Chapter six
Everything seemed so normal while they watched the movie and they had forgot how much they treasured this time with him. Every time he laughed they couldn't help but smile, every time he covered his eyes at the scary parts all Blaine wanted to do what he always did and bring him into his chest.
"Nicky?"
Nick turned his head with a sigh to the pale man who was trying his hardest to get his attention for the last ten minutes. "What do you want porcelain? Can you not see I'm watching the movie?"
"You hate this movie."
"I hated this movie, big difference."
Nick turned his head back around to the screen and he felt a hand press to his thigh but he slapped it away. "Don't touch me honestly, don't put your hands anywhere near me porcelain or I'll take your arm out your socket."
"I know you hate this part of the movie. I was just trying to help y-
"I was trying to make it easier f-
"Don't worry I'll keep my hands to myself asshole." Kurt said bluntly a he let out a laugh. "You can suffer in silence for all care."
Nick eyes went wide as his kept his view on the screen. They heard his little sweet slip ups and was enough for them to see how hard it was for him. He felt his hand clench the sheets and he finally turned his head again to see Kurt's face was twisted in anger.
"Are you pissed?"
"Fuck you."
Nick didn't move his gaze as he tried to read him again. He couldn't help but smile has he noticed his little freckles too and the tiny scare above his eyebrow from when a book fell of a shelf at Dalton, knocking him clean out in the common room. He moved his eyes to his nose, cringing slighty at the bruising but he was thankful David had set it back into place. He was extremely beautiful and he loved this man, even if he hated to admit it after everything he had put him through. His heart beat was a little fast for him being sat down but he knew that was down to his anger and he wanted to know how someone so compassionate, someone so kind could ever do something so hurtful.
"What are you staring at? Watch the damn movie Duval."
"What the fuck happened to you?"
Kurt didn't answer him as he kept his gaze on the screen. Everyone had turned their heads to see how this would play out. It could either go one way, he could open up or he could close him self entirely.
"What the fuck happened to you to make you so heinous?"
Kurt didn't answer again but they all seen his first clenching harder as his knuckles turned white. Jeff was so close to telling his boyfriend to back off his best friend but he seen Blaine shook his head so he nodded and sat back.
"What the fuck happ-
"I've been trying to get your attention ten minutes and you ignored me right throughout so you know what Nicky? I won't bother anymore, so keep your words to yourself and just shut the fuck up before I punch you right in your face."
"Why are so fucking angry at the world?"
Nick ignored him completely and kept pushing him and the more he did the more he watched the man in front of him break.
"I'm angry because you make me angry. You're so fucking caught up in everything Nicky. This situation? The one between me and Blaine? It's got fuck all to do with you so all this pent of angry and rage toward me? Why? I might of hurt you but I hurt that man more and he's trying, so why can't you try?" Kurt said bitterly as he finally moved his head around toward the vampire.
"Because he had a good heart Kurt and he's my god damn best friend and I'll go to hell before I see you hurt him again."
"Who's hurting him? The only person I see hurting him is you right now. He wants to try and move on Nicky, why can't you just fucking let him?"
"I'm right here you know? You don't have to talk like I'm not in this room." Blaine said getting frustrated as he watched them too fight over him. "Can you please stop fighting?"
"Because he'll never move on. Don't you understand that? Bonding with someone when you're a vampire it's for life Kurt. It's an oath you make and it's eternal. He'll never stop feeling for you because the connection will always be there and the only way it won't be there? Is when your dead and buried. We feel ten times much more as human which means it takes ten times as long to get over it. I love him and at one stage I loved you and I can't wrap my head around how you could do this to him after everything he's did for you." Nick said breathlessly, ignoring his best friend completely.
"Why can't you just accept the fact that Sebastian was a fling. Why can't you just accept that and move on?"
"You couldn't kiss blondie on the lips, your best friend Kurt without worrying you was cheating on Blaine. You lost your fucking virginity to that man and you couldn't even say the world sex without turning bright red. So can you see how difficult this is for me to understand that you did this for a fling?"
"Stop fishing." Kurt said with a laugh as he shook his head in amusement.
"Three years, everyday my boyfriend would ask you to kiss him and everyday you would say no, I can't blondie. I would never do that to Blaine, no matter how much I want to kiss you. Right?"
Kurt didn't say anything and they watched him swallow a lump that was forming in his throat. They could see Nick wasn't doing this to torture him but to get him to open up.
"To this day you have never kissed my boyfriend and we all knew how much you wanted hi-
"Shut up Nick-
"We could all hear it in your head how much you wanted to kiss him, how much you wanted to take his clothes off and show him how much you loved him and even though you knew it was a way for us to connect, even though you knew me and Blaine was totally fine with it you still couldn't go through with it. You know why that is? Because your fucking faithful Kurt and you loved that man enough to say no to him. So I'm sorry, I don't believe for one second anymore that you did this to get your dick wet."
"That seems like a you problem." Kurt said with a grin as he fists unclenched and he placed them casually on his thigh. "I'm sorry, there's nothing much more I have to say to you honey so are you done?"
"Did he force you? Did he pin your hands up and make you take it?"
"Nope I was more than willing to get the shit fucked out of me." Kurt said again casually as he glanced to Blaine who was trying so hard not to pull a face of disgust. "Sorry Anderson, but he's fucking pushing me."
"Did he Kurt? Seriously? Did he hurt you?"
"No, he didn't hurt me Anderson and he sure as hell didn't rape me. Can we please move on? You're making me uncomfortable."
