic and pants and Bellamy stops her, he is shirtless but has swords.

"Stay out of the way" Bellamy's eyes hold a coldness.

"I'm not one of your men, I'm a healer and I will be saving your people, get the hell out of my way" Clarke said storming past Bellamy.

Clarke makes three steps and grabs Clarke by the neck.

"Listen closely, you will stay in the bay, you will not leave, any other attack I wouldn't care but ice nation will do a lot more than torture" Bellamy warning rings in Clarke's ears.

One of the guards hands Bellamy chest armour and just like that, he is gone leaving Clarke alone.

Clarke is running down the corridors, she had time to put her hair up and run to her healing bay, Madja was overwhelmed and her mother was in another bay. Clarke wanted to make sure her people where okay, Clarke can see some of them but she worried none the less.

Clarke finds a bleeding man outside the doors, she goes to help him up but a man grabs her and drags her away. The one time Clarke follows the rules and she gets dragged away from the battle.

Clarke is fighting the man and she stabbed him a few times but he barely budged, these men were different, Clarke felt the man push her against the wall and tie her hands and feet. She struggled but it didn't matter he had her.

"You we're here for me weren't you" Clarke hisses fighting against the man.

Clarke could hear the ear drums slowly approaching, she could hear the screams of her people and Bellamy's fighting.

Clarke managed to kick the man in the face which resulted her face getting slammed to the ground. She squirmed and hot pain flashed, Clarke head pounded and her eyes watered.

The man put a cloth on her mouth, Clarke's screams were muffled, she thrashed until the man was fed up he grabbed Clarke and hit her head again and she blacked out.


Bellamy killed many, he didn't care, he killed anyone who crossed his path, white hot rage ignited deep within his soul. Murphy and Octavia were backing him when they got to the Queen, she stood proud, her sword planted into the ground.

Roan was beside her, he knew he had to play his role until the right moment. Bellamy had no problem killing women, he pulled his sword and readied himself against her. Octavia and Murphy killing those who tried to come in and play warrior.

"King Bellamy, it's been awhile" the Queen said tilting her head.

"I met your lovely half" she inquired out loud.

Everyone was silent, just the Queen talking to herself.

"Quite the healer, such a shame, she could of been a warrior"

"Clarke is it?" She tested the name out loud.

"Off with it" Bellamy barks out.

"I know my time is up, that's why you'll find her dead in the middle of your village" the Queen smiles.

Roan is still.

"You'd think I wouldn't catch you two conspiring" the Queen said looking at Roan and Bellamy.

"Your precious other half is already gone, I made sure of that" the Queen smirks.

"Go ahead and reach for her" she urged with a smile.

Bellamy hand was shaking violently. Bellamy charges towards the Queen and begins to combat with her, Octavia and Roan nod and quickly Roan unsheathed his sword and drives himself towards the Queen.

She drops with blood spilling out of her mouth.

"Good luck saving her, you won't get to her" the Queen smiles and bloods pours until she falls into the dirt.

Slowly Octavia bows to Roan, Lincoln and Murphy. The rest of the people follow just leaving Bellamy. He painfully takes a knee for Roan.

Roan nods and offers a hand to Bellamy.

"Now let's save your Queen" Roan pulls Bellamy up. The people venturing into battle once again.


Clarke groaned as her eyes opened, she was face down in the dirt, the man was gone, it was just her. Clarke knew where she was, she behind the blacksmith shop, slowly she staggered up and begin to move slowly. Her vision was fuzzy and disoriented.

Clarke sees many bodies, she stumbles to the entrance of the castle and her legs are shaking she knows this feeling.

"Clarke!" She hears shouting.

"The cure- the cure- amor-"Clarke's words are slurred. Octavia can barely make it out.

"Clarke what's wrong!" Octavia is looking everywhere until she pulls Clarke shirt down and right under her neck is black.

Poison.

Clarke collapses again and Octavia panics, Clarke knew the cure and she couldn't get it out. Octavia picks up an unconscious Clarke and carries to the healers bay.

