Other Half to My Soul
Harry/Cedric eventual Harry/Charlie
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters or most of the story plot, we all know who that really belongs to.
Warnings: slash, Mpreg, miscarriage, Cho and Umbridge bashing and mild Ginny bashing, good Draco and Snape, Sirius is alive and so is Remus, powerful Harry
*-means personal thoughts while in a flashback or personal thoughts
One more note that I want to make known is that each chapter will have a minimum of 7,000 words.
Previously:
Cedric knocks on the headmaster's door. "Come in Cedric" Dumbledore says. So, Cedric walks into his office. "You wanted to see me sir."
"Yes, I did Cedric my boy. Please sit down, would you like a lemon drop?"
"No thank you sir, but if you could please tell me why you summoned me here that would be great."
"Very well, it has come to my knowledge that you and Harry are going to be parents is that correct?"
Cedric blushes. "I'm not sure how you manage to figure everything out but yes that would be correct".
"Well I would like to have Harry live with you this school year while you are apprenticing under Professor Flitwick."
Cedric was shocked and was having a hard time forming complete thoughts in his head. "Are you, serious sir that would be amazing?"
"Yes I am. I want the best for Harry, and I know he loves you more than anything, he even told me himself last year". Dumbledore said with a twinkle in his eye.
"Well thank you very much sir this means a lot I won't let you down".
"Ah it is Harry that I hope you won't let down and don't forget to meet with Professor Flitwick about setting up a schedule between the two of you."
"I will never let that happen sir I can promise you that and thank you very much again sir, I will make sure to do that."
"Good, good. Now then your room will be on the sixth floor next to the prefect's bathroom and the password is 'quidditch' and your things have already been moved."
"Thank you, sir, I will let Harry know". Cedric turns around feeling as if he was on cloud nine and leaves to find Harry.
Cedric doesn't have to look very hard as he finds Harry in the Great Hall right where he left him. "Harry, I have to tell you something very important and I hope you will like it just as much as I do."
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Chapter 2 Moving forward/next step
*He seems really excited about whatever it is that Dumbledore had to talk to him about. Also he wants me to like it, now I'm curious.* Harry looks at Cedric curiously. "Oh, okay. What is it love?"
Cedric smirks at him trying not to give it away right then and there. "If you want to know what it is love, then you are going to have to follow me." Harry pauses for a second and Cedric looks back with a smirk still on his face. "Or you can stay here if you don't want to know either way it's up to you love." He stands there and waits for Harry to process what he just said.
Harry gives him another strange look but then shrugs his shoulders and stands up next to Cedric. *This seems like this could turn out to be something really interesting, I wonder what has him so excited. Well I better follow him and find out. * "Alright then Ced, lead the way please."
Cedric holds out his hand which Harry gladly takes then he leads him out of the Great Hall and towards the staircases. Cedric leads Harry up to the sixth floor and they come to a stop in front of a knight on horseback portrait. *Well we are here; I wonder what his reaction is going to be once I open this door? Well only one way to find out I suppose. * He turns to look at his boyfriend and smiles. *He makes such a cute face when he is confused. Wait, I need to stay focused, this is no time to get distracted even if he a great distraction. Merlin, I love him so much. *
Harry is now even more confused than he was in the beginning because he has no idea where he is. "Where exactly are we? I have never seen this portrait before." *So far, he hasn't helped me at all to become less confused, actually he has accomplished the exact opposite. Come on Ced what are we doing and what are you trying to tell me, can't you just spit it out already? *
"I will show you love; you just have to be patient please." Cedric chuckles a little as he hears Harry say. "Humph." Then Cedric says the password 'quidditch' and the portrait opens. "Come inside please. I can't wait for you to see this."
So, Harry walks in behind Cedric and is shocked at what he is seeing. "What is this place?"
