Author's Note: You guys are the sweetest! I really appreciate all of the reviews on this one. It might be my favorite of the three series I have going right now. The Gift and The Center of His Universe will both be wrapping up in the next couple of weeks.
I'm going to keep this series pretty lighthearted. This chapter is a bit longer than most but there's a lot I wanted to have take place in one evening. I debated splitting it into two but thought a longer chapter might be a fun treat.
My intention was to keep the whole story EPOV, but I had written 4600 words of this one in BPOV before I realized I changed the POV and really wanted to keep it.
So here we go! Enjoy!
BPOV
It sucked to get out of the nice little bubble that Edward and I had been in to return to school, but thankfully it was Friday and Charlie was willing to let me spend the weekend with 'Alice.' I was grateful for my dad and how he accepted the Cullens back so easily, even after his initial anger at how they left and my short disappearance. I made a grocery list to pick up some extra snacks for him to take on his fishing trip as my way of thanks after school.
Edward wasn't able to join all of my classes when Carlisle re-enrolled him in school, but the ones I didn't have with him, I had with either Alice or Rosalie, who was being a lot kinder to me after the events in Volterra. Alice had managed to get herself added to my homeroom class.
"Well, tell me all about it!" she whispered excitedly.
"It?" I asked, trying to feign ignorance but smiling happily at even the reminder of 'it.'
"You know!" Alice exclaimed, rolling her eyes at me.
"I know?"
"Bella, stop being difficult. Edward hasn't stopped smiling since the night we came home."
"Me neither."
"Is it everything you had hoped for?"
"Way more." I said honestly, remembering just how amazing it felt to finally be connected with Edward in every way physically possible. I couldn't stop smiling either.
"How did you talk him into it?"
"It wasn't as difficult as I expected. Being apart changed us a lot. I told him to stop being scared around me and to be himself and just act like a normal boyfriend would. I also may have told him that it wasn't the 1910s anymore." I blushed. Alice giggled. "You didn't see me talking to him?"
"No. I got a few glimpses of the aftermath though."
I hid my face between my arms on the desk, embarrassed. It was hard to tell what exactly she had seen, but definitely something embarrassing without a doubt.
"Oh, please. I have seen all of my siblings in a vision and even Carlisle and Esme a few times. It's nothing to be embarrassed about. I try to not look. You really think I want to see that much of any of my brothers?"
"I should hope you want to see that much of Jasper at least." I said and she giggled again. The teacher gave us a funny look but didn't bother us. We tried to be quieter.
"Well, I don't exactly consider my husband a brother."
"I mean, legally…"
"You hush! We're talking about you. We're going lingerie shopping this weekend."
"You can't be serious about dragging me shopping."
"Well, you're a terrible liar. We need to at least buy you a few things so your dad isn't suspicious and so you can honestly tell him we went shopping."
"Then I guess we need more than just lingerie? Because I am not showing my dad lingerie."
"Yeah, yeah we'll get you a few sweaters too. But there are so many options and so little time! We need bras, thongs, garters…." She started listing off lingerie items, several of which I had never even heard of before.
"Alice! Earth to Alice!" I tried to pull her out of her imagination. "I will happily let you buy me some new bras and panties, and maybe a nightgown or two. But that's it. OK?"
"You're a willing participant?!"
"Yeah, guess I am. Maybe just this once." She squealed.
The rest of the morning passed slowly. Alice spent our shared classes debating which stores to take me to and which exact shades of blue and red would look best against my skin. Rosalie was cordial, but not overly friendly. She did save my butt when the teacher called on me mid-daydream by sliding her perfect notes over to me silently to help me answer a question he had asked. I smiled at her in thanks when the teacher wasn't looking anymore, and she even returned my smile a little. A real first.
Lunch was spent holding hands with Edward under the table while listening to Alice and Rosalie debate something about fabric types and occasions. I wasn't really listening. All of my focus was on my mate. He made a rather interesting face that I intended to ask him about as soon as we were alone in response to me eating some chocolate cake.