"Did he rape you?" Nick said seriously as he brought his head back to him.
"I swear he didn't rape me. Do you honestly think if he raped me we would be in this situation right now? Do you think I wouldn't tell you after everything we've been through together?"
"No, I know you would tell me. I'm just trying to find a reason why you didn't just do it because you wanted too." Nick said softly as he brushed his blue hair out of his eyes. "God you make me so fucking angry porcelain."
"You make me so fucking angry too." Kurt replied back as he squeeze his eyes shut at the foreign touch. " I think I'm going to bed. I'm so tired."
They noticed he did looked exhausted. Today had truly took it out of him and they didn't know if he meant he was tired now, or just tired in general.
"Go and lay with your blondie."
Kurt nodded and slid off the bed and his best friend already has his arms out waiting for him. He crawled on top of him and as soon as he pressed his weight down, placing his head into his shoulder his whole body went into shut down.
"Get some sleep baby, I'll wake you up in an hour."
"Okay blondie." Kurt whispered as he shut his eyes and placed a hand over his heart.
It didn't take him long to fall asleep, his light snores and his twitching fingers let them knee they could talk freely and not have to worry about him waking up anytime soon.
"I didn't do it to be an asshole."
"We know sweetie. I just hate seeing him so hurt. I hate seeing all of you so hurt. I wish we could just turn back time." Jeff said softly as his hands worked in his hair as he slept peacefully.
"After hearing everything that got said earlier about the door, the sage and the text message everything seems so unusual. If he wanted to do it and sustain his life here at Dalton, why didn't he try and hide it?" Nick said in confusion as he watched him sleep. "He could of got away with it easily but there was no fight. I truly believe in my heart he didn't do this for a reason. I'm going to keep being my asshole self to him. The more I push the more he might break. Is that okay with everyone?"
"You think he didn't do it for himself don't you?" Blaine said with a smile and Nick finally smiled too.
"I don't think he wanted to do it. I think he had no choice and that is just as bad as rape." Nick whispered as he watched his boyfriend's eyes water at the thought. "You're right blondie, my porcelain would never sleep with another man and he would never cheat."
"He's protecting someone and we need to find out who." Wes added as he looked over his bonded partner.
"Operation get baguette back?"
They all laughed softly at David but every single one of them nodded in agreement. They wasn't going to stop until they knew what happened that night. They started to think over the night for any clues and indications he would do it but it got interrupted when Kurt talked in his sleep.
"Ducks."
Jeff let out a soft laugh as he leaned forward to kiss his head. They had always loved him talking in his sleep, it was a trait they had all missed dreadfully.
"Baby."
"He's thinking about you." Nick said with sweet smile as he watched his boyfriend crumble and eyes water as Kurt started to laugh for a few seconds.
"He breaks my heart." Jeff grinned as he listened to his laughter.
"It breaks mine too. I didn't think I would ever hear him do that again." Blaine said with a genuine smile as he started to climb into the bed toward Nick.
"Come on ba-
Kurt gasped up making them all jump out their skin and he rolled himself off the couch and Jeff reached out to grab him but he was to late and he fell to the floor. He started to pat himself around his lower half practically groping himself before he sighed in relief.
"Baby what are you doing?"
"Oh Jesus I thought my dic-
They burst into laughter at the shock in his face and he continued to pat himself down.
"That was fucking madness."
"What happened and why the fuck are you groping yourself and can you continue?" Jeff said with a smirk and the whole only got louder at his reaction.
"I had such a horrible dream. My dick got." Kurt made a slicing noise moving his hand quickly down as his face turned in disgust. "Then it was just on the floor."
"Do you want me to check?"
Kurt turned back to his best friend who was licking his lips at his lower half and he slapped his head as the blush crossed his face.
"No I don't want you to check. I'm pretty sur-
Kurt felt again making his best friend scream louder. "I'm pretty sure it's attached to my body."
"I don't mind checking honestly baby."
"Blondie I'm pretty s-
"Take your damn clothes off."
Kurt gasped as his face went even more red as the thought and he sat down with his eyes shut tight as he started to laugh.
"See?" Nick whispered to the others. "He can't even think of it without blushing furiously. If he can't get his dick out to his best friend, how on earth did he do it for him?"
"God you're so hot." Jeff whispered as his hand slid up his thigh. "I would ruin yo-
"Stop."
"Why? I wanna feel you."
"Feel your boyfriend."
"But I would rather feel you." Jeff whispered again into his ear as his hand moved up his naked thigh.
They knew he wasn't doing it to make him uncomfortable, he was pushing him in the sweetest way possible. Touches like this wasn't unnatural for them but the reaction was normal. The blush was ruthless on both of them.
"They don't mind baby, lay down with me while we watch another movie."
"Are you going to feel me up?"
"Maybe."
"I can't do this." Kurt said with a laugh as he glanced to the wall and Jeff started to beam. "Your boyfriend is right there blondie."
Their heads snapped to Kurt who had realised what he had said and he glanced between their smug faces before he started to run, Blaine was first to grab him, pulling him right back on to the sofa.
"Intervention." Blaine whispered into his ear as a laugh came afterwards but Kurt shook his head.
"No intervention is ne-
Blaine hand wrapped around his waist and he couldn't finish his sentence. "Why isn't it needed?"
"He's my best friend it's weird okay?"
"Wrong answer sweetheart." Blaine said pushing in back onto the sofa with a laughing Jeff. "Wrong fucking answer."
