A/N:
Hey guys!
Here is a very long chapter for you guys. I had a lot of debate about what to put in here and decided to spoil y'all.
Trust me there is so much going on in this chapter and I hope you love it!
I enjoy your guy's theories every time you post them in the comments. I have a lot planned for Rina.
Enjoy this chapter, let me know your thoughts in the comments!
Thanks!
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Dragging myself through the hallways, I wander to the kitchen in hopes to find something to eat. Perhaps, something light in mind. I slept in later than I originally wanted to, but that is because of being up so late at night. I'm used to a regular schedule of rising early and sleep early. I usually wake up early in the mornings to work out, although I am not really feeling the need to today. After that 'mishap' with Sebastian last night, it took me a long while to fall to sleep.
Walking down the stairs, I spot the servants heading toward the kitchen as well. Following them, I finally catch up to them as they hang by the door to it. I didn't notice the smell right away, but it eventually hit my nose. There was a heavy scent of spices in the air. It made my head hurt a little. I couldn't smell them that well either because of my stuffy nose. My cold is slowly going away, but last night I couldn't stop random shivers from disturbing my rest.
I watch the servants go inside, chatting to Sebastian I presume. I halt in my step, not sure if I want to enter a room with the demon. Last night had me feeling a bunch of things, and one of them right now was awkwardness. Did I really want to face him?
Steeling my nerves, I continue to walk towards the kitchen until I walk inside.
"What are you cooking this morning?" Bard asks tiredly.
"Curry," Sebastian replies monotonously. His back is to all of us, so he doesn't know I am here.
"Oh, that's a rare choice for you. What kind of curry will it be then?"
"Prince Soma is here also, so I am thinking of making chicken curry. I have rarely cooked it because of the young master."
I tilt my head in confusion, wondering why on Earth he would be making curry at this early hour. Not that curry isn't good, it has a lot of spice. I never had a problem with spicy foods, but sometimes too hot is too much for me. I find myself craving spicy chicken wings and I wallow in sadness knowing it doesn't exist yet. I trudge into the kitchen at that note, the beginning of this day already making me nostalgic.
"Oh! Good morning, Miss. Rina!" Mey-Rin says.
I give her a tired smile, "Mornin'."
Finny smiles at me as he grabs a roll from nearby, "Good morning!"
He gives me a piece and heads over to the servant's table. I follow and sit across from him. I grab some jam that is left out on the table and spread it on my roll. It looks like it could be strawberry from the color. I feel a heavy gaze on me and find Sebastian staring. His face held a frown, his grip tight on the wooden ladle he was holding.
I stare back, not giving up this ridiculous staring contest.
"My lady, I believe I have told you not to come in here. It is not proper."
I take a bite out of the roll, "And I don't care." I say with my mouth full.
His eyebrow twitches, "A young lady should care about her reputation."
I snort, actually snort after swallowing the bread. I let out a breathless laugh, finding this amusing. "No one cares about me besides who lives in this household and connecting family outside of it."
Bard sits down next to me and slings an arm across my shoulders. He brings me close with a goofy grin, "This is why I like ya'! So different from most of those boring women out there."
A smug feeling comes over me and I smirk, "See even Bard likes how I behave!"
Sebastian sweat drops and goes over the island, preparing more ingredients for the curry. "That is because Bard is uncultured."
I shut my mouth before another laugh leaves it. Bard didn't look particularly happy as he gets off me, "What did you say?!" he snarls to Sebastian.
My body shakes, the insult clever on the demon's part. "Isn't that saying most men are uncultured then?" I hint with a devious smile.
Bard gawks at me, "Not you too!" he groans.
I laugh, a laugh that felt nice to release. All pent-up stress leaves me as I heave. I wipe at my eye; it is becoming tearful. "Oh, you guys, you really gullible. You men, don't know how to take a joke."
Finnian laughs with me, "Bard your face! Hah!"
"It's too early in the morning for these insults!" Bard cries.
Mey-Rin pats Bard's head while walking by, "Cheer up!"
I snicker and take another bite out of my bread with a smile, "Today might not be so bad after all."
My eyes wander over to Sebastian, but it seems he has blocked any noise out. He is very concentrated on the dish he was making. It is probably best to ignore him; I think he needs a break from my weird self. My smile turns a bit sad, knowing I was an oddball in this world. I don't fit in, like a puzzle piece. Wanting to belong, but not quite fitting either. I make the picture appear messed up. I sigh through my nose and eat the rest of my roll.
I eventually leave when Mey-Rin exits the kitchen, not wanting to be next to Sebastian for so long. Feeling a bit rejuvenated, I decide I might workout. To pass time would be great until lunch is served. I presume our lunch is curry, not my top choice. Jogging down the hallway and eventually up the stairs, I skip down to the bedroom I was staying in. Soma was still sleeping in mine, dumb child. Opening the door, I walk over to my dresser and take out my pre-customized clothing. I shred my nightgown off and slide on panties along with a bra.