"This my love would be our new apartment that we get to live in together." Cedric responded. *I wonder how long it is going to take him to decipher my meaning. Since finding out he was pregnant his brain is having a slower reaction time to complex situations. Which so far, I have found to be completely adorable if I'm being honest. *
"This is our apartment that we can live in together?" Harry looks at him with a bewildered look. *What in the bloody hell is he talking about? Maybe it's my pregnant brain but I'm having a hard time figuring out what is going on right now. * "What do you mean our new apartment? I'm really confused right now."
Cedric laughed a little at his boyfriend's expression. *Yes, love I can tell, that much is obvious. * "Dumbledore gave it to us. He wanted us to have a place for us to stay together in while I am apprenticing under Professor Flitwick."
Harry looks at him to see if he is joking. *Is he playing with me right now? No, he wouldn't do that, he has to be telling the truth. I'm just going to have to ask him then. * "You're not joking, are you? You're being completely serious, aren't you?"
Cedric laughs a little at his reaction. "I swear to you I am being completely serious love. I promise I would not joke with you about something this serious." Cedric kisses him as confirmation to his statement. *I'm not sure what's cuter, his confused expression or his surprised one. Merlin, I love this man so much. *
Harry finishes processing everything that his boyfriend just said, then he runs over to Cedric and hugs him tightly. "I can't believe it we get to live together, I'm so happy right now." He has tears in his eyes. *I feel like my brain is running a marathon. So many thoughts and questions are popping up right now and I don't even know where to start or how to begin to process this information, I'm just so happy right now. *
Cedric looks at Harry with concern written on his face, then wraps his arms around him again. "What's wrong love? Why are you crying? This was supposed to be a happy moment for the both of us."
Harry shakes his head and tries to get the tears to stop falling. "Nothing is wrong love I swear. These are happy tears not sad tears silly, I just got done saying I was happy. I get to have a family that I never could have while I was growing up and I get to have it with you. There is absolutely no way that I could get any happier than I am right now." Harry looks up at him and kisses him. "Will you come with me to the Gryffindor common room so we can tell Ron and Hermione?"
Cedric smiles lovingly at Harry. "Of course, my love."
They leave to go up to the Gryffindor common room to tell Ron and Hermione the news. "Guys you will not believe what happened." Harry is smiling while feeling like he is ready to burst with happiness.
Ron and Hermione look up and see the happy expression on their friends face and smile themselves. "What happened?" Ron and Hermione manage to say at the same time.
Harry can't keep the happiness contained as he says. "Dumbledore offered Cedric an apprenticeship under Professor Flitwick before we came back for this year and he gave us a new apartment together to live in for the school year."
Hermione is shocked but happy. "Oh my god Harry, that's great! I'm so happy for the both of you." She hugs Harry and then Cedric.
"That was really nice of Dumbledore to do that. I wonder how he found out about the baby?" Ron said in both amazement and confusion.
Hermione shakes her head while smiling. "I don't know Ron. He somehow always manages to know everything even before anyone tells him about it."
Seamus walks over to them and sits down. "Are you guys talking about the fact that Dumbledore always seems to know everything without anyone telling him about it first?"
Cedric smiles and nods. "Yep, that's exactly what we are talking about and we have no idea how he does that."
Seamus shakes his head and laughs. "I don't think we are ever going to know the answer to that, Dumbledore is just too mysterious for me or anyone to try and figure out." The group all agrees with his statement.
As they were talking Ginny walked by and overheard Ron say the word 'baby' to Harry and Cedric. A million things came into her head when she heard this. She cannot believe her ears. *This is not how things were supposed to go he was supposed to be mine and I was supposed to carry his children. * She thought to herself with a mix of anger and sadness. She runs out of the common room crying because she will never be able to carry Harry's children. She bumps into Cho by accident near the great hall. "Oh, I am so sorry that I ran into Cho, I wasn't watching where I was going, please forgive me."
Cho just smiles. "It's okay Ginny no reason to apologize, I wasn't exactly paying attention either." Then she looks at Ginny concerned when she sees her tears. "Why are you crying is everything okay?"
She shakes her head no. "Harry and Cedric are having a baby I overheard some of their conversation with Ron and Hermione it the Gryffindor common room." She continues to cry as she tells this to Cho.
