What Happened That Night

I'm laying on my bed just look at the ceiling, I am trying to control my emotions but ever so often there is fog on my breath and my windows begin to freeze over. I close my eyes and can't help but go back to that night...the last time I saw him until now...

Flashback:

I had just started my last year of college, Johnny was attending a piloting school not far from me. He really had become one of my best friends, I would see and hang out with him almost every week. At the time I was dating a guy named Doug, I thought things were going very well and thought finally one of my relationships were going to work out, that he was someone that I could truly trust and was actually going to last...that I finally got over Johnny and moved forward. He was the first guy that I had ever slept with.

While Sue and Reed were away on a romantic trip to the beach I literally walked in on Doug sleeping with someone else! The bastard had the nerve to say it was my fault, that all I did was study, talk about space and that he had "needs." This would be the 4th boyfriend that would cheat on me. Not only was I furious with him but I was really hurt. I had to let out some steam so I went to a club near the college, I went right to the bar and stayed there the whole time. After being there for a while and having several drinks a couple of guys wanted to join me, I had never seen them before, one guy in particular was very touchy but I was so out of it that I didn't even notice, they soon told me they would be right back and show me a different club. I was sitting there waiting for them, singing to myself...

"Via?" I hear a distant voice, I turned my head and saw Johnny walking up to me.

"Hey Johnny boy!" I shouted with a big smile, when he got to me I hugged him, I stroked his face a little bit when he pulled away, "Uh, your pretty." I playfully smacked it a couple times.

"What are you doing?" He asked me.

"I'm having fun, just like you always want."

"Not like this Via." He softly replied.

"Oh lighten up." I grumpily said. "How did you know I was here?"

"Sue called me saying you left her a weird message and she was worried about you...I went to your dorm and your roommate said you might be here." He answered.

"Did she tell you what happened?"

"No, I was waiting for you to tell me." He responded.

"I don't want to talk about it...but one thing I will say is...fuck men!" I shouted loudly at that last line and chugged the whole shot, "Let's get you a drink."

"I'm good and I think you've had enough. Why don't we get you home now?"

"No...I don't want to go home...Rachel's there." I pouted.

"Okay, I won't take you home but it's time to go okay."

"Look at you Mr. Party Pooper! I don't want to go...you can go but I'm staying." I tried to shove him away but I had no strength.

"There is no way in hell I'm leaving you here...I'm sorry you have no choice."

He grabbed my purse and took me off the stool, "hey! You can't just..." I start to complain until he caught me from falling when my feet hit the floor, his arms were around me, "wow, your fast." I gave him a flirty grin, I was getting a little touchy with him.

"Come on." He kind of giggled.

He put my arm around his neck and helped me walk and even though I was telling him I didn't want to leave I wasn't trying to stop him either. Before we got far though touchy guy came back and he was not happy I was leaving, he pushed Johnny.

"Hey man, that's my chick." He angrily called out.

"Not anymore, I'm taking her home." Johnny replied confidently.

"She's going home with me." The guy shoved him again, his buddies started to crowd us. "She already agreed to coming with me, so back off." Giving him another shove, I could tell Johnny was getting really annoyed now.

"I don't think so." Johnny snarled before he gently sat me down in a chair so he could properly talk to this guy, "Why don't you dickhead go find another girl...preferably one that's not drunk off her ass. I'm guessing that's the only girl you can get."

The guy sucker punched Johnny in the face, "hey." I pouted. He punched him one more time, his friends were just cheering him on until Johnny fought back and he ended up kicking his ass. I felt like I was in a trance the whole time while watching, there was something so mesmerizing and quite frankly hot about Johnny fighting for me! After breaking through a table the guy chucked a bottle at him but Johnny dodged it and the bottle hit someone else, he was furious and went after the guy Johnny was fighting, a big brawl started to form with more men joining in. While Johnny had a clearing he very quickly picked me up and put me over his shoulder carrying me out. "Hey, Johnny." I whined.

He put me in the front seat of his car and started to drive, "what were you thinking?" He touched his eye, "what were you doing with that guy? He could have hurt you."