The bra wasn't wired since Nina had quite a hard time figuring out to implement it into the design. I prefer it unwired though. Sliding on a t-shirt and a pair of shorts, I slip on some tights and socks afterward. I slide on my shoes, something like gym shoes but not as well, great. Not even close to those types of shoes, but they were bendy and that's all I needed. Next, I tie my hair up into a ponytail and clip back any fringe. Satisfied with my outfit, I grab my cloak to hide my indecent appearance. Tying the string on in front of my chest, I exit the bedroom.
Jogging around the corner, I almost crash into my brother next to the stairs.
"Ah!"
Ciel turns to look behind him and gives me a curious look, "Why are you running?"
I scratch the back of my head in embarrassment, "I'm about to go training in the yard."
"Oh, I see."
I move around him, wanting to get this work out finished with.
"Wait-" he says abruptly.
"What?"
His face remains inexpressive, his single eye stern though. "I don't understand why you continue to exercise."
"I thought we went over this already."
He sighs and starts to walk down the stairs, "You shouldn't have to push yourself. I have Sebastian to protect me, so you needn't worry anymore."
I follow him naturally, feeling a little annoyed. "You forget something."
"Which is?"
"Who is there to protect me?" I ask.
His eye widens, not expecting that question most likely. "That-It would be me, obviously."
"You know that can't happen."
"I can order Sebastian to protect you. I'll even lower myself to pulling out my pistol if something ever happens to you."
We reach the last step and stop to look at each other on the bottom. "What if, there's a situation where you and I are both in danger. What then, brother?" I ask with a serious look.
His eye widens again, not sure in what though. "..."
"You know that Sebastian has to protect you, right?"
"I-…" Ciel starts but stops himself.
"This is why I train because you can't be there for me no matter how much you try. One day it will be me against the enemy whether I like it or not. I put myself through this for multiple reasons. I need you to understand, Feni."
He grits his teeth angrily, "I won't let anyone hurt you."
I smile, finding his protective behavior cute. "Don't worry, I'll hurt them first." I smile softly and pat his head lovingly.
"Rina..."
I begin to walk off with a wave, "Have someone fetch me for lunch, okay?"
Heading toward the front doors, chilly wintery air hits me in the face. I'm going to freeze my ass off in the cold. I can already feel the cold bite my ankles when I walk down the stairs to the yard. I might keep my cloak on for this one. I start by stretching a little bit and eventually take off into a brisk job. The cold air makes my cheeks sting as I ran for a good while. I basically run the property lines which is really far. Then I'll run back, I do this a couple of times until I get tired of running.
I stop halfway in the back yard, panting from the exertion. This was nothing though, easy work. It just gets the heart pumping and my brain wakes up from it. Catching my breath, I shred my cloak, becoming too warm. The weather's chill feeling nice and cooling me down a little. I wipe the tiny bit of sweat near my temple with the back of my hand before I start to do a series of workouts. From jumping jacks to crunches, to planks, and to finding a tree to do pull-ups on with a branch. I could feel my abs working out and the hamstrings in my thighs tightening as I count each pull up.
Once I reach one hundred, I drop to the ground with a relieved sigh. A tree branch is not comfortable to hang off of. I don't know how our ancestors did it so easily. Then again, I think and stare down at my pulsing red hands; evolution is amazing in itself. I don't understand how Sebastian sees us. I mean, I admit humans are pretty stupid, but we are also geniuses. I don't see the demon's discovering the internet sooner than a human. I don't see demons traveling to the moon either. So, what is it that makes us so hate worthy? I get we are a food source for his kind, but in all retrospect, all they have is a better physical system and magic powers.
This question lingers on my mind for a long while as I start to beat up a training dummy in the forest. Not even Sebastian knows I set this up here, or so I think. I try to act as if this were an enemy, the rice in it crackles with each direct hit.
Another thought pops into my head when I sidekick the dummy in the face. Why don't humans and demons work together? Along with Grim Reapers.
It would make sense to combine all races. The amount of power in this world, the many imaginative ideas would be extraordinary. There would be so much to accomplish. Every side will gain something in return. I wonder if this happens in the future here, so many outcomes. My big brain can't handle it almost. This would be a great story to write, I think. Perhaps, I should write a novel about it.
I step back from the dummy, just staring at it. I thought my world was confusing, but this one is more confusing and unstable. For Christ's sake, my brother is in a contract with a demon!
"My lady," Sebastian calls out.
I freeze automatically, I didn't notice him there for once. Probably too invested with my thoughts. I give him a wide-eyed look; it was like he knows when I think about him. The idiot is going to make me die from a heart attack one day.
"W-What is it?" I ask with a slight stutter.
"Lunch will be served in an hour."
I nod and drag a hand through my hanging fringe, "Be there soon then."
He starts to turn to leave, however, he stops mid-way and gives a one over my sweaty and exposed appearance. The cold wind makes his long bangs sway. "I question your mental state to be wearing such a...unladylike outfit."
I look down at my legs, which the tights hug them. "Do you expect me to be exercising in a corset?"
He frowns a little, "No but there are dresses for such movement."
I huff and cross my arms, "Must you judge everything I wear? Why does a demon care?"