Cho is pissed off now and she can't keep the anger out of her voice. "They're doing what now?"
Ginny's tears slow down and she looks at Cho. "Having a baby at least that is what I understood from the conversation. Is everything okay Cho?"
Cho shakes her head. "No everything is not okay I tried my hardest to be happy for Cedric while hiding my feelings for him and now he knocked up Harry." She is fuming at this point.
Ginny speaks up. "Cho if there is anything, I can do to help you just let me know."
"Don't worry about doing anything else Ginny, you have done enough. Thank you for telling me, I really appreciate it." Cho gives her a fake smile and then she turns around. As she storms off in frustration, she mumbles to herself. *This is absolutely fucking fantastic! What the hell am I going to do now? Cedric is never going to leave him now that there is a baby involved. I need to do something to get rid of that obstacle but what can I do? *
Draco was making his way to the Slytherin common room when he heard the two girls talking about Harry and he stopped to hear the rest of their conversation because he really cares for Harry and really doesn't want him to get hurt. The only problem with this is no one knows this.
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Draco didn't really want to be mean to him but when Harry denied him his offer of friendship he got really hurt and knew that he would never accept him as a friend. So, he made the choice to let everyone know about where his true loyalties lie. He has hidden it from everyone even himself until recently but that was about to change.
Draco's Flashback:
Draco is sitting at the Slytherin table in the great hall watching Harry at the Gryffindor table. "Why does he get to be so God damn happy and I can't? It isn't fair!"
Blaise looks at him bewildered. "Who are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about Harry bloody Potter! Who else would I be talking about Blaise?" Draco glared at him for his stupidity.
Blaise wasn't sure if he was more shocked about the fact that Draco was talking about Potter or that fact that he used his first name. "Wait did I hear you correctly. Did you just call him Harry?"
Draco rolls his eyes at him. "Yes Blaise, in fact I did that is his name after all. I have been wanting to be friends with him the moment I met him, but I didn't get off to a good start on that."
Blaise chuckles slightly at his friend. "No, you didn't, you never really did learn how to properly befriend someone who wasn't brought up the same way you were. But there is still a chance to be friends with him and for you to be happy too."
Draco doesn't respond to Blaise's comments about still having a chance to be friends with Harry and jumps right into a defensive mode. "Don't rub it in Blaise! It hurts too much to think about and wait how is there possibly a chance to still friends with him and for me to happy? Those kinds of things don't happen to me." Draco asked him.
Blaise can tell he was getting defensive, so he decides to start with an apology. "Okay I apologize I didn't mean to open those wounds. But for starters you need to breath and start acting like you actually care about someone else but yourself. Also, I happen to know someone who likes you."
"I'm sorry I overreacted. It's hard for me to abandon everything that I was taught but I will try. But who would like someone like me?"
Blaise looks at Draco and answers him with two words. "Yeah Me." Then Blaise leans over and kisses Draco on the lips.
Draco sits there stunned for a breath moment before he finally gets his bearings and kisses Blaise back, then he pulls away a minute later. "How long have you felt that way?"
Blaise gives him a smile and nudges his shoulder with his own. "Long enough love. Now we will work on all of this together."
Draco smiles. "Thank you hun, I'm glad I your support. I don't think I could do this without you."
Blaise smiles and kisses him briefly. "I'm sure you could but you're welcome, you will always have my support."
End of Draco's flashback.
From that moment on Draco became determined to make friends with Harry and start over. He has been dating Blaise since he kissed him before the previous school year ended and now, he has a chance to be friends with Harry. He decided he would wait till tomorrow to talk to Harry since it was getting late.
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In a different part of the castle down in the dungeons Severus is in his sitting room with his mate. Severus looks at him. "Would you please stop pacing love it is driving me nuts."
Sirius looks at him and rolls his eyes. "Oh, I'm sorry that I'm worried about my godson. His life just keeps getting more and more complicated and I want him to have some normalcy in it so he can at least enjoy being a kid."
