Other Half of my Soul

Rated M for language and sexual scenes (which this chapter does not have.)

A/N this is now officially transferring into a Harry/Charlie story

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Previously:

Harry looks at him. "You weren't supposed to be here until next week why are you here now?"

Charlie just looks at him. "What did you think was going to happen after I received your letter. I wasn't going to let you go without support and besides you asked me if I could, so I did."

Harry shakes his head and continues to hug him. "Char I don't know what do anymore. Sure, I didn't plan to have a baby, but we adjusted and now it was stripped away from me and now I'm just a mess."

Charlie continues to hold him, but he takes them over to a coach that is in the common area and sits them down. "Now you don't really believe that there is nothing else for you, do you?"

Harry shakes his head and looks at Charlie. "No, I guess not but I don't want to live this way. Always feeling like nothing good will ever happen to me."

"Now I have to stop you right there. From what your letter said you also mentioned that Sirius is going to adopt you, and don't you have Cedric?"

Harry manages a small smile at hearing him mention Sirius. "Yes, Sirius is going to adopt me but I'm living a lie when it comes to Cedric and it is now coming more into light than it was before."

Charlie looks at him. "What do you mean?"

Harry sits up and looks back at Charlie. "I love him I really do but I don't think that I will ever be able to give him my entire heart because I'm in love with someone else and in case you haven't noticed there is a huge difference between the two of them."

Charlie chuckles a little bit at the attitude that Harry gave him towards that end of the. "As a matter of fact, yes I have noticed the difference since it has happened to me personally as well. But Harry I don't think it is right to keep leading him on then if you don't feel like you can give him everything."

"Yeah I agree but I am happy but I'm just not sure if I have the strength to do anything about it now especially after what happened yesterday. I couldn't do that to him. I know what it is like to have a broken heart and to depend on someone else to pick up the pieces. I just can't put him through that unless it is absolutely necessary."

Charlie gives him a sympathetic look then he notices something on Harry's hand. "Um, Harry do you mind telling me what that is on your hand?"

Harry looks down on it and thinks. *Oh shit, this is not going to be good and lying to him is impossible he always seems to find out the truth anyway. Well I guess I will tell him about this but hopefully he doesn't ask me anymore questions about my heart I don't think I can handle it*

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Chapter 4 My First Love Returned

*Well I highly doubt this is going to go over well, but I have to tell him the truth. He is totally going to fly off the handle, so I have to ready to calm him down when he does. * "Well I'm sure your dad told you about her being appointed the new DADA teacher from Fudge." Charlie nods and Harry continues with his explanation. "Well she won't teach us any magic and gave us these rubbish textbooks that are for beginner students and the books don't even include one spell in them. Well I kind of got angry because she was downplaying everything that happened at the end of last year saying that there was nothing out there and she gave me a detention when I got angry and lashed out."

The wheels in Charlie's head are churning at this point. *So, there has to be more to this. He isn't telling me something which means I'm not going to like what he has to say after this point. Damn it, Harry why do you always have to find trouble? * "Okay and that has something to do with the marks on your hands then?"

Harry looks at him and rolls his eyes. "I'm getting to that if you would let me finish please." Charlie just lifts an eyebrow at him and Harry smirks.

"Well I'm so sorry that I interrupted. You may continue, your majesty." Charlie smirks and thinks silently to himself while waiting for Harry to answer him. *It's official you are going to be the death of me Harry. *

Harry smiles back at him and laughs a little before continuing. "Thank you. Anyway, as I was saying I went to her detention last night and she made me use a blood quill writing the words I must not tell lies until it was ingrained into my skin." Harry cringes as soon as the words leave his mouth, since he knows Charlie is going to flip. *Yep, the angry dragon has been released and here it comes in 3, 2, 1. *

All thoughts abruptly stop in Charlie's mind as hears this and anger quickly starts to consume him. "SHE WHAT!" Charlie is fuming now. *That's it, I want to fucking kill her for hurting what is mine. Wait, what the hell was that thought, Harry isn't mine and he definitely isn't a possession but still I want to kill her for hurting him. *

Harry hugs him again, this time tightly so he can get him to calm down. "Charlie calm down please I'm okay I promise. I didn't even tell Cedric that part because I knew he would fly of the handles and let me tell you all of you Weasley's have a bad temper, but you have the worst one."