"You two are fun to be around." Jasper said, interrupting the fashion talk.
"How?" I asked, immediately regretting asking as I realized what he meant.
Edward let out a quiet laugh and looked down at the table, suddenly finding the woodgrain interesting. His face was absolutely adorable. He would definitely be blushing if it were possible.
"I haven't felt horny this often since I was a newlywed in the 1940s. I can read both of your thoughts, Edward's in particular, without even needing the words. Hell, you two combined are worse than Emmett."
I blushed, but it was Edward I couldn't take my eyes off of. He was making a series of hilarious faces, switching from amusement, to embarrassment, to pride almost. When he looked at me, there was the face of suppressed laughter and an unhidden desire. His eyes were still gold, but dark, with black around the edges.
I smiled at Jasper and Emmett, who were laughing. "I guess you'll have to try harder to make Jasper horny, Emmett." I managed to say with a straight face.
Even Rosalie giggled as Emmett clapped me on the back and the rest of our table lost it laughing. The noise of our laughter definitely got the humans looking at us. Oops.
Sitting beside Edward in Biology was interesting. We couldn't resist touching each other, even if only to hold hands, but Mr. Banner fussed at Edward for not taking notes, which he promptly started doing with his left hand. His usual cursive was slightly sloppy, but still entirely too perfect. I made a mental note to ask him what all he did with both hands besides writing. I had discovered a new source of happiness in my life – the face that Edward made when he was embarrassed. It made me a great new alliance with his brothers.
School finally ended and Edward rode with me in my truck. We stopped at the grocery store to get some things for Charlie's weekend trip and the night's dinner.
"You know, most teenage boys make the opposite of the face you're making when helping pick out a steak."
"They smell so awful!"
"Well, most people can't smell them while they're still inside the package."
"Then please don't consider me most people. Gross!"
I laughed and picked a good-sized steak to pair with baked potatoes for Charlie's dinner. Grocery shopping with Edward was another new experience that I was happy to have. He was trying to be as normal as possible for me, even if the situation made him slightly uncomfortable. It really went a long way towards convincing me that he was going to stay.
Apparently, he had never bothered to go grocery shopping with Esme or Carlisle. His face as I turned the cart down the cereal aisle made me stop and laugh for nearly a solid minute. "What's the matter now?"
"Why are there so many varieties?! It's all just sugar anyhow, isn't it?" He was so incredulous that all I could do was laugh as I picked up a box of Honey Nut Cheerios and moved along to the next aisle, leaving him and his stunned face behind for a second or two before he caught up at a fast human pace.
"This is fun. I'm going to have to bring you grocery shopping more often." I said with a laugh as I grabbed the last few items on my list and headed to checkout.
"You know I will follow you anywhere, love. But this is…." He shook his head, baffled. I couldn't stop giggling. Thankfully, giggling was a normal thing for teenagers to do, especially couples, so no one looked at us funny while we checked out and loaded the groceries in the truck.
I started the engine. "So, let me get this straight. You're totally cool to kill and drink a mountain lion or a bear with your bare hands, but you're baffled by cereal." I was laughing so hard. His crooked grin made my heart pound in my chest. I was filled with happiness.
"I suppose I am."
"I love you."
"As I love you."
"You're so much more relaxed around me now. I don't constantly feel like you're looking for an excuse to run off or take a bullet for me or something."
"Because I'm not. I took your request seriously. I'm just being myself."
"I'm so happy."
"Me too. Do you think Charlie would be alright with me spending a few hours with you before you leave, or should I slip out of your truck before he sees me?"
"Come with me. I'll tell him you volunteered to help me bake some treats for him."
"Did I now? And what do I get in return for handling disgusting human food?"
There was a simple answer to that query. "Me."
He laughed and smiled at me. My heart was full. "Everything I've ever wanted."
The rest of the drive to the house was spent in a happy quiet.
"Alright kids, what do you want? You're trying to butter me up for something." Charlie asked, walking into the kitchen, and taking a big whiff of the homemade granola bars I had in the oven.