Severus stands up and grabs his hand and drags him back to the couch with him and sits the both of them down. Then he wraps his arms around his mate. "I know you do love, and I feel the same way about him but unfortunately for some reason fate doesn't have that planned for him. All we can do is help him as best we can."
"I want to adopt him Sev." He turns and looks at his mate and tries to gauge his reaction.
Severus smiles and kisses him on the lips. "I'm sure he would love that Padfoot. He already thinks of you as his father so this would only make it official. You should probably be ready for tears when you tell him because the pregnancy makes him more emotional."
Sirius smiles. "Yeah I know but I would expect that regardless if he was pregnant or not. Which I'm still kind of pissed about, I blame myself for that one?"
Severus looks at him confused. "Why? You weren't the one that caused this to happen."
Sirius shakes his head and puts it on Severus' shoulder. "Maybe not but still I could have told him that most preventive measures would most likely fail on him because of his heritage. I feel like I set him up for this and just caused him that much more stress and hardship."
*You are really torn up about this but none of this is your fault. There wasn't a lot of time between the time you got custody of Harry and when summer break started. I need to reassure you of this somehow, but how. Wait, I got it. * Severus takes one of his hands and puts it underneath Sirius' chin causing his head to turn towards his own and he kisses him on the lips hard.
Lemon ahead (So be prepared, you can skip down to the next set of bold words if you don't want to read this part, I won't be offended.)
Sirius moans into his lips and brings Severus onto his lap and wraps his arms tightly around his body. He slides his tongue across Severus' lips asking for entrance which Severus happily grants. Their tongues have a brief battle before Sirius' own wins out. As he is doing this his hands are making quick work of Severus' clothes. "I guess you have something on your mind, don't you Sev?"
Severus moans quietly against Sirius' lips. "What do you think?" He removes his lips from Sirius' and looks at him. "You are wearing too many clothes for what I have on my mind love."
Sirius groans and feels himself grow hard. "Damn Sev, you really know how to get me worked up."
Severus smirks and gets off Sirius' lap and stands him up while he takes his clothes off and then he whispers in his ear. "I want you to take me from behind right here against the couch." Then he lips his earlobe and follows his action with a small bite.
Sirius feels his sanity snap and roughly turns his mate around and bends him over the front of the couch. The then trails his fingers down Severus' back then runs them back up and he then kisses Severus' soul mark on his right shoulder blade, and he feels Severus shudder under him.
Severus whimpers quietly. "Padfoot….Please no foreplay this time."
Sirius kisses his mark one more time. "Okay love, I won't do it anymore but get ready." He mutters a spell and conjures some liquid and rubs it on his member then in one long thrust he enters his mate and stops once he is in fully. "Fuck Sev you're so tight."
Severus grabs the back of the couch and holds on for dear life while releasing a loud moan. "Mhmmm Padfoot, that feels so good. I need you to move please."
"Your wish is my command love." Sirius gives him slow thrusts to start then grabs his waist and drags it backwards towards his own body and then kisses his mates mark again and pulls all the way out and slams back into him hard.
"PADFOOT!" Severus releases a loud moan as the sensations take over his body.
Sirius smirks against his mark and starts to thrust faster and harder inside his mate. "I will never get enough of you love. I love how your body responds to mine and I love that you're mine and are only ever going to be mine." After a few more thrusts he manages to hit Severus' bundle of nerves and they both groan loudly. "Shit Sev so good."
Severus throws his head back in ectasy and then looks back at his mate panting. "P-Padfoot I-I'm n-not g-going t-to last much longer if you keep doing that."
Sirius leans down and captures his lips in an awkward kiss. "I k-know love me e-either." He takes one of his hands and grabs Severus' member in his hand and starts to stroke it in time with his own thrusts. It only takes a few strokes for Severus to reach his own end and he moans beautifully for Sirius. "Damn love your moans are so beautiful."
"S-Sirius g-go f-faster p-please, I w-want y-you to release it all inside of me."
