Present Day
Amber had started crying thinking about the night of the accident. The night that changed her life completely.
Will moved closer to Amber and wrapped his arm around her to pull her close to him. "You don't have to keep going."
Jay laid a hand Amber's leg. "But if you want to continue we are right here." Amber slowly nodded her head. She signaled for Will to move over.
Amber moved closer to Will and patted the bed for Jay to come join them. Jay crawled up to the headboard laying on his side so he could see Amber. Will copies Jay by laying on his side to look at Amber who is laying on her back.
Amber is staring up at the ceiling trying to get her mind together for the trauma she was about to remember.
"The next thing I remember is waking up in a hospital bed."
Flashback
3 days since the accident
Amber forced her eyes open and going into a panic mode because something was down her throat and she felt as if she couldn't breath.
All of Amber's movement and sounds she was making woke Matthew Casey up. He jumped and ran over to Amber's bedside. "Amber you are okay look at me." Matt forced Amber to keep her head still. "You are okay. Relax."
Matt pressed the call button for a nurse while Matt made Amber continue to look at him. Trying to bring her some peace. A nurse came in and saw Amber was awake. She then called for a doctor.
Amber was soon surrounded by two nurses and a doctor. Casey was holding her hand. They set up to remove the tube from Amber's throat. A towel is placed on her chest and bucket is placed on top of it. The doctor does his countdown and once he hit 3 Amber blew out as hard as she could.
The tube came right out and was taken away by one of the nurses while the other held the bucket. Amber threw up a couple times but soon was okay. She laid her head back on the pillows her chest going up and down while she tries to regain her normal breathing rhythm.
Once Amber calmed down she looked at the doctors and nurses in the room. "What happened?"
The doctor and nurses look directly at Matt causing him to walk closer to Amber. "You were in a nasty car accident."
The events just before the wreck flash across her mind causing her to blurt out asking about Kelly. "Where is Kelly? Is he okay?" Amber was looking around the room as if she was searching for him.
Matt makes Amber look at him and no where else. "Kelly is fine." A bit of relief flashed in Amber's eyes. "He is at home already."
Why isn't he here? was all Amber could think about. We are suppose to be parents soon. Amber is trying to keep herself together at this point. Why would he not be here?
Amber's doctor stepped forward to shed some light on the situation. "Amber I hate to have to be the one to tell you this but unfortunately you had a miscarriage." Amber felt like a glass ceiling had broke and was falling down around her. "Amber you should also know you flatlined on the table several times. You are very lucky to be alive so keep that in mind."
The doctors and nurses left the room leaving Matt to hold on tight to Amber's hands. "He feels guilty. He is blaming himself for your guys miscarriage and for you almost dying several times."
"But it's not his fault. It just wasn't meant to be." Amber started to look up at the ceiling trying to calm her racing mind.
Casey shot off a quick text to Kelly.
M: Amber is awake and asking about you. Are you coming to see her?
K: I can't Casey. I am the reason she is in that hospital bed.
M: Well right now she is having a panic attack because you are not here. Now put your pants on and get up here.
No response.
M: Do not make me call Andy.
K: Alright. Be there soon.
Matt shoved his phone back into his pocket and continued to do ever calming thing he could think of to get Amber to relax.
Kelly arrived at the hospital and headed up to Amber's room. Kelly's hands were shaking as he got closer. Kelly reached the door and took a deep breath before stepping into her room.
When Kelly entered the room Matt was sitting next to her holding onto Amber's hand tightly. Amber was facing up mumbling something. Kelly walked closer and sat on the edge of Amber's bed.
"Amber I'm here. It's going to be okay."
Amber finally looked down when she heard Kelly's voice. "You came."
"Of course I did." Kelly flashes her a smile and takes one of her hands with his. "how are you doing?"
"Better now that your here."
Kelly had Amber move over so he could lay next to her. He wrapped an arm around her shoulder and pulled her close to his chest.