"Gotcha baby." Jeff said wrapping his arms around his waist and placing a slow kiss to his neck.
"This isn't funny anymore."
"Why not porcelain?" Nick said sitting up and throwing him over a beer that was sitting next to him which he caught. "Have a drink, relax."
"I don't bee-
"Here you go." Wes said with a soft smile holding out a glass of expensive red wine. "It's even in my glass. Feel privileged."
"I don't want your germs Montgomery."
Wes shot forward and pressed a kiss to the corner of his mouth before tapping his cheek playfully twice and smirking at his shocked expression "Now you've got my germs. Drink bitch."
"Did he just kiss me?"
"No that wasn't a proper kiss, I can show." Wes leaned forward again but Kurt pushed him forcefully back in shock.
"Did you get dropped on your head the past year?"
"You wanted to kiss me earlier? What's the difference now?"
Kurt started to stutter as he cheeks burnt and he Wes couldn't help but smile at his reaction to the kiss. Even though it was only on the corner of his mouth he could barely get his words out.
"I don't wan-
"I have a boyfriend." Kurt finally got out. "Stop being weird."
"I'm not being weird, you're being weird." Wes commented as he crossed his leg over the other.
"I'm not being weird, you're being weird."
"How am I being weird? You're the one acting like a teenage school girl after his first kiss? Not me." Wes shot back with grin and Kurt didn't know where to place his eyes.
"I erm." Kurt started to move both of his hands up and and down his thighs. "I need some air. I need to go outside."
"It's fine porcelain, I'll get the fan."
"I don't wan-
Kurt leaned himself over, with his fingers in hair, pulling slighty in frustration. "I don't want the fan I wan-
"Jesus man are you okay?" David said softly as he watched the drip start to run down his neck onto his collarbone and his stuttered breaths wasn't a laughing matter anymore. "Kurt?"
"I can't do this I'm sorry. I need to go home."
"Wait what? Baby don't say that you've only just got here. How about we get bath together? I'll even sing to you." Jeff said into his ear as he nuzzled nose against his sweaty neck.
"You good?" Wes said with a soft smile as he placed a hand on his thigh.
Kurt glanced to Wes and nodded slowly before looking up to Blaine who was smiling as his fingers ran through his hair and he couldn't take it no more. They was being to nice and he couldn't handle it.
"I'm so sorry I hurt you. If anything, I hope you know that mean that from of the bottom of my heart."
"I know you're sorry you don't have to say it."
"Yes I do and I'll keep saying it until the day you forgive me. If you'll forgive me."
"I will forgive you it'll just take time okay?" Blaine said with a sad smile and he nodded not knowing what to say to him.
"I'm so stressed being back. I know I don't have the right to be but it's really messing with my head. The questions, the pushing really isn't doing me any good so I'm asking you please can you stop until I'm settled back in? It's hard enough knowing I've got to start again but dealing with everything else on top of it I can't cope. I know I don't deserve anything but I'm begging you, please don't ask any more questions."
"Can I ask three more?"
"Okay." Kurt said as he licked his lips nervously not knowing what he was about to ask him.
"The scars on your wrists?"
Kurt glanced down and mentally cursed himself for the exposure. His fingers was running over them, counting them in his head and the soft touch was helping to calm him down.
"It happened one month after Dalton. I was really in a dark place and I needed some relief."
"And what you told Wesley?"
"Two months after Dalton."
"Do you feel like you want to hurt yourself? Is being at Dalton putting you back in that dark place?"
"I don't know. I really don't know."
"Do you promise to tell if you do?"
"I promise." Kurt said with a nod and Blaine nodded too as he stroked his face one more time before standing up.
"I'll the run bath, blondie will do the bubbles."
"I'll go ham baby." Jeff said with a tight squeeze and he slowly stood and moved him onto Wesley's knee.
"Hello?"
Wes rolled his eyes. "Don't make it awkward. Just close your eyes and relax."
Kurt nodded and placed his head into his shoulder, closing his hands while Wes wrapped his arms around him and as soon as he did the tension left both of their bodies.
"I'll stop asking questions. I can live with that for now, I just can't live with the fact that I might drive you to hurt yourself."
"Thank you Nicky."
"But sooner or later, you're going to have to start talking. That's the promise you need to make me for this to work."
"I promise."
Nick nodded with a smile and turned to the bathroom as they walked out. Blaine gestured for him to go so he gently untangled himself from Wes and make his way over.
"He's fucked." David said quietly as he watched him walk into the bathroom and shutting the door over. "That wasn't normal. He nearly had nervous breakdown in the space of a few minutes. He needs serious help guys."
"Isn't he? What the fuck happened that year out?" Nick said as he glanced to the bathroom door.
"Already in without me I see?"
"I couldn't resist the bubbles!"
Kurt smiled wide at the cuteness but it fell slighty when he watched Jeffery look away. "Why are looking away?"
"Oh I just don't want to make you uncomfortable baby while you undress."
"I didn't mean what I said you know that right?"
"What baby?"
"That I think it's weird. I'm not uncomfortable undressing in front of you I ju-
"I just get embarrassed because you look at me."
"That makes no sense." Jeff said with a grin as he turned his head.
Kurt started to take the top of his body and he froze in place as he a pain shot right through his body and he lowered the t shirt down. Jeff started to stand, lifting his leg out the bathtub and making his way over and before kurt could stop him he was gently lifting the t shirt to see his back.