"No, dad. I have everything I want. It's a thank you."
"For what, exactly?" He was suspicious but smiling gently. He was really trying.
"Not being so harsh on Edward. I love him." I was suddenly overwhelmed with emotion as tears rose to my eyes. I blinked and pretended the no bake cookie mixture on the stove needed stirring, turning around to tend to it.
Not thirty seconds passed before Edward had his arms wrapped around me from behind. "He rolled his eyes, winked at me and walked off. We're alone now." he whispered, brushing my hair off of my neck to kiss it. "He walked off thinking something about how weird teenagers are. But he's glad to see you happy."
"We don't really deal with emotions much."
"I can tell. Are you alright?"
"I'm fine. They were happy tears. I'm just overwhelmed."
"With what?"
"With how much I love you. And how much I missed you."
"That's how I feel every second of every day." he whispered in my ear, kissing my cheek. "And something else too."
"Something else?" He still had his arms around me, and he shifted slightly, pressing his erection against my butt.
"Always?"
"Just when I'm in your presence."
My cheeks flushed and I turned off the stove, reaching into a cabinet above it for some wax paper for the cookies. This caused my butt to rub against his erection a little and a quiet growl escaped as he let go of me and took a few steps back.
"What, you afraid I'm going to get cookies on you?"
"Something like that." he said, sitting down at the table and making his embarrassed face again. I laughed and started spooning cookies onto the paper. It was clear that he was trying to behave for my father's sake.
Charlie came back in the room a few minutes later, right at the precise moment I decided to fling some flour at Edward from a few inches away, loving that I was the only person that could catch him off guard since he couldn't read my mind. His arm and half of his shirt were coated in white powder and my dad and I cracked up laughing loudly at his shocked expression.
"Didn't I tell you kids to stay out of the cocaine?" Charlie asked, which caused me to laugh even harder and Edward to chuckle. Edward stood up grinning devilishly and backed me against the stove, shaking his shirt out all over me and covering me in flour.
"Not fair."
"Why not? You started it." His grin was making me all kinds of happy and excited. I almost forgot where I was, but he stepped away, laughing. "Your granola bars are about to start burning."
"Crap!" I shouted, turning around to grab a potholder and pull them out of the oven. Edward and Charlie were both laughing at my embarrassment. I was actually alright with it, seeing that they were getting along alright.
The granola bars were safe, and I sat them on the counter and started working on steak and potatoes for dinner. Edward struck up small talk with Charlie about sports and my dad actually seemed to like him alright for a while.
Edward stood up just before dinner was ready and kissed me on the head. "I have to get home, love. I promised Esme that I would help her some in the garden before it gets dark."
"You sure you don't want to stay for dinner?" I suppressed a giggle remembering his face in the grocery store earlier.
"I don't want to disappoint Esme. I'll see you this weekend if Alice will let me."
"It sounded like she was talking about buying half of the mall in Seattle earlier. She may not let you." She certainly had talked about it all day.
"She's probably planning on it." He said with a laugh. "I love you. Call me if you need anything."
"I love you too. I will." I knew I would be seeing him as soon as Charlie was asleep, so I didn't panic, but finished dinner and set our plates on the table.
My dad was in a good mood, as he usually was when food was involved. We talked about school, some of the tickets he had issued at work and how delicious dinner was. Steak was always a good idea with him. "You look so much better, Bella. I'm glad they're back."
"Me too, dad. I really missed them all."
"Please don't take this the wrong way, but are you sure you trust him after he hurt you like that? I'm not even sure what that was, to be honest, while he was gone. I was scared to death about you."
"I know dad, I'm sorry." I owed my dad so much more of an explanation. "We don't really talk about things like this much, but I'd like for you to understand what he means to me. I'm going to try to explain. But it may not make any sense."
"Go on."
"Before I met Edward, I was content with my life. Obviously, I love you and mom very much. There were things that made me happy, like a sunny day or a good book, but overall things were pretty simple.