Octavia places her down and begins to shout orders.

"You! Find my brother"

"Get Abby, and someone find a poison specialist"

Octavia is shouting her voice is raw, she knows once her brother is here, hell will break loose. Octavia has Nyko moves his patients, Clarke will need a lot of room.

Once Octavia replaces a cloth, Bellamy comes in with Abby and Monty and Jasper.

"Why are you knobs here" Octavia replied rudely.

Abby begins to pulls supplies.

"Certified chemist" Abby supplied pulling the essential supplies.

"Octavia tell me, where did you find Clarke, what signs was showing"

"She knew she was poisoned, she was trying to say the cure she said amor?" Octavia spoke agitated.

"She was stumbling and she was disoriented, I found a cut across her chest, it's black, the poison must be in her blood stream" Octavia spoke.

"Monty and Jasper looking through the chemist book and find any Latin meanings starting with Amor" Abby orders.

"Bellamy help me move Clarke to her side" Abby rushes over.

Just as Bellamy moves her she begin to seize.

"Hold her down and make sure she doesn't hit her head" Abby orders out.

"Monty update" Abby orders.

"Nothing so far"

"Jasper?"

"Amoxicillin" he asks.

"No try again" she orders.

"I'm running out of time" Abby said panicking, this was a fast acting poison.

Monty and Jasper quickly flip pages until Monty stops.

"Amaranth, a foreign plant that stops the blood from clotting" Monty said rushing towards the herbs.

"She'll need something to stop it going to other systems" Jasper counters.

"Good thinking Jasper" Abby called from the other side of the bay.

"Bellamy we need to leave, this won't be pretty" Abby said tensely.

"I'm not leaving" he hisses.

"Octavia, we have to cut the poison from her dead flesh and apply the ointment which Monty is working on, she will scream" Abby winces.

"Common brother, we have the dead to deal with, Clarke is fine"

"No- I can't leave her again"

"Bell- common you have to be a leader right now" Octavia pulled her brother.

"Jasper hold her down!" Abby shrieks.

Clarke's scream did not stop, Octavia stops and watches as her brother stumbles into a wall. Her screams echoed, Bellamy fist is clenched at a stone wall.

"Bell-"

"I left her"

"Hey, she listened to you, she was grabbed a moment of weakness, she will be fine" Octavia pulls him off the wall.

"I never want to hear her scream again" Bellamy gasps out, his chest feels heavy, the rain was coming down harder, Bellamy stood and sat on the stone steps.

Suddenly it was silent; suddenly Bellamy hated how suddenly quiet the world was.


Clarke opens her eyes and suddenly she spits on the word she couldn't get out.

"Amaranth" she gasps.

Monty and Jasper jump up at the noise.

"Thank the gods" the boys hug her.

Both of them crying and show no shame in doing so, Clarke is groggy but is aware what happened.

Monty and Jasper explained what happened, Clarke sits and wipes the boys tears.

"I love you" Clarke said pulling them into a hug that last longer than usual.

"Thank you for saving my life" Clarke says grateful to hug them again.

After a couple minutes Raven appears and jumps suddenly pulls her into a tight hug.

"Thank the gods, I can't handle dealing with these doorknobs" Raven said wiping a tear.

"Did you feel like you were dead?" Raven suddenly asks.

Clarke looked at everyone and nods.

"My dad and I were dancing to one of those old bands from before the nuclear war"

"Oh my god Clarke"

Bellamy pushes the door open with Octavia following.

Bellamy was out of breath, suddenly he grabbed Clarke's face and kissed her passionately. Clarke mind was already fuzzy and kissing Bellamy made her forget.

They pull away.

"Don't ever do that again" he warns.

Clarke watched her friends stare at the floor.

"Is that bitch dead" Clarke asks.

"Roan is King of ice nation now" Bellamy supplied.

"Good" Clarke sighs.

"Can I get that stuff from the ceremony?" Clarke says wincing.

Bellamy nods and Octavia takes off to get a request. Clarke lays back in her bed listening to her friends idly chat.

