Sorry for any english mistakes but english is not my native language and I hadn't have time to reread the chapter. This is a longer chapter. I hope you like it.
The next morning Andy and Robert were still in the same position they fell asleep the night before. The light coming from the blinds hit Andy's face making her open her eyes slowly. Still sleepy she slowly grabbed her phone which was on the nightstand not moving much cause Robert was still asleep with his head on her chest. She looked at the phone and saw that it was 6 am and then putted it back on the nightstand. She couldn't help but look to the love of her life peacefully sleeping with his head on her chest and one of his hands wrapped around her waist. She missed him so much. His touch, his smell, his arms around her and even his snort, she missed it all. Andy reached Robert's head with one of her hands and started patting it like the old times. She loved to caress his bald head just like he loved to play with her hair. Moments later Robert slowly started to move with his eyes still closed. 'Good morning.' Andy said in a loving voice looking at him. Robert recognized the sweet voice and started to open his eyes slowly while he let out a yawn. Looking up he saw Andy's beautiful sleepy face with her almond eyes and messy wavy hair. 'Good morning.' He said while stretching out and letting out another yawn. 'How are you felling?' She asked worried about him knowing what had happened the day before. 'Sad, frustrated. This was my fault...' He spoke with a broken voice looking at Andy's belly remembering that they could've have had a baby in their arms right now. 'No. Don't do that. This is not anyone's fault. It wasn't just meant to be. That's all.' She said firmly lifting his chin, so they were looking at each other eyes. Andy could see clearly the tears forming in Robert's eyes and that made her fell all that sadness she had been through again. Robert hugged Andy even tightly not wanting to let her go ever again but after some time he stopped cause her remembered they were going to get divorce. After this awkward moment the silence filled the room. 'We got to talk about what happened yesterday.' Andy spoke with a serious and worried face. Last night Robert was so messed up that he broke one of the essential rules on the road to sobriety which was drinking alcohol. He knew that if he drank alcohol, he could have a drug relapse, but he was so messed up at the time that he didn't care. 'Why don't you take a shower, and I will make us some breakfast and then we talk?' She asked with a loving and sweet voice. Robert nodded and let go of Andy's waist so she could get up of the bed. Andy got up and slowly walked her way to the bedroom door while Robert sat on the bed with his back leaning on the bed backboard. He couldn't help but look at how beautiful Andy looked in one of his shirts with all of her curves and messy wavy hair. 'Dam she's so beautiful, and sexy, and hot. Why did I let her go?' Robert thought to himself while he gazed at her without breath. When Andy had finally left Robert got out of the bed and made his way to the bathroom where he turned on the hot water on the shower stripping his clothes before entering. In the meantime, Andy was already downstairs when she remembered she had forgotten her phone on the nightstand, so she went back upstairs to get it. When she entered the room, she went directly to get her phone and when she finally grabbed it and turned around, she was shocked. Her love had forgotten to close the bathroom door while he was taking his shower so Andy could see him perfectly. He was so distracted that he didn't even notice that he had left the door opened. All Andy could do was gaze without breath by seeing the water run to his defined abs and strong arms. Dam she missed him so much. 'Ok Andy you got to stop. You're getting divorced.' She thought to herself while trying to regain her composure and left the room going back downstairs again.
Downstairs Andy was making French toasts and coffee for breakfast and took advantage of the fact that Robert wasn't there to call his sponsor, Dr. Richard Webber, telling him what had happened last night. 'Hey Dr. Webber, this is Andy Herrera. Sorry for calling so early. I don't know if you remember me...' Andy spoke nervously and then was cut off by Richard. 'Hey Andy. Yes, I remember you. Did something happen to Robert?' He asked worried already knowing all Robert's struggles less the miscarriage Andy had. 'Ah...yeah. Last night I told something really bad to Robert which really broke him, and he went to a bar with the guys from 19 and they called me cause he was drinking. This is all my fault. I think he needs to talk to someone fast before he relapses...' She spoke with a broken voice which left Richard thinking how bad it could be the matter to let Robert like that and Andy with a broken voice. 'Ok Andy to help Robert, I need you to tell me what you told him that let him like that.' He asked calmly while hearing Andy breathing in and out through the phone. 'Right after we got separated and I left, one day I felt this sharpy pain in my belly, so I called Meredith and she took me to Grey's Sloan... They told me I had a miscarriage, but I didn't even knew I was pregnant...And I hadn't had the strength to tell Robert until yesterday...This is all my fault...' She spoke while sobbing really hard. Richard was left without words. He knows that there's nothing painful than lose a child. After a few seconds he finally broke the silence. 'I'm so sorry to hear that, Andy. And this is not your fault. You can't blame yourself. This is a thing you can't control. And about Robert it wasn't your fault either. I will talk to him and help him deal with this.' He gave Andy some wise words. After this Andy thanked him and ended up the call.
By now the food already ready and Andy was putting their plates and coffee mugs on the table when Robert came downstairs. 'Hey. It smells good.' He said while walking down the steps in some jeans, sweatshirt, and those black and white Nike air Jordan shoes that he liked a lot. 'Thank you.' She said in a loving voice giving him a little smile hoping that would make him smile too but it didn't work. They sat on the table and ate their breakfast in silence. After they were done eating Andy finally broke the silence that filled the room. 'Hey, are you sure you're ok to go to work today?' She asked worried about him, and he nodded. 'Ok I know you're probably going to be mad at me but I talked to your sponsor and told him about yesterday. I'm worried about you, and you don't talk to me. You need to talk to someone about this and not bubbled up so that's why I told him. He said he was going to come to the station today to talk to you so please talk to him.' She vented giving him all the arguments she had trying to convince him to talk with Richard. After absorbing all of that information he finally nodded and said, 'Ok I will talk to him.'