"I don't know...I just wanted to have some fun." I pouted, "they seemed like nice guys to me."

"Guys? You mean you were going to leave with all of those assholes?"

"Yeah...I just..." I started to explained but he cut me off.

"Well they weren't...those guys were...that guy...why would you even..." He couldn't complete his sentence, I had never seen him that upset before!

"Johnny, are you jealous?" I couldn't help but grin.

"Jealous? No of course not," he quickly replied, "it's just those guys were clearly assholes." He was mumbling, I just kept smiling.

He helped me out of the car but immediately caught me from falling again, he picked me up and carried me bride style. He brings me into a room, kicked the door closed while my arms were around his neck.

"I said I didn't want to go home." I complained.

"We're not at your dorm, we're at mine." He told me as he sat me down on his bed.

I'm sitting on the edge of the bed, he kneels in front of me and takes my shoes off, "thanks for taking me out of there...and stopping me from leaving with that guy." I softly spoke, I felt quite embarrassed. After all I had never drank that much before and I never intended on him ever seeing me plastered!

"Your welcome." He smiled sweetly at me, "Are you ready to tell me what happened?"

"...No..." he started to turn and I thought at first he was leaving. "Where are you going? Please don't leave."

"I promise, I won't. I'm just going to get you some water." He came back a few minutes later and gave me a bottle water, he opens the cap for me.

As he is getting his bed ready for me to sleep in I without warning started to cry, "What's wrong with me?"

"What do you mean?" He asked as he kneeled in front of me so he was at my eye level.

"Why does this always happen to me? Why does every one of my boyfriends cheat on me?" I asked as I continue to sob, he shook his head at me like he now understood my behavior tonight, "What am I doing wrong Johnny?"

He sat beside me "nothing...nothing's wrong with you." He stroked my hair gently, "all those guys...they were idiots...they didn't deserve you..." he brought me in and I pressed my head to his chest as he soothed my back, I held him tight. "I promise the right guy is out there for you."

I slightly pulled away and looked at him, our noses were almost touching and that's when I noticed his black eye from the fight, "Oh God, your hurt...this is my fault isn't it?" I gave a sad face.

"Yes it is...but it's small price to pay..." I didn't say anything else I just raised my hand up and gently ran my fingertips over the bruise. I don't know what came over me, if I was still drunk or emotional but I did something I never thought I would ever do...I leaned in and gently kissed his bruised eye, also caressing his face. My lips went lower and I kissed his cheek, his jaw and last kissed his lips, he kissed me back for a few seconds.

"Via, this isn't a good idea." He mouthed as he softly pushed me away but not too far, our noses were still touching.

"No...it's a really good idea." My lips went right back to his and put both hands on his face to deepen the kiss further. The second I felt him kiss me back I wrapped my arms around his neck, he put both hands on the back of my head through my hair, his fingers were getting tangled in it. I exhaled in pure relief, that I was finally kissing this man and it was better then I ever could've imagined. I brought my body in front of him and straddled his lap, he was still sitting on the edge with his legs off the bed.

I began to pull up his shirt but didn't get far before he stopped kissing me and pulled my hands away, "Via, we can't do this, it's not right." He whispered.

Immediately I began kissing his neck and grinding my hips with his, "...Johnny...please...I need you," I begged as my heart was racing. He let out a groan before he grabbed my face and kissed me, he soon took off my shirt and I followed in pursuit. We removed all of our clothes and after raising me up slightly to remove my panties he placed me right on his shaft. We both froze for a second, just reveling in that amazing feeling before we began to thrust, he was holding my lower back pushing me into him more as I threw my head back, riding him. "Johnny...touch me." I moaned, he put his hands on my hips lifting me up a little bit and put his mouth around my breast, my mouth flew open. He sensually rubbed the opposite breast and soon switched hands and mouth from one breast to another as his other hand was rubbing/squeezing my ass, I pushed his face even more into my breasts as I rode him faster. I was so enthralled in his gentle but very firm touch, no one had ever touched me like that.