"Clarke I know this morbid, but is it scary" Monty asks quietly.

"Ask Jasper" Clarke replies.

"He doesn't remember"

"He lies then"

"So Jasper please tell us, it's been years after all" Clarke said leaning back to Bellamy.

"I saw everything that made me want to stay" Jasper allusive answered seemed enough.

"One day you better tell me" Clarke said.

"You aren't telling us everything either" Jasper said leaning back.

Clarke and Jasper share a look, a knowing look.

"Now I wanna know" Raven huffs.

"No you don't" Clarke and Jasper replied at the same time.

Once everyone leaves the room Bellamy takes Clarke to his room so she can rest with him, Clarke didn't like how silent he was.

He helped her into bed and she laid down.

"I almost lost you"

Clarke knew this conversation was coming up.

"I'm fine and Monty and Jasper found the cure" Clarke said as Bellamy had his back faced away from her.

"I heard your screams for hours, I would rather been tortured than ever hear that again"

"I'm fine now, I'm healing" Clarke said leaning towards him.

"Clarke this isn't fucking fine" he hisses.

"Ice nation isn't a problem anymore, do you have any clans to be worried about" Clarke said sitting up.

"Yes"

"Well you cannot hide me forever, I'm one of your best healers" Clarke said logically.

"I cannot have this happen again" he uttered.

"Look Bellamy we can revise a few things and maybe have scouts go out and do more perimeter checks" Clarke put her hand on Bellamy's shoulder and he tensed.

"We were already doing that Clarke, our scouts were killed and they slowly made their way in"

Clarke nods fatigue taking over.

"I have a couple meetings, I'll be back soon" Bellamy says getting up.

"It's midnight Bellamy" Clarke yawns.

"Please stay" Clarke utters out.

Bellamy stares at Clarke with one more look and leaves Clarke alone. Just the darkness of the night to keep her company.


Dawn approached and Clarke was already feeling better, Clarke washes herself and put on a new tunic that was placed on the bed. Clarke avoids the tavern and sits in the dining hall, Clarke plays with her food.

Her appetite had not come back yet. Instead Clarke drinks tea and revises on poison reversal. Just to be sure next time, Clarke looks up and sees Monty and Jasper sitting with her.

"So how you feeling?" Jasper said putting bacon on his plate.

Clarke shrugs and closes her book.

"Has Bellamy been acting weird" Clarke asks aloud.

Both of them keep their mouths shut which is a red flag.

"We are agreed not to talk about what happened" Monty said closing his eyes.

"You guys are keeping something from me" Clarke said raising her eyebrows.

Clarke gets up from the table irritated, she walks outside and she takes a couple steps and notices that more gates have been put in.

"For fuck-" Clarke curses and makes her way to the throne room where Bellamy was working.

Clarke barges in, Murphy Octavia and Bellamy were talking war strategy.

"I need Bellamy for a couple minutes" Clarke said her eyes blazing with anger.

Octavia and Murphy snicker and shove each other out of the room.

"I saw the gates Bellamy" Clarke said as she placed her book bag on the ground.

"I refuse to live like this, this was a place full of laughter, freedom, I'm not a damn hamster" she curses out.

"I'm doing this to protect you" he dismisses her.

"This is no way to live, we can't just gate everything up"

"This isn't up for debate" Bellamy said.

"Oh yeah?" Clarke said with a smirk.

"I won't raise children in this environment" Clarke eyeing him.

"Clarke you can't keep playing the same card, we are bound now, you can run away but guess what you'll always want me, you won't want anything else" Bellamy said his hands on the desk.

"That's the difference between us Bellamy, I don't need love, I can move on with life without it" Clarke eyed him.

"You'll suffer" Bellamy said offhandedly as of this conversation meant nothing to him.

Clarke stared at him.

"Is that a threat?"

"It's a fact Clarke, we are bound together"

"What happened to you?" Clarke said tears welled up.

"My people will always come first" he told Clarke.