The anger he was feeling completely dissipates and Charlie pouts. "I do not, and I take serious offense to that, so take it back."

Harry smiles but shakes his head. "Sorry no take backs are allowed; I have a no return policy."

Charlie smiles at his Harry. "Well this time you have to because I'm not that bad." Then he thinks to himself. *Yepp you are definitely my Harry and good or bad you will be the death of me. But how is it possible that one minute I am extremely angry and the next minute you are able to bring me back and have me smiling and laughing in the span of a few minutes? It's like you have some special magic power over me that I don't know about. *

Harry laughs. "Yes, you are Char and you know it too." Harry turns serious again. "But please Charlie, don't tell Cedric. I don't want to see that angry side of him again. I have only seen it once and I really didn't like it, also the timing would be horrible. I wouldn't know what he would do if he were to do something while he was angry."

Charlie sighs and nods reluctantly. "Okay fine I promise I won't tell him, but you have to promise me that you will tell him by the end of next week because he deserves to know what's going on in your life."

Harry nods and sighs in relief. "Yeah I know he does, he is my boyfriend after all."

Charlie smirks and nudges Harry's shoulder a bit. "I think what you really meant to say was he is your fiancé."

Harry looks at him surprised for a second. "Wait how did you know that?" Then a thought hits him a minute later. "Let me guess Ron told you."

Charlie nods his head and smiles. "Of course, he did, I wrote that in the letter I sent you, did you forget?"

Harry shrugs his shoulders. "Probably you know me." Harry suddenly gets sad again and looks down at his hands which he is twisting together to keep him from losing his composure.

Charlie looks with concern. "Harry love, why are you looking sad again?" Charlie leans over and hugs him against his chest again.

Harry hugs him back and looks at him with pleading eyes. "Just hold a little bit longer please?"

"Okay Harry, I can do that." Charlie continues to hold him. Harry is still in his arms thinking. *Exactly why did I come here? This is not going to end well, and I really do need to go back to Cedric, but I can't seem to want to move. * Harry really didn't know what to do.

After a few minutes Harry finally lets go of Charlie. "Okay well I better get back since Cedric doesn't know where I am, and I doubt my friends will tell him and I would really like to avoid any type of search party coming to look for me."

Charlie chuckles at this a little bit. "Alright Harry, have fun avoiding your search party."

Harry smiles and kisses his cheek and leaves.

Charlie just sits there thinking to himself. *Man, Harry why do you have to do these things to me? I'm in love with you and no matter how hard I try to I can't make myself stop, and if I'm being honest, I really don't want to. * After Harry leaves Charlie decides to fire call Bill.

Bill answers right away knowing Charlie only calls him when it's something important. "Hey Char, what's going on?"

Charlie runs his fingers through his hair and sighs while pacing across the room slightly. "Harry just left." Is all he says knowing that Bill will pick up on the hidden meaning.

Bill raises an eyebrow. "First thing is first you need to stop pacing; it's going to drive me nuts." He sees Charlie comply with his request and turns his expression and tone of voice serious. "How is he holding up?" He asks this with his voice full of concern and eyes full of worry for his littlest brother.

Charlie shakes his head. "He's not good Bill, it's pretty bad actually. He is trying to act happy but as soon as he is around me, he breaks down. It really makes me want to know how much he is hiding from his friends and Cedric. I mean the way he broke down as soon as a he saw me was concerning and was clear evidence that he isn't letting anyone in."