Sirius stills for a second and looks at him. "Are you sure, you know what could happen if I do."
Severus nods his head. "I know and that's okay I want you to so please Padfoot."
Sirius groans. *Damn it to hell. I can't resist you when look like that. * "Okay love if that's what you want then I will gladly do just that." He resumes his thrusts at a punishing pace and feels his own end coming. Severus is whispers seductive words underneath him and he is able to finish inside of him. "Sev…My god."
End of lemon
It takes a few minutes for the both of them to calm down but once they do, they both smile at each other and collapse on the couch in each other's arms.
Sirius looks at Severus. "I love you so fucking much Sev."
Severus smiles and kisses him passionately then pulls back. I love you too Padfoot."
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Harry and Cedric were in their new room laying on their bed talking.
Harry turns his head towards Cedric and looks at him before asking him a question. "I wonder how long it is going to take until the entire student body finds out about the baby?"
Cedric looks at him and shakes his head. "I don't know it's not exactly a small school but at the same time everyone has a connection to someone in the school so it's hard to say. Are you worried?"
Harry shakes his head. "No, I'm not worried at all. It doesn't bother me if everyone finds out. To be honest I'm prepared for it. They always seem to find out everything else about my life so why not just add this to the mix, I'm used to it."
"Good I'm glad that you're okay with this, I'm not exactly glad that they find out everything little thing about you, but we will face everything head on together from now on." Cedric smiles at him.
Harry smiles back at his boyfriend. "Yeah we will. I love you so much."
Cedric looks at Harry. "I love you too Harry." He kisses him. "Do you remember the first time I told you I loved you?"
Harry looked at him and smiles. "Of course, how could I ever forget?"
Harry's Flashback.
Harry and Cedric are sitting outside in their secret hideout that they discovered while training for the Tri-wizard tournament tasks.
Cedric takes Harry's hands into his and takes a deep breath. "Harry, I have been wanting to tell you something for a while and I think now is a good time."
Harry is thinking *Oh great here it comes 'I'm sorry but we can't be together'* "What is it Cedric?"
Cedric takes another deep breath *Okay I can do, this just spit it out, he won't judge you* "I love you"
Harry just sat there completely as it was the exact opposite of what he thought was going to happen. "Are you, serious right now?"
"Yes, Harry I love you and I have loved you ever since your name came out of the goblet."
Harry has tears in his eyes. "I love you too Cedric Diggory." He kisses him.
End of Harry's flashback.
"It was one of the happiest moments of my life at that point but now I have a few more that I can add to it." Harry stated.
"Well now I think I have something that could possibly go right up to the top of your list." Cedric smirks.
"Oh, do you now? Well Ced give it your best shot. What could be better than any of the others that it might go to the top of my list?"
Cedric grabs a little box off the nightstand then goes down onto one knee in front of Harry.
He gasps and puts his hands in front of his mouth.
"Harry Julian Potter will you do me the honor of marrying me and making me that happiest man alive?"
Harry is shocked. "YES! I would love to marry you." He kisses Cedric.
Cedric sighs in relief and slides the ring on Harry's finger. "I love you Harry, I hope you never forget that."
"I love you too Cedric and I promise I won't ever forget." They cuddle together and soon they drift off to sleep in each other's arms.
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The next morning everyone is in the great hall when Draco and Blaise walk over to the Gryffindor table.
Draco looks at Blaise and nods in encouragement. Then Draco looks to Harry and is about to say something when Ron speaks first.
Ron looks up at him and frowns. "What do you want Malfoy?"
"I came to talk to Harry if that is alright with you Weaselbee." Blaise looks at Draco and shakes his with a disapproving look. Draco looks back at Ron. "Look I'm sorry Weasley."
Everyone at the table looks on in shock and disbelief and finally Harry is able to speak up.
"What do you want Malfoy?" Harry asked him still not sure what just happened.
Draco looks at him with pleading eyes. "I really need to talk to you. Please?"
Harry sighs but nods. "Okay I will talk to you." Harry walks away with Draco and they go to a corridor.
