Leah's Point of View
My head was pounding as flashes of the previous night at the bonfire came rushing to my head. I remembered getting drunk with Seth but it was to take the edge of the night off. I didn't know it would be so awful getting drunk as a werewolf. At first, I thought the metabolism thing was a blessing but obviously Seth and I took that blessing for granted despite everyone's warnings.
"Shit." I muttered turning over to see Embry sleeping with me in my bed. I almost jumped but then I remembered him helping me into bed last night. Oh my God! Fuck then everything wasn't a dream. I had undressed him with my eyes in front of my dad! In front of my brother and Jake and Quil…..oh my God in front of everyone! In front of everyone I felt Embry up! Oh my fuck! Thank God he got me out of there! Oh my fuck! What the actual fuck did I do! My hand was over my mouth so embarrassed.
I tried to slow down my breathing. Okay, girl relax you can just said you were drunk and horny and would have fucked Rachel for shits and giggles. Okay just refocus. Just breathe. Just breathe. I focused my eyes on the light coming inside my window hitting the bed. Hitting his hair and body in my bed. He looked so peaceful like he hadn't slept in days and now finally got enough. I was up all night puking while holding his hand. He never let go of my hand all night. Now he had finally fell asleep and looked so content. I wish we were back in California before all this wolf shit happened.
I slowly got up and went to shower and brush my teeth. I got changed and went downstairs gently shutting my door.
"Embry still here?" Quil asked sitting at my kitchen table with Jake and Seth. My mom was making them breakfast which made me want to puke again. Seth moaned letting me know he had a rough night like me.
"Yeah." I said taking the bread off the table to taking a seat.
"You Clearwaters sure know how to cause trouble." Jake frowned. Seth heard the disappointment from Jake and obviously took it to heart.
"Don't worry Seth. It was me not you like usual." I reassured as Jake sipped his drink glaring at me slightly. I probably deserved that glare.
"I did damage control but you guys got to stop." Quil added making me glare at him.
"What the fuck do you mean?" I spat as Seth grabbed my hand.
"Sis he is right." Seth muttered as my mother set down the food to give us privacy.
"You really came onto Embry last night. Like super hard." Jake answered setting down his food.
"Yeah, but I was just being flirty. Hell I was super drunk." I defended crossing my arms.
"Sam clearly thinks you guys are fucking now." Quil pointed out making me give him a dirty look.
"Leah, Quil told us about how you two hooked up in California. If I had known that I wouldn't have let him train you." Jake said sternly. Quil looked down as I glared at him.
"That was a long time ago. He has been training me for a while, that hasn't been a problem." I raised my voice.
"Leah, Sam can't get any more suspicious of you two. Fuck all the extra shit about imprinting and just the wolf shit. Point blank Sam will go mad like a dog if he finds out and that means everything we've worked for will be for nothing." Seth responded squeezing my hand.
"Guys, we just had sex! There isn't any Embry and I!" I spat but my heart sank saying it out loud.
"Leah, I saw how you looked at him. That was not a look you give someone you just casually slept with." Quil said softly making my heart slow down. Had I felt something for Embry or was it just sexual attraction.
"It's going to ruin everything with getting everyone to leave Sam's pack, including yourself." Jake sighed.
"Why can't you just challenge him for both packs?" I demanded. Jake's face fell.
"Because I have a feeling that fight would be so primal that I would kill him or he would kill me. It wouldn't be us as men fighting with morals but as wolves." Jake frowned ceasing to eat his food.
"He's right Leah." A voice said behind me. I stood up turning around to see Embry standing in the arch way.
"Guys can you give us a minute?" Embry asked rubbing his face as my brother, Quil and Jake stood up.
"How are you going to get out Sam's pack then? If everyone else gets out but you and Jake can't challenge Sam?" I challenged once we were alone. His face fell and his shoulders shrugged.
"We have to get everyone else out, Lee. You have to get out." He said grabbing my hands.
"It is not that bad. What if we just stayed?" I whispered. His grey eyes filled up with such sadness.
"You can't be his anymore. I want you to live and leave his reach. Besides, he would command me to not see you if we went further with this." He said hugging me into him.
"I don't even know what 'this' is." I sighed into his chest. My heart felt like it was straining and I wanted to fight for his freedom.
"Whatever it is we can't continue." He said softly pushing me away.
"What? Are you about to say let's be friends?" I snapped because I was hurt.
"Leah, this ends badly for everyone if it continues. You and I get caught and Sam commands us to not be together. If that happens you will never be allowed to leave and I won't have that! The second option is you leave Sam's pack and I am stuck commanded by Sam! If that happens then Jake will have to challenge and will most likely kill Sam! You want to see what losing an imprint does to Emily!? How about you still love Sam and would die being responsible for his death!" Embry growled tugging at his hair making me pissed.
"I don't love Sam!" I spat shaking.
"A part of you will always love him! That's why you left and still want to leave! And like it or not you love Emily! You could not send her into depression!" He growled again as I got in his face.
"Option three is we figure out a way to figure whatever this is out." I snarled. His face softened and he ran his fingers through my hair.
"And then what Lee? Wait until one of us imprints?" He exhaled shaking. My body temperature rose at his remark. I wanted to hit him for saying that? I smacked his hand away from my face. I had been hurt once from being someone's second best to their imprint and I knew he was right.
"You won't even try for yourself." I spat. His eyes met mine and I could see the anger in them. They were the beautiful grey I had come to appreciate. Instead they were a deep black from his emotions.
"I will try to get everyone else out. You know enough to fight so don't count on me to train you anymore." He sighed turning his back towards me.
"Are you fucking serious?" I yelled yanking his arm back. He growled and tore my hand from his arm.
"Let me go, Clearwater." He spat. I looked back at him shocked. In that moment I could have killed him I was so mad.
"You know what?" I spat back raising an eyebrow.
"What?" He inquired standing by the doorway.
"We should have never slept together in California. None of this shouldn't have even happened." I growled throwing my hands up. His face filled with hurt which I wished I could take back.
"I couldn't agree more, Sarah." He spat slamming the door in my face. My heart was racing and I sunk to the ground. Why did this bother me so much? Why did it hurt nearly as much as the day Sam left me? Why wass it that when he called me Sarah rip a hold inside of me?
