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Fin sat beside Olivia's hospital bed and sighed deeply letting thoughts spin in his head about how he could maybe help her.

I could call Barba... No they're in a bad place right now.

I could call Munch... No his sense of humor and conspiracy theory talk isn't what she needs.

I could call Cassidy they're still friends... No his thick brain and inability to deal with upset people isn't what she needs.

I could call Cragen... Yeah his supportiveness and willingness to listen is exactly what she needs he decided but just as he went to pick up his phone and call him it began to ring.

"Tutuola," he answered through a sigh.

"Tutuola it's McGrath I need you to come back in now," he said sharply.

"I can't chief not yet," Fin said.

"Well it's been 3 and a half hours and Rollins caught a rape she got the Vic's statement but Velasco can't track down the perp by himself."

"If Rollins got the statement already then she can help Velasco."

"No she can't the vic's scared to be alone she's staying at Bellevue with her until her parents get there."

Fin sighed "how old is the vic?"

"17," McGrath said.

Fin sighed "fine I'll be there just give me an hour."

"Make it 30 minutes," he said hanging up quickly and Fin sighed and went to dial Cragen again but stopped dead in his tracks when he heard a commotion outside.

"Olivia Benson... I-I need to see her now I-I need to know where she is and that she's okay," he heard Elliot's panicked voice pleading as his jaw dropped open.

A little more arguing went on that he wasn't able to make out then before he knew it the curtain was rushing open "Liv I'm here sweetheart I'm here sweetheart I'm so so sorry I'm okay I promise!" he said quickly while almost out of breath.

Fin stood from his chair and gave him a hard right hook to his upper cheek "you fucking bastard! You fucking no good selfish bastard..."

"I-I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry..." Elliot said repeatedly as he stumbled back not defending himself.

Fin shook his head "I should beat your ass," he said.

"I deserve it," he whispered and Fin nodded "damn right you do!"

Elliot nodded slightly and they stood facing each other in an extremely tense silence "is everything good in here? Should I call security?" a nurse asked a couple minutes later.

"No no we're good," Elliot whispered.

"What happened to your face?"

"Nothing, it's nothing I'm fine really."

She frowned "it looks like your cheek bone could be broken it needs to be X-rayed."

"I'm fine," he whispered.

The nurse just nodded her head, hung Liv's saline then left the room "I have to go fucking McGrath called me back in you better not leave though Elliot," Fin said.

"I won't," he whispered.

"You better not," he warned.

"I swear to god I won't."

"Good," he said flatly as he quickly left the room and Elliot took a seat in the chair that Fin had abandoned, wincing at the pain in his bruised torso as once he found a halfway comfortable position to sit in he gently took Liv's hand in his, stroked it over and over with his thumb and stroked her hair with his free hand as a couple rebellious tears fell out of his eyes.

An hour passed that way with her still sedated and his hands not stopping their motions once but eventually his phone rang and he sighed and moved his hand from her hair to take it "Stabler," he whispered.

"Elliot did you get anything from Bridget?" Bell asked.

"I haven't talked to her," he whispered.

"Why not? The longer we wait the more of a head start he gets."

"I have more important things to deal with at the moment."

"You're still on clock detective and you made an oath to protect and serve so that's what I expect you to do."

"I'm not going back in right now Olivia had a heart attack after hearing the radio call and I'm staying with her through this and through her recovery. If you don't like that feel free to fire me I don't care I'm done working 24-7 for you and getting dragged in to assignments so deep that I don't have time for the people I love."

"Ohh my god is she gonna be okay?"

"Physically yeah I think she will be but mentally I don't know yet she hasn't woken up since I've been here."

Bell nodded slightly "please Elliot, please just finish this case through and I promise you I'll scale your work back when you return."

"I'm not leaving the hospital Ayanna and if I'm being truthful with you even if I wanted to I couldn't I'm having a bit of a vision issue at the moment."

"What kind of vision issue?"

"My left eye's a little blurry."

"Oh shit did you hit your head when you were shot? You didn't Minchin that?"

"No, no I didn't listen I need to go."

"Okay," she said finally relenting "just please make sure you get it looked at. Send captain Benson my love I'll be in touch," she said hanging up and he sighed in relief, turned his phone off so he couldn't be disturbed again then let his hand gently strum back into Olivia's hair.

Another half hour passed before Olivia finally awoke as since her head was face down on the pillow he didn't notice until he felt her body tense and jerk slightly then heard the sound of her devastated sobs "Liv? Liv hey I'm here baby I'm right here shhhh," he soothed.

"Y-You're not real t-this is a trick y-you can't be real..."

"I'm real honey I promise you I'm real and right here," he whispered as he gently squeezed her hand "you feel that baby? It's my hand. It's my hand in yours."

"A-Am I in heaven with you? I-I thought people didn't feel pain in heaven a-and my chest still hurts..."

Elliot's heart cracked as a couple more tears streamed down his cheeks "no baby, no we're not in heaven do you think you can roll over for me?"

She shook her head slightly and he frowned "why not?"

"B-Because if this is a dream I don't wanna wake up."

"You're not dreaming honey I promise. Do you trust me?"

She nodded "more than anyone in the world."

Elliot nodded "then roll over baby. I'll even keep holding your hand."

She nodded slightly and did it slowly as it hurt to move but as soon as she was to where she could see him she immediately flung her arms around his neck "El... Oh El thank god you're alright... T-Thank god I-I thought I was never gonna see you again..."

Elliot held her close to him and rocked them both back and forth gently not even caring about the pain he was in "I'm so sorry this happened baby. So so sorry I'm safe, I'm safe the radio call you heard was fake I'm safe."

She nodded several times and was quiet as he steadily rocked them "W-Why didn't you warn me Elliot? I-It hurt to hear it so much..." she cried a few minutes later as she was still holding on to him tightly.

"I didn't have the time to. Not before hand it was all happening to fast I had to get to safety before I could do anything else."

"D-Did Donnelly hurt you?"

"He tried to. I had my vest on though."

"H-He shot you?"

"A couple of his guys did. I had my vest on though," he emphasized again.

Olivia loosened her hold on him so she wouldn't hurt him "who were they? I'll hurt them."

"They're in the tombs sweetheart you can't hurt them besides you're probably gonna be here for a little while anyway."

"W-Why?"

He rubbed her back "because Fin said you had a mild heart attack and you told me your chest still hurts."

She nodded slightly and he kissed her temple "can I put you down and page your doctor?"

Olivia nodded and he did that quickly "are you gonna have to leave El?" she asked while looking down.

Elliot shook his head "absolutely not you're stuck with me Benson, for the long hall."

"Oh?" she asked surprised.

Elliot nodded "I told Bell that I'm staying with you while you're here and that I'll be taking off to be with you through your recovery."

"You don't have to do that El really I can take care of myself."

He nodded "lets just see what your doctor suggests alright?"

"Okay," she said with a slight smile and he smiled "let me make one thing clear though, either way I'm taking some time off I'm serious about us Liv and I'm done letting my job get in the way."

"Y-You don't have to do that El I know how important the job is to you."

"It's not more important than you baby and it's not like I'm quitting I'm just taking a bit of vacation time then stopping going undercover once I'm back."

"A-Are you being serious El?" she asked hopefully.

"Sure am although there is one type of undercover case I could never refuse."

"What kind is that?" she asked hesitantly.

He began stroking her hair again "one where we're under together of course," he whispered and she smiled brightly just as the doctor entered the room.