Bill looks thoughtful for a moment. "It's probably a lot and you're probably right about not letting anyone in. He has always been relaxed around you though no matter what he was going through. I'm glad he is at least opening up to you because carrying around those emotions and painful memories while keeping them bottled up cannot be good for him. You are just going to have to make sure that you continue to be his rock to keep and grounded and give him a safe place that he can go to release his emotions without fear of anyone thinking he is weak. You and I both know that is one of the underlining issues here."

Charlie agrees. "Yeah, I guess you are right about that, he does seem to have some unfounded fear that people are going to judge him for showing emotions and letting others know he is hurting. But I will always be here for him, you don't have to worry about that. It's just extremely hard to watch when he is sitting right there next to me, it really broke my heart seeing him like that."

Bill picks up on his brother's tone. "What else is going on Charlie? Something else must be eating at you, I can tell. Don't forget you have never been able to hide anything from me."

Charlie chuckles slightly. "Not sure how you always manage to pick up on my mood but it's nothing I can't handle. I promise, it's not the most important thing at the moment."

Bill raises his eyebrow again and gives his brother a stern look. "Why are you even trying to pull that crap with me right now? You know I'm not going to buy that excuse."

Charlie sighs. "I know you're not but for right now I need you to accept it until the time comes that I need to get it off my chest. Right now, my main concern is making sure Harry makes it out of this in one piece."

Bills sighs but nods. "Alright I will let it go for now, but I don't expect you to tell me about when you are ready. Just keep taking care of him for me and keep me posted please."

Charlie nods. "Will do Bill. I will call you later if anything else happens or if I need to talk to you about anything else." Bill nods and Charlie ends the call.

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The next 5 weeks were trying for Harry and Cedric, but things were starting to look up. Harry and Cedric were in their room and Harry decided that it was time to talk about what to do next.

Harry takes a deep breath and looks at Cedric. "Ced can we talk?"

Cedric looks up from his book. "Of course, we can Harry. What is on your mind?"

Harry looks at him. "Where do we go from here?"

Cedric looks puzzled by the question. "What do you mean?"

"I mean I lost the one thing that brought us closer and caused you to propose to me and now since we don't have that to tie us together you don't really have anything keeping you with me."

Cedric was a little shocked to hear this. "Harry if you think I only proposed to you because you were pregnant you are wrong. I meant what I said I love you no matter what."

Harry looked up at him slightly surprised. "You really mean it?"

Cedric shakes his head smiling at Harry's shocked expression and tone. "Yes, Harry I really mean it." He kisses him passionately. "Does that help you?" Cedric smirks at his fiancé.

Harry nods and could only manage to say. "Uh huh." He kisses Cedric again. "I love you so much."

Cedric smiles again. "I love you too and I always will. However, let's be more careful next time we have sex we don't want that to happen, again do we?"

Harry smiles and shakes his head. "Not really but I mean if it happens it happens, but I would like to wait until we are married and this war is over, if that is okay with you?"

"Sounds good to me love." Cedric smiles.

The next morning Harry woke up happy and energized for the first time in over five weeks. He shouts to Cedric who is getting ready for the day in the bathroom. "Hey Ced, I'm going to head down to the Great Hall to meet up with the gang."

Cedric pokes his head out from the bathroom. "Okay love I will see you down there in a few minutes."

"Okay Ced see you soon." Harry walks out of their room and heads towards the great hall.

Harry walks up to them and sits down to eat breakfast. "Good morning everyone." He smiles at his friends.

Hermione notices this of course. "Well you definitely seem happier this morning."

Harry nods. "You know I am actually. Cedric and I had a great talk this morning and I really do think that we will be okay."

Ron looks at him then spots his older brother walking around. "Well it would appear that someone is looking for you."

Harry looks up to see where Ron is looking and shakes his head and smiles to himself. "I will talk to him later after our classes are done."

Again, Ron looks at Harry. "How many times have you guys talked?"

Harry smiles. "Just a few times. I'm trying not to spend too much time with him." *Because I know if I do, I won't be able to keep a safe distance from him and my feelings for him will come back full force. They are already almost there now so I really need to be careful. *

Neville looks at him. "Why are you doing that? I doubt that there is any harm in spending time with him."