"I am thinking of your reputation as a woman in human society. It would not due to lower my lords if you were seen in such a state."
"Ah, I see now. Makes sense," I state as I walk closer to him. "...however, I will continue to do what I want. I deserve that much."
"That's quite selfish of you."
I scowl at him, "If you went through the shit I had to go through; you would wish you were never born in the first place!" I shout.
It took me a minute to realize what I just said. My face pales and I gulp, some tears were starting to cloud my eyes. I can't believe I just said that in front of him. No, actually I can't believe I even said that. I thought I stopped thinking like that. I guess old habits stick after all.
His eyes were wide until he becomes impassive again, "Whatever you have experienced can be no worse than the young master."
His statement left me stunned, he started to leave fully and walk away from me. I start to get flashbacks, all the trauma, everything I kept buried for the longest time. This is how I survived in a world I did not know. I want to forget anything correlated with how my experience was like during those first few months before Vincent found me. On the verge of dying from starvation. It was a literal hell for a thirteen-year-old.
I start to feel angry at him for insinuating my past. I understand my brother went through some shit, but that doesn't mean mine couldn't be any worse! I grit my teeth as I start to dash after Sebastian. I'm about to teach this asshole a fucking lesson. He knew I was coming; I didn't bother to conceal my emotions nor my footsteps. He effectively dodges a punch I threw at him. He stands to the side, appearing somewhat irritated but hidden under a blank mask.
"Y-You...You don't get to judge me!"
"I am not judging, I am assessing. And you, my lady, are a conundrum."
I march up to him, "You still don't get the right to make assumptions about me! I don't care how confusing I am to you!"
He gives me a closed eye smile, finding something out of this humorous. "My lady, as I stated last night, you are merely exotic food to me."
I grab the lapels of his jacket, fisting the fabric with great strength. My heart starts to hurt to a considerable degree. Hearing him say that hurts. All I am is food to him. And what do you to food? You play with it; like a child. He's playing with me. No. He has been playing with me from the start. I may surprise him here and there, but in the end, I am a meal he could devour one day. For some reason, it took me this long to notice. Declaring we are friends, is like saying a cow is my friend to him. I see now, why demons and humans would never be friends.
There would be too much tension. Demons would consume the humans out of gluttony; all the while finding the thought of being 'friends' entertaining.
My grip slacks a little during my internal monologue of the situation. My back and heartache to a horrible degree. I wanted to cry from these realizations.
"I'm sorry," I mumble. My anger fully receding into the inner depths of my mind.
He seems taken aback, his face clearly showing it. "What are you apologizing for?"
I smile sadly and let go of him, my hands falling to my sides. I think I realize why I was feeling such things around Sebastian beforehand. Ah, I'm really an idiot. I couldn't stop a tear from escaping, and I wipe it away quickly. I'm pathetic, crying in front of a demon; he's watching his food break down. His favorite plaything, he probably gets a sick joy out of watching too. Like a proper demon would.
"I'm sorry for being an idiot." I say in a strained voice, a painful smile touching my lips.
He appears very lost as if he didn't understand. I must have done a good job of hiding how I feel about him. I would think Sebastian would know when a woman has fallen in love with him. I know he is most likely older than me, by a long while. He knows what a woman who likes a guy looks like. I would assume anyway, appearing so handsome. Lust is a demonic trait is it not? It makes more sense thinking about it like so.
"I'm afraid you have confused me more."
I smile again, as some tears brush my cheek in attempts to maybe calm down. "D-Don't...worry about it. I'm fine or will be."
He raises an eyebrow at my statement and leans down, his figure taller than me. "You forget I am able to tell when a person is lying. And my lady, I believe you are doing so not only to me but yourself as well."
"Why would you care if I was?"
He falls silent after that, his eyes examining my face.
I force myself to stop crying. Hopefully, now, I can worm my way out of this hole I dug myself. I shouldn't love a demon, that's so stupid. Especially someone who is going to eat my brother one day. Someone who is truly evil and kills people for joy.
I brush past him as I try to collect my bearings. I grab my cloak that hung on a tree nearby and put it on as I walk away. I could feel his eyes on my back and I still couldn't stop the shivers from running up and down it.
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After washing myself up and crying more in the bathtub, I ended up being just on time for the meal to be ready. I sat next to my brother, who kept passing me worried glances. Maybe it was written on my face on how much I hate myself and the pain that explodes in my chest every so often. Lau was in his own little world across from me and Soma sat down at the end of the table; across from my little brother.
Sebastian eventually comes in with the curry he prepared for us all. I make sure to avoid any eye contact with his person. I feel ashamed and embarrassed. I won't be able to face him for the rest of the week. He sets down the curry in front of me, I could feel his gaze of course throughout the whole transaction. Once the meal was set in front of us, he pours us all tea. The curry in front of me looked good, I'm sure it would be too.
Before I could take a bite, Soma makes a noise of disgust.
"Yuck!" he voices as he puts the spoon down.
"..." Ciel is silent for once.