"Really, that's not what Octavia told me" Clarke said boldly, Octavia had told Clarke she found his study trashed and bottles have been thrown and there was yelling, intel from the guards.

"Tell me Bellamy, tell me you didn't cry, throw things, over me about to die, because I'm well aware you are doing this to protect me, well I don't need it" Clarke felt the anger through her bones.

"Clarke-" he voice reasoned warning.

"No! I've had enough, put those gates down and use it for the front. Make safe passage routes for your people. Until then enjoy sleeping alone" Clarke voice was steady.

Without another word Clarke made her way out of the throne room, slamming the door in process. Clarke ignored the howl and locked the door to her quarters.


Three days, three days since Clarke has said another word to Bellamy, she kept her door locked and every night she could her scratching at her door.

Each night she ignored it.

Clarke was sitting with Raven eating grapes, while Raven picked at her food.

Clarke was sitting on her bed flipping though medical books while Raven had a book on her lap and never read a single word.

"Can I ask you something?" Raven said throwing the book on the ground.

"Go ahead" Clarke said not looking up.

"I'm about to go into that thing.. and I don't know how.."

Clarke looked up and she could sense the anxiety coming off Raven.

"Do you need wolfsbane?" Clarke said opening one of her bedroom drawers.

"That's the thing Clarke- Roans people do not tolerate it" Raven quietly speaks up.

Clarke sits and is speechless.

"Is there any way you can sneak it in?" Clarke asks.

"It's potent Clarke" and Clarke knew that. She leans back and thinks of what she can do.

"I have an idea, but if anyone finds out I can be killed for it" Clarke speaks seriously.

"Wait what-"

"Did you implant get removed?" Clarke asks.

"No it's still in" Raven said confused.

"When I first arrived here, I went into heat that my body rejected it" Clarke spoke out loud.

"We can do a new implant but we mix it with wolfsbane and a non hormone, so your body wouldn't reject it" Clarke thinks out loud.

"Won't they know?" Ravens asks.

"The only reason my implant was removed was my body reaction to the hormones of heat, if we put one in with no hormones it should be fine" Clarke said thinking out loud.

"Another option is birth control pills but concentrated wolfsbane" Clarke said to herself.

"It's kinda sad that you have a lot of ideas" Raven suddenly speaks out.

"There's a reason I don't have a child yet" Clarke replies.

"Okay I have a plan, we give you the pills and say you have low iron, Monty and Jasper can mimic those pills" Clarke finalizes.

"The only problem is we don't know when you'll be back" Clarke speaks out loud.

"Okay maybe we can get Monty and Jasper pick through some supplies and see how much wolfsbane we have, make the pills and give you a year supply" Clarke says to herself.

"Clarke- I fucking love you" Raven pulls her into a hug.

"Thank you" she utters.

Clarke pulls away.

"Let gets this started, Roan has to be home at some point" Raven said running to the healers bay.

"Hey I need to the knobs, grab them" Clarke smiles as she pulls her supplies down and begins to chart her math with the information Raven has given her.

Monty and Jasper begin measurements and begin to talk back and forth. Clarke pulls all the supplies and Raven sits and watches.

A few hours they have completed most of the pills, Clarke and Jasper lean back on the chairs and watch Monty count.

"Raven you will be short a few, you will have to be back by next fall. You will be short on the heat ones; make sure you ration them" Monty instructs.

Raven leaves with thanking the boys a couple times and running out, Clarke knew she would be killed for this.

"I'll take the blame, don't you ever say a word" Clarke tells Monty and Jasper with warning.

"Clarke-"

"It's final" Clarke looks at them with no room for argument.


A week has gone by and Clarke is at the entrance watching Raven place a bag on a horse.

"So this is it" Raven said looking around awkwardly.

"We will visit you soon enough" Clarke said with a smirk.

"You guys aren't invited" Raven intervenes.

"Of course they are" Roan said walking behind Raven with a smile.

"Maybe it will be more tasteful than Clarke's" Monty whispers.

Clarke swings at Monty and he holds his arm.

"Clarke may I take a walk with you?" Roan asks.