Before Harry has a chance to answer Cedric walks over to Harry and kisses him on the cheek "Hey guys."

Everyone says hi to him then Seamus asks him. "So, Harry how has Umbridge been since you went back to classes. Meaning the detentions?"

Cedric just looks at him with a questioning look. "She decided that she was going to give me detentions for the three weeks on top of the ones I already had from our first class with her because I missed her class for one day after the accident."

Cedric shakes his head. "That's not fair did you go to Dumbledore?"

Harry shakes his head no. "I didn't because she is just targeting me, but I don't want her win so I'm just waiting my time for now."

"I still think that the next time it happens you either need to go to McGonagall or Dumbledore she is abusing her powers and is going after you."

Ron looks at him. "You know she is only doing that because Fudge is telling her to, and she will do whatever he says."

Cedric nods. "Yeah I get that but still giving someone a detention for no reason?"

Harry mumbles. "Or using a blood quill on students."

Cedric looks at him. "What was that, it didn't hear what you said."

Harry shakes his head wanting to gloss over what he just let slip. "Nothing Ced. So, Hermione how is Viktor doing?" Harry asks trying to divert the conversation away from him.

Hermione smiles. "He is doing good it is hard to keep doing this long-distance relationship but it's worth it."

Harry smiles back at her. "That's great Mione. I'm so happy for you, Viktor is a great guy."

Hermione smiles at him. "Thanks Harry that means a lot coming from you."

Neville speaks up. "Well guys it's time for class we better go unless we want to lose a ton of house points." Everyone cringes at that thought and at the thought of McGonagall's face if that did happen.

Everyone agrees and gets up and leaves meanwhile on Harry's way to double potions with his friends he hears something. "Hey, did you guys hear that?"

Seamus shakes his head. "No, I didn't. What did it sound like?"

Draco walks up before Harry gets a chance to answer. "Harry you guys better getting moving before Snape takes off points." They all nod and head into the potion's classroom.

After their double potions class was over Snape announced to the class. "Potter stay behind the rest of you are dismissed."

Harry looks at his friends. "It's okay guys I will see you all later." So, the class packs up their things and exits the room.

"What did you need professor?" Harry looks up at his professor as he asks this already knowing the reason. *I'm surprised he has waited this long to talk to me. Sirius must be getting antsy and asked him to check on me. *

Severus just raises his eyebrows. "Did you really think that I wouldn't be checking up on you?"

Harry shakes his head. "Not really. I suppose I figured you were going to do it eventually."

Severus looks at Harry. "So, Harry how are doing and please be honest?"

Harry is fighting back tears. "I'm tired of crying it's been four weeks already and I feel like I'm making some progress but it still hurts so bad and I feel like now Cedric is tied to me for no reason even though we just had this talk last night and since Charlie came I'm more of a mess even though he has been a huge help to me."

Severus folds his arms in front of his chest. "Harry it's going to take more time to heal from something like that and why would Charlie being here be a problem?"

Harry looks at him and sniffs a bit. "He's my first love Sev and for some reason I am unable to move on from it."

Professor Snape does a very unlike professor move and pulls Harry into a hug. "It's going to be okay Harry; you have a huge support to help you." He pulls him back a bit. "You just have to remember to use them."

Harry nods and smiles a little. "I know I do Sev but I'm trying."

Severus smiles and gives Harry another hug. "Well I want you to come to me if you are ever feeling unwell or if you just want to talk."

Harry smiles slightly and nods. "Thanks, Sev I will I promise." Then he turns around and leaves his office.

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After he leaves his office Harry decides that he is going to pay Charlie another visit.

He finds Charlie outside on the grounds near the lake. "Hey Charlie." He waves at him.

Charlie smiles and waves back. "Hey, I was looking for you earlier."

"Yeah Ron pointed that out, but I had to run to double potion's, and I knew I wouldn't have enough time, so I just decided to talk to you later which is now I guess." He laughs and blushes slightly as he realizes how silly the end of that sounded.

