last kiss- taylor swift

"I never imagined we'd end like this, your name, forever the name on my lips

so I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
and I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
and I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are, hope it's nice where you are"

Monday, 21st december 2018

Serena and Lily doing their normal monday-trip and currently sit at a small, sweet cafe. But it wasn't really a normal one, it was the monday before christmas. As every year, Lily searches for a specific topic in her magazine on this monday cause she wants to find out where Rufus Humphrey (now known as THE Humphrey, a famous, handsome, shiny star of the US) is going to spend his holidays. It was the press' tradition to write about that.

"Mom, do you want me to spoiler you? He's already told Dan. He's coming home for christmas this year.." Serena said, taking the magazine away from her mothers hands.

"What?! He hasn't been in NY since, ugh let me lie.., 4 years? Why is that? Why is he coming? Is there a sudden interest in him for his grandchildren? Noo I don't think so, he is Rufus Humphrey, there must be a business orientated reason for his visit." Lily said, way too angry. The anger caused by the nervousity she receives when she just thinks about meeting Rufus after all these years again.

"Mom don't be so dramatic! He loves his family, more than his arts stuff! Believe it or not, he's going to celebrate christmas with us."

"I thought we're celebrating at the penthouse? I've already prepared everything.. well I guess that's not going to happen now. Let me guess, he has invited you, Dan, your kids, your friends like Blair and Chuck, Jenny, and Eric to his new mansion, but specifically not me.. please don't tell me he has invited Eric, I don't wanna spend christmas ALL on my own, I atleast want to have my son." Lily turned from anger to mourning.

"Of course not, mom! He has a heart! He invited me and my family and mentioned ESPECIALLY you. I thought you two were friends? Please act like that. I and Dan spoke a lot with him, he said that you can bring your boyfriend.. does he still think that you're with Dad, I mean, William?"

"Serena I haven't been in contact with Rufus since many years, so yes, he doesn't know and he's not going to find out this christmas. I won't come. Seeing him would be excruciating, I couldn't handle that. I mean, we're friends but I feel like he hates me.. If we were friends, he could have invited me by himself, right? But he asked you to do it, and that makes me unsure.."

"Ugh please mom, stop making things so complicated, he asked a lot about you. He didn't want to ask YOU cause he was scared of your reaction. He seems to think that you hate him.. you know what? I am going to leave now, and you're going to meet up with Rufus so you two can be friends again. You can't even say no cause he's already on his way, I've told him to come here." Serena left a smile for her mother, who was in total shock and pain, and hugged her.

"What did you just- oh god I need some alcohol." Lily sighed, thinking about what the hell her daughter just had done.

"No no no mom, you're staying right here and talk with Rufus. I'm sure that wil help you with this inner conflict crisis situation you're in right now. Bye!" Serena waved at her mother, and as she left the cafe, Rufus came in, looking like a whole new person, and with a bright smile on his lips.

"Oh, Hey Lil! I think I'm about to cry, it's been such a long time! I missed you oh god!" Rufus came to her table and hugged her, as friendly as he is. Lily didn't hug him back, she was still in shock and definitely not in the position to talk with him at the moment. He saw the opened magazine site laying on the table and was grinning about the fact that she has read about him.

"How you doin'? You don't look any different Lil, aged like fine wine hm?" Lily couldn't answer. She was so shocked seeing Rufus after 4 years, or so. She couldn't believe her eyes, he looked even more handsome now, he probably had went to the gym a lot and improved his clothing style. "Lil, are you okey? You keep staring into my eyes, honestly that makes me kind of nervous.. you look pretty dehydrated, can I get you anything? Lily, do you even listen?" Rufus looked hella worried about her right now. Her face was extremely pale so he decided to take her hand into his, she flinched and immediately put her hand away from his.

"Oh god, Rufus... I am completely fine, I just- ugh I just didn't except you.. here, I mean, I didn't except to see you, ever again. I'm sorry Rufus but I need to leave, I really can't cope with your appereance at the moment." Lily took her purse and almost ran out of the cafe. Her mind was exploding. Did she just see Rufus Humphrey, her ex-husband, her ex-lover, the love of her live again? Was that even real? Did he really worry about her and took her hand? She tought he hated her. She was mentally exhausted and all she wanted was to be home alone.