A/N: Don't own anything Avenger related…shame I know….I'm currently working on some of my other stories and hope to have them posted soon, but until then here is a little feel good between Steve and Bucky.
**Just a short one off with some soft feels between Bucky and Steve…Hope you enjoy.
Just Hold Me
It has been a long couple of days, but finally the Team with only a couple of bumps and bruises, are all returning safely to the Tower for rest and recovery. The Team was sent to a location in the high mountains of Austria, surrounded by a vast expanse of nothing but snow and trees, to investigate a possible HYDRA base; it was a simple and straight forward search and destroy mission. Luckily the Team found the base abandoned and began their sweep of the structure but HYDRA is ruthless and cunning leaving nothing to chance, so they left a few traps in place for anyone who happens to stick their nose where it doesn't belong, hence the Team finding themselves exhausted, battered and bruised as they off load from the QJet and trudge into the Tower desperate for hot food, a hot shower and a soft bed.
"Okay my little ducklings, meet back in the common room for food and a movie; Jarvis bud can you place our standing order at the diner on 7th and Market for the steak and egg meal combos along with 10 fresh fruit bowls" Tony calls out as the Team quietly rides the elevator up to their private floors to the sound of stomachs growling at the mention of food.
"Of course sir, the order has been place and should be arrive within the hour" Jarvis replies.
"Thanks J, have it brought up as soon as it gets here"
"Of course sir" Jarvis answers as the rest of the ride is quite except for the occasional rumble of someone's stomach or a hiss of discomfort from rubbing up against a sore spot on their bodies.
Steve and Bucky were let off on their floor as the rest of the Team continued on to their own floors to shower, change and bandage any wounds that needed attention. Surprisingly even as the resident super soldiers on the Team they were both tired and hungry, as the cold and location of the base was starting to bring random flashbacks for both men who just want to get cleaned up and try to leave the past where it belongs, in the past. Steve and Bucky made their way into their shared bedroom and begin to remove their tactical gear till they were both bare before making their way into the shower. Steve was in the processes of adjusting the temperature in the shower stall when Bucky slid up behind him, wrapping one flesh and one metal arm around his trim waist and places a tender kiss on the back of Steve's shoulder. Steve looks back over his shoulder at Bucky and gives him a tired grin, "Hey Buck" before giving him a gentle peck on the lips.
Bucky smiles and buries his nose into Steve shoulder, "Hey Steve"
It took longer than it normally would for Steve and Bucky to finish their shower, they both wanted to take their time inspecting the other for any hidden injuries as they gently moved the soapy wash cloth over each other's exhausted bodies. Their touches are kept soft across the others bruised skin as they finish rinsing the soap from their hair and bodies feeling refreshed and human once again.
After the Team reassembled for their meal and movie, which by the end found most of the Team sound asleep laid out on the couches of the common room, did Steve and Bucky decide to call it a night and head for bed. Bucky and Steve entered their rooms and slowly walk back towards the bedroom, both ready to curl up with their pillows and each other. As Steve heads to the bathroom to brush his teeth, Bucky strips down to his boxer briefs and climbs into bed to wait for Steve to come back in and join him.
When Steve appears from the bathroom it's to find Bucky already drifting off to sleep, curled up on his left side with the blankets pulled back in invitation for Steve to join him, Steve smiles tiredly at his best friend and partner. Steve gently climbs into the bed next to Bucky and curls around his back, holding him tightly to his chest as Steve wraps his arm around Bucky's waist being the big spoon. Steve moves to bury his nose in Bucky's neck and places a gentle kiss there, "Good night Buck" before placing another kiss on the exposed flesh of his shoulder.
Bucky shifts slightly, releasing a large yawn and a low moan, "Night Stevie" and falls back to sleep leaving Steve smiling into Bucky's warm skin allowing himself to finally relax enough to join Bucky in sleep.
Later that night—
In the course of the night Steve had loosened his grip on Bucky's waist and rolled over to lie on his other side, which eventually caused the two lovers to reverse positions so that now Bucky is curled up tightly behind Steve with Bucky being the big spoon and holding Steve tightly to his chest.
