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Chapter 26
I woke up with a start, I saw him again.
When I move, I feel pain everywhere. I realized that what happened was not a dream but a reality. I looked around and realized that I don't know where I am. I listen and don't hear anything. When I go to stand up, I realize just how cold it is. Why is it so cold here? Like sure, Dauntless is cold and all but it's like the middle of winter and all the windows are open. I notice that my shoes are missing and decide to worry about that later.
When I look around, I notice a door. I decide to go to the door, hoping it will lead outside. As I approach the door, I look back and see a wall. Ya dah there is a wall, but what's on it is what surprises me, "Fear God Alone" is spray painted on it. I don't bother trying to figure out how's room is, all I want is to get out. When I'm about to open the door, I hear a key trying to open the door.
Without thinking, I go back to the bed and get under the covers.
The door opens and reveals Four.
Is this Four's room? I mean, who else would live here?
He goes over to the bathroom and washes his hands. I know that if I want to make a run for it this is the time. But why did he bring me here?
I realized that I was staring and closed my eyes to give the impression that I'm asleep.
The bed's comfy, it's hard but I still sink in a bit. The next thing I know, I feel an ice pack on my cheek.
I shoot my eyes open, the cold startling me.
Four has a look of surprise on his face to my reaction.
I sit up, not wanting to lay down anymore. I'm someone that prefers to be standing, it's an easier getaway plus it has a way of making people almost fear you.
"Good afternoon," Four says. Afternoon? Was I really asleep all that time?
"What time is it?"
"Lunch time. Everyone is in the cafeteria."
At the mention of food, I feel like I'm going to be sick.
"I don't know if you want to eat first but Max wants to talk to you."
Max… I know he's the faction leader but what does he want with me?
"What does he want to talk to me about?" I ask.
Four looks shocked. "Do you remember what happened last night?"
Yes! I feel like yelling, who wouldn't remember what happened? "Vaguely," I decide to answer.
Four shakes his head. "I really shouldn't be the one to tell you this."
"What is it?"
Four takes a deep breath. "You were at the chasm." He looks at me like he wants me to confirm. I nod my head. "You were attacked." I nod again. "Do you know who attacked you?" I shake my head. "If you saw him again, do you think you would?" I take a few seconds to answer.
I know I should be terrified of him, of what he would do to me but what I'm really scared of is what he would tell people or what he would do to my brothers and sisters.
"I'm not sure." I reply.
"Would you try?" He sounds like he's trying to beg. Is it really causing this many problems?
"Sure."
A smile appears on his face. It's contagious, It makes me smile as well. I haven't smiled in what feels like years.
"Okay so do you want to eat before or after?"
"After." I know that if I eat now, I'm going to throw up on him. Is that a bad thing? No. But if they send me to the infirmary, they would find that there is something off with me but not know what and potentially send me to Erudite.
It might sound extreme but the people that work in the infirmary are part of Erudite and would love to study me.
"Okay. But just as a warning, Tori will want to talk to you first." I give him a confused look, why would Tori want to talk to me? "When she saw what happened to you, she was all protective of you. And she hasn't been like that since Amar."
"Seems like she's protective of the people she cares about."
I haven't heard from Amar since Visiting day. It's weird, I should have gotten something from him at this point.
I go to play with my ring, a nervous habit I got and find that my ring is missing.
"Sorry, but have you seen my ring?" I'm freaking out, everything is on there. Is there another yes but this one has been improved. The other is at the bureau. I need to find the ring.
"You had a ring?"
"It's okay, probably just left it on my bed."
"Okay, we should head to his office though."
I nod my head and as I stand up, I remember that I don't have my shoes.
"Uhh Four?" he looks my way. "What happened to my shoes?"
"Oh ya," he goes over to the door and gets my running shoes. I slip them on and follow him out the door.
We walk in silence. Akwere? A bit. Well actually a lot.
"Who was it?"
"What?" I ask.
"The person you were fighting? I guess you don't have to tell me. But Tori and Max will ask when you see them."
I don't hesitate with my answer. "Four, we all have our demons. You and I both know that they might be better keeped under the carpet then out in the open."
I probably would have told him who he actually is. I don't know why it might be that we have a similar past. But I also need to save my family. Blood before all else.
"Ok." We walk for a bit in silence again. I don't pay attention to where we are until I notice that this area has no cameras. What? "Tris. I'm not going to pretend like I know who you are or what you are doing but you better hope you have better answers for Tori and Max, they won't accept these types of answers."
It shocked me that he would be so blunt. I go in front of him and turn around so we are facing each other and stop walking.
"Four, if it were your choice, when Marcus would beat you and it was you or your mom, what would you do?"
There. All I have been working for, all I have sacrificed, goes down the drain because I can't stand lying to him anymore!
"I would choose me. I couldn't let her put herself through that," he answers. I was shocked that he answered.
"And contrary to what society here tells you, that would not be because you were Abnegation, it's because that's what your morals, life experiences and just the person you are." I pause, picking my next words carefully. "I have to choose my father or my siblings and their life. I had decided long ago to put aside my life so that they could have one. It wasn't a choice, it was just what I had to do."
"Your morals?" Four questions.
"And who I am. There is so much bad everywhere, including beyond the fence. And I would rather choose 3 lives over 1."
Four nods his head and starts walking again. And I follow.
Been a long time...
I'm hoping to be posting more often. A new chapter today because Divergent is on Netflix (as of June 1st)!
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