Cedric stands up to go after them when Seamus pulls on his shirt. "Let them go Malfoy isn't going to hurt him."
Cedric just looks at the Irish boy. "Okay fine but I still don't trust him especially not after last year." Cedric sits down.
Harry looks at Draco. "So, what do you need to talk about?"
Draco takes a deep breath. "Well first I want to apologize for how I treated you all these years it wasn't how I wanted things to happen and I am asking you to forgive me and to give me another chance."
Harry just looks at him with a blank expression on his face. "Who are you and what have you done with Draco Malfoy?"
Draco can't help himself from chuckling a little. "Nothing I swear I'm still the same person I have been, I just had a change of heart when I saw you with Cedric last year and I realized that I want you to be happy and am I one person that is keeping that from you. I don't want to stand in your way anymore I want to help you in any way that I can."
Harry thinks about Draco's words for a moment then makes his decision. "Alright Draco I forgive you and will give you another chance. Now what is the other thing you want to talk about?"
Draco smiles when he hears this. "Thank you, Harry it really means a lot to me. Well I overheard Ginny and Cho talking yesterday and I heard you were having a baby, so I decided to stay and hear the rest of their conversation. Ginny told Cho this and she was pissed off and almost screamed, then I heard Ginny say that if she needed help with anything that she should let her know. But, I'm not sure if Cho really even heard her say that and I think that Cho at least will try to do something, so I wanted to warn you to be careful."
Harry smiles at Draco. "You are very welcome Draco, that means a lot to me that you were willing to warn me about this. How the hell did Ginny find out? Oh, wait she must have heard me talking to Ron and Hermione last night. Shit! I knew Cho has feelings for Cedric even though she was the one who knocked some sense into us and made us admit our feelings. Well thank you Draco for coming to me about this."
Draco smiles back at Harry. "No problem Harry. So, are we friends now?"
Harry smiles. "Yes, we are friends now and promise me you won't tell anyone about the baby?"
"I promise I won't tell anyone it's not my business to tell." Draco smiled.
"Thanks Draco. Okay I better get back before they send out a search party."
"Okay see you around Harry." Draco leaves with Blaise.
Harry turns and leaves to the great hall again.
Cedric sees Harry coming back over to the table. "What was that about?"
Harry looks at them with a grim look on his face. "Ginny and Cho know about the baby and Cho is not happy about it at all."
Hermione is shocked. "She knows? How is that possible, I didn't think she was even in the room last night when we were talking."
"Yeah she knows. Ginny must have overheard us talking last night and ran into Cho and told her. According to Draco Cho was pissed about the news."
"That's just bloody brilliant!" Ron said throwing his hands up in exasperation.
Harry just shakes his head. "Well, all we can do is watch our backs and stick together as best as we can, and Draco and I are friends now, he apologized for how he has been treating me."
Neville finally spoke up. "I wonder why the change of heart and I won't tell anyone Harry you have my word."
"I know you won't Neville and I'm not really sure to be honest but I'm okay with it I could tell he meant every word that he said to me." Harry smiled.
Hermione looks up at him. "So, we all just need to make sure that we know who is around us when we are talking about sensitive information." Everyone nods in agreement.
Luna looks up and looks at the group. "Also make sure you guys don't tell anyone without Harry or Cedric's approval first."
Harry smiles at Luna. "Thanks Luna and you guys are okay to tell your family and friends outside of school I really don't mind."
"Are you sure Harry? I didn't think you would want a lot of people to know." Hermione asks him.
"Yeah I'm positive. I trust you guys and I know that you won't tell anyone that I wouldn't approve of." Harry looks at Hermione. "That includes Viktor I trust him too."
Hermione smiles at him. "Okay thanks Harry, that means a lot." Then she hugs him.
Harry comes to the realization though. "It looks like this year isn't going to be easy either." Harry sighed.
Ron looked at him. "You're Harry Potter of course it's not going to be easy, but you have your friends and boyfriend like always."