Clarke nods and follows Roan to the outside wall where they walk at a slow pace.

"I owe you one" he speaks out.

"I don't know what you are talking about" Clarke says pulling her cloak closer to her.

"I know" he stops which Clarke plays with the button of her cloak

"I don't know what you are talking about" Clarke said looking away.

"I know you took the poison on purpose, you knew my mother wanted you alive, she was shorted her men and it gave me my advantage"

"Why would I take poison on purpose" Clarke said furrowing her eyebrows, but her heart was racing.

"I think you know, Clarke" he said stopping.

Roan pauses and stares at Clarke's stomach and back to the fields ahead, Clarke shaky hands show her true hand.

"You had a ulterior motive, which worked in my favour" he said.

"I owe you" he adds.

"You know Raven doesn't want children yet" Clarke said easing an eyebrow.

"I'm aware, but there is nothing I can do, she must" Roan speaks.

"You owe me one, you let Raven use contraceptive for a full year, and my debt will be paid" Clarke said looking at him.

"You know you can be killed for what you did" Roan adds.

"I'm aware" Clarke said pushing her hair aside.

"I cannot agree to this, just like your king we have the same expectation" Roan replied.

"Raven and I come from a place where children are a burden, if we have our choice we will are more than willing to support it" Clarke said harshly.

"We won't change our ways to accommodate you"

Clarke takes a step back.

"It was nice talking to you Roan, I'll be back with my favour soon enough" Clarke said looking at him.

Clarke walks away and stops, she turns and looks at Roan.

"If Raven did what I did; would you forgive her" Clarke asks.

"No Clarke, forgiveness would not be granted"

Clarke walks away with tears in her eyes, the consequences of her actions were hitting Clarke full force.

Clarke knew she was the only one that could not assimilate to grounder culture. Just like in space; now on the ground, her days were numbered.


"That's the difference between us Bellamy, I don't need love, I can move on with life without it" Clarke eyed him.

"You'll suffer" Bellamy said offhandedly as of this conversation meant nothing to him.

Clarke stared at him.

"Is that a threat?"

"It's a fact Clarke, we are bound together"

"What happened to you?" Clarke said tears welled up.

"My people will always come first" he told Clarke.

"Really, that's not what Octavia told me" Clarke said boldly.

"Tell me Bellamy, tell me you didn't cry, throw things, over me about to die, because I'm well aware you are doing this to protect me, well I don't need it" Clarke felt the anger through her bones.

"Clarke-" he voice reasoned warning.

"No! I've had enough, put those gates down and use it for the front. Make safe passage routes for your people. Until then enjoy sleeping alone" Clarke voice was steady.

Without another word Clarke made her way out of the throne room, slamming the door in process. Clarke ignored the howl and locked the door to her quarters.

Three days, three days since Clarke has said another word to Bellamy, she kept her door locked and every night she could her scratching at her door.

Each night she ignored it.

Clarke was sitting with Raven eating grapes, while Raven picked at her food.

Clarke was sitting on her bed flipping though medical books while Raven had a book on her lap and never read a single word.

"Can I ask you something?" Raven said throwing the book on the ground.

"Go ahead" Clarke said not looking up.

"I'm about to go into that thing.. and I don't know how.."

Clarke looked up and she could sense the anxiety coming off Raven.

"Do you need wolfsbane?" Clarke said opening one of her bedroom drawers.

"That's the thing Clarke- Roans people do not tolerate it" Raven quietly speaks up.

Clarke sits and is speechless.

"Is there any way you can sneak it in?" Clarke asks.

"It's potent Clarke" and Clarke knew that. She leans back and thinks of what she can do.

"I have an idea, but if anyone finds out I can be killed for it" Clarke speaks seriously.

"Wait what-"

"Did you implant get removed?" Clarke asks.

"No it's still in" Raven said confused.

"When I first arrived here, I went into heat that my body rejected it" Clarke spoke out loud.

"We can do a new implant but we mix it with wolfsbane and a non hormone, so your body wouldn't reject it" Clarke thinks out loud.