When I saw him, at first, I was just fascinated and attracted to him. I thought it was just because he was so handsome. I didn't approach him first and tried to act normal around him because I had never really been interested in guys before. It was overwhelming, and it hit me so suddenly. It was hard to stop thinking about him from the second I saw him.
As I got to know Edward, he slowly took my average, but happy, life and made it something amazing. He challenges me so much. He gets me to try new things and meet new people. He encourages me and makes me a better, more complete version of me that I didn't have the courage or knowledge to be on my own, all without trying to change a single thing about me. OK, maybe one thing-" I smiled, trying to lighten the serious topic a little. "He calls my truck an ancient turtle. He keeps threatening me with a new car."
Charlie rolled his eyes but waited for me to continue.
"When he left me," that hurt to think about, but I kept going, "It was like all the light had gone out of the world. It physically hurt because I missed him so much. I tried to be normal, but it felt like I was ripped in half and missing the best part of myself. I didn't believe him at first, but he actually said he felt the same when he left me."
"Then why did he stay gone so long?" Charlie asked in a whisper. He was actually trying to understand. He was trying so hard. My heart swelled in love for my father.
"He thought he wasn't good enough for me. For all of the good he sees in me, he sees only the negative in himself. He worries too much. About everything. I'm pretty sure him and his family debated for weeks before he even sat with me at lunch."
"And that's the part of him that you compliment, pulling him out of his dramatics while he helps you with your fears and gets you to try new things with him."
"Exactly."
"Huh." Charlie was quiet for a minute, thinking. "But he's never hurt you?"
"No, never. He wouldn't."
"And he doesn't manipulate you or try to keep you away from your friends?"
"No, well maybe Jacob a little but I'm sure you can understand why."
"He's jealous."
"Scared I'll choose Jacob over him. But he won't stop me if I want to see him. He's just not thrilled about it. But he's the one that told Edward I was dead. I'm not really happy with him right now…"
"I'm sure he feels bad about it." We were quiet for a minute. "I wish I had more money to send shopping with you. I know you'll never be able to keep up with Alice." He said rolling his eyes and thankfully changing the subject to a lighter topic. I was glad to have my dad at least trying to understand and not judging us for how we felt about each other, as if we could help it.
"It's alright. I don't really need much, maybe a few sweaters. Besides, Alice already told Edward that she's taking his credit card for anything I want."
"His credit card? He's seventeen!" We had never discussed the Cullen's financial situation. It wasn't necessary or interesting to us.
"He doesn't really have to worry about money, dad. His biological father was a lawyer. They left him an inheritance, which Carlisle manages for him, not that Carlisle lets him pay for much anyhow."
"Those cars he drives then -?"
"They're his."
"I always thought they were Carlisle's. And he doesn't protest to you spending his money?" Charlie seemed like he didn't believe it.
"I don't want to. I don't care about his money. That's all Alice. He wants me to though. He is constantly trying to buy me things, crazy, expensive things."
"And he didn't protest when Alice insisted on spending his money?"
"On me? Never. He just handed her his card."
"Wow! He must really love you to turn Alice loose with his card."
I giggled. "Definitely. But also, I think as much as he tries to talk me into a new car, a few sweaters or pairs of jeans or whatever doesn't scare him."
Charlie laughed. "Guess not."
We had just finished eating when the doorbell rang. I knew it wasn't Edward that soon. Charlie went to get it while I put the dishes in the sink.
"Alice! Come on in." My dad adored her.
"Hi Bella!" She called as I went to join them in the living room.
"Isn't a whole weekend of shopping with you enough?" I asked playfully. She stuck her tongue out at me.
"Esme said you can come sleepover with me tonight if you want to! We can do manicures and pedicures and watch the new Vin Diesel movie!"
"I….uh…I have a lot of dishes to do."
"I'll do them, Bella." Charlie said. "Go have fun."
"Fun? Manicures, pedicures…Vin Diesel?" I asked, shaking my head. Charlie laughed. Alice squealed.