Cedric smiled and said. "I'm his fiancé actually."
Hermione put her hands over her mouth to keep from screaming inside the Great Hall. "OMG! When did that happen?"
"He proposed to me last night!" Harry grins big showing everyone the ring as well.
"Oh, Harry it's absolutely beautiful." Luna says.
Harry blushes and says to her. "Thank you, Luna."
"Now we are all really going to have to watch our backs this year." Neville said.
"Yeah especially with Umbridge here." Harry grumbles and looks down at his hands.
"My dad doesn't like her at all, he said she's a bitch and that's saying something if it's coming from my dad." Cedric said.
Ron laughs. "Yeah, that is so true my dad doesn't like her either and says the same things about her too."
George and Fred walk up. "Hey guys are you talking about the ugly pink toad?"
Seamus looks at them. "The ugly pink toad? Who are you talking about?"
"Why the lovely Miss Umbridge of course." Fred manages to say without bursting out laughing.
Harry chokes on his juice which results him going into a coughing fit. It takes him a few minutes to calm down and regain his ability to breath before he says. "I really hope you two aren't trying to kill me I mean seriously guys."
Everyone just laughs at them.
Seamus looks at the twins. "Please don't cause Harry an early grave. He already has enough to worry about as it is."
Fred and George grin at each other before looking at everyone else. "We can't promise anything, but we will try."
Then Harry suddenly gets quiet and he looks down at his hands. *Why do I suddenly feel like I'm making a huge mistake by marrying Cedric? *
Luna looks at Harry. "Are you okay? Something else seems to be on your mind Harry?"
Harry looks bewildered for a second before coming back to his sense's and looks up at Luna. "Huh? Oh, I'm sorry were you talking to me Luna?"
Luna smiles and nods. "Yes, there is definitely something else going on inside that head of yours." She rubs his hair playfully.
Harry swats her hand away. "Hey! Luna stop it please."
Ron thinks to himself. *Oh, I bet I know what this is about. Charlie and man, I wonder what is going to happen once he reads that letter that I sent him. * "Harry are you sure that you're okay you seem really distracted this morning?"
Harry gives him a knowing looks and Ron just nods understanding what Harry is thinking. "Yes, I swear that I am okay." Looks at his friends. "Guys I promise you would know if I wasn't."
Seamus and Neville look at each other and both laugh. Seamus looks back at Harry. "No, you wouldn't. So, do even try to say that, we know you better than that."
Neville stops laughing and looks at Harry. "Seamus is right Harry. You like to keep how you are really feeling to yourself no matter what you're going through."
"Hey, I'm not that bad, am I?" His friends all look at him and nod, then he gets grumpy and pouts. "Fine be that way guys."
Cedric rubs his back and chuckles. "It's alright love, we still love you anyway."
Ron smiles then thinks. *Yep I was right. This is going to be a very interesting year. * "Cedric is right Harry; we love you anyway even though we may pick on you."
Harry looks up at Ron and smiles. "Yeah, I know you do, thanks, you guys. Hey, Ron can I talk to you for a minute please?"
Ron nods. "Yeah of course Harry." They both get up and walk to a quiet area to talk in private. Harry also puts up a silencing charm up so no one can hear them talk.
Cedric looks at the others at the table. "Do you think everything is okay? He got so serious there for a second."
Neville cringes internally but speaks up. "I'm sure it is Cedric; I wouldn't worry about it."
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Ron looks at Harry. "Alright mate what's going on with you this morning."
Harry looks at him with a sad expression on his face. "Ron, I know that I told him yes last night but when I woke up this morning, I had this nagging feeling that I just couldn't shake and it's really starting to eat at me."
Ron looks at him concerned. "What do you mean? What kind of a feeling?"
Harry sighs and puts his hand through his hair. "I feel like I'm lying to myself about this entire situation. I said yes because I know in my heart, I want my child to have a much better up bringing than I had in the beginning, but I feel as though I will never be able to give Cedric my full heart no matter what happens."