Confused I look over at Soma in confusion, "Yuck?" I repeat. Curious now, I take a bite of my own. I test it, not as good as I thought it was going to be. It's kind of...grainy? Swallowing the mysterious curry, I decided to look at Sebastian just this once; even though it sends a pang through my heart when I do. "This...isn't the best." I inform with a shoulder shrug.
"It doesn't please you two, then?" Sebastian asks with a concerned look.
"AH!" Soma cries out. "No, no, it's just that it's too different from what I have had in India. This...this..."
"To be blunt," I say and point at the curry with my spoon, "It's sucks."
Soma nods in agreement, "Firstly, the taste is too weak, and I can't smell anything. I can still feel something like powder in my mouth, such a thing is just not curry."
Sebastian puts a finger to his chin in thought, "That's weird, I used the finest curry powder..."
"Curry powder? What is that?" Soma asks.
"Well, that's where the problem lies." I point out. "There is no powder in curry, that's something people use when they don't know how to properly cook the recipe. Curry usually uses fresh spices instead of powder."
"Miss. Rina is correct. I have never seen this powder in India nor did Agni ever use such a thing. In my palace, I have servants who are just for grinding spices. Spices will decide the color and spiciness, but the most important thing is the flavor. The smell will fade away if you do not grind the spices." Soma informs.
"So, it's out of the question, to use such a thing as curry powder that already has ground spices." Sebastian notes.
"What's more, Agni's curry has different tastes and colors depending on the ingredients. I think he will combine them to match well with the ingredients." Soma further explains.
"Then West has the advantage. He controls the distribution with his own company, he can secure the high-quality products. Well, firstly it looks like we need to collect fresh spices of high quality." Ciel says.
"We don't have much time. If we don't instantly contact a trading company..." Sebastian mentions with a finger to his chin in thought; however, he drifts off and we all look at Lau.
"Er..." Lau voices, now put on the spot. About time he was useful I think humorously.
"Well, it sounds like the competition is on." I finalize and stand up. "I'm going to go chillax for the rest of the day."
Soma gives me a weird look as I walk away from the men and out the door. I sneak by the kitchen and grab some unhealthy choices for food. I picked mostly leftover desserts. I perfectly know well why this specific food group. Nothing like sweet stuff to make you feel better and forget a troubled heart. Before I leave completely, I spot a bottle of rich red wine nearby. Sebastian uses this brand when cooking some recipes. Biting my lip, I grab that as well and a glass to go with it. Hopefully, alcohol won't affect me too much.
Even if I did get somewhat tipsy, it's not like anything will be happening for the rest of the day. Walking out of the kitchen, I decide to descend to my bedroom. No one will bother me there, or so I hope. It was times like these that I wish for technology again. Watching sappy rom coms sounded so good right now. My mother and I would watch those together, even if I was only a child. Once at my room, I shift all the goods in my arms around so I could open the door. Struggling greatly, I finally open it and pace inside.
Last time I drank alcohol, no one even knew. I've never been drunk though, I'm not stupid enough for that. My brother would kill me...hah. Setting down the food and wine on the floor, I grab a blanket and all the pillows from my bed. I make a little area on the ground to relax on. I grab a book or two as well. I decided to stripe into some comfy clothes, and I couldn't feel any more content at the moment. I wish I was in my original room though; this one is just too odd.
I start to eat the deserts, most of them containing chocolate. I don't know them all, but they tasted delightful as usual. Laying down on my stomach, I prop a book up on a pillow in front of me. Time to mindlessly read until I find myself to be the character in the book. A great escape from reality. I pour myself a glass of wine and slowly sip at it as time moves slowly throughout the day. I finally got to put where there was only a little bit of wine left in the bottle and the words on the pages began to blur. Blinking rapidly, I hiccup loudly and giggle afterward.
Setting the book down, I flop onto my back with a smile. Ah, the ceiling was swirly! I trace my finger with it, finding it so cool. I sit up eventually finding the spinning patterns boring. Another hiccup flies past my lips and head spins a little from the sudden movement. Did my room always look like this-no this isn't my room? My bedroom is where that stupid prince is. I want my room back I think with a pout. I decide to stand up, which wasn't that smart. I fall back a couple of steps but catch myself. I ended up wandering over to my mirror and grip the small table attached to it.
Looking into the mirror, I stare at myself aimlessly. Am I pretty? I think I am. How come no one wants me though? Pretty...pretty eyes. Sebastian's eyes are pretty, so is his fuck boy face. He's like Edward Cullen but cooler and darker. Oh! He wasn't a vampire either. But he looks like one, he wears a lotttt of black. Sebastian is sooo cool. I've never met anyone like that before. He's not as cool as Thor though. Thor's a motherfuckin' God!
"He's a God!" I shout as laughter bubbled in my throat. "Lightning strike!"
I hit my mirror stand with my fist, thinking I had Thor's hammer. However, my fist breaks through the wood and makes it crumble to the ground.
I stare at it, bewildered. "Oopsie."
