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The Saturday following Thanksgiving was weird. Blaine dropped Sebastian off at Dalton in the morning after he spent the night because he had a lacrosse practice to get to and Blaine needed to do some homework. As much as he wanted to stay in his perfect little bubble with Sebastian forever, he knew it wasn't possible and they needed to return to reality. He finally texted Kurt back that morning, still feeling guilty that he never responded the day before.

Hey, sorry for the delayed response. Lost track of time shopping yesterday. Did you get any cool Black Friday deals in NYC? -Blaine

He decided not to answer the question about how he spent his Thanksgiving. It felt weird responding to it so late, so he decided on ending with an open-ended question and hoped for the best.

The whole morning after sending the text was spent contemplating his future with Kurt and Sebastian. He felt stupid for feeling so conflicted and upset when he had two amazing guys in his life, but he still needed to figure out his own emotions and couldn't find a way to do it.

Winter break was coming up and everyone was so busy with schoolwork and finishing off the semester that Blaine barely heard from either Kurt or Sebastian, which he didn't mind. He continued meeting Sebastian most days for coffee, but they didn't hang out much besides that since they both had so much on their plates. There was almost no kissing involved and certainly no more blow jobs given they only saw each other in very public places where they ran the risk of being spotted by someone from McKinley or Dalton.

By the time Christmas arrived, Blaine desperately needed a break. He loved everything about Christmas time, from getting to see Cooper after so many months apart to decorating the house for the holidays to baking Christmas cookies. Sebastian texted him in the morning on the day before Christmas Eve, making Blaine's eyes light up with joy.

Merry almost Christmas ;) As you know, the Dalton break is notoriously long so I'm going to need something to fill my time. Got any ideas? -Sebastian

Blaine smiled at the text, happy they finally had time to spend together again. He was about to respond when he noticed another text come in, this time from Kurt.

Ice skating tomorrow? -Kurt

He thought about what he would say for a long time before finally settling on agreeing to meet Kurt. The love was still there, and he needed to know what thoughts Kurt had on the situation.

Definitely :) -Blaine

When he sent the text to Kurt, he knew he needed to think of a way to help Sebastian see he wasn't abandoning him for Kurt. The best way to do that was through doing the exact opposite. He decided he would spend as much time as possible with Sebastian over the break until he figured out exactly how he felt about him and ensured that Sebastian would never again doubt his commitment to their friendship.

Merry almost Christmas :) Let's do something the day after Christmas. What days are the Warblers' performing? I'd love to come to a show. -Blaine

One of his favorite parts of being a Warbler was the holiday concert series. He always loved performing, but there was nothing more magical than acapella Christmas carols with his brothers from Dalton. Sebastian eventually responded with dates of the performances and agreeing to make plans for the day after Christmas, leaving Blaine to decide what he would tell Sebastian and Kurt about his experiences with both of them.

His non-date with Kurt arrived quicker than he expected, and he found himself waiting for him at the skating rink for 15 minutes before he finally showed up. Seeing Kurt felt surreal. Blaine couldn't tell what it was, but something about Kurt looked different than the last time they spoke in person. They shared an awkward hug before exchanging any words and Blaine immediately started to question whether this was a good idea. "It's so good to see you," Kurt smiled as he pulled away from the hug. "Merry Christmas."

"Merry Christmas," Blaine grinned back, taking Kurt's hand as they moved toward the shack where they could rent skates. Blaine paid for both of their pairs of skates, feeling as if he still owed Kurt something but wasn't sure how to express it.

Kurt thanked him and promised to pay for hot chocolate after they were done. The actual skating was mediocre. They sang a beautiful rendition of "White Christmas" on the ice and Kurt seemed happy to be spending so much time with Blaine, which was still confusing given how they left things after Grease.

Luckily, Kurt felt the need to talk, too. Like they originally planned, they decided to get hot chocolate after skating which was exactly what Blaine needed in order to figure out what the hell was going on between the two of them. "I'm glad we got the chance to hang out while I'm home," Kurt said with a smile. "I thought it would be good for us to clear the air."

"Yeah, for sure. I've really missed talking to you," Blaine smiled back. Even if he didn't know how he felt romantically about Kurt anymore, he did know that he enjoyed his company and wanted to stay friends.

"I've missed a lot of things about you," Kurt agreed. His eyes shied away from Blaine's as he made it clear there was something else on his mind.

Blaine picked up on the little cues in Kurt's expression that indicated he had something he needed to talk about. "Yeah, me too," Blaine said, hoping it would help Kurt get whatever he needed to off his chest.

Kurt hesitated for a while. He took a deep breath before finally looking up to Blaine to let him know what he was thinking. "I've been thinking a lot about us. I know it took me a long time to forgive you, but I can tell you're sorry and that you know you made a mistake. Seeing you just solidified to me that I want you in my life and I think I'm willing to move past all of this if you are."