Charlie laughs as he watches Harry blush. "You're cute when you blush. So, what else is new with you?"

Harry chooses to ignore Charlie calling him cute. "Nothing really just trying to be successful in school and deal with anything else that may come up. So, have you finally decided to start seeing anyone?"

Charlie shakes his head. "No, I haven't, I'm unable to give my heart to anyone as someone else already holds possession of it."

Harry gulps and sits down in the grass almost dreading the question that he needs to know the answer to and the same time could go without knowing. "And who is that still has your heart if you don't mind me asking." He is almost afraid of the answer that Charlie is going to give him.

Charlie sighs and sits down on the grass next to Harry and leans against a tree. "I don't think that I should answer that Harry. I really don't think it's a good idea." *We shouldn't be having this conversation right now, you are still with Cedric, Harry and this could really complicate things for you. *

Harry nods. "I understand you don't have any obligation to tell me."

Charlie looks into the green emeralds that are Harry's eyes and again sighs. "That's not it at all Harry. To be honest you should already know the answer to that question. I'm surprised that you'd even ask that."

Harry sighs and looks at Charlie. "I was afraid you were going to say something like that." *I knew I shouldn't have asked you that question Char. But I guess there is a part of that just doesn't want there to be someone else in your life. *

"Why is that?" Charlie asked even though he already knew that answer.

Harry just looks in his gorgeous blue eyes. "Now it's my turn to point out the obvious, you should also already know that answer to that question."

Charlie sighs and runs his hand through his hair already hating himself for what he is about to say knowing that it is going to upset Harry. *Please don't hate me for saying this love. But I need to put some distance between us or I'm going to cross our very fine line.* "You know if we don't start actually saying the words neither one of us can move on and heal."

Harry feels his heart shatter as hears these words and he knows why but he was still conflicted. *Holy hell Char. Do you have any idea how devastating that is to me? Why would you say that? * "What if I don't want to heal and move on?" He is unable to keep the hurt out of his voice.

Charlie was a little taken aback by this. "Why wouldn't you want to? I mean I never will because I love you too much. But you should want to consider that since you already have someone in your life and from what I have been told you have for a year now."

*I don't think I can hold back my emotions anymore, you broke down my walls again Char. * Harry was hoping to hold back the tears that he knew were coming but he lost the fight and they started to form. "I can't believe you would ask me that Charlie! That's not fair I didn't mean to find someone and you're the one who didn't actually tell me that till now."

Charlie sighs. "I know but until you say it, I can't begin to know what is going through your head right now. And that's why I said that because I can't read your mind Harry. I don't know what you are feeling." He is trying really hard not to raise his voice because he knows that Harry doesn't like that, and it will make the situation a lot worse.

Harry is unable to stop the tears from starting to fall and he has now given up even trying to hold them back. "Charlie, I fucking love you, you idiot! That's why I was hurt by your words and that's why I don't want to move on, and I do at the same time. Why the hell did you have to wait so long to tell me that you prat?"

Charlie shakes his head. "I don't know I got scared and I didn't know if you liked me or not. I have liked you since your third year, but I just brushed it off because of how young you were. Then I started falling for you the moment you out flew one of my dragons. I'm sorry for not saying anything sooner. I know I made things complicated for you."

Harry was still crying a little but was now more frustrated than before. "You should be Charlie! You should never assume you know what someone is feeling. If you're not sure about something you need to pluck of the courage and ask me about it. You work with bloody dragons for god sakes! Where is your bloody Gryffindor courage?"

Charlie puts his head down and then looks back at Harry and slowly starts to feel his carefully crafted walls cracking. "I know I was stupid Harry and I'm sorry, I don't have any excuses for my actions."

Harry stands up feeling completely frustrated. "I can't act on my feelings and I cannot openly return them to you and for this I am sorry but unless something happens between me and Cedric you and I can't exist." At that Harry stands up and leaves a very broken Charlie Weasley behind.

