Chapter 4
A week went by and Olivia wasn't going to let them get away with hurting Amanda. She was still with Crime Scene and staying with Olivia, but she had been quiet and distant. "Cap, what do you think?" Olivia struggled with telling him, but she needed his help. "I've known Reynolds for a long time. He's a pissant and Patton, I never liked him." Cragen made some calls, he didn't mention Amanda, he didn't have to."
Olivia was sitting at her desk and Amanda walked up to her, she looked pissed, "What did you do?" Olivia stood up calmly, "Let's talk in the crib." They walked out without anyone knowing. Olivia shut the door, "Amanda, what's wrong?" Amanda scoffed, "Like you don't know." Truth was Olivia didn't know, "I don't." Amanda explained Reynolds and Patton were both picked up and facing serious charges. Other female officers and detectives came forward. It was a big mess in the APD. Olivia sat on the bed, "I told Cragen because I knew he could help. I'm not sorry, because they deserve what they get. I guess I betrayed you too." Amanda sat next to her, "I know why you did it. I guess I told you because I wanted your help. Thanks."
Olivia asked, "Do you want to go after your mom?" Amanda shook her head, "No, I don't want to ever see her again. Kim needs her, but I don't." Olivia sighed, "I want you to talk to someone. She's really good and I think she can help you work through your feeli…" Amanda pushed up, "A fucking shrink! No, absolutely not!" Olivia moved closer, "Hey, it's ok. You don't have to. You said you would never get over it. Your words not mine. We can forget it."
Amanda wiped her tears, "Will you come with me?" Olivia nodded, "I will if you want." Olivia pulled up at the office and they walked in. Amanda saw "Dr. Rebecca Hendrix" on the door. They walked in and saw a waiting room. Olivia spoke to the secretary and Amanda sat down and looked around nervously. When the door opened, Amanda saw a young blonde walk out and smile. She hugged Olivia and introduced herself to Amanda, "I'm Rebecca, nice to meet you." She told Amanda to come back and Olivia sat down. Amanda turned, "You're not coming?" Olivia stood up, "I will if you want, but sometimes it works better if you do it yourself. You can always ask me to come back."
Amanda sat down and looked around. Rebecca started asking questions about her family. Amanda snapped, "I was raped ok. That's what you need to hear right? Not all this who is my mommy and daddy crap." Rebecca wasn't shocked, she heard a lot in her job. "I have to know you to help you. I'm sorry you were raped, but I'm sure that's not the root." Amanda frowned and wondered how she could know, "You seem young. How do you know all this?" Rebecca smiled, "I've been doing this a while and truth, I had to work through my own demons to help others."
Amanda sighed and started answering her questions. They talked for an hour and Rebecca thought they should stop and make a weekly appointment. "Amanda, is Olivia a source of help for you?" Amanda shrugged, "I think so, but I don't know. You can ask her. I don't mind." She asked Olivia to come in and Olivia was very receptive, "We have become fast friends. I'm here for whatever she needs."
A month went by and Amanda continued to see Hendrix and was working on her personal life. She saw her once a week and after those days she often spent it frustrated with Olivia. She gave up her hotel room and stayed with Olivia and they worked on their friendship. She took all of Amanda's crap, she knew she was working through things. They hadn't kissed or done anything. Olivia and Amanda worked together quite a bit. Amanda usually ended up going with her if she was called on cases. Olivia handled victims and Amanda handled the scene evidence.
Friday after work Olivia walked out from the shower and saw Amanda sitting in her bed. That was normal, they spent time hanging out. Sometimes Amanda fell asleep in her bed, but never on purpose. Olivia loved watching her sleep. She thought she was so cute. It was the only time Amanda seemed at peace. Olivia plopped down, "What are we watching tonight?" Amanda kissed her and her upper body was hugging Olivia's. Olivia didn't push her away. One she liked it, a lot. Two, she didn't want to make Amanda react. After Amanda stopped, Olivia asked, "What's that about?"
Amanda smiled, "I like you a lot and you put up with all of my shit." Amanda bite her lip, "And I'm horny." Olivia smiled and took off her shirt. Amanda's eyes went wide seeing Olivia's full tan breasts. "Ohhh that face! You don't like what you see?" Amanda looked at her chest, "Liv, don't expect the same thing. I'm kinda small in that department." Olivia kissed her cheek, "You're perfect. Stop downing yourself." Amanda smiled and took off her shirt.