Amber took in the familiar smell of Kelly's cologne and felt safe. Amber broke down crying into Kelly's chest. They had lost their baby and it hurt so much more than either of them thought it could.
Present Day
Amber wipes away the tears she had started to shed thinking about the little one she never got to meet or hold. Jay had laid one of his arms across Amber's hips, he gave her hip a little squeeze and pulled her closer
Amber more than happily curl into Jay's chest. Will was rubbing her back as she cried. Amber continued to cry but eventually regained her composure. She lays back down but she was still right next to Jay with his arm across her hips.
"After I got out of the hospital everything changed...
Flashback
Kelly brought Amber back to the place he shared with Andy and Matt. She had gotten the news that she would have to restart the fire program due to how much she missed. Amber was feeling completely broken.
It has been 3 weeks after the car accident. Amber barely left Kelly's room. He would leave for the fire academy in the morning and then come back and she was still in the same spot.
Kelly had had enough of Amber's sulking around. He dropped his bag on his desk before going over and pulling the covers off her. "Amber come on it's time to get up. Time to move forward."
Amber was curled into a ball not really moving but she slowly looked up at Kelly. "Move forward?" Amber's eyes were completely blood shoot. "We lost our unborn child! I got kicked out of the academy! And you get to go about like nothing ever happened!"
"I understand! Don't you think I'm upset about the miscarriage too?!"
Amber sighed. "You don't act like it."
"How am I suppose to act Amber?! Am I suppose to curl up on the bed next to you and cry for weeks on end?!"
Amber suddenly got to her feet to get in Kelly's face. "You get to live your life and mine is crumbling!"
"I don't know what you want me to do!" Kelly took a breath before speaking again. "You've changed Amber."
"I'm sorry the traumatic experience we both had is an inconvenience to your life! I'm sorry I've changed due to what we just went through!"
Amber started to collect the items in Kelly's room that was hers throwing them
into a bag. "Amber where are you going?"
"Back to my apartment. I can't do this anymore." Amber went into the bathroom to collect her items.
"Amber no stay. I'm sorry. I just don't know what you want me to do." Kelly was so confused and hurt. He didn't know what had just happened.
Amber came back into the bedroom and dropped her bathroom stuff in the bag. "I don't know either Kelly! You could of just been there for me! You could of said something encouraging about being dropped from the program but no you said that sucks. Yes it does suck! All of this sucks!"
Amber picked up her bag and left Kelly's room. Kelly follows her to the door and pushed it closed before she could leave. "Don't leave. I need you." Kelly's voice cracked as he tried to contain his emotions.
Amber closed her eyes and sighed. "Your to late."
Kelly drops his hand from the door and Amber opens it and walks out. Amber headed home and Kelly went to his room to cry. All of this was his fault. I ran that red light. And now I've lost a women who I truly loved because I suck at sharing my emotions.
"... My emotions were all over the place. I had left a few things at Kelly's that I had forgotten about. I went back a few days later and was going to talk to him but the there was this blonde who was wearing one of his shirts and nothing else was standing there. I grabbed my stuff and booked a flight to New York. Started medical school and met Will."
"It sounds like somethings were said in the heat of the moment. Why did you leave Kelly?"
Amber sat and thought for a moment, she had realized years ago that she had no reason to leave Kelly. If she would of just spoken up and said what she needed from him. "I don't have one."
"Maybe you should try talking to him. Where alcohol is not involved." Jay gave her a little smirk.
"Maybe but right now I am tired." Amber slipped off her shirt and pants. This was something the brothers were use too.
"Go to sleep princess. We've got you." Jay pulls her close so he can place a kiss to her temple.
The brothers always waited till she was dead asleep before they slipped out of her room. Will would always go to bed in the guest room. Jay always snuck back into Amber's room.
Jay would strip down to his boxers and climb into bed with Amber. She immediately felt his body warmth and curled up right to him. Jay would wrap her in a hug and pull her close. Their bodies meshing together like a perfect puzzle piece.
