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Finding Our Future Chapter 28

"Haley, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that you found out about the sex tape the way you did. I know that I should have told you sooner, but we never took the time to sit down and talk about our past relationships."

"Nathan, that's because the only one of us who has any sort of past sexual relationships, is you. I have only ever had a few dates, definitely nothing even close to an intimate experience or relationship."

"I'm sorry Haley. Honestly, I never even thought in my wildest dreams there was ever going to be a you, or an us back then. But it was a long time ago Haley. I'm sorry for not bringing up the talk about past relationships sooner though. If I had, maybe this whole mess could have been avoided and we would be in a better place."

"There were faults on both sides Nathan. I should have asked when things were progressing more intimately between us and starting to get too overwhelming for me", she spoke looking at him.

"When did you start feeling overwhelmed?" He asked feeling very concerned.

"Umm...the night of our date,"

"Can I ask why you felt that way?"

"When we were pleasuring each other, I had never done anything like that before. Don't get me wrong, I definitely wanted to. It was the most pleasurable experience for me, but I still had so many questions and swirling emotions going round in my head and I didn't know how to say anything without you thinking I was being stupid."

"I would never think that you're stupid for wanting to feel safe and secure, sure of yourself. I'm sorry you felt that way Haley, I truly am."

"Just stop saying sorry please. I just wish you would have told me. Finding out the way I did, it makes me feel like I'm not good enough for you or I won't meet your needs," she spoke with tears streaming down her face.

"Haley, please don't ever feel like you're not good enough for me. You're more than enough for me."

"How can I be sure about that? Can't you understand how finding out something like this would make me feel so much more vulnerable around you?"

"I'm trying to understand Haley, I truly am."

"Nathan even just the simple thought of being naked in front of you, like what just happened in the shower, is a huge step for me."

"I get that Haley. I'm sorry; I'm really trying to do the right thing to respect you. Honestly I don't know what I can do to show you how much you mean to me."

"Nathan, sometimes I wonder if you're just like every other guy who only sees me as the smart geeky tutor girl, who never had a boyfriend. That's a really emotional thing for me to deal with at times."

"Don't think like that Haley. Sometimes I think you're so far out of my league I hope you never figure it out. It makes me feel vulnerable around you too baby. I'm so scared that I'm going to mess it up, which I pretty much have, but I want you to know something Haley. I want to be the guy who is good enough to be seen with you. I love you Haley James."

"I can't help it Nathan. I just feel so hurt, vulnerable and insecure right now. I want to feel sexy, wanted and loved. In order for that to happen we need to have good communication, be open and honest with each other. We haven't been very good with that."

"I agree. I'm willing to work as hard as I can to be good enough for you."

"It's not something that we can fix after one talk Nathan. It's going to take time and work for both of us."

"What happened was a long time ago now. I never had any feelings and still don't have any feelings for Brooke. I'm sorry that I hurt you Haley."

"I gave you my heart. If that's not enough for you, then I'm not enough for you", she whispered with only a few small steps between them.

"Haley I love you. Couples fight, and they make mistakes, but just like you said, with hard work and good communication, we can get past this. I want to believe in us, I do believe in us. Please just tell me what you need me to do so I can make this right between us."

"That's the thing, I still love you too Nathan, so much. I do. Please believe me when I say that. But right now, I think it's best if you leave. I just need some time to process everything and figure things out."

"Okay, I'll go if that's what you need, but I'm not giving up on us. By the way, I ordered you some food while you were in your room. It should be here soon from Karen's. Just call me if you need anything Haley."

"Thank you and I will," she replied with a weak smile.

"Always and forever," he spoke leaning forward to place a kiss on her forehead.

Here is another chapter. I really hope people are reading this story. As I have put in a lot of hard work and so has othfangirl, who has been helping me so much. If you're reading please review.