"Yay! Come on, I'll help you pack!"
"At least let me put the cookies and granola bars in something for Charlie to take tomorrow."
"Fine." She said with a smile, sitting down on the couch to talk to my dad while I straightened up some and got packed to stay the night with Alice.
I walked down the stairs with my book bag and my small purse and Alice jumped up.
"Thank you, Charlie. I'll take good care of her!"
"I know you will. Have fun girls. Tell Edward hi." he laughed and smiled at us as he walked us to the door. It wasn't lost on him that Alice and I wouldn't be home alone, but he decided to be alright with it and I was thrilled, if not slightly embarrassed.
"Goodnight, dad. Hope the fish bite."
I had barely even gotten in the car before Alice started the shopping talk again. "You are going to go shopping with me Sunday before I take you home. That way you'll remember what we did and where we went easier, so you don't have to lie. And we are going to have some girl time tonight. I sent Edward on an errand. Once he gets home, he's all yours."
"An errand?"
"You'll see." She said with a laugh.
"Thanks, Alice."
"For what?"
"For everything. For being my best friend. And for helping me spend more time with Edward. I'm sorry if I ignore you sometimes. I don't mean to."
"Relax, Bella. I know. I remember exactly what it's like to be newly mated. He's all you can think about, isn't he?"
"Always has been."
"That's exactly how I feel about Jasper."
"Still?"
"Yep! Vampires can think about several things at once, but at least part of my brainpower is always focused on him."
"Wow."
Esme greeted us warmly when we arrived, and Rosalie was even downstairs, ready to hang out. Carlisle was at work. Jasper and Emmett had gone off for some sort of errand of their own while Edward ran his.
Alice wasted no time in starting a movie for us and setting out a nail polish collection that could rival a salon. Esme helped her pick out a shade of red that complimented my skin tone, although the ten they were trying to pick from all looked identical to me.
Rosalie surprised me by offering to paint my fingernails while Alice did my toenails. She smiled warmly at me, another first for the day. "My brother is an idiot, you know, but I'm glad he's finally happy. I'll admit that I didn't like you at first, but you saved his life. I'll never forget that."
"Thank you, Rosalie."
"See, she didn't disagree that he's an idiot!" Rosalie said with a laugh, looking at Alice, who giggled. Alice almost never stopped giggling, but I was glad to see her happy.
"I feel like drama queen is a better fit."
"Oh. My. God. OK I changed my mind. I like this human." Rosalie said, now laughing even harder.
The four of us watched the rest of the movie in happy spirits and mostly silence. It meant a lot to me to spend time with them and to feel accepted. No one was uncomfortable around me anymore. They treated me like I belonged.
My heart fluttered when the door opened just as the movie finished, but it was only Emmett and Jasper, their arms full of grocery bags that they took into the kitchen. It cracked me up and Jasper immediately came to stand in front of me, playfully demanding an explanation.
"I took Edward grocery shopping with me after school-"
"Is that what the kids call it these days?"
"Hush!" I said, laughing so hard that it was difficult to talk. "He was so baffled by the cereal aisle and all of the choices. It was one of the funniest things I had ever seen. He just stood there making a face for a solid minute or two. He also really didn't like the smell of steak."
Jasper started laughing right as Edward opened the door connecting the garage to the main house. "Humans are so weird! They even had a cereal box with a vampire on it. As if vampires would want anything to do with cereal!"
I laughed until it was hard to breathe, never mind try to talk again. I had to hide my face in Alice's shoulder in an attempt to calm down and hide my blush. My face was burning.
"Edward, did you get what I asked you to?" Alice asked.
"It's in the car."
"Great!" She stood up and ran into the garage and then up the stairs faster than my eyes could track her movements. Edward sat down beside me, his golden eyes sparkling and a mischievous smile on his face.
"Why did you have to tell my brothers about me going grocery shopping? Now they are going to drag me every time."
"I might drag you every time, never mind them. It was hilarious!"