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After that ridiculous afternoon of getting tipsy as Hell; I spent the rest of my time throughout the two days of hiding in my bedroom as much as possible. I was avoiding Sebastian with all my will. He notices of course, but he doesn't seem to care much. He doesn't even spare me a glance. If anything, it makes sadder than I already am. I hope I lose all feelings of liking him in the first place. With his cold demeanor, I will try to take that as a sign that nothing will ever connect us. I need to get this into my thick head.
However, this is all easier said than done.
I sigh as I stroll down the stairs, I needed to escape my boring room. My resolve is wavering to a certain degree. I caught the sound of shuffling around and people talking outside. I pace toward the kitchen and go toward the back door. Becoming curious instantly, taking a peek through the already open door; I find a carriage outside along with the servants, Sebastian, and Soma. There were bags upon bags, and I realize it was the spices that finally came in. Thanks to Lau, it seems we were able to get what we needed in time.
Stepping outside, I walk down the staircase until I approach Soma.
"They are all things I have seen in my country!" Soma exclaims with a smile.
I smile as well, affected by his bright outlook. I walk up to him and stare at the spices in his hands, "They smell nice." I comment.
"Amazinggggg! All of these are ingredients for curry!" Finnian exclaims loudly with five bags of spices over his shoulder.
I sweatdrop; no normal human can carry so much. I spot Bard struggling to carry just one.
"It all smells wonderful," Sebastian voices out loud with a somewhat smile. His hand held some spices, "They are premium spices."
"To prepare them all in one day...the Earl sure has a rough way to use people. I'm not even an expert in spices." Lau states with a smile and shrug.
"For once your useful, Lau." I smirk as I walk over to the two.
"Little Lady, that is quite rude. I do much to help."
"I think your definition of help is warped."
"I do not mind giving out favors."
"Then, I'll cook some curry with these spices right away." Sebastian notifies. "Prince Soma, only you know Agni's godly curry. Could you please give me some advice regarding the taste of it?"
"I don't mind. But does a British person like you know how to use all these spices?" Soma asks with a hint of worry. He dashes behind me suddenly, grasping my shoulder and side with shaky hands. "I just thought it will be hard for you if you aren't used to it...it's just that it's not something you should fool around with!"
"I understand your concern, please give me a little time and I will see what I can do."
I shrug him off, a bit irritated. He can't even face Sebastian like a man. Don't use me as a shield!
"Is it really alright?" Soma asks, his voice dripping with uncertainty.
"Who knows," Ciel says with a bored yawn.
"Please just wait for me to finish." Sebastian encourages with a close eyed smile and a hand over his heart.
"If anyone can do it, it's Sebastian." I point out, finding this conversation ending soon. I start to head back into the manor. What should I do in the meantime?
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I came back down after playing the piano. I haven't done it in a while, but I soon started to get hungry. The further I walk to the dining room, the more I smell curry and spices. It smelt so good! My mouth is watering. Going inside the dining room when I arrive, I find my brother, Soma, and Lau already inside. They were playing some card game as they waited. The food wasn't served yet so I sneak into a chair beside Ciel.
Everyone is quiet and I briefly wonder if Sebastian will be able to impress anyone. He is the kind of person who likes to take up a challenge. I sigh internally at the thought of him. How the hell was I going to get over this obstacle? Why do I even like him that much? Too many questions I'm afraid I don't know the answer to. The doors are pushed open and Sebastian walks in with a cart full of curry I presume. I can smell the chicken and spices mixed the moment it comes into the room. Now, this is what good food smell like.
He gives us our own bowls and the scent is more heavenly than before. I smile appears on my face, as food is the way to a struggling heart and a confused mind.
"Sorry for the wait. Here is the curry featuring soft chicken boiled with spices and onions. It's seasoned with Coriander and yogurt." Sebastian announces.
Soma jumps out of his chair in surprise, "You made this?! It's been two hours!"
Sebastian sighs, almost dejectedly, "Yeah, I spent two hours on it. I apologize for making you wait."
A funny look forms on my face; my thoughts morphing into one of humor. He's acting like it was some strenuous task.
"It's okay, besides this smell...it's really similar to Agni's curry," Soma informs, sniffing the air to make sure. He sits back down and stares at the curry before him, "How did you do it in such a short time?!"
I watch a smirk stretch across Sebastian's lips and I almost had to look away. I think I need to see help for this, his smirk is just so...er, entrancing.
"It's an easy task," he states, as his smirk turns into a close eyed smile. "I just tasted all the spices."
"All of them? All of them?!" Soma shouts in shock.
I raise my eyebrow in curiosity, I thought Sebastian didn't really like human food; or rather despised it. How could he taste it?
"Yes. I tried to combine the spices that would achieve the same smell as Agni's curry from the other morning."
"You could just do it from the smell?" Soma asks, bewildered.
"My nose is better than a humans." Sebastian points out while gesturing to it.
"Too bad your brains aren't..." I mutter under my breath.
Of course, he heard me, and I saw a small tick mark appear near his temple. I grab my glass of water and sip at it as a distraction. Ha-ha, whoopsie, that might come back to bite me in the ass later. Why do I keep giving opportunities for him to tease me later?! Why must I do this to myself?!
