Wrecked
TWO
Dear Meredith Grey,
It is quite the shock that you have another step-sister that you'd previously never known about! I'm shocked, I can't imagine how you must be feeling about that.
Your strength in this situation is admirable, I can understand the impulse to run and hide, and the impulse to be extremely angry about it.
There's nothing that I can do to soothe the situation.
Please know that if you've felt abandoned in the past, that I am invested in staying by your side, as long as you'll have me,
Addison Montgomery
Ps. The drawing of the poodle is extremely adorable.
These days, I'm becoming everything that I hate
Wishing you were around, but now it's too late
Dear Addison Montgomery,
Your words had me in tears, damnit. Of course, I'll have you, even though I think you're ridiculous for wanting me sometimes. I'm working through it (you're working through it also, we've talked about it before).
And the worst part is that she's… Nice… And smart… And she's actually brilliant, and I wish that I'd grown up like her, but I also feel terrible for being grateful that I didn't grow up with her, because I just know that she would have been Ellis Grey's favorite, and I think I would have resented her for that. Oh hell, I do now.
Anyway, that's a lot about me. I like hearing about you, too. I'm glad that you're settling into the clinic life there, and that you've been able to solve some incredibly impressive cases there so far. I'd imagine nothing less from you, you're a superstar!
Meredith Grey
My mind is in a place that I can't escape your ghost
Sometimes I wish that I could wish it all away
One more rainy day without you
Dear Meredith Grey,
Even if I'm ridiculous for wanting you, I think you're ridiculous for wanting me, also. I love that you do though, it makes me feel less tired and old, and all dried up, as I had felt. It makes me feel young again.
We can both work on living for ourselves, and not for someone else's approval.
I'm glad that your sister is lovely. I can say from experience that being a sibling isn't the easiest experience. I love my brother, Archer, to pieces, but sometimes, more than other times, he can be absolutely the most annoying person on the planet. But he always picked me up if I was hurt, and I'll always remember that. I wouldn't expect you to have that with Lexie so soon, but on your own time, you might open yourself up to that possibility.
Addison Montgomery
Ps. The lace is from a hot glue gun, actually!
Sometimes I wish that I could see you one more day
One more rainy day