"Glad I amuse you." He said, leaning down to kiss me on the lips. I happily kissed him back and snuggled closely to him.
"Alright, you horny teenagers." Jasper said, clapping his hands once to get our attention. "The kitchen is fully stocked with snacks and drinks for the human. We also stocked an extra first aid kit in Carlisle's office in case you get too wild with your…activities. Em and I are off for a weekend of wild manning in the woods!"
I wanted to thank him but couldn't stop laughing long enough. Edward thanked him for us with a quiet chuckle.
"How about a snack before we go to bed?" Edward asked. It was impossible to miss his not-so-subtle phrasing.
"Sounds great."
"Wow." He said, stepping into the kitchen.
"What?"
"Why they were blocking their thoughts from me." He brought out a chocolate sheet cake with a decorative flower border, except a couple of the flowers were a little phallus like. It had 'Sorry we were dicks' written on it. My face hurt from laughing so much, but I cracked up again.
"Is that their way of apologizing for the condoms and the banners?"
"I believe so."
"They are awesome. By the way, you were making some faces at me while I was eating chocolate cake earlier. Why?"
Edward was quiet for a minute as he cut a slice of cake and put it on a plate for me. His expression gave nothing away.
"Does it disgust you too much? It definitely doesn't smell anything like steak."
"Quite the opposite."
"It smells good?"
"No, it doesn't disgust me though. At least not when you eat it."
"Oh!"
"You make these cute little faces, almost like the ones you make when-"
"Shh!"
"What, afraid of someone hearing?"
"Yes."
"We're home alone, love."
"Where is everyone?"
"My brothers are probably searching for some grizzly about now. Carlisle is at work and then he's going to go spend the weekend with our friends in Alaska. Esme, Alice and Rosalie went ahead of him."
"We're alone for the entire weekend?"
"Until Sunday morning."
I stood up, throwing my arms around his neck. He growled softly, but not menacingly, sexily. He kissed me on the cheek and took a step back.
"How about you finish your snack and then join me upstairs? I'll run us a nice bath." The 'us' part sounded amazing.
"OK. What errand did Alice send you on?"
"She had me go pick up some stuff she had ordered over the phone from Port Angeles. There's a rather large bag of lingerie sitting on our bed for you." I blushed. "You don't have to wear it if you don't want to. I love you wearing anything, or especially….nothing." he purred in my ear just before he ran upstairs. The water was running within seconds. We were definitely in for a fun night.
I finished my snack and washed off the plate before joining Edward upstairs, surprised he let me climb the stairs on my own. Usually, he worried about me tripping.
His bedroom door was open and there were candles lit on his desk and dresser, giving the room a faint glow. There was indeed a large shopping bag on his bed, but I ignored it for now, turning to the bathroom attached to his room. That's when I saw one of the hottest things ever.
Edward was sitting in a bubble bath, surrounded by more candles, with his naked chest glittering softly in the candlelight. His eyes were black and his expression dreamy, seductive. There was no nervousness and no time wasted as I stripped off my clothes and stood beside the tub.
"Beautiful." He said, reaching for my hand to help me in the bath with him. I carefully stepped in and sat in his lap, mindful not to sit on his erection and hurt him. He wasn't lying about the 'always' part earlier.
The water was perfectly hot, but not too hot. His skin was warm against mine. My entire body immediately relaxed at his touch and his scent surrounding me.
I closed my eyes and leaned my head back into him. He massaged my scalp slowly, gently, and then worked his way down to my neck and shoulders.
He kissed my jaw and then down my neck as he wrapped his arms around me. "I love you so much."
"I love you too."
"You have no idea what you do to me." He was nearly purring, his voice low and sensual.
"I have some idea." I said, reaching down to brush his erection with my hand. He gasped when my hand touched it and started stroking him.
"We don't have to do anything you don't feel like tonight, love."
"I know. Relax." I gripped him a little further down so that I was massaging his entire length with each pass.
