Oneshot based off Katy Perry's Wide away. Starts from season 13 through present time. Italics are lyrics. anything from script does not belong to me. All belongs to NBC snd Dick Wolf.

Yeah, I was in the dark

I was falling hard

With an Open heart (I'm wide awake)

How did I read the stars so wrong?

(I'm wide awake)

And now it's clear to me

That everything you see

Ain't always what it seems (I'm wide awake)

Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

She wasn't the same after he left. It wasn't real to her. Elliot would never leave without saying something, that was him. But it was now. That's who Elliot Stabler became and made Olivia Benson into a different woman.

I wish what I knew then, what I know now

Wouldn't dive in, wouldn't bow down

Gravity Hurts, you made it so sweet

'Till I woke up on, on the concrete

Who knew she would somehow become captain 12 years after he left? Who knew her family would grow after 12 years of him leaving? Who knew she would have a son who means more than anything. Her squad was her family. She's grown because of him and the trauma she suffered.

I'm wide awake

Not losing any sleep

I picked up every piece

And landed on my feet (I'm wide awake)

Need nothing to compete with myself (I'm wide awake)

"Elliot's probably afraid to talk to you, Liv. He doesn't want you to try and talk him out of it... he shot a teenage girl. He may not never want to put a gun a gun on again."-Fin Tutuola

That wasn't the case fo Elliot. He couldn't stand to think if he heard her voice, he could leave her and the job behind. The move to Rome was the best thing for his relationship with Kathy and his kids. They grew as a stronger family and grew close and there was nothing in the way to come between them. But that didn't help he though of her everyday.

As for Olivia, William Lewis brought out this new side of Olivia. He broke her in more ways she wasn't already broken. There was nothing else that was going to break her. She would always get back on her feet, with help from her squad, her family or help from herself. She was Olivia Benson.

Yeah, I am born again

Out of the lion's den

I don't have to pretend (And it's too late)

The story's over now, the end

Everyone saw who she turned into. Elliot Stabler had changed her. William Lewis had broke her and changed her. Her sweet son, Noah Porter-Benson had changed her life for the better. Olivia Benson's life changed everything someone form the squad left. It almost felt like a cycle of changes made her pretend she was okay. She was a strong Woman. But she was done pretending for her squad, herself. She could not be okay and it wouldn't change who she was. She would always be a strong brave woman.

Elliot had been born again and transformed into this man, this man nobody knew. But one thing didn't change, his love for Oliva. He would always be protective of her even if he wouldn't be there near her, he would fight her battles with her somehow.

Falling from cloud nine (It was out of the blue, I'm)

Crashing from the high

I'm letting go tonight(Yeah, I'm letting you go, I'm)

I'm falling from cloud nine (I'm wide awake)

She could've gave up at any given time. She was bound to give up when Elliot left and shattered her world. She wanted to give when William Lewis broke her. She could've gave up when Mike Dodds died when she left him in there, without checking if there was weapons. She could;ve gave up when Nick, Barba, Stone, Chief Dodds, Kat, Garland, even when Carisi joined the ADA office. But she was wide awake. Oliva had Noah to live for. She had her squad who would always have her back.

Thunder Rumbling

Castles Crumbling (I'm wide awake)

I am trying to hold on (I'm wide awake)

God knows that I tried

Seeing the bright side (I'm wide awake)

I'm not blind anymore

I'm wide awake

The world came crumbling down in a matter of seconds for Olivia Benson. Elliot left her after 12 years. Williams Lewis broke her in a million pieces. The townhouse incidents broke her. Mike Dodds dying felt like someone was stabbing her in the back and getting revenge. Soon, she would see Kathy Stabler in an ambulance, on her way to the hospital. Elliot Stabler would be standing right before her. She would explain to her squad they would be investigating her old partner's wife car bombing. She's upset Fin told Elliot about the award ceremony and was in contact with him. Why would she want to talk about the 10 years he left her when in his wife is in the hospital?

"I just felt that so much time has passed that I couldn't reach out to you both." Elliot told Fin.

Elliot was supposed to call Liv. To let her know he was coming to New York for her.

"Liv moved on. It took her a minute but she moved on. She has a son now. She's had a couple of relationships. One was pretty solid." Elliot wouldn't know about her relationships until who knows when because his wife is dying. He wouldn't meet her son or get to know her son because there's no time to talk when his wife has died. All he has is his kids left and Olivia. Elliot stabler's world came crumbling down in a matter of seconds just like it did to Olivia Benson's world.

I'm wide awake.


I hope this oneshot made sense. Thanks for reading.