October 11, 1999
It is Monday. I didn't see Jake all weekend. I was completely miserable all weekend long.
I had my phone with me at all times just in case he called. And he didn't. I just wanted to cry.
We took the teens on a trip to the Sequim Boys and Girls Club Friday night. I kept my phone with me and one of the guys that worked there asked if I was waiting for someone to call. I said 'yeah, this guy.' And he said 'he'd be real stupid not to call you.'
That made me feel kinda weird. It was a nice compliment but it really struck a chord with me. Jake is lucky to have me. He should want more.
Oh I'm so confused! I told him that I don't want a deep relationship. But maybe I changed my mind.
I don't want a Lauren and Tyler relationship but I want to feel wanted and not just for sex.