Charlie puts his head in between hands and silently yells. "FUCK! Why did I do that?" He walks back to his apartment and calls Bill again needing to talk to someone.

Bill answers the call and before he can say anything Charlie asks him. "Can you come through I really need to talk to you?"

Bill hears the emotion in his brother's voice and nods. "Yeah I can give me a sec." A few moments later Bill walks through and stands inside his brother's apartment. "Charlie what's wrong?"

Charlie looks at him and can feel the tears forming but he forces himself to stay together. "I did something really stupid."

Bill can see his brother is trying to keep it together and he immediately knows something is very wrong, so a takes a few steps closer to his brother. "Charlie calm down and breathe please." Once he sees his brother take a few deep breaths he continues. "Okay, good, now what happened?"

Charlie slumps down onto the floor with his back against the couch and looks up at Bill. "He came outside, and we talked for a bit but then things took a turn."

Bill looks at him concerned. "What do you mean things took a turn. What kind of a turn are we talking about and what were you talking about?"

Charlie tries not to reveal what he said and just gives a brief description of the event. "Merlin I was such an idiot! Harry asked me if I started seeing anyone and it went downhill from there. I ended up saying something that I knew would hurt him, but I needed to do something to try and separate myself from him."

Bill asks the daunting question. "Charlie, what did you say?"

Charlie puts his head in between his hands again and feels his emotions slowly taking over. "We were skirting around our feelings and I told him if we didn't actually start saying the words neither one of us could move on and heal." He looks up and sees his brother's jaw hit the floor. "I know I shouldn't have said it but I'm the end of my rope before my sanity snaps and I do something that I will regret."

Bill walks over to him and sits down next to him. "Why did you say that to him? I can't imagine that he took it very well."

Charlie shakes his head. "He didn't, he got tears in his eyes and yelled at me then he walked away. But maybe even though it hurt him he will stay away from me for a while."

"Do you really want him to do that though?"

Charlie sighs. "I don't know not really but I need him too." He looks at Bill and again the tears start to form in his eyes and freely fall down his face as his wall shatters. "I can't be this close to him anymore it's slowly starting to kill me."

Bill wraps his arms around Charlie and brings his head to his chest. "I know it is Char. But I don't think Harry would be in a good mental state right now if you weren't here. No matter what he or you say you both need each other. You just need to give him some space and let him come to you."

Charlie allows Bill to hold him as he continues to cry. "I know I do it's just so hard Bill and I don't know if I can keep this up and not have it affect our relationship that we have now."

Bill holds onto his brother a little tighter. "I know Char, you have been in love with that boy for a few years now but just have to be strong and maybe something will change to allow you to act on your feelings, you never know. In the meantime, I am always here for you Char."

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Harry shakes off the tears and makes himself be happy. Then he makes his way to the great hall for dinner and to talk to Ron about his brother.

Neville looks up and see's Harry coming. "Hey Harry, how was your meeting with Snape."

"My meeting with Sev was good." Harry smiles but then notices the puzzled looks on his friends faces. "He and Sirius are dating and have been for quite some time now, so I call him Sev in private but please don't say anything to anyone I don't want their privates lives to become public."

Seamus nods. "I won't say anything, so don't worry about it mate." Hermione, Ron, Fred, George, and Neville all agree with Seamus.

Harry smiles at his friends. "Thanks, you guys that really means a lot to me."

Luna again is able to pick up that something is not right with Harry. "Do you have something on your mind again Harry? You seem quite troubled."

Harry looks at her. "Yeah I have some things going on that I'm trying to figure out." He finishes eating then he looks at Ron.

The Weasley siblings all look at each other and shrug it their shoulders.

Harry looks at Ron pleadingly. "Ron, can we go somewhere and talk please?"

"Yeah sure mate." Ron and Harry leave and go to the lake.

Hermione looks at the twins. "What is going on between those two?"

