A month Later

It's been a month and Johnny and I are still sleeping together, it's been the most exciting and thrilling experience of my life. No one has found out and even if I were to tell Sue or anyone for that matter I wouldn't know what to tell them, I mean I don't even know what we are by this point, we don't talk about it and I'm afraid to bring it up, I have no idea what's going on in his head but as for me I am constantly reminding myself that this is short term and to not expect anything...that way I won't get my heart broken.

For almost a week I have not seen Johnny at all. Reed asked me to document the storms and clouds going on right now in space to see if that would help with the machine and that's been taking a lot of my time, I've been working until around 2 am. I haven't even seen him for meals like I did before and...I've missed him and I have just longed to be back into his arms again. I contemplate going to his room after I'm done but it's usually too late. The worst part about this is...I have no idea if he's felt the same way.

I am done for the night, in fact it's my last night to document, we came to the conclusion that it just wasn't working. It's a little past midnight and as I'm walking down the hall to my room he suddenly emerges from his room, we immediately face and smile at each other. We don't waste another second and we rush towards each other and as I reach him I jump in his arms and wrap my legs around him, kissing him immediately. He holds me around my waist with one arm while his other hand is on the back of my head, I'm holding and caressing his face with my hands. He carries me into his room while our lips never disconnect.

"God, has it really been almost a week?" He asks between kisses.

"I know, I'm sorry...Reed's been keeping me busy." I answer between kisses.

"I missed you."

I stop kissing him for a moment to look at him, "...I missed you." He strokes my cheek and brings my lips to his again, his other arm is securely around me. I wrap my arms tightly around his head, our kiss is so passionate and he begins to walk to the bed.

"Johnny? You awake?" We hear Sue call out softly and gently knocks.

I literally see her start to open the door, I very quickly jump off him and hide in his closet, I barely got in there when she completely opens the door. God that was REALLY close! I thought she was going to catch us this time!

"Yeah? What?" He says out of breath.

"You okay?" She asks him.

"Yeah, I was just working out."

"Oh...okay. Have you seen Via? I went to her room to talk to her and she wasn't there, I checked to see if she was still in the lab but wasn't there either."

"...No, maybe she grabbed a snack from the kitchen or something." He quickly comes up with.

"What's weird though is I would have sworn I heard her voice." She said confused.

"I don't know what to tell you but I haven't seen her."

"Well okay, see you in the morning." She tells him.

"Yeah." He only says as she walks out.

Just like the last time she almost caught us I wait in the closet for about another minute before coming out.

"God, that was WAY too close!" I blurt out, "I feel like she knows something...I mean why would she come ask you where I was?" I'm starting to get paranoid, "Oh God, if she finds out...I just..."

"Hey." He softly spoke before holding my hips, "Relax, she doesn't know anything and she didn't see you...we're fine." He is not worried about this at all...in fact he's never worried or concerned, half the time he seems kind of annoyed that he or I have to hide.

"Why don't you care about this? Why aren't you worried she'll find out?" I ask a little annoyed with him.

"You really want to know?" He asks me, I quickly nod my head. "Okay, I am going to say this as simple and as nice as I can...I don't care because I don't give a fuck what Sue thinks." I'm stunned, that was not what I was expecting to hear. I begin to open my mouth to say something but he quickly interrupts me, "Don't get me wrong I love my sister but if she has a problem with this then that's her problem...this isn't about her. (He very tenderly holds my shoulders) This is about you and me...and I want to be with you..."

"You mean..." I'm trying to speak but can't find the words.

"I want to take you on a date...I want to be able to kiss you in public...I want everyone to know I'm with you...that your mine and I'm yours...I just want to be with you."

I'm speechless, the only thing I can do is kiss him, I hold his face tenderly. He lifts me up and carries me bride style as I'm stroking his face, he gently lays me in the middle of the bed, I don't let go of him and he lays on top of me. Our kiss never breaks and with such passion, only using our tongues just a tiny little bit. We slowly peel off our clothes and he gently goes inside me, we wrap our arms around each other and hold on so tight. He stops for a second, looks down at me and gives me the sweetest smile and strokes my face tenderly with the back of his knuckles, "you are so beautiful" he softly whispers, he completely takes my breath away and my heart is beating out of my chest. He kisses me again and slowly thrusts but going so deep, he will lightly bush his fingers all over my body, being so tender and gentle like I was the most fragile thing. This was different from all the other times we've had sex, usually it's very hot and heavy...for the first time since our night in college we're making love. We made love all night it felt like, I never want it to ever end.