I pushed his body down and we continued to thrust, we go faster, "Oh yeah!" I hear him groan as he's holding my hips, I was kissing and rubbing his upper body. Without ever losing our pace he flipped us and he put his arm around one of my legs and raised it in the air and the more he raised it the more he would go deeper and hard, my moans got louder, he shoved his tongue down my throat to muffle my moans. I ran my nails down his back and shoulders, "Johnny! More!" I demanded between kisses and moans, he changed our positions a little bit and he went between both my legs, I wrapped them around his waist and raised my knees up higher in the air as he went faster, he was also stroking the back of my thighs and ass.

All of a sudden the mood shifted and it wasn't hot and heavy anymore, we are moving very slow but so intimate. He put his hand on my face, rubbed my cheek with his thumb and gave me the sweetest smile and passionately kissed me, this one was different then the others...something so much more. We both had our arms completely wrapped around each other, holding on so tight, my heart was pounding. I thought before I was in love but being with him at that moment...it was a feeling I still can't describe. We both climaxed and after a few seconds of just soaking it in he pulled back a little bit and smiled at me again. I stroked his face with my fingers, then softly pulled his face down to give him one last passionate kiss before we fell asleep.

I woke up that next morning with a splitting headache and as I opened my eyes I immediately knew I was not in my dorm. I quickly sat up, saw that I was naked and realized whose dorm I was in. The previous night came flashing back before my eyes, I quickly regretted it, thought about how reckless it was and I couldn't believe I slept with Johnny...my best friends brother! But all of that went away when he walked out of his bathroom buttoning up his pants, he looked up at me and smiled. All of that fear, worry and regret went completely away and all I felt was...love. I knew in that moment I had to tell him everything, tell him everything I was feeling and how long I've felt it.

"Hey." I sleeplessly spoke.

"Hi." He smiled at me as he zipped up his pants. "How's your head?"

"It's killing me."

He gave me a sympathetic look as he sat on the bed and cradled the side of my head, rubbing it just a little bit, I smiled at him. "Better?"

"Yes...thank you." I softly replied...I think I fell in love with him even more in that moment. "Where are you going?" I asked him.

"I have an early class in about an hour." He told me.

"Oh okay...listen Johnny...last night..." I was starting to say, about to confess everything but I hesitated for a second.

"I know what your going to say...and I completely agree with you." He cut me off.

"You do?" I was sure that he was thinking the same thing I was.

"Yeah, last night...was a one night thing. I mean, you were upset and needed comforting and I was there...nothing more then that. We can move on now and just go back to the way things were. It's probably best if we don't tell Sue, she'll kill me." He quickly said, "That's what you were going to say, right?"

"...Yeah...exactly..." I couldn't breathe, I was on the verge of tears.

"Okay, good..." He sighed in relief that we were on the same page, even though we weren't, "It sure was fun though." He grins, I have to look away from him. "Um, let me drive you back to your dorm."

"No, it's okay. It's not far from here, I need the walk anyway. I don't want you to be late, I know how busy it gets down there."

"Okay...well, I'll see you later?" He asked hopeful.

"Yeah, of course." I lied.

After he closed the door I just sobbed, my heart was completely broken but worse I was and still am so angry with myself!

I go into the bathroom and look in the mirror. Why couldn't I just tell him the truth? That it did mean something, that it was truly special and just told him everything. Why did I hesitate? I was such a coward! I have never blamed him, he thought we were thinking the same thing, I had to go and lie to him. That night was the last time I saw him, I ran away because I knew it would never be the way it was before and knew I couldn't handle seeing or hanging out with him again, not after what I felt, my heart couldn't take it. I have had several sexual partners since then but have never felt anything like I did that night with Johnny, could never recapture that feeling, which has been making it so hard to be around him now. Ever since he's come back into my life all those feelings I felt that night and morning keep flashing back to me in one swoop...passion, love, heartbreak and regret. Of course not only are we staying in the same place again but our rooms are next to each other. I go to bed wondering what tomorrow will bring.


There you have it! Would you have lied or just told him how you really feel?