Chapter 11

WARNING- THIS STORY CONTAINS MATURE THEMES SUCH AS SELF HARM AND ABUSE, PLEASE DO NOT READ IF THIS MAY UPSET OR TRIGGER YOU IN AN WAY

I have suffered with self harming before not long ago, and please if you or any of your friends/family are going through it, get help and just remember it DOES get better and you're not alone. I'm always here if you need any help I'll understand xx

Disclaimer- I do not own 'Twilight' or any of the other books written by Stephanie Meyer. All characters mentioned in this fanfic belong to the wonderful author and not me (although I wish Jacob aka Taylor Lautner belonged to me )

This story is set in New Moon, just after Edward left Bella and she is depressed and lonely.

Bella's POV

"Stop it, just stop it!" I shout, feeling the familiar sting as tears roll down my cheeks. "Jake, I know you're angry at Edward but that's no excuse to fight him in a hospital room and Edward, what the hell? I thought I'd never see you again and you just turn up after seven months like it's totally fine?"

They turn to look at me, looking ashamed and told off. Edward backs away from Jacob and I can see the pure hate in his eyes as he stares at him from across the room.

"I'm so sorry Bella, for everything. It was wrong of me to leave you but I thought you'd be better off without me but clearly I was wrong. I mean come on Bella, your bestfriend is a werewolf? Do you have any idea how dangerous they are?" his voice rises.

"How.. how do you know that?" I ask, confused. I choose to ignore his apology like it never happened because I'm not ready to have this conversation now so I focus on him knowing jake's secret instead.

"I smelled the stench of his fur as soon as I got near your house" he says, waving it off.

Jake bristles in anger at this. "How fucking dare you come back here after so long, contradict Bella on who she can be friends with and insult me, the one who's been there for her all this time when you cleared off to god knows where…" he stops as he notices me wince at the subject of Edward leaving me.

"I know I messed up by leaving her, I know that now but who are you to talk? You put her in danger everyday just by being near her, you could change into a wolf at any time and rip her head off for gods sake", Edward answers, his eyes a dangerous black.

"I would never hurt her" Jake mumbles, sounding hurt.

I was so out of it before, what with the pain medication and wanting to stop Edward and jake from fighting, I didn't properly notice Edward's family in the background, watching everything unfold with troubled eyes. Emmet must sense me looking in his direction because he sort of smiles, although not the same big beaming smile I remember, he looks sad.

"Hi Bella, how are you doing?" he asks, hovering around my bed uncertainly.

"alright I suppose. You can sit down on the edge of the bed you know, you're not going to break my bones or anything" I joke.

Emmet just smiles again and carefully places himself on the bed, squeezing my hand, trying to avoid the bandages my arms are swathed in.

"Thank god you're alright Bella" Alice gushes, and then as if just realising what she'd said, added "I mean physically, at least".

There's an awkward silence for a moment, and I feel awful that the whole Cullen family has obviously rushed here, probably because of one of Alice's visions, worried about me and what I'd done to myself. Esme comes towards me with her kind smile, and brings me out of my thoughts.

"Bella, sweetheart, I'm so sorry" she says gently putting her arms around my neck. I hug her back, having missed her motherly kindness. We stay in an embrace like that for another five minutes until the nurse comes in to do my OBS. After she's left, Carlisle comes up to me aswell.

"I'm so glad someone found you. I wouldn't like to think about what could have happened if you'd been left any longer" he shudders and puts a hand on my shoulder.

As if thinking the same thing, Jacob looks at me with relief and Edward goes even paler than he normally is.

"Cheer up you guys, she's not dead yet" Rosalie laughs, forever the colder one.

"Rosalie!" hisses Alice with contempt.

Rosalie ignores her and smiles at me, the most genuine smile I've ever got from her.

Jacob's POV

Even Blondie seems to care about Bella now, what a joke. They all leave her without a second thought and now she's lying in a hospital bed, they're suddenly all over her. I ignore my annoyance at the Cullens though, because I'm here for Bells and her only. Seeing her lying unconscious on that bathroom floor, I'd never felt so scared in all my life. I knew I cared about Bella as a friend but something about the way I feel when she smiles up at me with her big brown eyes makes me wonder if I like her as more than that. Hell, I might even love her. And if I do, how the hell do I tell my bestfriend I might have feelings for her when her vampire ex boyfriend who she's still not over suddenly appears out of nowhere with those damn golden eyes?

OMG, I'm so sorry for any of you who liked this story and I didn't update it for like over a year, I've been very distracted but I'm going to try and update more often now if you could give a review for this chapter that'd be great even if it's just to criticise I'd like some advice on where to go with this story because it's been so long I don't know anymore thanks :)