Fred and George look at each other than Fred says. "Well it's not what is going on between Harry and Ron it's what is going on between Harry and our dear brother Charlie."

"I don't understand what Charlie has to do with this." Neville asks them.

The twins say at the same time. "That's simple, everything."

Harry stares at Ron for a moment before asking him a question. "Ron what the hell is going on with your brother and before you try to tell me that you don't know I already know you the answer?"

Ron sighs. "I wasn't going to say that because I know better than to try and lie to you Harry. What did he tell you or what has he been telling you?"

Harry sighs as well before answering. "Well up until our most recent conversation, which was right before I came to dinner, he was being one of the best support systems. But then today things took a turn. He finally told me that he loves me. I feel horrible I left him there completely broken and I don't think I will ever forgive myself."

Ron looks at him. "I admit that he had terrible timing but that's why he came early and put his job on hold so he could be with you. He has been going to Bill a lot more recently and Bill has told me a few things here and there but that's one of the big things he told me."

Harry just sat there shocked unable to say anything.

Ron gives him a thoughtful look. "Harry, do you love Charlie?"

Harry looks at him and shakes his head. "Yes, I love him very much, but I don't just love him Ron, I'm in love with him."

Ron nods his head. "I thought you were. Now here is another important question. Do you love Cedric?"

Harry doesn't even have to think about the question before answering. "Yes, very much."

"Well then it is obvious that you need to talk to Cedric and see if you can work things out, but my brother seems to have left an impression."

Harry smiles at Ron. "When did you get to sentimental?"

Ron just smirks. "I have always been like this I just chose not to show it."

Harry just rolls his eyes at Ron. "Sure, you did Ron."

"What I have always been this way I just never had a need for it." Ron tries to say this with a straight face.

Harry rolls his eyes again and laughs. "Okay Ron whatever you say. Anyway, we should go back before they send out a search party."

Ron laughs at him. "Yeah that is a good idea. Come on let's go." They walk back to the great hall.

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A few days later they are all having a pleasant conversation when all of the sudden Harry grabs his head and winces in pain.

Ron puts his hand on his back and looks at him with concern. "Mate what is wrong?"

Harry shakes his head in pain. "I don't know Ron my scar is burning pretty badly."

Ron sneers. "It must have something to do with snake face."

Luna looks at him. "Are we making up names for him now?"

"Yes, love we are because that's the only thing that I could come up with on such short notice." A few of them laugh a little then they all get serious again.

Cedric kneels next to Harry and places his hand on his shoulder. "Love how bad is it?"

"This is the worst it has ever felt before." Harry barely managed to say that because of the pain he was experiencing.

Hermione looks at Cedric frantically. "We need to get Dumbledore."

Neville stands up "I will go get him." He leaves to find the headmaster.

A few minutes go by as they wait for Neville to return with Dumbledore when Cedric finally asks. "Are you sure you are okay love?" Cedric continues to rub his back not knowing what else to do.

Harry nods. "Yeah I think I will be okay. He is trying to get into my head."

Neville comes back with Dumbledore. "Harry did you see anything or was it just pain?"

Harry looks up at Dumbledore. "I didn't see anything it just burned. I only see things in my nightmares..." Harry realized he shouldn't have said that in front of Cedric.

Dumbledore looks at Harry. "If it happens again while you are awake you need to come to me right away and please come talk to me about those dreams you are having." Harry nods in agreement and Dumbledore leaves.

Cedric looks at Harry with a shocked expression written on his face. "What nightmares? You never told me you were having nightmares!" Cedric is getting upset that Harry didn't confide in about what was happening to him.

Harry can tell that he is getting upset and he looks hurt. "Ced I'm sorry I didn't tell anyone that was having nightmares because I didn't want anyone to worry about me. At least no more than they already are."

Cedric stood up abruptly. "I need to walk away for a while before I start yelling at you." Cedric walks away from Harry and the group.

Neville watches Cedric walk away. "Well Harry I think it is safe to say that you should have told him."