"Meh prince, Che Bi You Lu (When we get to the mountain, there'll be a way through). How about trying to eat it first?" Lau advises while gesturing to the said meal.
Soma sits back down and straightens his chair, "Eh sure...okay. Let's give it a go..."
"The smell is totally different from before. These spices give off a nice smell." Soma comments while placing the spoon inside the dish.
Lau tastes the curry next, "This is...Mai Pao (Delicious)!" he exclaims with a smile. "The taste of ground spices really stimulates the appetite. The well-done chicken is so soft it just melts in my mouth."
After such an extensive description, I decided to try my own bowl of it. I almost deflate the moment it hits my taste buds. Lau wasn't being dramatic; this is really freaking good. I let out a hum in approval with the spoon still in my mouth.
"Prince Soma, what do you think?" Sebastian eventually asks.
We all turn to look at Soma, curious about his opinion.
Soma shakes his head with a frown, "Nah. The smell is good, but the flavor is a whole other thing."
I watch as Sebastian puts a finger to his chin in thought, "Is that so...then I'll try another combination that will give the same smell but a different flavor."
"It'd be good if I knew how Agni cooked his curry...even just a little. I really know nothing." Soma says. "Even though I really want to help, I just can't! In the end, I'll have to rely on you! I'm such a..."
He stops when Sebastian puts a hand on Soma's shoulder. My eyes widen at the action, it's not every day you see him even offer such a gesture.
"Please do not blame yourself," Sebastian tells him. "There is something even you can do." he encourages with closed eyes and a wide smile.
I sweatdrop at the look, knowing now he was simply faking any kindness as per usual.
Before he could tell us what, he encourages to eat our meals. I ate the meal happily of course, along with Lau. Ciel conceals any emotion, so I don't really know if he liked it or not. I excuse myself after my meal, feeling really full. Ciel follows behind me eventually as I go up the stairs.
"Do you want to play a game?" he asks me.
I shrug, as I wasn't going to do anything else. "Sure, only if I can beat you this time."
He smirks as he follows me to his study, "In your dreams."
"That's harsh."
"I never said I was nice."
I snort softly as I open the door the room when we reach it, "You act like you aren't you mean?"
He tosses me a scowl then and walks into the room, "I believe your eyes are going bad."
I shake my head and close the door behind us; I sit in a comfy padded chair across from him as he takes out a deck of cards.
"Don't act like your mask doesn't wear down from time to time."
His hand freezes over the deck he set down on the table in front of us.
"You...I don't expect anything better from you."
I raise an eyebrow to that, "Oh? Here I thought you were going to start a mini argument with me. Yet, I receive a compliment."
He frowns, his blue eyes intense, "I'm not that idiotic."
I cross my legs together, getting comfy. "As long as you acknowledge it. I like when your mask is down."
He divides the cards in half and gives me the other set, he is preparing a game of war.
"Too bad you'll ever see it fall then."
I frown a little, "You know, hiding the truth from others, is sometimes not the smartest move. Take it from someone who knows quite a bit about that."
His gaze penetrates my soul, almost making me shiver. "I will do what I think is best. As for you," he pauses as he flips one card over, the card a two of hearts. "I respect what you wish to hide. This is coming from someone who wishes to keep their secrets as well."
Shock shakes me to the core, his words hitting me. I press my lips together in thought and flip my own card over, it being a four of spades. I take his card, winning the round. "Feni, I can't even tell you about me. As much as I wish to, it is best not to get into the mess of my life. Your father was the only one who knows about who I truly am, and he really did take the secret to his death."
He flips another card, a six of a diamond. "...was it that bad?"
I frown again and sigh, "I wouldn't call it bad, it's more unfortunate. I know you've probably had Sebastian dig for information about me and he came back empty-handed. Did he not?"
His eye widens in surprise, his body freezing. "How did you..."
I smile sadly and flip my card, it being a five of hearts. "I didn't, I just assumed."
He takes my card with an indifferent look, "I had to know if you were against me."
I nod, a bit disappointed his trust was so low in me at some point. "Understandable. Though, I would think after raising you since birth, my loyalty would be the most absolute."
"I thought the same about Auntie, but we know how that turned out."
I frown this time, "Can't argue there. Just know, I'm not a bad person, brother. My purpose in this world is the most unclear to me. But I could never betray people I consider my family. This isn't lip service; this is the real deal."
He stares at me until his gaze wavers and he sighs. "I know that by now."
I nod, happy to know that he does. "Good because if you didn't, I might have to give you a couple of knuckle sandwiches." I jest.
He smiles if only a little bit, "Doesn't sound too bad. Sebastian's done worse."
I decide to laugh at that. This talk was nice despite how stressed I felt. I think it cleared more up about our relationship with one another. Smiling like an idiot, we continue to play, both of us chatting over small matters.
"I'm still going to mother you." I comment randomly.
A tick mark settles on his temple, "Whatever."
