August 26, 1999

He leaves me so confused. I know he likes me but he doesn't show much effort. I'm so scared to show too much. I don't want to seem too eager. I don't want to be too pushy and end up pushing him away.

I had sex with him. That means the world to me but I guess guys aren't as sensitive as us wishy washy chicks.

I don't want to see him all the time or anything but it would be nice to know he's thinking about me.

Actually the only thing that I real want-that is absolutely essential- is that he's not sleeping with anyone else. The rest of it I can handle but he can't be with anyone else.

I have to force myself NOT to be too pushy. I need to back off and just roll with it. I don't want to lose him.

Simple, lighthearted and fun.

~~My Embarrassing Diary~~

Do you want to slap my 20 year old self as much as I do?