"Ba-
Kurt placed a finger to his lips and shook his head exactly like he did with Blaine. He could see the debate and anger in his best friends eyes but he nodded to respect his wishes.
"Explain." Jeff whispered as he started to help him out of the t shirt before he started murder with his boyfriend.
"I get embarrassed because you look at me."
"I know you said." Jeff said with a giggle as he finally managed to get it off him.
"You look at me the way Blaine looks at me." Kurt said with a embarrassed laugh. "Well the way he did look at me. It's exactly the same."
"The want?"
"No, the love."
Jeff grinned wider as he slipped his thumbs into his boxers and started to pull them down for him. "Because I do love you. It's simple for me you know? I don't see why we can't be close and I don't see no harm in it. You're my bestie and I like to ogle you. You're fine baby."
"Get me the bath before I die."
Jeff laughed as he started to pull him over. He stepped in first and sat down, holding his arms out so Kurt did the same and as soon as he back rested against his he moaned loudly.
"How did I go a full fucking year without this?"
Jeff giggled with a nod, running his hands down his arms. His moaning only got louder when Kurt felt wet kisses up his neck. He was way to into it and he didn't even realise Wes had slipped into the bathroom and placed his wine to the side.
"Is that nice?"
"Mmm."
"I've miss this Kurt."
"I've missed you."
Jeff groaned as his eyes watered so he buried his head into the back of his neck. "Why do you always make me cry?"
"I'm sorry." Kurt moved his head around who they could look at each other. "I'll promise to try keep the tears at bay but please tell me what's wrong with you because it's been bugging me the past few hours blondie."
"Me? Baby I'm fine. I'm just glad you're home."
"Okay." Kurt leaned forward and kissed his cheek before settling back into his chest. "Can we definitely go and get a banana th-
"You didn't push?"
"I have no right to push if you don't blondie. You'll tell me in your own time why you're so angry."
"I'm not angry." Jeff said with a laugh. "I'm really n-
"You're fucking seething, I can see it your eyes. So just tell me your angry and we can enjoy our bath."
"I'm so fucking angry."
Kurt nodded as he placed his hands only his arms that was wrapped around him. "If it helps I'm angry too."
"I'm angry at you."
"Oh." Kurt said with a frown as he started to turn his body around so they could have eye contact.
"I'm angry at you for leaving, I'm angry at you for ruining what we had and I'm angry that after all these years, you decided to jump in bed with Sebastian instead of me."
"Jesu-
"Why did it have to be him Kurt? Why not me?"
"Because I ju-
"Because what Kurt? You can't even kiss me yet that bastard took what I wanted from you."
"Jeffery where is this coming from? I thought we was good?" Kurt said confused as he looked over the rage in his eyes.
"You know how much I want you, you know how much I've always wanted you so I'm sorry it that's confusing to you why I'm so angry that you didn't pick me." Jeff leaned back as he glanced away, finally feeling relieved getting it or his chest.
"You're angry because we've never had sex?"
Jeff let out a bitter laugh shaking his head. "No i'm angry that you refused my touches and my kisses because you was so worried about hurting Blaine, but you hurt him anyway with another man that wasn't even me baby. How is that meant to make me feel? Because I certainly don't feel fucking good enough for you."
"Don't say that." Kurt said brokenly as he lifted his hand to touch his face. "You're more than good enough. You're s-
"Then why? Why can't you be intimate with me? Why can't yo-
"Because I don't think I'm strong enough to sleep with you without wanting to cry my fucking eyes out. Is that what you want? Me breaking down half way through and having to stop? I wouldn't just be having sex with you, I would be making love to you." Kurt said as he cupped his face roughly so he wouldn't look away. "I won't kiss you because I know I won't want to stop kissing you and that scares me blondie. You're my best friend and I can't risk loosing you over sex. It's not because I was with Blaine, it wasn't because you wasn't good enough but it's because I fucking love you. Is that clearer for you? Or shall I say it slower so you can fucking understand."
"So it's not because I'm not good enough?" Jeff whispeared as the tears started to from and his hands started to shake.
"No, you're more than good enough, you're perfect."
"And it's not because you was with Blaine?"
"No blondie, that was an excuse."
"So you want me?" Jeff whispeared as he placed his hands onto his wrist.
"Of course I want you. I jus-
"I don't think I could go through with it. I don't want to be crying all the way through and I know you don't too but come on? We are emotional wrecks."
Jeff let out a watery laugh as he pressed his forehead against his best friends to feel closer. "It wouldn't work baby."
"No it wouldn't work blondie but that's okay. All these moments I share with you are more than enough. I don't have to have sex with you to show you how much I love you."
"No baby, you don't need too."
An hour later they was tangled up together. Jeff was sleeping against his best friends chest but Kurt was wide awake staring at the ceiling as his hands moved through his blondie hair every few seconds. He heard the door opening and his eyes moved to the left.
"Sorry I didn't knock. I knew he was sleeping."
"Do you want to carry him to your room?"
"No porcelain, he looks extremely comfortable."
Nick gestured to the end of the bed and he nodded and waited for him to sit. They both had a few seconds to just look at the blonde before the silence was broken.
"Did you mean what you said?"
"It was never a moment I didn't want to be with him. I knew it was okay Nicky, I just didn't want to put us both through the train wreck you know?"
"He loves you so much." Nick said with a soft laugh placing his hand on his boyfriend's thigh. "He would do fucking anything for you and I mean anything. I'm pretty sure he would cut his own arm off if you asked him for a hand."
Kurt chuckled as he kissed his head. "I don't know how I went without him for so long. He's my world."
