Chapter 8: Left Alone

I shot to the area where I expected Frieza to arrive.

Kakarott's weakling friends all showed up. I caught sight of Piccolo and told him in my mind "that I love him, that I didn't manage to become Super Saiyajin. But will protect him from Frieza. Piccolo get yourself to safety." He shakes his head and telepathically says, "that he certainly won't let me fight alone." I'm not comfortable with this. Can understand though, it's going to be tough in any case. We'll probably need every one of the weaklings, too. We can do it! At least that's what I try to tell ourselves. We look at each other, I would like to pull him to me, but he stays where he is. Sends me his love, but gathers his thoughts to arm himself for the fight and yes it's not a bad idea, from him.

The next few hours are a shock. The new Saiyajin makes me angry. Stunned how such a boy, can become Super Saiyajin in front of me. I almost go crazy, Piccolo admonishes me. To keep calm. But I snort and notice how the boy looks at me. I growl.

Piccolo stays cool, asks the stranger questions, some of which he gets answered. Kakarott is supposed to arrive in 3h.

Then Kakarott arrived, as predicted by the stranger after 3h, but before he lands, the feeling came back. I shake it off and repress it and now in hindsight, believe me! I hated myself for not taking off the first time in my life. Why didn't I take my companion with me and just leave!

Still hate myself for it today. But how was I to know that my happy time had come to an end, because the feeling remained even where Kakarott landed. The feeling grew stronger when Kakarott didn't recognize the boy, the feeling when they spoke, the feeling that something was breaking. My happiness was banished and I did not understand. What had happened?

The only thing in my life so far that I was sure of was that he was not shutting me out. But Piccolo locks me away, since that day we have not seen each other or talked.

And if the feeling of loneliness wasn't enough, he shatters my heart into a thousand pieces. When he prefers to train with Gohan and Kakarott and then after a few weeks actually came and said to me. He would rather want to be there with them. And yet he sees Gohan as his companion. That had shown him the time without me. I was shocked. Blocked him immediately. Notice that he did it again long ago. I was angry and felt helpless, lonely. I still could not understand what and how it came to this. Feel badly hurt even though I didn't even have a scratch from that day. Only my pride took me away from Piccolo. I didn't want to show him how much he hurt me. Den if the Frieza time taught me one thing that I should not show weakness to survive.

How I survived the next months and even years. I honestly do not know. Maybe it was because of the last hope that I could defeat Kakarott and Gohan as a Super Saiyajin after all. This fact gave me the drive. And yes, I trained myself almost to death. Because, yes a Gravity Room can explode, but only the woman cares. My former partner stayed away. And I got more and more frustrated and took my temper out on the biefs. I even felt sorry for the people around me myself. Admittedly, I never did, but the smart blonde woman realized that it was not against her personally. She gave me a bottle of wine one evening with the words. This helps against lovesickness and other feelings. Us yes, there was nothing so good in space, it helped a little. Alcohol may numb my brain, but my heart, it remained lonely and sick. Even the blue haired woman tried to lift my mood and sometimes kept me company drinking. She was also heartbroken because of her weakling. More than a few words had never been between the blue haired woman and me, just a little black animal. Crept into my heart by the way. But it was a clever little fellow. Since no one knew about it.