"Won't they know?" Ravens asks.

"The only reason my implant was removed was my body reaction to the hormones of heat, if we put one in with no hormones it should be fine" Clarke said thinking out loud.

"Another option is birth control pills but concentrated wolfsbane" Clarke said to herself.

"It's kinda sad that you have a lot of ideas" Raven suddenly speaks out.

"There's a reason I don't have a child yet" Clarke replies.

"Okay I have a plan, we give you the pills because you have low iron, Monty and Jasper can mimic those pills" Clarke finalizes.

"The only problem is we don't know when you'll be back" Clarke speaks out loud.

"Okay maybe we can get Monty and Jasper pick through some supplies and see how much wolfsbane we have, make the pills and give you a year supply" Clarke says to herself.

"Clarke- I fucking love you" Raven pulls her into a hug.

"Thank you" she utters.

Clarke pulls away.

"Let gets this started, Roan has to be home at some point" Raven said running to the healers bay.

"Hey I need to the knobs, grab them" Clarke smiles as she pulls her supplies down and begins to chart her math with the information Raven has given her.

Monty and Jasper begin measurements and begin to talk back and forth. Clarke pulls all the supplies and Raven sits and watches.

A few hours they have completed most of the pills, Clarke and Jasper lean back on the chairs and watch Monty count.

"Raven you will be short a few, you will have to be back by next fall. You will be short on the heat ones; make sure you ration them" Monty instructs.

Raven leaves with thanking the boys a couple times and running out, Clarke knew she would be killed for this.

"I'll take the blame, don't you ever say a word" Clarke tells Monty and Jasper with warning.

"Clarke-"

"It's final" Clarke looks at them with no room for argument.

A week has gone by and Clarke is at the entrance watching Raven place a bag on a horse.

"So this is it" Raven said looking around awkwardly.

"We will visit you soon enough" Clarke said with a smirk.

"You guys aren't invited" Raven intervenes.

"Of course they are" Roan said walking behind Raven with a smile.

"Maybe it will be more tasteful than Clarke's" Monty whispers.

Clarke swings at Monty and he holds his arm.

"Clarke may I take a walk with you?" Roan asks.

Clarke nods and follows Roan to the outside wall where they walk at a slow pace.

"I owe you one" he speaks out.

"I don't know what you are talking about" Clarke says pulling her cloak closer to her.

"I know" he stops which Clarke plays with the button of her cloak

"I don't know what you are talking about" Clarke said looking away.

"I know you took the poison on purpose, you knew my mother wanted you alive, she was shorted her men and it gave me my advantage"

"Why would I take poison on purpose" Clarke said furrowing her eyebrows, but her heart was racing.

"I think you know, Clarke" he said stopping.

Roan pauses and stares at Clarke's stomach and back to the fields ahead, Clarke shaky hands show her true hand.

"You had a ulterior motive, which worked in my favour" he said.

"I owe you" he adds.

"You know Raven doesn't want children yet" Clarke said easing an eyebrow.

"I'm aware, but there is nothing I can do, she must" Roan speaks.

"You owe me one, you let Raven use contraceptive for a full year, and my debt will be paid" Clarke said looking at him.

"You know you can be killed for what you did" Roan adds.

"I'm aware" Clarke said pushing her hair aside.

"I cannot agree to this, just like your king we have the same expectation" Roan replied.

"Raven and I come from a place where children are a burden, if we have our choice we will are more than willing to support it" Clarke said harshly.

"We won't change our ways to accommodate you"

Clarke takes a step back.

"It was nice talking to you Roan, I'll be back with my favour soon enough" Clarke said looking at him.

Clarke walks away and stops, she turns and looks at Roan.

"If Raven did what I did; would you forgive her" Clarke asks.

"No Clarke, forgiveness would not be granted"

Clarke walks away with tears in her eyes, the consequences of her actions were hitting Clarke full force.

Clarke knew she was the only one that could not assimilate to grounder culture. Just like in space; now on the ground, her days were numbered.