Harry looks down feeling a bit defeated. "Yeah you are probably right...I um, think I'm going to go find Charlie he can get my mind distracted." Then he mumbles to himself: *That is if he is still talking to me.* "See you guys later." Harry gets up and leaves to find Charlie.

Hermione looks at Ron. "Do you think it is a good idea for Harry to look for Charlie. Since we all know there are feelings between the two of them?"

Ron shakes his head. "I don't know it's Harry's decision on what he does or doesn't do I just hope he knows what he is doing."

Draco looks at them. "What do you guys think was going on with his scar."

Hermione shakes her head. "I don't know it has done it in the past, but I don't think it has been that bad before."

Seamus looks thoughtful for a minute. "I don't think it has ever been that bad, he looked like someone was stabbing him repeatedly."

Neville nods his head. "I think you're right Shay. I wish he could just freaking catch a break somewhere."

Draco looks at Neville and Seamus. "I think he will soon. Right now it doesn't look like it but good things are slowly happening to him, which is exactly what he needs."

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Harry finally finds tracks down where Charlie is which is outside in one of the courtyards. "Hey Char."

Charlie turns around and is surprised to see Harry standing there and has to suck in a breath to keep his composure. "Oh. Hey Harry, I'm kind of surprised to see you again after our last conversation. Is everything okay?"

Harry shakes his head. "Not really, no and I'm surprised you are talking to me after earlier but no I think I did something really stupid and I don't know how to fix it."

Charlie pats the seat next to him for Harry to sit down. "What do you mean you think you did something stupid?"

Harry looks at him. "I have been having pain coming from my scar and Dumbledore asked me if I saw anything or it was just pain. I answered his question then the rest just kind of flowed out and Cedric wasn't aware of the true extent."

Charlie sits there and waits to see if Harry will continue and when he doesn't, he asks. "And what is the rest of it? I know there is something more to this."

Harry shakes his head and gives Charlie a slight smile. "I don't know how you are always able to figure me out like that but yeah there is more. The other part of this is that I only ever see anything when I'm having nightmares not while I'm awake."

"You don't get to know all of my secrets Harry." He smiles then Charlie puts his on Harry's back and starts to rub it slowly. "You might be right in saying that you made a mistake, but it was a mistake that everyone makes. I think you need to give Cedric some time to cool down. You know that I am always here for you no matter the time of day."

Harry smiles a little and hugs Charlie. "Thanks Char I really needed that."

"No problem Harry. Whatever you need me to do I will, all you have to do is ask." He smiles.

"I know you will Char, and I love that, and I will I promise. You're one of the few people I can always come to no matter what is going on." He smiles at him then Harry looks at Charlie thoughtfully. "Look I think that we ended on a bad note and I'm not really okay with that."

Charlie puts his hand up to stop him. "Hey, don't worry about it hun. Right now, you just need to focus on Cedric and making sure your relationship is still intact. After that if you still feel the need to worry about me than that's okay too."

Harry smiles at him. "Alright Char if that what you want then I guess I will have to comply." Then Harry turns serious and sad at the same time. "How can you try to help me stay with him when we both know that's not what you really want to happen?"

Charlie gives Harry a small smile in return. "That's because I am always here for you no matter what and no matter who you are with because I care about you and I want you to be happy."

Harry immediately wraps his arms around Charlie once more. "I don't think you realize how awesome you are Char, but I don't want you to suffer because of me either."

Charlie wraps his arms around Harry likes it's second nature. "What did I just get done saying to you? I don't want you to worry about me right now, you have more important things to worry about." He then thinks to himself. *Even if this is slowly killing me, I need you to be happy even if that's not with me. *

End of Chapter 4

Please tell me what you think, I have up to chapter 8 already written. So please continue to leave your comments and thoughts on my story, I love to hear from the fans. Sometimes I do end up running into a wall, so your ideas give me a jump start when that occurs.

Also, if you have any requests for future pairings let me know and I will either add them to my current stories or I will try to make their own story.