Minutes after, everyone heard a loud noise and part of the building where Robert and Jack were collapsed. Everyone was in shock thinking about the two firefighters and child that were still inside. Andy's heart starts racing because she sees that Robert didn't get out. She's scared but she knows she has to focus cause she's acting captain, so she kept repeating to her 'He's fine. He's fine. He's fine...'.

Andy was started panicking now because there was no news about Robert or Jack, so she grabbed the radio and call them. 'GIBSON. SULLIVAN. Do you copy?' Andy asked in panic with a cracked voice trying not to breakdown in tears and trying to keep the focus. After some minutes of anguish and fear, a figure finally appeared running through all the smoke coming out of the entrance of the building. It was Jack and right behind him there was Robert with a kid in his arms. When Andy saw them coming out, she could help but let out a sigh of relief, 'He's ok. He's alive.' Andy thought to herself. As soon as they pass all the smoke and saw the light of the sirens of the aid cars and engines, Robert yelled 'I need a gurney now!'. Robert ran towards Warren and Hughes who were running with the gurney towards him too, he placed the little boy on the gurney carefully and left them to do their jobs.

After this Andy yelled 'Get them some oxygen now!' but she couldn't wait for the team's response, so she grabbed a thank of oxygen herself and a mask and ran towards Robert. She quickly put the mask on Robert's face who as heavily breathing and for a moment they locked their eyes on each other like nothing else mattered at the time. Robert could see the worry in Andy's eyes, and he could feel Andy's hands shaking badly so he grabbed the mask himself with one of his hands and grabbed Andy's hand with his other hand. 'Are you ok?' She asked worried about him looking all over his face to see if he didn't have any visible injuries. Robert was still annoyed by their conversation earlier during the call so to annoyed her he repeated the exact same thing she said to him before 'It's not the time and place.'. Andy pushed him back with one hand not with much strength because she didn't want to hurt him. She was annoyed by his answer but looking at him she saw a little smile forming in his serious face, so she knew he was joking about what happened before and she decided to play around too. 'Insubordination.' She said trying to keep the serious face. As soon as she said that Robert's smile grew even bigger because he started to remember the past. He then was pushed back from his thought with Andy's words. 'I'm asking you as captain of this call Sullivan.' Andy spoke now with a worried face again. 'I'm ok.' He answered putting a hand on her shoulder rubbing it up and down trying to calm her down. She then let out a sigh of relief. Robert could see how much she still loves and worries about him and that made him feel good for a moment but then he remembered that they were getting divorced, and the sad face came back again to the surface. To break the eye contact between them Andy turned her back on him and started giving orders again as a captain should do. To be sure that everyone is not suffering from smoke inhalation or internal injuries she sends everyone to Grey Sloan for a checkup.

As soon as everyone got into the hospital, they waited in the waiting room for everyone to get checked up one by one. Andy was sitting in the waiting room waiting for everyone to get checked up when Meredith passed through her. Meredith could see that Andy was devastated. She literally looked like a zombie. She had dark circles under her eyes like she didn't sleep for days, and she was fidgeting looking at the ground, so she didn't even noticed Meredith approaching her. 'Hey Herrera, what are you doing here?' Meredith said looking around shocked to see the waiting room filled with firefighters. Andy was pushed back to reality with Meredith's words and stopped fidgeting for a moment lifting her head to look at Meredith. 'Uhm...uhm...I'm here with my team.' Andy spoke softly still regaining what was truly happening. God, she wished that Meredith either heard her or gotten the hint. Meredith saw how nervous she was, so she grabbed one Andy's hand and saying, 'Come with me.' she took her to the green room where they could talk more privately.

On the green room Andy sat on the chair in silence looking down at her hands not knowing what to say. Meredith saw that something was going on and encouraged her to talk by holding Andy's hands and saying, 'What's really going on?'. After some minutes Andy finally got the strength to lift her head up and start talking. 'It's just too much and...and I don't know how to handle it.' She spoke breathing in and out several times to calm her nerves down trying not to let the tears slip through her eyes. 'Are you talking about the miscarriage?' Meredith said calmly rubbing Andy's hand trying not to traumatize her with those awful memories again, but it didn't work cause Andy started crying while she slightly nodded. 'Did you told him?' Meredith asked softly. Andy nodded no with her head and Meredith put one of her hands on Andy's shoulder rubbing it and saying, 'You got to tell him Andy. He has the right to know.'. Andy nodded while she left a few tears slip through her eyes and started breathing in and out to calm herself down. After a few minutes of doing that, she finally broke the silence. 'I know but...I don't know how to tell him.' She said helpless. 'Andy look at me. There is no easy way to tell this to someone, but you just got to do it. It's what is right to do.' Meredith spoke frankly but at the end she could see that Andy was still with the same thoughtful sad face and knew that something else was going on too. 'This isn't all isn't it? What happened more that left you like that?' Meredith asked worried about her friend. Meredith hesitated at first but after she regained all the strength she needed she finally started spoking. 'My life is a mess, and I don't know what to do.' Andy said leaving Meredith even more confused and continued 'As you know me and Robert, we are getting divorced and I have 2 weeks to turn in the papers, but I'm not sure if I'm making the right choice. Yes, I'm mad at him, but at the same time I miss him. I still love him, and he does too but I don't know what to do. Today, there was a big fire, and I was the captain of the call so I couldn't go in and everyone expect Robert, Jack and a little kid where already out. But I saw that the building was going to collapse so I order them to get out of there but the little kid was in respiratory arrest and Robert was doing CPR so he told me he wouldn't get out until the kind was fine and then part of the building collapsed, and I just froze. I though I had lost him, and I know this sounds crazy, but I can't lose him. I can't handle that. I love him.'. Meredith made a fake shocked face but then smiled at Andy and said, 'I already knew about that.', and then Andy looked at her and gave her a little smile.

Hours later, the shift had already finished, and everyone was already home. On Robert's house, Robert is in his bedroom sat on his bed with his computer on his lap talking with his sponsor in a video call. 'So how was your day?' Richard asked. 'Rough. I almost died today. But at the same time confusing.' Robert said still thinking about the moment where him and Andy locked the eyes on each other, and he could feel Andy's love and worry for him. 'Why confusing?' Richard asked curious. 'Yes. When I came out of the building Andy ran to me and we stayed minutes looking at each other and all I could see in her eyes and feel was love and worry. She was worried that I could've died. She looked at me with those loving eyes she had when we were happily married. Are we making a mistake by getting divorced?' Robert spoke not really wanting an answer cause he already knew what was the answer.

On Michelle's house Andy is on her bedroom sat on her bed with her back leaning on the backboard and her phone on her hand making a videocall to her therapist. Today had been a day with a lot of emotions so she really needed someone's help to deal with all of it. 'Hi Andy, how are you?' Doctor Kat asked with her usual bright smile. 'Not good.' Andy started and after a few seconds continued 'The man that I love almost died today on a call and all I wanted to do was get in that burning building and get him out, but I couldn't cause I was the captain of the call. I really thought I was going to lose him. When he didn't respond on the radio the first thing that came into my mind is that I cannot live without him. He's the love of my life.' Andy vented while Kat just kept smiling because now her client was finally starting to open up and that couldn't make her prouder. 'And have you told him about the miscarriage?' Kat asked with a gentle voice trying not to perturbate Andy. 'No but I'm I have to. It's time to stop running away.' Andy said firmly.


How will Andy tell Robert the truth?

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