I wake up and notice the sun is up and I'm laying on his shoulder, I smile up at him and softly graze his face and lips with my fingertips, he's so beautiful while sleeping...but suddenly my smile goes away. This felt so intimate, almost as much as making love, he's holding me so tightly. I have to get out of here so I quickly get dressed and I go into my room, I try to sleep but I can't, I just keep thinking how I broke the one rule I swore I would never break.

Sleep was never going to happen so I decide to get a drink from the kitchen. "Morning." I hear as I walk in, Sue is sitting at the counter.

"Morning." I repeat, internally she scared the hell out of me but I don't show it.

"Where were you last night?" I again am getting paranoid, thinking she knew where I was...maybe she did see me or heard me!

"...I fell asleep on the couch..." I quickly come up with, "I couldn't sleep so I thought I would watch a movie but I guess I did."

"Oh, of course it was the one place I didn't look." She responded, I internally exhale in relief.

"Was there a reason why you were looking for me?" I ask her.

"Well, I haven't really talked to you for a week and I was just wanting to know how the documentation was going? And hoping Reed isn't pushing you too hard."

"Well nothing worked...it ended up being a dead end, we called it quits last night." I answer, "And no, Reed's been just fine."

"Man I was really hoping that would work," she replied disappointed. "There was another reason I was looking for you and...this has been eating me up...I wanted to say...that I'm sorry about everything."

"What do you mean?" I honestly don't know why she's apologizing to me.

"It's my fault your here...if it wasn't for me bringing you up to the space station none of this would have happened to you." She tells me.

"Sue, it's not your fault." I quickly reply taking her hand, "You know I had been wanting to go up there my whole life, I would have jumped at any opportunity...and I don't regret a thing." I continue to explain. "Going up there was one of the best experiences of my life...and I'll never forget it." I couldn't help thinking that part of the reason for that was being up there with Johnny and sharing that moment with him when I looked down on Earth and fulfilling my dream.

"It's just...your my best friend and you've always been there for me and I wanted to be there for you...and just the thought that I ruined your life..." She confesses.

"Again it wasn't your fault...you did help me...I would still be having that dream if it wasn't for you." I interrupt her.

"Good." She sighed before giving me a big hug.

"Your my best friend too." I whisper in the hug. "So, what are you going to do about Reed? I know you still love him." I say as we pulled away, she just smiles at me. We end up talking for about 2 hours and it was great.

Afterwards I went back to my room, I couldn't get past our talk and what I was doing to her and I felt more guilty then I have ever before...I can't keep doing this to her! I suddenly know what I have to do, I go to his door, grab the door handle and take a big breath. I don't knock, I just walk right in. He's already awake getting dressed, he looks at me and smiles, I however am not smiling.

"Morning," He softly spoke, "Where did you go? I was enjoying cuddling with you."

"Johnny...we need to talk."

"Okay." He continues to get dressed.

"...We can't do this anymore...you and me..." I blurt out.

"Right...whatever you say." He thinks I'm joking.

"I'm serious...this has to end." My tone of voice is far more serious then the last time I tried to end things with him.

"And why is that?" He seriously asked me as he stopped what he was doing.

"It's just...I can't do this to Sue anymore...she's my best friend and this whole thing has gotten way out of hand and has been a big mistake...if we stop now then no one will get hurt."

"What are you talking about?" He is getting a little mad, "So, your just going to end it? Just like that?"

"Johnny there is nothing to end...all of this has just been about sex...you know and I know it."

"Via, it's more then that...we have something special..."

"No we don't! I know you Johnny, remember you don't do relationships or feelings. The only reason you've wanted me is because I'm the only girl you could get here."

"You know that's not true..." He replied very upset with what I said.

"Oh please, I know the second we're able to leave the apartment you'll find the next model to hook up with...that's who you are Johnny that's who you'll always be."

"It's not like that anymore...not with you...I told you last night how much I want you." He tries to reach for me but I don't let him, I pull back.

"Oh and for how long? Another month?" I say pretty bitterly.

"No Via...I want you more then anything...this past month has been...the happiest I've ever been." He sincerely confesses as he takes my hands and caresses them with his thumbs, "It's not just about sex...we felt it last night...hell I have felt it every damn time...I know you felt it too...what we have is real."

"...No Johnny it isn't...I didn't feel it...it was just sex for me...nothing else...just like in college..." I am trying to hold back my tears, I can't show him any emotion to indicate that I'm lying, he has to believe I mean it.

"So that's it?" He very sadly spoke.

"...Yes...this is over." I can only say, I almost completely break when he gently let's go of my hands, "I'm sorry."

After leaving his room I barely made it to mine before I burst into tears, leaning against the door. I slink down to the floor and put my hands on my face as the tears and sobs wouldn't quit.


See, I told you there would be drama! She ended it and lied about her feelings! Do you think she did the right thing? Do you think she really broke it off because of Sue or something else?