"Gladly." He laid his head back, closed his eyes and enjoyed my touch. His arms around me reached up to rub my nipples around in his fingers as I moved more quickly around him.
He moved one of his hands down to rub my clit, keeping pace with my movements on him and causing me to moan loudly.
He gently removed my hand from around him after a minute or two. "I don't think you want a huge mess in the bathwater. Let's finish our bath then and I promise to show you just how much I love you several times tonight if you like."
I couldn't speak, but he understood my silence. He kissed my neck and my earlobe before dripping some water into my hair. "I've always wanted to help you wash your hair. It's so lovely."
Edward did just that, taking his time to massage my scalp in a way that made me extra relaxed and aroused at the same time. He was breathing deeply, enjoying the scent as he helped me get clean. He carefully stood up with me in his arms, quickly wrapping me in a warm towel as he sat me on my feet.
"I could get spoiled on this."
"Good, me too." he answered in a low, gruff voice as he openly admired my body, covered only by the towel. I had never felt so wanted, so desired.
My heart rate sped up and my arousal increased drastically, especially watching him dry his hair, his perfect, muscular arms flexing as he moved.
He tried to make his hair lie somewhat flat. "I'm just going to mess that up for you in a minute anyhow."
"Why wait?" he said, smirking at me as he lifted me off of my feet, making me crack up laughing, and carried me carefully to sit on the side of the bed.
"Am I not allowed to walk anywhere?"
"No, I want to hold you." It was settled then. It certainly wasn't worth debating a statement like that. Not when it made me feel so wanted.
Edward was standing in front of me and I easily reached between the folds of his towel and found his hardened erection, gripping it in my hands again to stroke him a few times. Despite the vampire, granite hardness of his skin, and especially this particular part of him, the skin here was soft and felt amazing under my hands.
His eyes were closed, and I saw an opportunity to surprise him, hard to do with a mind reader with vampire senses, although him not being able to read my mind was an advantage.
I quickly kissed the head of his cock and then took him into my mouth as much as possible in one motion.
"Fuck!" he moaned.
It was shocking finding out that word was in Edward Cullen's vocabulary. It drove me absolutely wild that I was the one to make him say it.
"Sorry." He said.
I slid him out of my mouth just long enough to answer, "No you're not." before continuing my previous motions around him.
He didn't make another attempt to apologize, but he did moan loudly as we relaxed and I was able to fit more of him inside my mouth, moving my tongue around the underside of his cock and using my hands to hold his hips close to me.
I didn't know what I was doing and hoped that he was enjoying himself. He certainly seemed to be. He would moan quietly on occasion and my heart fluttered, happy.
I had wanted to do this for him for a very long time. It was empowering to hold the most intimate part of him, something no one had done before, in my hands, or in this case, mouth. It was as if I were claiming him in my own way, in a normal teenage rite of passage way, not a vampiric way.
I used one of my hands to grip the part of him that couldn't fit in my mouth and thrusted him more quickly, but still using long strokes, taking time to swirl my tongue around his head here and there.
"Bella…" he whispered, gently wrapping a hand in my hair, and quickly taking it away. "You better stop before…Fuck!"
Understanding immediately, I took the opportunity to remove my hand and take him as far in my mouth as possible, his tip touching the back of my throat. I pulled back a little just as his orgasm started, so that I wouldn't choke on his length. We already discussed that only the venom in his mouth was dangerous and could actually change someone. Although, this would be a fun way to go.
He was pretty much purring, growling low in his chest as I swallowed his venom and pulled back, letting his erection fall out of my mouth.
I was hesitant to look him in the eye, thinking he might be embarrassed or wondering if he thought it weird that I swallowed, but he immediately sat down beside me and held me in his arms. He was trembling.
Edward kissed my hair and held me tightly to him, silent for a moment, his breathing uneven.
"I love you." he whispered after a few minutes.
"I love you too. Are you alright?"
"Am I alright?" He chuckled. "Alright doesn't even begin to cover it."
