November 20, 1999

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life! Yesterday at about 3:30, Jake called me and asked me to come over. It was the first time I've seen him in the daylight. When I got there, he grabbed me and held me for about two minutes. It was so perfect. I think it was his way of saying he was sorry and that he missed me. I could have cried; I was so happy.

We just watched TV for a little while, then we went to his cousin's high school football game. We actually went somewhere! We held hands and he leaned over and kissed me a few times. It was fantastic!

When it was over, we held hands as we walked to his car. Aw! When we got back to his house, we just watched TV and stuff. Quil came over for a little while. After he left, we had sex of course. It was good but I still don't really feel like I know what I'm doing. It's okay though. He's sweet about it. I'm so happy. Now I just want to see him again.