Blaine stared at Kurt in shock, unsure of how he should respond. He was still processing the idea of Kurt getting together with him at all; he was definitely not expecting him to suggest moving past all of the cheating and fighting from the beginning of the year. Just as Kurt confessed what he was feeling, Sebastian crossed Blaine's mind. He knew even hearing about this conversation would upset Sebastian and things were finally good between them. More than anything, Blaine didn't want to lose Sebastian, whether it was as a friend or something else. "Kurt, I… I don't know what to say." He didn't want to jeopardize his chance to win Kurt back, but he was telling the truth. He honestly didn't know what to say.

"You don't have to say anything. I know it's going to be hard and we'll have to take it slow with me in New York and you here, but I really would like to try this again. And since I'll be here for a few weeks before I have to go back to school, we have a little bit of time to rebuild our relationship." Kurt reached his hand across the table and rested it on top of Blaine's.

Blaine's eyes moved toward their hands and he couldn't help but turn his hand around to embrace Kurt's. It felt natural, just like old times. Even if this wasn't exactly what he wanted to be doing, Blaine felt like he had no choice. "I guess I'm a little bit confused," Blaine admitted. "You went so long without even talking to me and now… now this?"

Kurt took a breath before responding, clearly thrown off by Blaine's answer. "I just needed some time to sort it all out for myself. But I'm ready now."

Blaine was about to respond when he noticed the familiar colors of two Dalton blazers a few tables away from them. His eyes immediately darted toward the Dalton students, terrified that it would be Sebastian and he ruined everything. Instead, he saw Nick and Jeff who were trying their best to pretend they weren't looking at Kurt and Blaine, but they weren't doing a very good job. Jeff looked annoyed and Nick just looked confused. "Would you mind if we talk about this outside?" Blaine asked, a little worried to hear the other boy's reaction. Kurt's eyes followed Blaine's to the Warblers sitting nearby and then nodded.

They walked outside with their hot chocolates in hand and stopped when they were close to the street. Without any warning, Kurt took Blaine's arm and pulled him in for a kiss, taking him completely by surprise. Blaine felt as if he should kiss him back, like this was the natural progression of things and they were meant to kiss. But he couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. It didn't make any sense that Kurt would just forgive him out of nowhere and immediately go back to how things were before. He didn't know if he wanted to kiss him back, he just knew that he should, and that wasn't good enough for him.

"Wait, Kurt, I need to think about this. It feels like this just came out of nowhere," Blaine explained.

Kurt frowned and pulled away from him. "How could you think this came out of nowhere? We were together for almost two years. We called each other soulmates."

"I don't know…"

"Why didn't you want the Warblers to see us together?" Kurt interrupted.

Blaine thought it was obvious. Kurt never liked Blaine spending all of his time with the Warblers and he assumed Kurt would understand why they left. "I just don't want anything to get around before we're ready for it to. Dalton is full of gossip."

"So it has nothing to do with Sebastian?" Kurt asked, suspicion in his tone.

One of Blaine's eyebrows raised at the suggestion. He was a bit taken aback, but really, he shouldn't have been. Kurt always did this; he always made their problems about Sebastian. But Blaine didn't want to fight about this anymore. They'd been having this fight for a long time and it was exhausting. "Look, I don't know. This is really not what I was expecting today. This is what I've wanted for a really long time but…"

"But what?" Kurt shot back when Blaine paused for a moment.

Blaine shook his head, suddenly frowning at Kurt's rising anger. "Kurt, I would like to have a real conversation about all of this later, but I need some time and it seems like you do, too."

"I can't believe you're doing this after all this time. I thought you were actually sorry and that you wanted to fix things," Kurt was almost yelling as he stormed toward his car.

Blaine followed closely behind him, angry about Kurt's reaction. "I do want to fix things; can you not give me a day to think about how we can move on from this?"

"It doesn't seem like you want to move on anymore. It sounds like you're happy we broke up," Kurt yelled, starting to open the front door to his car.

Blaine frowned and shut the door before Kurt could get in the car. "No, I'm not, I just think we need to have a real conversation about why we broke up and what changes we need to make in our relationship before we get back together."

"We know why we broke up, Blaine. You cheated on me."

"Did you ever think that maybe I cheated on you for a reason?" Blaine asked, a little too harsh in tone, but he didn't care anymore; he needed to get his point across.

Kurt shook his head. "Of course, but I'm going to work on that, too. We both have things we need to work on."

Blaine rolled his eyes as he started to walk away. "I just need a few days to figure it out. Can we get together again soon? Maybe we can both come up with a list or something of things we need to sort out so that we're not just jumping back into all of this again."