Olivia smiled at her breasts. Her skin was pale and her nipples were pink and rosey. She laid her back, kissed her neck, licked down the middle of her chest, and then sucked on each nipple. "Ahhhhh!" Olivia kissed her lips, "Sensitive? Is your period coming? We can wait." Amanda's mind went blank. She hadn't had her period and she had stopped taking her pill because she wasn't having sex. So she should have had one. Her mind raced. She hadn't had sex since Nate. "Fuck!" Olivia smiled, "I haven't even done anything yet. Do you want to wait?"
Olivia watched her eyes. She thought something was going on in her mind. Amanda blinked those baby blues, "No." Olivia moved her hand down Amanda's flat stomach, circled her bellybutton, and moved her fingers to split her lower lips. Amanda moaned as Olivia massaged gently. "Mmmmm Liv, your fingers." Olivia had long thin fingers and they reached all the right places. Amanda's back arched off of the bed as Olivia inserted one finger then two. "Mmmm Liv!"
Olivia's brown eyes locked with Amanda's blue eyes. Olivia pushed her fingers in and pulled them out as Amanda rocked with her. Olivia kissed her lips as she used her thumb to circle her clit. Amanda's moans became louder and she cried out as Olivia pushed and pulled harder and faster. "Fuck! Liv, I'm going to cum!" Olivia smiled, "Isn't that what you wanted. Cum for me!" Amanda clenched on Olivia's fingers and wouldn't let go, she sat on her knees and rubbed her clit hard with her other hand. "Fuck!" Olivia's fingers were locked inside her as Amanda's whole body shook uncontrollably.
Amanda breathed so hard that her stomach muscles were flexing. Olivia kissed her, "Are you going to let my fingers go?" Amanda seemed tired and weak, "Liv, what about you?" Olivia shrugged, "Soon. Just rest." Olivia gently pulled out and cradled her while she fell asleep. Amanda woke up an hour later, "What did you do to my body?" Olivia smiled, "What I like. I guess we like similar things."
Amanda was scared to say it, "Liv?" Olivia kissed her, "Yeah." Amanda sighed, "I might be pregnant." They sat in bed and Amanda told her about Nate, the gambling club, her stomach bug that may have messed up her pill routine. "Are you mad?" Olivia kissed her, "No, why would I be?" Amanda shrugged, "I always mess up. New York was supposed to be a new start." Olivia held her, "What if you are? Would it be that bad? I wanted kids, but it hasn't been possible. I never found the right guy and I put the job first. We aren't a couple so I can't be mad. You didn't cheat on me or anything."
Amanda frowned, "Can we be together or is this a deal breaker." Olivia looked at her thinking about what they did. They were friends and this was big. "Amanda, a relationship is way different then fucking." Amanda smiled, "I know Liv. I love you." Olivia was shocked, "Really?" Amanda held her heart, "Ohhhh!" Olivia laughed, "Hey, I love you too, we're friends." Amanda frowned, "Friends huh?" Olivia tilted her chin, "Friends are the best lovers."
Olivia went with her to the appointment. Amanda sat on the table nervous. Olivia sighed, "Amanda everything is going to be ok. You know that right?" Amanda shrugged, "He was a one night stand. What if he wants to be in the baby's life?" Olivia smiled, "I don't think that would be a bad thing. I didn't have a dad and if he steps up after just a one night stand, maybe he's a decent guy."
The door opened and a tall blonde woman walked in, "Hi! I'm Dr. Franchella." She flipped through her chart, "So Amanda you are pregnant, the tests show that. Who's with you today?" Amanda didn't know what to call Olivia and she went silent. Olivia extended her hand, "I'm Olivia Benson and I'm her girlfriend." Dr. Franchella smiled, "Nice to meet you both." She washed her hands while explaining her exam. "So, was this planned with a donor or…"
Olivia did the talking, "Actually it wasn't, we were friends first and this kind of happened along the way, but we couldn't be happier." Amanda found her voice, "Absolutely!" Dr. Franchella put on gloves and moved her machine close to the table, "Ok cold gel ok." They both saw the machine light up and then they heard "Bump bump bump bump." They smiled, but Dr. Franchella didn't. Amanda asked, "What's wrong?" She looked at them both, "You're further along than I thought. So I'm going to be the bad guy and tell you, you need to eat a lot more." Amanda frowned. Olivia looked at the monitor, "Is that two?" Dr. Franchella laughed, "That's the other thing I was going to tell you. You're having twins. They're fraternal, see two sacs."