"That's one thing I'm certain on."
They both turned their heads slighty to look at each other as they thought about the day they had today. It had been a long day for all of them but they knew it was especially for Kurt. Being thrown around to insulted and even to be pushed into a corner was something they all felt disgusted they had did. It was time to start making amends.
"So I manage to finally finish making your favourite. It was a peace offering after I strangulated you but I guess things got out of hand today."
You made me my favourite?" Kurt said with a huge excited smile and Nick nodded trying not to show his excitement over his joy.
"It always makes you feel better. It's in the fridge for you with your name it. You didn't think we noticed you haven't put single thing past your mouth since you got here eight hours ago?"
"I'm not a big eater Nicky."
"Eight hours Kurt. That's a long time and I don't even think I seen you have drink apart from that sip of water. Go and eat and I'll lay with him till you get back."
"It's fine hone-
"Don't punish yourself. Please go and eat."
Kurt knew he wasn't winning the argument so he gently moved Jeffery over to his boyfriend and started to stand up slowly. "Thank you."
"Hurry back. If he sees you gone he'll throw a bitch fit."
Kurt laughed quietly and started to make his way out the room. He took one last look at the pair of them before leaning and making his way to the kitchen.
"You shouldn't walk around with your legs out. It attracts unwanted attention."
"Are you unwanted attention Wesley?"
Wes rolled his eyes before making his way into the shared room. He listened to his foot steps and as soon as he was out of ear range he turned to his David.
"I can't believe I fucking kissed him."
"It was a hardly a kiss man."
"But it was still a kiss." Wes said with am embarrassed laugh and David nodded with a grin.
Nick glanced to the clock and frowned. It had been an hour since Kurt had left and he couldn't hear him. He gently moved his boyfriend and started to make his way through to Blaine's room.
"Have any of you seen porcelain the last hour?"
"No man, he went to eat right?"
"That was an hour ago. Don't you think it's strange him not being back?"
"Maybe he's just gone for a walk. It's been a rough day Nicky." Blaine said as he listened out for his ex boyfriend. "I can hear his heartbeat so he's somewhere close."
"I've heard no movement for half an hour. I'm going to check the kitchen."
"We'll come with you. Is blondie sleeping?" Wes asked and Nick nodded.
"He's been exhausted lately, he needs the sleep. I don't want to worry him you know?"
"He's probably fell asleep in his soup Nicky. He couldn't keep his eyes open after his bath." Blaine said with a laugh and they all laughed too as they remembered the way his eyes rolled back in exhaustion.
"He said he wouldn't be long Blaine. I had to admit this but after today and hearing what he said is it for the best if he's left alone?"
"Hummel isn't going to want a chauffeur. He'll flip his shit if he founds out we've been watching him." Wes said as they walked through to the kitchen. "But I don't seem the harm in it."
"What's changed your tune man?"
"No one should be alone, especially after hearing him today. Differences aside he should-
"Porcelain?"
They all rushed over to Kurt who was sprawled out on the floor unresponsive and Nick instantly cursed himself for not being quicker.
"Kurt?" Blaine said slapping his face slighty but no reaction was present and their nerves kicked and he quickly picked him up and in a few seconds he was at the nurses station.
"Claire!"
The tiny woman poked her head out the office hearing Blaine's panic stricken voice and her eyes went wide as he rushed over to them all who was placing Kurt on the bed.
"What happened?"
"We just found him on the fl-
Blaine couldn't get his words out and he stumbled slighty so Wes took over.
"We found him unresponsive on the floor. His pulse is stable and he's not responding to any type of interaction. Can you please help?" Wes said as his voice wavered with emotion and she nodded as she started to pull everything out to examine him.
"Allergies?"
"No but he's been out for a year so we don't know if anything has changed." Nick said quickly as he sat down on couch inside the room as she scanned through his medical chart.
"History of fainting spells?"
"No."
"Epilepsy?"
"No."
Diabetes?"
"No."
"History of suicide attempt?"
"Yes."
Her eyes scanned back over the chart at his medication before she quickly started do his blood pressure, wrapping the band on his arm before she shinned a light into his eyes to text his reflexes.
"Can you hear me Kurt? Squeeze my finger if you can here me."
There was no answer and she glanced to blood pressure monitor as she continued to text his reaction.
"His blood pressure is slighty low but it's nothing for concern. Do you know if he's been taking his medication regularly?"
"We didn't know he was on any medication. He only got to Dalton this morning. We haven't been on good terms lately." David said as he glanced over his lifeless friend.
"He has severe bruising to his back and neck. Do you think he's internally injured?" Blaine asked quietly and Nick fell silent.
"I won't know until the paramedics take him in. I'm going to test his blood sugars and then I'm going to call an ambulance."
She pricked his finger and placed the sample onto the tiny machine and waited. "Has he been eating normally?"
"He hasn't ate anything all today and I don't think he's had any fluids."
"His blood sugar is extremely low for none diabetic. I'm going to administer a shot of insulin to try and bring him responsive." Claire said as he started to open the locked cabinet. "I believe it's the reason he's fainted."
"Jesus okay." Blaine said glancing to Kurt who still hadn't moved at all since he had been laying down.
Ten minutes later Kurt was coming back around which was a relief for all of them. He was slow in movement and his words was slurred slighty as Claire fed him a sugary drink.
"You scared us Kurt. You need to start looking after yourself more." She said softly as she moved his hair out of his eyes as she glanced down to his shaking hand.