Kurt thought about it for a while, clearly annoyed at the suggestion. "Fine. Text me when you know what you want." He got into his car and drove away shortly after, leaving Blaine standing in the parking lot by himself. He didn't like leaving things on such confusing terms, but Blaine knew he had a lot of thinking to do, most of which revolved around Sebastian.

Blaine returned to his house when he finally felt like he was capable of driving. He was shocked when he walked inside to find his brother baking cookies. "Coop, I didn't even know you were home." He grinned and embraced his brother in a hug. "You're baking?"

"Hey, little brother," Cooper said as he hugged Blaine back. "Yeah, Mom started a batch earlier, but she had a last-minute errand to run so I offered to take over. I've discovered I hate baking."

Blaine laughed as he started washing his hands. "Here, I can help you."

"Mom said you went skating with Kurt today," Cooper said as he took a rolling pin in hand and started rolling out the sugar cookie dough. "I thought you two broke up?"

Blaine let out a long sigh. He started to mix the ingredients for another batch while he tried to decide how much to tell his brother. "Yeah we did, but apparently he wants to get back together."

"I thought he wasn't even talking to you?"

That's when Blaine realized he hadn't spoken to Cooper over the phone in a few weeks, probably since before Thanksgiving. Cooper had a commercial shoot over Thanksgiving, so they didn't see each other that weekend and both of them had been so busy in the weeks leading up to Christmas that neither of them bothered to call. "He called on Thanksgiving and we've been texting on and off since then. Now he says he's ready to give me a second chance. But honestly it just feels like it came out of nowhere. I had pretty much given up on us getting back together and I was finally starting to have fun again, then out of the blue he called me."

Cooper raised an eyebrow as he stopped rolling the dough for a moment to look at Blaine. "Wait, so you were starting to move on, and then he started saying he wants you back?" Blaine just nodded in response. "Dude, it's the oldest trick in the book; you just didn't realize you were doing it. This is the reason why people jump into new relationships right after a breakup."

"Wait, what are you talking about?"

"He came back to you because he could tell you were moving on and didn't want to lose you," Cooper explained, resuming his dough rolling.

Blaine thought about what Cooper said and realized the timing made perfect sense. Kurt called him on Thanksgiving after everyone at McKinley started to find out about Blaine's rekindled friendship with Sebastian and the Warblers. Then Kurt saw all of the photos from Black Friday and even though he normally would be mad at Blaine about it, he didn't even mention it. "Well that's annoying," he said simply.

"Yeah, well sometimes people need a little push to realize they want you," Cooper shrugged.

Blaine knew he needed to think about this more, but he appreciated Cooper's analysis of the relationship. "Thanks, Coop. People don't give you enough credit."

"Yeah, I know, I'm kind of a relationship genius," Cooper agreed.

When they finished baking the cookies and sat down to relax and try some of them, Blaine decided to send a text to Sebastian to check in.

Merry Christmas Eve! Any family festivities to fill me in on? -Blaine

He knew the response wouldn't be positive since Sebastian clearly hated spending time with his family, for good reason. But he wanted some sort of contact and honestly missed having him around.

I hate Christmas. I'm ditching to go to a party with some of the guys tonight if you wanna come. -Sebastian

Blaine considered the offer for a long time. He wished he could spend the night out with the Warblers, but he knew he should at least spend Christmas Eve with his family. Cooper was going back to L.A. the day after Christmas and they didn't get to see each other often, so Blaine wanted to take this chance to bond with his brother.

I wish, but I should probably spend some time with Cooper while he's in town. -Blaine

He felt bad, but he knew he would have more time over winter break to hang out with the Warblers. Dalton was famous for its parties over break, so Blaine assumed he'd have many opportunities to spend time with them.

Cool. We're hanging out on Wednesday, right? -Sebastian

Wednesday was the day after Christmas and Blaine was thrilled that Sebastian remembered their plans. It felt weird to be so excited over hanging out with him, but he was used to spending everyday with Sebastian at the Lima Bean. It was strange not seeing him every day.

Yep, if we're not both dead by then ;) -Blaine

He knew Sebastian was going to have a rough couple of days and he wished there was something he could do to help, but he knew Sebastian was strong enough to get through it without him. He just hoped that they would be able to talk about it after Christmas was over.

All Blaine could think about during his family dinner on Christmas Eve was his relationship with Kurt and what Cooper had said. Maybe Kurt only wanted him back because he was moving on. The last thing Blaine wanted was another relationship where Kurt only kept him around because he felt like he had to. Everything felt confusing and he couldn't wait to think about anything else.