To Ron Harry didn't even need to finish that thought, only Ron, Fred, George, and definitely Bill knew what he was talking about. "Harry first things first I need you to breath okay. Can you do that for me?"
Harry nods but doesn't say anything so Ron continues. "Okay now that that's out of the way. Why do you feel that, and have you talked to Cedric about this? I want you to be completely sure about the choices you are able to make about your own life because Merlin knows they aren't very many you can make."
Harry sighs before answering Ron's question. "I mean like I physically can't give him my full heart because it feels like someone else already has it and no I haven't I didn't want to worry him because he seemed so happy last night. I can't say that I'm not happy because I am I just. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel right now."
Ron puts a reassuring hand on Harry's shoulder. "There isn't a right or wrong way that you're supposed to be feeling right now Harry. If you're not 100 percent happy with Cedric, then you need to do something about it before he gets strung along and he gets hurt." Ron says this even though he knows what is really going on with his best friend.
Harry shakes his head. "It's not that Ron. I'm extremely happy with Cedric he is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. However, your stupid brother left a mark and a feeling that no matter how hard I try I can't get rid of it."
Ron looks at Harry with a 100 percent serious look which for Ron does not happen very often. "Is that what you really want to happen? Do you want to get rid of what you feel for him and what he means to you?"
Harry has some tears in his eyes when he looks back up at Ron. "No, that's not it at all. It couldn't be farther from the truth actually." That is all he manages to say before the threat of his emotions getting out of hand hit him.
Ron see the emotions threatening to take over and he gives Harry a brotherly hug. "Oh, Harry I know he seems to have that effect on people but right now you have other things you need to worry about, and Cedric will do everything that he can to protect you."
Harry hugs Ron back. "Yes, I know he will and that's why if anything happens with Charlie saying goodbye to Cedric will be even harder, but at the same time saying goodbye to Charlie will hurt just as much because in order to give Cedric my whole heart that's what is going to have to happen."
"I know it seems like there is no winning in this situation, but it will work out in the end. Also let's not worry about what ifs right now. We should only be worrying about what we know right now." *Even though I know that Charlie will be the best partner for you. *
Harry wipes his tears. "Yeah you're right Ron thanks. Now let's go back before they start getting worried." Ron nods and he and Harry go back to the rest of the group.
Cedric looks up at them. "Is everything okay love?"
Harry nods. "Yeah everything is fine I just had to ask him about something."
Hermione looks at them and Harry mouths. "I will tell you later." Hermione just nods and mouths back. "Okay."
"Yep its official this year is going to be interesting and will suck at times too." Seamus said and everyone agreed with him.
Unfortunately for all of them they had no idea how interesting it was really going to get.
"Well guys I'm going to walk Luna to her class before ours starts." Ron grabs Luna's hand and they leave the great hall together.
"I think I'm going to write to Viktor before class starts, so I will see you guys later." Hermione leaves to the owlery.
The twins then get up. "We have to go too guys class starts soon for us."
Harry looks up. "Okay bye guys see you two later." The twins then leave the great hall for class.
After the twins leave only a few the friends from Gryffindor are left. Seamus and Neville look at each other than nod.
"Harry, we promise we both will be with you every step of the way but we are going to head out too so we can make sure Snape doesn't try to take points for us being late."
Harry laughs a little at Neville. "Thanks, you two it means a lot that all of you are here to support me."
"No problem Harry, that's what friends are for." Seamus says. "Okay buddy we will see you later." Seamus and Neville get up and leave for class leaving Cedric and Harry at the table alone.
"I have a feeling that this is not going to be a walk in the park this year yet again." Harry sighed.
"Don't worry love we will get through it together and with all of our friends." Cedric smiled and rubbed Harry's back.
End of Chapter 2
Hey guys thanks to all of you for your constant support of my work. I love that you are all still sticking with me even though it has been forever since I have published anything. I have been wanting to rework this story for a while and I'm glad I finally did.
Let me know what you guys think of this story so far. I am contemplating creating a Harry x Seamus pairing, what do you think about this?