"Sorry."
"Don't say sorry to me, say sorry to your lovely friends who brought you here today." Claire said with a smile glancing to the other man.
"Sorry." Kurt said weakly as he glanced up to the four of them and they nodded but they didn't say a word because they didn't want to distress him anymore.
"Has this happened before today?"
"Yeah a few times."
"Have you taken your medication today?"
"No."
"Do you have it with you at Dalton?"
"Yes they are in my room."
"I'll get them." Nick said standing quickly and making his way out.
"I'm just going to update your medical chart. Let's lay you down for a minute. Just shout if you need me."
Kurt nodded and she helped him lay back down before making her way into her office. Closing the door to give them a little privacy.
"Are you stupid?"
"Thanks, I already feel like shit you don't have to rub my incompetence in my face Wesley."
"We was just worried. Jesus Hummel." Wes said with a sigh as he looked away from his bonding partner.
"I'm sorry alright? I'm just embarrassed."
"Why are you embarrassed man?"
"Because I can't even look after myself. I can't even remember to eat David. It's embarrassing. You haven't told blondie have y-
Jeff came flying through the door and he groaned turning away from his best friend who face was full of anger. He felt so guilty and it was only worse seeing his face.
"How can you so stupid? Do you know how worried I was when Nicky told me? Why didn't no one fucking tell me?"
"Because this is your reaction. It's not going to do any good you shouting at him." Nick said following behind with his medication and only response he got back is a glare.
"Are you okay baby? Do you need anything?"
"Can you lay with me?"
"Okay." Jeff said running his fingers through his hair before climbing into the bed. "Don't ever do that again."
"I'm sorry."
"I mean it Kurt."
"I'm sorry blondie."
"Come here asshole." Jeff said holding his arms out and Kurt placed his head into his chest.
Nick was speaking to the nurse in the office and their concerning voices was a worry. Kurt was unaware they was talking about him as Jeff was trying to distract him.
"He's on a lot of medication Nick. Majority of these are controlled drugs and highly addicting. I'm pretty concerned he's not going to take these on his own."
"Can we give him them? So we can control it?"
"I would say normally but seeing under the circumstances and I know you're old enough and worse enough I don't see the problem. I'll sort you a list of his script and I'll bring it round to you in the hour honey."
"Side affects?"
"A lot of side affects and most of the medication he has to have a full stomach so make sure he has a a good diet four times a day. It says he's prone to forgetting to eat and drink and even refuses so please keep a eye on him."
"That's fine. Thank you so much Claire you're a star. Is there anything else we need to know? He's too stubborn and proud to tell us."
"The medication can provoke mood swings. Especially his anti depressives so try and keep his mind active, take him out maybe a few times a week. Make sure he takes them or he'll go through withdrawal and that's the last thing we want."
"Thank you so much."
"Are you okay baby?"
"I miss my dad."
"I miss him too beautiful." Jeff whispered into his soft hair as he felt him grip onto him tighter so he wouldn't leave him. "Hey I'm not going anywhere okay?"
"Don't leave me."
"I won't leave you I promise you, I'm staying right here baby."
Friday July 26th
None of them could sleep after receiving Kurt's prescription and they had spent the night researching ever last pill so they was clued up on everything. The list was extremely long and the more they read the more they could see the side effects he was already experiencing.
"Agitation, sickness, indigestion, dizziness, migraines, loss of appetite, fainting, insomnia, shakiness, hallucinations, impaired motor skills, lack of concentratio-
"It goes on and on. How the fuck does he deal with this everyday?" Blaine said throwing the pieces of paper onto the table in front of him. "How does he deal with this shit on his own?"
"He's so brave."
"He sure is Day." Wes said with a wide smile as he looked at his best friend. "He's still sleeping, he must of needed it. I think I'll go and make breakfast."
"I'll go and wake him." Blaine said as he started to stand to make his way through the bathroom to check if he was okay.
He knocked on the door lightly but there was no answer so he gently opened the door and smiled at the sleeping man that was curled up in the bed.
"Kurt?"
"Mmm?"
"Are you awake?"
"No."
Blaine rolled his eyes and made his way over, pulling out his desk chair and sitting down next to the bed. He leaned over and rested his chin in his palms of his hands.
"How do you feel?"
"Embarrassed." Kurt said with a sigh as he finally opened his eyes to meet his ex vampire boyfriend. "It won't happen again."
"We don't know do we?"
"You need to stop this Blaine seriously. You can't keep doing this to yourself." Kurt said as he tried to sit up but the dizziness took over and he got lowered back into bed.
"Do you know hard it is not to be this way with you? It's out of habit Kurt. Me looking after you is something I can't just switch off no matter how long it's been."
"You're hurting."
"Of course I'm fucking hurting Kurt but you're hurting too and I'm to much of a nice person to see you suffer. Okay?"
"No it's not okay." Kurt said trying to sit back up but he had to lay back down as the sickness over took his body.
"Just please re-
"Stop it please. Please just fucking stop. I appreciate everything you're do-
"Fuck what do you want me to do? Huh? Scream at you? Tell you have much you ruined my life? Be angry at constantly and let you suffer in silence?" Blaine said as he removed Kurt's hands from his face.
