Thank you all for the reviews I was not expecting this many to read this! I promise if gets better from here. Sorry for not posting for a few days I have been very busy getting ready for school.
Erin's POV
As I pull up outside my apartment I can see the front room light on, signalling that the babysitter is watching tv and Hallie is in bed. I slowly make my way to the door, everything has been dragged out of me today I have nothing left I just want to go to bed and cry.
As I shut the door quietly Molly (babysitter) turns her head around looking at me. She frowns for second seeing my facial expression.
"Hi. Um Hallie was good she went to bed at 8 and hasn't woke since. Are you ok?" She says
"Ok great thankyou for looking after her. I'm doing ok thankyou."
"I can stay the night and watch her if you want to just get a break from everything."
"Thank you Molly, but it's ok, time with her is probably the best thing for me at the moment. I'll pay you tomorrow when I am rested."
"No stress. See you tomorrow?"
"Uh depends on work. I'll let you know"
"Ok no worries, bye Erin"
"Bye Molly."
As she leaves I turn of all the lights and head upstairs. I pop my head into her room and smile for the first time today. I decide I want to be near her tonight. I go to her bed and crawl in beside her.
"Hi baby" I say starting to sniffle.
"Mommy missed you. I hope you had a good day at daycare and with Molly, she said you were very good, I'm so proud of you, you have adapted to so much to suit my life, and I can't be more grateful to have you as my daughter. I had a difficult day today, it was alright at the start just normal paperwork stuff, but then something happened with your daddy..." I start to trail off thinking of the recent events with my eyes burning. I shut them and slowly drift off.
Will's POV
As I sit on the couch I go over everything in the past few weeks in my head. Where did it get this bad? What was the trigger? How long had he'd been feeling like this? All of a sudden I hear a voice.
"I can hear you thinking, your doing it that hard. What's going on up there?" Her voice soft and sweet.
"I just... I dunno how it got to this Nat, like what am I supposed to do now?" I look down at her head laying on my lap.
"Will, your brother doesn't show emotions easily you knew that, you didnt miss anything, he just didn't show it."
"Yeah I guess"
I sit there and just stare at the tv. After the phone call I got tonight from Erin, it's like my whole world has come crashing down and now I'm just swimming in all of it. Maybe I should call her and see how she is. But then again it's close to midnight and she's probably exhausted. Even though she didn't get married to my brother I still consider her a sister.
"Nat?"
"Yeah"
"Can we go for a drive?"
"Where? It's midnight."
"Anywhere, I just need to get out of this apartment."
"Ok babe, what ever you think is going to help you get past it."
We get in the car and drive, I don't know how long for but Nat fell asleep so we went back. I didn't sleep though, I can't not after all of this.
Hank's POV
As I call each team member back to the bullpen to update them on everything, I decide to let Erin stay at home.
Once everyone has arrived I start,
"Thankyou guys for coming back in, I know it's late and all but this is important. As well as I prefer to tell you guys face to face."
"What's going on boss?" Adam questions me
"Tonight something happened involving Jay and Erin. Erin is fine she might be a little shaken up but she'll be fine. Jay on the other end not so much."
"What! What happened." Adam starts yelling
"Ruzek, enough for not yell, I am not allowed to tell you full details yet as I do not know them all my self. But once I do you'll be the first to know. All I know is that it had something to do with the reason Jay hasn't been coming to work lately and his mental health."
I do know in fact what happened but I want to wait until Erin in back to help tell them so I don't miss anything.
"I just wanted to tell you all so you know why Erin might be out of it for a few days."
Jay's POV
What the hell have I done. I can't believe I was about to consider it. I can't thank her for showing up though because she is the one that caused it, the only reason I stopped those thoughts when I saw her was because I saw my daughter in her. What would she tell Hallie, that her father who she's just met just gave up, what kind of person would she think I am.
All I feel right know is anger, guilt, and pain. As I lay in this hospital bed being monitored I realise that this is the point where I need to decide what to do with my life.
Option 1. Be there for my daughter and be the best I can be to show her who I am truly and work at intelligence showing her I am still strong no matter what.
Option 2. Give up and quit my job and just leave the crazy behind.
As I'm going over the pros and cons of each the doctor walks in.
"Jay nice to see you up and at it."
"I wouldn't say that, but when can I get out of here?"
"You'll be discharged tomorrow, we aren't going to force anything on you but we strongly suggest you see someone about you head. We know you have suffered from PTSD episodes before, and we want to stop this before it gets to that, ok."
"Yep. Thanks doc."
"No worries, rest up and starting thinking about how you want to go about your life."
After he leaves the true decision making begins.
I'm sorry if it's kind of short, I just wanted it to get done as it was more of a filler episode.
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