0o0o0o0o
Lau eventually joined us in the study, and I played a game of war against him. I lost with Ciel at first, but I did beat Lau's ass. I felt good for once these past two days, I try not to think about the demon. I don't want the depression to hit me again and I want to try my best for Ciel. I will try to get over my emotions for the demon. It's not healthy to have those types of feelings to a demon or anyone who will one day make Ciel disappear from my life. It's just wrong, no more allowing Sebastian to play flirt or tease me either.
I am going to try my best to defend myself under that demon's insufferable influence.
"We should go check up on Soma." Ciel suggests later.
"Sounds like a plan." I respond.
We all get up and move down to where the kitchen is. Once at the doorframe, my brother decides to lean up against it with a smirk as Lau and I watch from behind his short stature.
"How's it going?" Ciel asks.
Sebastian and Soma turn to look at us. I spot the servants in the background, looking a bit dazed.
"Young master." Sebastian acknowledges.
We all walk inside the kitchen and I find a bowl of curry on the counter. I dip my finger in it and my brother follows my example.
"You too, my lady. You two shouldn't come down right now..."
"Three days until the contest." Ciel notifies and licks his curry covered fingertip, "It looks like your researching very hard." he smirks deviously.
There is a pause as the two stare at each other with an unwavering gaze. That's until Ciel breaks it by turning around and heading back to the door. Before he completely leaves, he turns his head to look at us. "Oh, by the way, for today's dessert I'd like to have Gateau Chocolate. Bring it to me later." he requests.
"...as you wish." Sebastian bows deeply.
I watch my brother smirk again, but more darkly before he takes his leave fully.
"My lady," Sebastian starts, and I perk up at the title. "I ask of you to stay and help taste test the food. It appears the servants are almost at their limit."
I look at their miserable expressions, even Soma looked stuffed to the brim. I sweatdrop, "Er, I don't see why not." I accept.
Sebastian gets back to cooking more curry and making Ciel's cake he ordered. I decide to stand next to Bard as he sighs.
"I am totally stuffed." he comments while stretching his arms out, "With my tummy like this, I should go do some exercises."
"I'm gonna head to the garden. Come on, Prince!" Finnian exclaims with a grin.
"Um..." Soma replies in bewilderment.
"Oh, I want to come!" I mention.
"I'll continue my washing." Mey-Rin informs.
"Everyone," Sebastian calls out with his back to us. We all give our attention to him, "The next curry is ready to serve." he announces with a scary closed-eyed smile.
I pale at the look, knowing anyone should be nervous at such an expression.
"I can't take it anymore!" Bard whines.
"Digest it within ten minutes." Sebastian orders darkly.
Sebastian pours the curry into individual bowls for each of us. We all go up to the table and start to eat. It was super good! But I think it was still missing something like Soma suggested. Everyone starts to groan, and they eventually slump over, their stomachs so full. I could almost see them protruding. They were all miserable on the floor and I laugh internally. The only one who could still eat with me was Tanaka. Love the old man.
Sebastian picks up the pot he served the curry from with a small frown, "What exactly is there not enough of?" he asks to no one in particular.
He starts on the cake again and eventually pours it into a pan. He sets it into the oven to bake and begins to do the mountain pile of dishes. The servants eventually leave, so full that some of them ran to find a toilet. I wince at the thought, it's like Thanksgiving on steroids. It was only Sebastian and I left in the kitchen. The silence was a little awkward, but it was bearable from the clanking of dishes as he washed them.
I debate on whether to talk to him or not.
…
I get out of my chair and walk calmly over to his side. He was scrubbing at the dishes at a consistent pace. He doesn't acknowledge my presence besides a side glance. It felt more awkward now. He sets the wet dishes on the countertop in front of me. Grabbing a towel, I start to dry them. It does something to take my mind off the tension.
"So..." I start off, internally wincing at myself. "What do you think is missing from the recipe?" I ask.
His face remains impassive as he hands the dish into my grasp now. "Is that really what you wish to discuss?"
I felt like I got slapped in the face, he was definitely mad again. Feeling the guilt eat at my heart, I clear my throat. "Yes and no. But I do want to fully apologize for my behavior back at the training dummy."
I set down the dish as he hands me the next one, "There is nothing to particularly apologize for." he states and turns to look at me now, "Unless I am missing something?" he insinuates.
My eyes widen in horror, he set this up! He was waiting for me to talk about this conversation! "I-"
He abruptly grabs my chin and almost painfully, his face appearing greatly irritated.
"Do not lie to me again."
My heart lurches on its own accord, "It's really nothing, Sebastian!"
He glares at me as he closes me into the counter, trapping my body against it. His glove was wet, and it felt weird on my skin. My heart was so loud I could barely hear my thoughts panicking.
"Why must you continue to lie? Whatever it is you are hiding, surely it can't be that bad. I thought we were 'friends' or how so you called it. Don't friends tell each other things?"
I mean, he had a point, he was cornering me mentally too.
"Friends don't make fun of being a certain race! It's technically racism, is it not? Imagine me calling you an evil bastard!" I rebuke in a panic. My head was a bit foggy. I'm rarely this close to Sebastian.
His eyes narrow in thought until he smirks, "Is that what was disturbing you so much?"
…what?
