Bending Dreams (Rewrite)
Chapter 6
Sitting on the edge of a tall building my legs swinging back and forth freely beneath me, I bit at my lower lip a bit nervously, as my head turns to the boy sitting beside me my yellow eyes sort of hooded as I watch him stare blankly in front of him, I was sure he didn't even notice me sitting there even when his teal eyes cast over to me the blank look staying glued to his pale face, it was like I was a ghost, or invisible, or something because he quickly turns his head back towards the village in front of us remaining quiet, my right eye easily spotting the huge red scar on the left side of his forehead the scar easily spelling out the word 'love'
I constantly play over in my head what I needed to tell him, heck it took me so long just to find him only to find him sit down beside him, and not say nothing. I guess if the sand village wasn't a complete mess it would have been easier to find him. Most buildings had been completely destroyed others knocked over, lose debris covered the streets, it never crossed my mind on how the village got in such bad shape, all that was going through my mind was finding him and, having to tell him I had to leave him.
But how do you tell someone who's a friend that you've been ordered to leave them? Or else be killed by Anbu black ops members? Especially knowing once you leave him the bad treatment he had been through may increase. The bullying the hatred, the name-calling, everything he faced beforehand. And, even if I used my ice shield for a defense I couldn't keep it up a long period of time especially against a whole squid of highly skilled ninjas, who were more than capable of killing me if my shield were to fail and.
I wasn't about to count on Kavik for help, due to the Shikoku draining his chakra Kavik was week right now, he couldn't even move around let alone get up enough chakra to fight anyone, he wasn't even able to take over my body right now, I let out a sigh as my eyes stare out at the huge village in front of me, taking in every bit of damage that had been done to it, it really looked horrible.
But why should I care? I was being ordered to leave the distress of the village didn't concern me, casting the boy another glance I inhaul a deep breath it was now or never time I guess I had to tell him I had to say goodbye.
"Gaar..." I begin but pause when his cold eyes glare over at me, making me go quiet again, the murderess look in his teal eyes causing a small lump to form in my throat If I were anyone else I would have already took off running.
"Shut up!" He hissed angrily a dark look coming over his face as he looks away from me, my head turning down to look at my hands.
"But.." I start lowly not risking another glance up at him even when I feel his cold eyes glare back at me again.
"Tell me Sheria!?" Gaara starts up, his voice drenched in venom as he spoke making my body shiver. I never heard him speak up so aggressively towards me before, so it really surprised me.
"You were just pretending to weren't you!?" He asked in an almost demanding tone though despite his tone I could hear just a tad bit of hurt in his voice he hid his pain well.
"Pretended what?" I question unsurely my eyes barely peeking over at him from my lashes.
"You never was my friend!" he states angrily his fist clenched at his side as he spoke small shifts of sand whirling around his body as his anger seemed to grow "You were just pretending weren't you?!"
"You think I would pretend to be your friend huh?" I ask in a quiet voice, my own voice holding some hurt in it.
Why would I pretend? I told him about something that if anyone found out I could be killed, I swore to my siblings I would never tell anyone about Kavik.
Yet I trusted him with my clan secret granted I didn't tell him everything about Kavik like how he was created or anything, but still, I trusted him with knowing, and, aside from that. The most important thing to me. Was that he was my first real friend. Why would I pretend to be friends with someone when I never had a friend in my old home?
When I knew perfectly well how he felt? How it felt to have something sealed inside me? How it felt to be pushed away? and, mocked for something I didn't choose? Why would I pretend that for?
"I don't think!... I know!" he snaps angrily, as he stands up, angry tears streaming down his cheeks, his eyes continuing to glare daggers at me or that's what it felt like.
Standing up from my spot on the building, a cold hurt look coming over my face as I stare back at him, holding his intense icy glare with my eyes, even though I was able to hold his cold eyes, I could not keep the shivers from going up my spine those eyes that once held so much emotion, now only held one thing hatred my body shook as I continued to stare into his eyes trying to find any sign of other emotions, I found none.
"I wasn't pretending" I mumble lowly my eyes tearing away from him to look at the ground "I care for you" I put in.
"Stop lying, I'm tired of people saying they care, only for them to turn around and betray me" he growls angrily "I don't need you leave! Or I'll kill you!"
I peek over at him unable to control the hurt that comes to my face. Fresh tears building up in the back of my eyes though I keep them back I didn't want to cry, maybe he found out I was leaving, and this was his reacting? It hurt me badly somehow.
"I would never pretend" I mumble lowly not once looking back at him. Just feeling his eyes on me was enough I didn't need to see the hatred in his eyes now I could fill it just fine without looking.
"Just shut up!" he snarls as his hands grab hold of his head like he had a bad headache or something, a painful grunt comes from his lips, as he casts his eyes to the ground more painful grunts coming from his lips.
Frowning over at him, I can't help the slight concern that comes over me, why did I care if he was in pain? He hated me it shouldn't concern me, but it did, it really did, more then I wanted it to, I walk closer to him putting a gentle hand on his shoulder feeling him slightly tense, his head snapping up to look at my hand.
"Are you alright?" I ask carefully trying to keep the concern out of my voice.
Gaara quickly shrugs my hand off his shoulder, his cold eyes once again glaring back into my yellow one's, making me look away from him once more and gaze back at the ground.
"Why?" He asked the anger in his voice sort of dying down the sand that swirled around him falling to his feet harmlessly, "I don't understand"
"I don't either" I mumble in a hushed voice, my yellow eyes hooding as I cast an eye up at him not sure on what to say next, what do you say to someone who thinks you were just pretending?
I needed to hurry up and tell him I had to go my time to do so was running out, but I didn't want him mad at me again I just got him calmed down, though he still held a cold look in his eyes, his face completely blank of any emotions that I was able to tell.
"You weren't pretending?" He asked lowly his voice holding very little emotions matching his blank face, as he spoke.
"No" I simply reply my head shaking at his words "I was looking for you all day, you know"
"How could I believe you?" He questions his eyes narrowing at me unsurely. "When everyone else has betrayed me?"
"I'm still standing here despite you threatening to kill me" I point out chessliy. "If I was pretending I would have already run of"
A silence falls over us. Gaara turning his head to look at the ground.
"Gaara..." I begin hesitantly, I just got him calmed and there was no telling how he would react to what I had to tell him next, lifting his head up at my voice Gaara stares back at me the blank look still glued on his face.
"You're not going to like what I have to tell you..." I start lowly hooding my eyes once again. "But I need to tell you.."
Gaara remains silent his eyes barely narrowing at my words.
"I um I have to leave the village," I say quickly, "I um..."
"Just when I was starting to believe you cared" he growls cutting me off a dark look coming over his face the sand around his feet starting to swirl around him again pushing slightly against my body.
"I do care" I protest sharply stepping back from him slightly.
"Then why are you leaving!?" He explodes dangerously my head going back to the ground.
"I..its...ha..rd..to..explain" I stutter under my breath
Sneering darkly at me Gaara quickly vanishes into a cloud of sand leaving me standing on the top of the tall building alone, I stand there in shock watching the spot he had once been standing in hoping he would come back but as the day seemed to go on he never came back inhaling a deep sigh.
I make my way to the exit of the village, at a solemnly slow pace, almost daring the sand shinobi to attack me I was more than willing to let them kill me, just to rid the pain, hanging my head, as I reach the gates I stop short of the exit, my head turning back towards the village behind me.
'Bye Gaara' I think internally before turning back around and running out of the village.
