want u back- cher lloyd

"you got me, got me like this, uh, boy you can say anything you wanna
I don't give a shh, no one else can have ya
I want you back, I want you back, wa-want you, want you back"

Tuesday, 22nd december 2018

At the penthouse, 10:56AM

Lily eats breakfast right now, she didn't sleep well but pretty long, which was very unusual. She couldn't even eat a bit anymore. She felt so exhausted, sad and tired and the scenario from yesterday was playing up and down in her head since the whole night. She couldn't handle the stress that was caused by that "meeting" so she decided to call her daughter even though she was incredibly mad at her.

"Hey mom! I'm glad your calling. Rufus is worrying about you and already called like 7 times and asked for you. What happened yesterday? I'm sorry if it went wrong. I shouldn't have done that.."

"Oh Serena, darling.. I think nothing went "wrong" cause nothing even happened. He just started talking to me but.. I couldn't really answer because I was like, traumatized, but mostly frightened and horrified. I just didn't except that, I mean, him to come back. I thought I'd never have to see him again. Serena, that man was or even is the love of my life I believe, we even were married.. but then everything fell apart and I never tried again. I regret that, sort of. I definitely should have tried the past years, but I was, no, I am afraid. Cause this man can break my heart in the shortest amount of time and I would never get healed from that again. So I just wanted to ignore him till the end of my life so he wouldn't have the chance to break that little heart again. The heart, that infact, just beats for him."

"But I'm over that. I'm over him. I worked on that the last 6 years. Atleast I thought that until yesterday, cause yesterday.., yesterday ruined all the work I've put into coming over Rufus. He still has my heart and now I realized I'll never get it back. Honey, honestly, I have no idea what to do. Ignoring him would leave me sad till death, and I don't want that." Lily sobs and starts to cry after she told her daughter about her true feelings.

"God mom.. I- I am speachless. I think no one in the whole family excepted you to still love him.. you could have told me! I could have helped you! No I'm sorry for saying that right now, I just don't know how to react.. You know what? I'm just 1 block away from the penthouse, I'll visit you now, cause I'm not going to leave my heartbroken mother alone crying. Don't cry, I love you so so much mom, wait a minute I'll be there ASAP!"

"Serena darling you don't need to-" Serena already had hung up. Lily was.. amazed of her daughters actions at the time. But she needed her and she needed her words and help.

At the penthouse, 11:47AM

Serena hugged her mother as Lily just told her everything that was going on in her mind.

"I love you mom, everything's going to be just fine, you'll see. Now let's go gift-shopping! I'm sure there's atleast 1 more gift you need to get!" Serena winks at her mom, who noticed that she was of course talking about a present for Rufus. Lily decided to come to the family dinner at Rufus' new mansion, because she was invited, so why shouldn't she come? Serena made her realize that she should put some effort in becoming closer with Rufus again, so Lily will do that.

At the mall, 1:23PM

"Soo mom, do you have any idea on what to get for Rufus? You know him for a looong time so there must be an idea in your head, right?" Serena glances at Lily

"Of course I got an idea! I've always got.. I know that Rufus is "rich" now, but I'd prefer to call it wealthy. Therefore, expensive things would not make him happy either. That's why my idea is to give him old photos I've made back when we were young, some that he's never seen before. And those I'll put in an album, which together with a letter and an old bracelet I have from him, will be in a nice, sober present box. What do you think of that? Is it too cheesy? I thought these days in our 20's were the thing that holds us together and brings us together, always." Lily looks at her daughter expectantly.

"Mom, that sounds great! Absolutely! I'm sure he's gonna love it, very much. I am so excited for christmas!"

"Me too honey! Do you think we should get some late lunch? I'm soo hungry! We can go to the restaurant over there, I remember being there with you and Eric when you two were such small kids... well, enough nostalgia for now!" Lily falls into a sweet laugh and takes Serena over to the restaurant.

In the restaurant, 1:48PM

"How's your food, Serena? I have to admit, mine's very delicious!" Lily giggles.

"Well, lemme try something than, Lil!" A male voice interrupted their conversation. Lily turned around, but even before that, she immediately knew it was Rufus, by his voice, but also by the fact that he used her nickname.

"Rufus!" Serena glanced up to her father-in-law and stood up to hug him. "It's nice to see you here! Mom and I are having lunch right now, but honestly, I need to leave. You can take my seat and my food Rufus, it's very good! I'll see you at home Mom, bye Rufus!" Serena left the two alone, again. But Lily knew it was gonna go different this time. She missed him a lot and wanted to know all the inside-facts about his new life, just the inside ones cause overall, she has already read every magazine article about him. To Rufus' amazement, Lily also stood up, but to hug him. She hugged him very tight, wrapping both of her arms around his neck while a tear dropped from her face, down to his shoulder.

"I missed you Rufus. So much. Thanks for inviting me to your christmas eve dinner, I'll come, for sure. Also, sorry for yesterday, I was not being myself, as you noticed I was dehydrated and had lack of sleep the night before." She glanced into his green eyes, and hers started sparkling. "Oh god, I missed you so damn much." She repeated, with the need to hug him one more time. As they both sat down, they ate the leftovers and then started talking. A lot of talking honestly, about his life recently and in the past years, but also about hers and about how both of their relationships failed. There were many things that made them both laugh out loudly while holding eyecontact for the whole time.

Rufus, again, took her hand and layed it in his, Lily still flinched but this time, she squeezed his hand a little, so that he knew how much he appreciated him at the moment.

"I also missed you very much, Lil. I'm excited for christmas eve and for all of the other days, on which I'm going to see your beautiful face. Sadly, I need to go, as I already mentioned before, I'm doing hard business things now!" Rufus said that so sarcastically, that even himself had to laugh about how weird that sounded coming out of his mouth. "Gonna miss you, have a beautiful 23rd Lil." Rufus added, kissed her hand on the back, paid for the food and left the restaurant.

Lily was so in love with this man, after all this time, she was still into him, like a teenager. But Rufus seemed so too. They both didn't want to go as fast this time. They actually wanted to enjoy the time they could spend, before doing things like, marry. That was their last chance.