"Why couldn't he stay dead? His birth certificate should be a joke. Nobody missed Hayes when he died-all he's doing is fucking lives up." Johnny Zacchara thought to himself as he nursed a beer at Jake's that night, trying to listen to whatever Lovett was talking about. It's not that Johnny didn't care but, Lulu Spencer was the only thing that he could think of right now. "I hear you." Johnny nodded, as Lovett finished his sentence."Call my sister. I know you're worried." Ethan wasn't fooled by his best mates act."I don't want to cause any drama." Johnny sighed."You wouldn't be-Dante broke her heart...next time I see that smug asshole? I'm taking him down. Sis is-a wreck. Lulu needs you know more than ever, thankfully Dante let her keep the loft and he moved out. Go see her." Ethan was tired of the cat and mouse games Johnny and Lulu played."Let me know when, I'll put a cap up his ass. Nobody fucks with Lulu Spencer and gets away with it. I'm gonna go check on her-get her some flowers. Thanks Lovett, you're a good friend." Johnny rushes to stand at the mention of Lulu needing him."I try." Ethan shrugged as Johnny left the bar, going to Wyndham's in search of flowers. Once inside the department store he found a bouquet of Yellow Roses and bought them.It had been a hell in a hand basket few weeks for Lulu Spencer...running into Logan with no warning that he'd been resurrected from the dead? Dante cheating on her with his new partner, Delores? She didn't think that she could handle much more excitement...Lulu paces back and forth in the loft trying to control her emotions as there's a knock on the door."Who is it?" She breathed, glad for the distraction."Johnny.""Oh god, you have no idea how good it is to hear you're voice." Her eyes darted to the doorway, where her mobster ex-lover stood, her legs taking off in a run towards him. Johnny caught her in his arms as she wrapped her limbs around his taught, muscular body."I wanted to check on you...I know how difficult this is for you. Have you seen him, yet? Jesus Lu, I'm so fucking sorry. You don't deserve this." Johnny mumbles into her soft, slightly messy mid length blonde hair, as his arms wrapped around her slim frame-pulling his ex-girlfriend into his chest."It was hard...nobody told me he was alive, I thought I'd lost my mind. I was terrified and more than anything? I just wanted to run straight to you-I couldn't. I don't wanna do that to you again, Johnny. If it weren't for me you wouldn't have ever been in Pentonville-you're too smart for prison. Then, I find out Dante's been banging another woman...I just don't feel good. I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with any of this-I just feel like laying down and never standing back up." Lulu mumbled into his neck, tired of fighting the tears she'd kept at bay these past two weeks."Lu...you can't blame yourself for anything that happened back then. Logan was a freak of nature, you did everything you could to help him and everyone knows that. You have a beautiful soul-you're pure. That's part of why I fell in love with you, you care. You've got a big heart. You can ALWAYS come to me, with anything that's on you're mind. If anything is ever too much for you, come to me. You know I'll listen, I'll care, I'll fix it for you if I can. I thought you knew that by know-you've always been my world baby girl. You didn't make me do anything, I didn't want to see you in that place knowing that everything that happened wasn't even you're fault. You were protecting yourself-why should you be punished for that? That's okay, because Falconeri will feel it when you're brother and I put a cap up his ass. Let me take care of you, this is a normal reaction to a high stress situation. Right now, you just need me to hold you while you cry-and it's okay to cry. You can't hold all of this in, it's not good for you." Johnny sighed as he cradled her in his arms, walking her over to the half made bed."Johnny, you're too good to me. I know you don't see it but, you are. That's how I know that you'll never be anything like Anthony-you've got a pure heart. Never change. I'll always let you take care of me, Michael will be relieved. Poor kid's been worried sick about me-wait. Did you buy me flowers? You know you didn't have to do that." Lulu gently looks up into his eyes, tears clung to her cheeks."No, you're too good to me. I know you deserve the best, that's all. It's been harder to not become heartless since Claudia was killed but, being around Kristina and Michael has helped. Their good kids, hard to believe their related to Corinthos. It's Lovett and Abby too-of course, you've always been the main reason I've stayed sane. Always. I just thought you deserved something pretty to look at." Johnny chuckled softly , as they sat on the bed."They are good kids, I'm just sad that they've been through too much that they shouldn't have had to go through. It hurts my heart. Johnny, there was good inside of you before we met-you're mom and Claudia made sure of it. I never got the chance to meet you're mother but, I know that she'd be proud of the man you are today. I know Claudia was, even if she didn't always agree with you. You're a good man Johnny, the only man I've ever been able to fully count on. The only one I could give my heart to. Oh. You mean prettier than Johnny Zacchara? I don't think so, you're sexy ass would have been enough." Lulu softly smiled as she straddled his lap, cupping his face in her hands-not missing the emotions that spilled out onto his cheeks."I'm sorry I uh-I'm not used to anyone saying that their proud of me...I don't hear it often anymore. My mom-I just wish that I'd gotten the chance to have her around...everything got so much harder when she died and Trevor came to live with us. I know that my father never really loved me but, coming to terms with that when you're just a little boy? It hurt. I spent my entire childhood begging him to love me-I just didn't understand why. I still don't but, that means more to me than almost anything. The fact that you can say that without ever knowing her-I know you're right. She would have loved you. Oh? You think my ass is sexy? Spencer-where have you been all my life?" Johnny chuckled, breath hitching as her fingertips gently brushed away the fallen tears."I know-you never deserved to grow up that way. It breaks my heart to just imagine you all alone in that house, how alone you must have felt. I wish I'd met you before I turned cynical but-maybe that's why we understand each other as well as we do. I just don't want you to ever have to feel like that again-unloved. Johnny, you don't even know how loved you are. How you touch people's lives. How you saved mine. Where have you been? I've ALWAYS thought you're ass was sexy. Come on Johnny, you know this." Lulu chuckled, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips knowing how vulnerable he could get when talking about his childhood."You're the most beautiful woman I've ever known...I don't even know what to say, except that I've always loved you. As long as you're around I'll never be alone again, I know that for certain. Oh, yeah?" He smirked not expecting her to kiss him but, happily returning the sentiment-pulling her down beside him as he deepened the kiss, with an involuntary groan."Oh god, I love when you groan like that. It's sexy." Lulu whispered seductively between urgent hot mouthed kisses, pulling him on top of her...needing to feel if he was as turned on as she was. Lulu received a quick swat to her ass in response, whilst Johnny trailed a line of sweet kisses to the side of her neck, earning sighs of pleasure from her."You're god damn beautiful." Johnny roughly whispered along the side of her neck, lightly nipping at the nape of her neck."Please! It's been so long Johnny-too long. I need you-bad. I've been good for far too long, I'm aching to sin." Lulu begged gripping his back knowing that Johnny wanted to fuck her just as bad as she wanted to fuck him."You know I love when you beg-maybe it's time for you to be punished. You weren't made to be a good girl-unless it's my good girl. Always mine." Johnny pulled back to look at her, feeling how bad she wanted him.
