Chapter 4

The trip was a blur, the location and destination… unknown, yet somehow, they got their hands on more booze, and not all of it was Sake.

There was beer to be found and other sorts of spirits. Gojo and Suiryu pounded back the beers when suddenly Gojo asked. "Hey… hey… I GOTTA know… if you weren't into chick… who would you have gone for? Don't say Itadori… that's just masturbating!"

"PPPPPFFFFF! HAHAHAHA!" cackled Suiryu. "Good point…" he settled himself down and thought about it. "Well, Sukuna had a thing for Fushiguro because of what he could do, but I got to admit… he seems to be my type. Quite, brooding and yet, smart… I like smart…" he said.

"Oh man, you aim too low, you want someone good… you want his DAD!" Gojo protested.

Suiryu sluggishly turned to Gojo. "Really? That's who you would go for?"

Gojo began to snicker. "Let me put it this way, that fucker stabbed me, right through the chest… I still couldn't walk straight for a week… that was just with a sword!"

"Oh God, I doubt you could have handled him…"

"Not shit, that fucker had no curse energy and he managed to fuck me over like that… didn't even buy me a drink…"

"At least I did…" Suiryu snickered as he toasted a can of beer. "By the way… not my type… I don't like clingy people like ya,"

"And I don't like overly mature boys."

"Fuck you!"

"I said I am not into overly mature boys! Besides, you're in a jail bait body…"

"Hehehe…. Yeah…" Suiryu said with a sigh. "I doubt there's anyone who would want to fuck me… let's call a spade a spade here. I'm too much like that asshole bastard prick…"

"No… don't say that!" Gojo protested. "You, you are a catch… You're smart, strong, powerful…"

"I was," Suiryu muttered as he pounded back another beer. "Look at me Satoru. I have NO USE to anyone here anymore. I was training everyone to be better and stronger for their sake and that of my brother. Now… what the hell am I? Why did I even bother to go with you guys… why didn't Yaga go instead of me?" he became rather somber about it. "He said… he said… he was glad… he was wrong about me… but was he?"

Gojo began to get teary eyed again. "Yaga… he was a tough bastard, never like to get too attached to people, considering the business we're in. Yet when it came to teaching… he taught me a lot… he also let me get away with a lot… still… the fact that he gave his life to save you, has to mean something."

"It hurts," Suiryu said as the tears started to come from him. He felt his lip quiver. "What kind of pain is this? Why does this hurt so much! I felt this only once before, when Yuuji fell asleep and wouldn't wake up… I was so scared for him, and yet… Gojo, what the fuck is wrong with me!?"

"Nothing, you're feeling emotions"

"I'm not pissed off about that! I'm more pissed off that I never had these before!" Suiryu snapped back. "Everything, feels different. Pain is different, emotions are different… connections… it's all just a messed up mess in my head… I don't know what to think anymore… I am pissed off I never learned of emotions sooner. I know now why Sukuna abandoned them. If you don't give a shit about anyone, nothing matters. But when nothing matters, why give a shit about anything? Even power. Sure, you're the strongest fucking demon sorcerer, but who gives a shit!?" he demanded. "If that bastard was here, I'll tell him. 'You are the single most disgusting, fucking piece of shit I have ever seen, and the most pathetic at that! You think you're strong. YOU ARE NOTHING!'" Suiryu shouted.

"I'll drink to that!" Gojo said and toasted his beer.

The world was starting to get blurry in Suiryu's eyes. "Say, Gojo… am I still useful?"

"What? Of course you are!" he protested.

"Then, how am I going to help you and the others?"

He shrugged his shoulders carelessly. "Dunno," he said offhandedly. "The thing is Suiryu, since you have no curse energy… why not learn from Mika? You have the ability to have an unrestricted body now since you don't have curse energy right?"

"I HAVE been training with her though… I try to improve every day, and yet at the same time… I still feel like Sukuna… is rattling around in my head… I can use weapons still, but I am a lot more careful since I can get seriously hurt now and die!" he protested. "At the same time, it's not enough. At least, not for me."

"BELCH!"

Satoru suddenly threw up off to the side. "Ugh… beer does not taste good the second time around…" he muttered.

"This brand is ever worst the first time around…" Suiryu uttered back. He then leaned back and said. "I'm dying,"

"You just drank too much…"

"Nah… Satoru… this body runs off of curse energy, considering how it was made… Since… I don't have it no more… The body is breaking down. It won't be long… I knew this would happen eventually… but… don't tell Yuuji or anyone for that matter…"

He turned to see Satoru was barely paying attention. In fact, he appeared to be doing everything he could to keep his eyes open and preventing himself from vomiting.

Suiryu's eyes were growing heavy, peering to his side he saw Satoru had passed out, but a devious grin came over him. "Satoru…. Satoru… Satoru…" he said over and over again until he got a reaction.

"What?" he muttered.

"Wanna try something?"

#

The next morning…

His head pounded. Suiryu couldn't think straight, let alone understood what time it was. He tried to open his eyes but froze. It was darkness, complete and utter darkness! "Oh God…" he sat himself up despite the urge to vomit, he suppressed it for the time being. "Oh God… I'm BLIND! SHIT I drank too much! That was so STUPID of me… Oh God I went blind drinking!" he said in a panic.

"Please… shut up…" he heard Gojo utter.

"I'm BLIND!" Suiryu shouted. "Why are you so fucking calm right now!"

"Because I'm trying to figure something out…"

"How I went blind!?"

"No… why we switched clothes…"

Suiryu froze as his hands slowly reached up… and he took the blindfold off. Yet the more he leaned the stiffer he felt his clothing become. "What…"

RIP….

He tore Gojo's shirt, his pants were splitting down the middle! "Ugh… How the hell did we switch outfits!?" Suiryu demanded.

"I'm just glad we woke up clothed…" Gojo said.

Suiryu doubled checked himself. "Oh thank God we didn't switch underwear…"