Bucky is woken up by something in the darkness of their bedroom and lays very quiet and very still to see if he can figure out what disturb his sleep, when no other noise is heard Bucky curls back into Steve dropping a lite kiss on the back of his neck before trying to return to sleep.
When Bucky hears something again and this time he feels movement in the bed.
"Jarvis, lights at forty percent please" Bucky whispers loud enough for Jarvis to ear but hopefully not wake Steve if this turns out to be nothing, Bucky waits as the room slowly becomes brighter. The first thing Bucky does is look over to check on Steve and that's when he notices it, Steve is curled tightly in on himself, his body is trembling with a lite sheen of sweat on his skin. Steve's body jerks suddenly as he lets out a moan and mumbled words then resettles for a moment, curling into an even tighter ball.
Bucky sits up and leans on his flesh arm as he reaches out to gently shake Steve's arm to try and wake him, but it does no good. Bucky watches as Steve becomes more agitated and vocal as his legs shift to try and kick out from the blankets, fighting against someone or for someone in his nightmare.
Bucky climbs to his knees hovering over Steve, knowing that he has done this many times for Bucky since being deprogramed from Hydra and brought to the Tower, especially after a hard therapy session.
"Steve" Bucky calls out again while shaking his shoulder a little more forcefully causing Steve to swing his arm and fist out violently which Bucky was able to easily block, still desperately fighting what only Steve can see behind his closed eyes.
"Stop….stop….please….can't….can't breathe…can't….oh god" Steve sobs out, "No…no…please…come back…Bucky please…no….oh god…please….come back….don't go….come back...I'm sorry...don't...don't leave me here...please"
After hearing Steve's sobbing words Bucky lifts Steve into a sitting position and leans him against his chest tucking his tear stained face into his neck and begins rocking. Bucky wraps his arms around Steve's back holding him tightly as he runs his metal hand through his blond sweat damp hair.
"Hush now….shh hush now Stevie I gotcha love...shh" Bucky coos as he continues rocking and Steve continues sobbing into his neck.
"Come on Stevie; wake up for me…hmm… It's just a dream, you're safe now…" Bucky whispers to Steve as he continues to rock the blond whose sobs have begun to quiet down a bit when Steve suddenly pulls roughly away from Bucky arms and pushes himself up against the head board, his eyes wide and wild darting around the room as his breathing becomes short and labored.
Bucky hold his hands out towards Steve, "Steve…it's Bucky…you need to calm down and breath love"
Steve just looks at Bucky like it's the first time he's seen him, his bright blue eyes wild, scared and confused.
"Buck?" Steve pants out still trying to slow his breathing down.
"Yeah Stevie it me, I'm here…I'm right here" Bucky says reaching out to caress Steve's cheek, using his thumb to wipe at his tears.
"How?" Steve asks still sounding confused his mind not quite awake as images of his nightmare still flickers in front of his eyes.
Bucky smiles, "You found me"
Steve finally begins to calm down, his breathing returns to normal with an occasional hitch as he reaches out with his finger tips to touch Bucky face, still unsure if what he is seeing is real or if he's still trapped in his nightmare.
"It was so cold Buck…I couldn't breathe without you" Steve whispers out as he is once again pulled into the warmth of Bucky's embrace and gently rocked.
"Shh…love…shh...I'm here now"
"I missed you so much" Steve cries into Bucky's chest kissing the scarred skin that stretches over his heart.
"Hush now…hush doll I'll keep the cold away"
Steve looks up from Bucky's chest, tears pooling in his eyes and running down his cheeks again, "Just hold me"
When Bucky looked down into Steve's expressive blue eyes and his body still trembling no other words need to be said. Bucky lays himself back down on the bed and pulls Steve down with him till his head is placed on his chest hoping the steady sound of his heart beat will sooth and give some comfort to his love. The blankets are pulled up tight to cover their bodies and their hands move to touch the other gently. One to comfort the other to remind himself that he's not alone anymore.
"Shh... Steve… go to sleep love…I've got ya…I'll keep you warm" Bucky whispers down to Steve.
Steve who is now once again heavy with sleep moves his head just enough to kiss Bucky's chest before resettling and whispers sleepily, "till the end of the line"
The End
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