Andy drove Robert to Station 19 cause he was in no condition to drive and then after leaving him there she made her way to Station 23. On Station 19, Robert went to the lockers room to get dressed in his uniform. He had been promoted to lieutenant again by the new female firechief weeks ago and he felt so good to have his bugles back on his uniform. After he was done, he went to the beanery to get some water and when he got there, he saw Richard and knew this was Andy's doing. 'Hey Robert. Andy told me what happen. She's worried about you, and she asked me for help. Do you want to talk somewhere more private?' Richard started trying to help Robert deal with his problems instead of bubbled up. 'Thank you. We can talk on the roof.' Robert said with a raspy voice from crying all night long. Richard had never seen him like that, his eyes where swollen and red and he had dark circles under his eyes for not being able to sleep much, he looked defeated like a part of him was gone.
On the rooftop, they were leaning against the small wall on the edge of it without saying a word for some minutes until finally Richard broke the silence. 'Andy called me this morning and told me what happened yesterday. I'm sorry Robert.' Richard spoke with a calm voice trying to get Robert to talk but it didn't work cause Robert kept looking at the ground in silence, so Richard continued 'I know you drank shots last night and I can understand what made you act like that, but as your sponsor I'm here to help you. You need to talk to someone or last night will not become the last night where you drown your sorrows on drinks.'. After this Robert finally lifted his head and started talking. 'You're right, but I don't know how to start.' Robert said with a broken voice. 'Just start from the beginning.' Richard encouraged him putting a hand on his shoulder. 'It's just so much at the same time. First me and Andy are getting divorce then I found out she had a miscarriage, so I was going to be a father and she was suffering all this time alone and that probably what cause her miscarriage was the stress we were under because our divorce. It's my fault my baby is dead. If I hadn't got Maya demoted maybe, we were still together with our baby in our arms.' Robert spoke breaking out in tears at the end. 'Don't do that. This is not anybody's fault. It wasn't just meant to be.' Richard said trying to easy Robert's guilt and pain and after a moment of silence he continued trying to give Robert some hope to hold 'And maybe this is what is going to bring you and Andy together again. When she called me, I could hear through her voice how worried she was about you and believe that's love. She stayed with you all night. She stayed by your side. She helped you deal with your pain. And believe if she didn't love you anymore, she wouldn't do that.'. Robert was now in his own world after hearing Richard's words thinking, 'Can this be really true? Can I get back to the love of my life?'.
Later that day when the shift was almost over, Robert went back to the beanery and as he entered, he saw Maya there grabbing her travel coffee mug from the counter and said out loud with a raspy voice, 'Bishop can I have a word with you?', letting everyone else in the beanery shocked. Maya nodded yes and followed him to the roof. On the roof Robert didn't wait any time and started venting. He was completely devastated and there were visible tears in his angry eyes. 'Why didn't you told me she's been going through all of that alone? Why didn't you tell me Andy was suffering?' He said with an angry face while forming his hands into fists. 'What do you mean?' She said confused not understanding what he was talking about. 'Stop lying! I know everything about the baby.' He said with a higher and angriest voice now. 'Baby? What baby?' She spoke as a mix of confusion and shock hit her face. Robert didn't realize that she didn't knew about the miscarriage and continued to yell at her. 'Mine and Andy's baby. She just told me she had a miscarriage while we were separated. How could you let her suffer alone and not tell me anything?!' He spoke angrily while he let a few tears slip through his eyes. 'I didn't knew about this, I swear. She didn't tell me she was pregnant and neither that she had a miscarriage. I'm really sorry, Robert.' She said with teary eyes seeing all the suffering in Robert's eyes. 'And you're gonna tell me you didn't notice anything? She was broken!' He shot back at her. With his words Maya started to have flashbacks where she remembered Andy crying and saying, 'I lost everything.', but Maya thought it was about Robert so she just tried to reassure her that they were gonna be ok by saying 'You will find a way back to each other again and everything is gonna be okay.' but Andy just kept crying. Maya was pushed back from her thoughts with Robert's final words. 'You know she told me you will have her back no matter what happens. But you didn't when she needed you the most.' He said with a broken voice in a lower tone and leaving after it. Maya was now seeing how dumb and bad friend she had been for not understanding what her best friend was going through and that made her feel sad and angry about herself for not being there when Andy needed her the most.
Robert was so devastated that it was like he was in his own world. Walking really fast towards the beanery he didn't saw the firechief going out, so he crashed into her. 'I'm sorry chief. I didn't saw you.' He spoke with a broken voice. She saw how devasted and angry he was, so she took advantage of that and took him to the (bridge over the barn). While this was happening, Andy entered in the station looking for Robert to get him home. She went to the beanery and asked the guys where he was. 'Hey guys have you seen Robert?' Andy asked in a rush while a awkward silence filled the room. Finally, someone decided to break the silence and told Andy where he was. 'Uhm...Yeah you just missed him by seconds. He went with the firechief to that way.' Travis said awkwardly pointing to the corridor that led to the pole area. With this Andy already knew where he was so she made her way to the corridor. Andy was still not there when Natasha, the firechief, hugged Robert for a few seconds, but by the time she got there she saw them in front of each other with too little space between and then out of nowhere Natasha kissed Robert which let Andy speechlessly mad.
How do you think Andy will react to what she just saw?
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I hope you all liked it. I'm going to try update it as soon as I can. See you all next chapter.
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