"Yeah that's exactly what I want Blaine because it's the truth. Isn't it? But you're to fucking nice even still after all the shit I put you through last year. I want you to be angry! I want you to tell me how much hate me! I wan-
"Why! What's it going to do? What's it going to solve Kurt absolutely nothing!" Blaine said in frustration as he started to raise his voice. "It's not going to he-
"It's going to help me! Don't you understand? The more you're being nice to me, the more you're being your lovely, caring self it's just a constant reminder how much I lost! How much I fucked up and I can't deal with that okay? So scream at me! Do whatever you need to do to get over the fact that I fucked someone else behind your back, in your own bed!" Kurt screamed out as he finally managed to get himself out after a few attempts of trying his hardest. "For once in your god damn life do something for yourself Blaine and not for someone else. Now I would appreciate if you get out of my room."
"Is that how you wanna be?"
"Thank you for your kindness but it is not needed. I'm sorry but I'm to si-
"Just say it Kurt."
"I'm to sick in myself to be dealing with this right now and I don't want you to suffer anymore than you need too. Please leave my room." Kurt said sitting back onto his bed and placing his hands on his thighs.
"Wesley is making breakfast. I just thought I would let you know."
Blaine walked out without another word and started to make his way to the kitchen without speaking to anybody. He sat down and glanced to Wes who was looking at him while he started to place something in the oven.
"I hate that he's fucking right."
Wes let out a laugh as he shut the oven door. "He's got a point Blaine. No one would be normally be this way. I guess he's right about that too, you're just to nice."
"Damn is that a compliment from Montgomery?"
"Feel special. I don't give them out much." Wes said with a smirk as he turned around to grab the glasses from the top shelve. "The others are just sorting out his medication for the rest of the week."
"Do you need a hand?"
"Sure why not. Can you pass me the milk out?"
Blaine nodded. "How're you with everything?"
"He's just complicated. One minute he's the person who you fell in love with and the next he's just.. difficult."
"That's not what I asked Wes."
Wes grabbed the milk off Blaine and placed it on the side. "It's hard to explain. You're going through your own sh-
"My shit is just as fucked as your shit." Blaine said with a grin as he sat himself on the breakfast unit.
"I just don't know what's going to happen when he finds out about the bond. It's unsettling you know?" Wes said as started to pull himself up onto the unit too as Blaine nodded. "Where do we go from him finding out?"
"Do you mean between you and him?"
"Yeah. I mean I've never even been with a man. He's the only guy I've ever kissed. Will he ever want that? Will I ever want that? I don't even know if the bond is sexual. How do I go from loving women to loving men?"
"Loving Kurt." Blaine corrected with a laugh. "Do you love him Wes?"
"The bond makes me love him. It's pretty impossible to fall out of love with someone you're bonded with Blaine. The only way it happens is if they die." Wes said turning his head towards him. "Not including transitions of course."
"Would it bother you if it was sexual?"
"No of course not Blaine. Just because I've only been with woman doesn't mean I can't be with men. I'm just not attracted to the same sex. I appreciate it but it doesn't do anything for me."
"But you're attracted to Hummel?"
"The bitch is gorgeous." Wes said with a embarrassed laugh and Blaine couldn't help but agree with his own laugh. "Bond aside I can appreciate how attractive he is you know? He's the only men I've ever looked twice at apart from you of course."
"Me?" Blaine said confused. "I'm sorry I don't understand."
"You love Kurt which means the bond brings us together. If I was with a woman, it would make you and Kurt feel the same way about her too. It's like a big orgy without the sex." Wes turned to Blaine and give him a wink which made him roll his eyes. "I could easily be sexual with Kurt but with you it's complicated. I couldn't sleep with you unless he was present. It's very weird and I'm guessing you feel the same way?"
"Of course. You're very hot." Blaine said with a wink back and Wes mimicked him and rolled his eyes. "And I would easily sleep with you but only if our little blue eyed man was in the room."
"Complicated right?"
"Very." Blaine said with a grin. "Look Wes, I know we don't really talk about it because it makes you uncomfortable but I just want to let you know I really don't care and I'm pretty happy it's you. If there's anyone that will treat him right it's definitely you."
"Thanks Blaine. I really mean that. I'm glad I've got you."
"I'm glad I've got you too." Blaine replied back with a smile before squeezing his hand and jumping off the counter. "Come on let's get breakfast done before they all start moani-
"You both are the definition of cute."
"Stop it Sterli-
"I'm being serious! That was a beautiful little moment between you both. I'm proud of you Wessy." Jeff said with a huge smile blowing a kiss to them both. "I'm just going to grab my phone. Nicky and Davey are on their way now."
"Thanks sweetheart. I love you."
"Fuck." Jeff whispered before shooting out the door without giving Blaine a reply and they both burst into laughter.
"He's so fucking emotional. Is there ever been a day he doesn't cry?"
"Nope. I love him that though." Blaine said with a soft laugh as he watched him run down the corridor. "Someone had to remind us of our humanity."
"I wanted to switch it off when Kurt left Dalton. I could barely breath most days and every time I thought of him my heart felt like it was getting pulled out my chest. It never eased Blaine and I think that's why I turned so cold." Wes said turning his head to friend. "It's the worse feeling in the whole world."
"You did so good." Blaine said as he lifted his hand up to his face gently and smiled when he didn't shy away. "You did amazing and I'm so proud of you."
"Don't you dare kiss me."
Blaine laughed as he continued to stroke his cheek as he watched Wes close his eyes at the new sensation. Comfort was what they both felt in that moment for the first time ever between them.
"Since when was your both doing googly eyes at each other?" Kurt said with a smirk walking into the kitchen and he sat down causally on the chair waiting for an explanation.