My brain pulls a halt on that question and he takes his fingers off my chin, "The reason you got so upset that day. You didn't like how I kept name-calling you?"
My brain does a whole 180 around, "Well...yes." I mutter with a pout.
I mean that isn't necessarily a lie, but I'm also upset because of liking him more than I thought. But hey, if he believes that was the cause. I'll take that over the other one which would lead to mortification.
He stares at me, dumbfounded by this discovery. He 'pft' escapes his mouth and he cover's it with his hand, "Aah. That's adorable."
I blush immediately, not used to being called that by him. The laugh was cute as well, but I toss that thought out as quickly as possible.
"S-Shut up!" I exclaim in embarrassment and hide my blushing cheeks with my hands. "I hate you." Another 'pft' comes from him again until he takes his hand away from his lips. His face held a highly entertained expression.
He raises his hand and pats the top of my head, "My apologies, my lady. I did not think it would offend you so much to the point of tears."
My blush increases in redness and I knock his hand away, "Words hurt, you asshole!"
He shakes his head, an amused smirk resting on his lips as he gets off me to start the dishes again. "Even though the words I speak are true, I will refrain to speak about your kind in such a manner if it pleases you."
"It doesn't change the fact that you only think of me as food though." I point out with a frown.
His expression changes to one of impassiveness once again. He narrows his gaze on the dishes as if he were thinking intently about something. "My lady, every human is food no matter what relationship we have. You must accept this."
I sigh sadly, my heart burning and crashing again. I need to hear this, for my own wellbeing. "I suppose I have no choice."
He hands me the next dish to dry with a small side glance which I do not notice. "If it helps, just know you are one of the humans I favor to some extent."
I perk up at the information, "Really?"
He nods simply in reply. He goes to grab the next dish, which is the bowl he used for the snack my brother requested. He stops for a moment before his eyes widen. "This is..."
"What?"
He smirks again, in what I couldn't tell. "I have figured out the body." he tells me while offering the bowl to me.
"...chocolate?" I question, a bit suspicious.
He starts to mix up another curry and melts more of the Phantomhive chocolate. He mixes it together and dare I say it smells absolutely wonderful. When the curry was done after a couple of hours, I tasted the curry Sebastian made and found myself in love with the meal. I kept diving in for more before he stopped me saying to wait till tomorrow since it was late at night. I ended up leaving early to go to my bedroom to sleep.
The next day, we all found ourselves in the dining room.
I sat down next to my brother like usual and we all wait for Sebastian to make his appearance. He comes in eventually with the food cart.
"I have made the curry of God." Sebastian announces to us with an accomplished smirk.
"What did you just say? You made the curry of God?!" Soma exclaims in surprise.
Sebastian lifts the top of the lid that covers the curry, "It's just how I am to the core. Please have a taste..."
He serves it to us individually. We wait for Soma to test it first. He scoops it up with his fingers and puts some in his mouth. Once he swallows it, an expression of awe overcomes him. After a beat of silence, Soma never speaks until Sebastian breaks it with his own voice.
"Does it please you?" Sebastian asks Soma with a bow.
Soma smiles, "This is not Agni's curry. This is a curry that contains complicated flavors and spices like Indian curry. It also has a depth and fresh taste that only the British can make. This is curry is worth competing with the curry of God. It's delicious butler. But how did you do this over such a short time?"
Sebastian gives him a closed eye smile and pulls a chocolate bar from his jacket, "This is the answer."
"Tha...that is..." Soma starts and everyone else shouts, "Chocolate!"
I smile as I take a sip of the tea already set out. Leave it to Sebastian, he is a genius.
"Cocoa in chocolate was originally used as a spice which provided a special sweet flavor. The cocoa which has fat, milk, and sugar perfectly blended into chocolate added the rich substance that the curry needed. Also, the Phantomhive company has the best chocolate made with a large dose of pure cocoa. To make the best curry, there isn't a more suitable ingredient." Sebastian explains thoroughly. "I noticed this when I cleaned up the Gateau Chocolate that the young master requested it yesterday. So, you helped me out there, young master." Sebastian informs with a sly smirk.
My brother did not look pleased one bit and I found it quite humorous.
"Amazing, Ciel! Your butler was able to make the God of curry in only one week!" Soma exclaims in astonishment.
I eat my curry happily; it immediately melts in my mouth. This might become my favorite dish...
"It's too bad, but you can't beat them with this," Ciel mentions in a serious tone. "'To replicate' is different from 'to win'. You will probably just be on par with the curry of God. Isn't that so, Sebastian?"
He bows slightly with an earnest smile, "Yes. As things are now it will be that way."
"That face tells me you have something planned eh, butler?" Lau jumps in with an interested look.
"Yes," Sebastian replies with a closed eye smile.
"It's no lie?" Ciel asks.
"Of course not. I don't ever tell lies." Sebastian smirks mischievously. "On my name as the butler for the Phantomhive family our company will definitely be the one to take home the royal warrant."
I smile, happy that we have an official plan. "I know you can do it, Sebastian!" I cheer on with a thumbs up.
He smiles and bows toward me next, "Thank you for the courage, my lady..."