"I wasn't sure if you would want-"
"I always want you, silly girl. In any way you want to have me. I told you that last night." We were quiet for a minute again. "I love you so much. I never believed that my mate was out there, that I could possibly deserve anyone, and then you come along, and you love me so unconditionally. You want to be with me in all of the ways I want you. You have never once been afraid of who or what I am. To be so intimate with you, I can't put it into words. That felt amazing, but not just that, your confidence, your love, that you would want to do that for me. I'm simply overwhelmed. I guess in this sense I really am a teenager again. This is all so new to me."
"Me too. Did I do alright?"
"Oh my God. You think you still have to ask that? You made me speechless for several minutes."
I was mostly teasing him, but it was good to hear that he enjoyed himself just as much as I did. He rested his forehead on mine, looking into my eyes and smiling contentedly before he kissed me gently
"You don't mind my breath after that?"
"Nothing is going to stop me from kissing you right now." he said, kissing me gently again. It became passionate almost instantly. He tangled his hands in my hair and laid me back against the pillows, hovering over me. We kissed until he had to remind me to breathe.
"I wanted to touch you, but I was afraid of hurting you. It took a lot of effort to hold still."
"It's alright. I knew that."
"Are you still sore?"
"No."
"You're sure?"
"Edward!"
"Sorry." he chuckled. "I never want to hurt you."
"I would tell you if I was hurting."
"Good." he said as he started kissing my neck, his cool breath sending pleasant shivers down my spine.
He brushed his hands over my breasts and then reached down to rub my clit again, causing me to thrust my hips against him.
"God…I'm beyond ready."
He opened his mouth to speak, but I didn't want to hear it. "And if you ask if I'm sure one more time I'm going to take matters into my own hands." He laughed at me, kissing my nose.
"As you wish." He crashed his lips against mine in another passionate kiss as he slowly slid his length inside of me where my body was aching for him the most. We moaned into our kiss, immediately feeling whole at the connection of having him inside of me. He kissed down my neck again.
"I'm never going to get used to this." I said.
"Me neither."
"You feel so amazing."
"You have no idea." He answered. We were kissing again, and he increased the speed of his thrusting a little until I felt like I was going to reach my climax entirely too early. I didn't want him to stop.
It was as if he could read my thoughts sometimes. "Just let go, love. I'm nowhere near done with you yet."
He purred in my ear and I was done for. I came hard and loud, never happier to be home alone as any tiny amount of tension released from my body and I grew insanely more wet around him.
As soon as I was done, Edward wrapped his arms around me and rolled onto his back, never pulling out of me, until I was on top of him. This caused me to feel him inside of me in entirely new ways.
He gripped my hips firmly and helped me keep the pace as he went inside of me slightly further in this new position. He started moving faster at the same time he reached one hand up to caress my breast and rub my right nipple before sliding his hand down my stomach and finding my clit again.
It was my turn to shout "Fuck!" caught off guard by the sensation. He chuckled, the vibration of his laugh making me feel new things again, as well as the sexy, seductive sound of his voice when we were like this.
Within seconds, I came hard around him again. He moaned loudly and I felt his cool venom inside of me, mixing with my arousal. He held me in place until he stopped twitching inside of me and then rolled us over again so that I was laying on my back with him hovering over me.
"Don't move." I insisted.
"I won't. I could stay like this forever."
"Me too."
We were both working to catch our breath, smiling, and holding each other. "You are so amazing." he whispered in my ear.
"I made you curse."
"I made you curse." he repeated, laughing.
"I'm not apologizing."
"Me neither."
"You already did."
"And you insisted that I didn't mean it." he said, laughing once more as he brushed my hair out of my face with his hand and looked into my eyes. His eyes were changing back from the lustful black to my favorite shade of gold. "I love you so much my Bella, my mate, my life."
There wasn't time to reply before we were kissing again, and he slowly slid out of me. I wanted to protest, but it had been a long day and I was so relaxed in his arms that I just fell asleep, as I often did when he held me like this.