Blaine withdrew his hand quickly and Wes backed away to the oven as they both started to flush red with embarrassment. If anyone they didn't want to get seen by it was definitely Kurt. They was surprised they couldn't hear his heartbeat.
"Since never bitch."
"Are you sure? You both looked pretty cosy to me."
"We are not fucking Kurt." Blaine said bluntly as he sat down.
"You can both do whatever you want. I'm just surprised Welsey likes it up the ass."
"You wouldn't know would you? Since you haven't been here the last year." Wes shot back as he started to check the food in the oven. "How did that happen again exactly?"
"Tell your boyfriend to stop bugging me Anderson." Kurt said with a smirk as he glanced to the other three as they walked in laughing over his comment. "Hey blondie."
"Hey baby! Feeling better?"
"Much." Kurt said with a grin as he tapped his cheek for the blonde to kiss but as he went to lean forward Kurt grabbed his hand, pulling him into his lap which made his best friend giggle at his affection.
"What's up with you?"
"Shush."
Kurt wrapped his arms around him as he tilted his head into his neck. His eyes never left Wes and Blaine and his smirk only got wider making them extremely uncomfortable at his change of attitude.
Nick slide the pills over that was placed in a pot casually making it land right in front of him as Wes placed the plate of food in front of him.
"Eat."
"I'm not hun-
"Eat." Nick said again more demanding as he passed him over a knife and fork.
Everyone else sat down with their plates so he didn't feel singled out. Their eyes kept glancing to him every few seconds when they noticed he hadn't even entertained the food.
"Eat."
"I don't feel like eating."
"Eat." Nick said again with the same tone as the other four times he had asked before placing his own food in his mouth.
"We should go out today." Jeff picked up the fork and placed it gently in his best friends hand. "You wanna feeds the ducks?"
"That would be nice blondie, I haven't done that for a while." Kurt said with a smile as he started to eat but they could see in his eyes he genuinely didn't want it.
"Come on baguette." David said pushing the plate closer to him and his best friend stood and sat next to him. "You love pancakes. They're homemade too."
Kurt nodded with a smile and started to eat again. He really was trying his hardest to make them happy. He was chewing slow, breathing through his mouth to keep the sickness down as he stared out the window behind Blaine and Wes and completely zoned out.
"When is Sebastian due back?"
Kurt glanced back down to the plate and started to eat again slowly and his eyes met the window again as he watched a bird fly around a tree.
"Kurt?"
"Yeah?"
"When is Sebastian due back." David said again softly as he looked over the window to see what he was looking at outside.
"He flies in Sunday night."
His eye caught the bird again and he smiled while he ate his food again in silence.
~I think he's trying to distract himself while he eats so he can eat. That's pretty smart. ~
They nodded to Wes as continued to eat while they watched his eyes travel around the window, leaning over slighty as the bird flew out of eyesight and then he stopped eating his food.
"When do you pick your uniform up?"
Kurt didn't answer as he dropped his fork and leaned to the side, trying to find the bird again with his eyes. "Where did it go?"
"The bird?"
"Yeah where did it go?"
"Baby, why don't you tell me-
"Baby." Jeff said moving his head away from the window with a frown. "You've hardly touched you food. Come on please try and eat some more."
"Okay blondie." Kurt said smiling as he picked up his fork again as the conversation around him carried on casually but they was all concerned. "I pick it up tomorrow morning, sorry I zoned out David."
"It's alright. Did you manage to finish the rubix cube?"
Kurt shook his head with a laugh turning his head to his friend. "I tried for months but it started to frustrate me so I put it away. It's in my suitcase though. I'm gonna solve it by the end of the week."
"End of the week huh?"
"Definitely."
Kurt smiled wider at David before glancing back down to his place as he tried to eat some more but he started to feel challenged and he placed the fork back down.
"I can't eat anymore I'm sorry."
"Can you at least finish your pancake?" Nick said pointing to his plate. "You can't take these on an empty stomach it'll just make more sick."
"Why do you even care?"
"I'm not a monster Kurt. Just because we are having problems doesn't mean I don't care about your health. I would rather you not die before you tell me why you fucked him."
"Jesus." Kurt said with a laugh as he started to stand up but Nick pulled him back down to the seat. "Seriously? This again?"
"Just please eat. I don't want to force you." Nick warned as he pushed the plate back over. "And I will force you if needs be."
Kurt picked up his fork again slowly and started to eat again but they could see every bite he took was making him nauseous and he struggled to swallow the food down. He looked to Blaine's hands while he hate, they moved a lot while he talked which was something he always loved about him. They followed them as they moved and his mind started to go to that dark place as he thought about how bad he had hurt this beautiful man.
"Well done porcelain."
Kurt swallowed the last bite and nodded as he kept his gaze on his hands. Nick tipped the pills out onto the table and gestured to them. He started to move them around in order, like he did every time before placing each one in his mouth and a few seconds later he had swallowed them.
"Open your mouth."
"Are you kidding?"
"Open your mouth." Nick said again as he leaned over the table to check he had taken them all and he nodded as he sat back down. "Thank you."
"What time are we going to feed the ducks?"
"Soon? Shall we get ready?"
Kurt nodded and pulled his best friend up with him. He felt sick to his stomach and it took every ounce of will power not to vomit all over the table but he did it.
"Meet you at front in an hour?"
"Okay babe, love you."
"Love you." Nick repeated as he kissed his boyfriend's lips and Kurt couldn't even look at them as they did and they others frowned at his unusual behaviour.
"You ready baby?"