Luckily, Christmas was able to get Blaine's mind off of his complicated love life. Instead, his focus was on gifts from his family and an elaborate dinner at his aunt's house in Dublin. It wasn't until the family was sitting down for dinner that Sebastian crossed his mind once again. His name was flashing on Blaine's phone as it vibrated, but he didn't even notice until his eight-year-old cousin Lily brought it to his attention. "Blainey, someone is calling you."

Blaine glanced down at his phone and smiled when he noticed it was Sebastian. "I'll be right back." He had a few minutes before dinner would start so he decided he could sneak outside and take the call. "Hey, merry Christmas." He smiled into the phone, excited to hear Sebastian's voice on the other end of the call.

"I knew hearing your voice would make me feel better," Sebastian replied. His voice sounded broken, but Blaine could hear the honesty in his tone, like Blaine was actually helping him. "I didn't think you'd pick up." His words blended together a bit, like he had been drinking.

Blaine's eyes lit up at the compliment. It was so wholesome in comparison to Sebastian's usual flirtatious comments. Just hearing those words produced butterflies in his stomach. "I have a few minutes before dinner. What's wrong?"

"I don't need to talk about it. I just wanted a distraction," Sebastian said. It was becoming obvious that Sebastian was at least a little bit buzzed.

Blaine looked behind him at the front door to his aunt and uncle's house to make sure no one was watching or listening to him, then he leaned back against the siding as he quietly spoke into the phone. "What do you want to do tomorrow?"

"Is a repeat of Thanksgiving an option?" Sebastian asked in response.

Blaine smirked at the thought. His instincts took over as he blocked every thought of Kurt from his mind. He knew he should tell Sebastian about their conversation, but he didn't want Kurt to come between what they had anymore. "It's more than an option. In fact, I think it should be a holiday tradition." He knew he couldn't talk about it for long given the family dinner he was about to have. Even just the thought of Sebastian's lips coming anywhere near his body was enough to excite him for the next day.

Sebastian took a while to answer before finally agreeing. "I can come to Lima tomorrow. I'd really like to get away from my family."

"My parents are actually leaving on a vacation tomorrow, so I have to drive them to the airport in the morning but then I'll have the house to myself for a week," Blaine grinned. He couldn't wait to spend time alone with Sebastian again. This would be the first time they spent alone together since Black Friday and Blaine had been secretly fantasizing about it for weeks. He was trying not to let anything happen until he figured out what exactly Sebastian wanted from him, but he was so into him that he was willing to take what he could get.

"Perfect," Sebastian agreed. "I'll text you in the morning."

Blaine smiled, unable to contain his excitement about his day with Sebastian. "I should probably get back inside. Are you going to be okay tonight?"

"Yeah, I have my best friends Champagne and Courvoisier to keep me company," Sebastian said, his words slurred. Blaine pictured Sebastian raising a glass in the air at the comment.

Blaine grinned. He found Sebastian's drunken mumbling cute. "I'll talk to you tomorrow. Don't drink too much or you won't have nearly as much fun tomorrow."

"Don't worry, no matter how much I drink I'm going to have tons of fun tomorrow," Sebastian reassured him.

"Goodbye, Sebastian," Blaine smiled into the phone. He wished he could kiss him goodbye and he couldn't tell if it was genuine feelings or the holiday spirit getting to him.

"Even when you're hanging up on me, you're so sexy."

"Goodbye," Blaine laughed as he repeated himself.

"Bye," Sebastian replied. Blaine could practically hear him smirking as his drunken sarcasm carried through the phone.

Blaine hung up with a smile spreading across his face. He returned to the dining room a few minutes later and sat down next to Lily again. He wasn't necessarily in a bad mood before, but he was visibly much more joyful after his phone call with Sebastian. The entire family picked up on it and Cooper, who was sitting on the other side of Blaine, was the first to say anything about it. "Was that Kurt?"

"No," Blaine mumbled, trying to prevent anyone from overhearing. Everyone was having their own separate conversations at that point, but Blaine was still concerned his parents or other relatives would hear their conversation and start interrogating Blaine on his love life.

"Who's making you all smiley then?"

"Just someone." He couldn't contain his smile no matter how stupid it made him feel. He had no idea what came over him and why Sebastian was making him feel so giddy all of a sudden, especially since he still had to figure out his feelings for Kurt.

Cooper rolled his eyes and continued eating. "Fine, don't tell me."

As Blaine finished his meal and moved on to opening gifts with his family, thoughts of what the next day would bring consumed his mind. The butterflies in his stomach refused to let him fall asleep and his goodnight text from Sebastian only expanded his inability to close his eyes.

God night killer. Can' t wati to cee you ;) -Sebastian

Goodnight :) -Blaine

He smiled once again as he remembered how drunk Sebastian probably was. He wished they could be together that night, but he figured waiting a few hours wouldn't kill them. He finally closed his eyes and started to fall asleep, hoping he would dream of his day with Sebastian.