Chapter 9: Running away from oneself
It had been 2 years since Piccolo left me. It was time for a party again according to Panchy. Yes, you read correctly. Panchy. She is actually worthy of her name and takes care of me and provides for me. I think I would have surely starved without her.
To Frieza's favorite punishment was certainly, no food for me, the hardest punishment and certainly the reason why I am not as big as I might have become. But well, I should be frustrated at myself for punishing myself now, for the inability to become Super Saiyajin and for the inability to have my partner with me. Because had I, been strong enough back then, I would have taken him with me then, I hate myself the most for that. By now I actually knew that even hate and alcohol is not a good combo,
When I then, at the party meet my former partner and he, full of Gohan stinks! It broke my last hold, disgusts me and I drink too much and eat once again Zuwenig, break down. Bulma found me when I left the party and asks me to take her safely to her room. She also made self-pity booze, as the blue harpy says about it. Still tells me she's jealous as hell of Chichi. Since at least Kakarotts mate has a great sex life now thanks to her. The pill works for Chichi and that they have a lot of sex now. That's why Gohan trains alone with Piccolo more often and trained together outside and spend the night.
The nausea takes over me. To imagine that soon Gohan and Piccolo will also be companions. It makes me full end collapse. The woman gave me another drink in her room and I drank it gratefully. I just didn't want to feel anything anymore, just forget. When I woke up, I realized that my wish had come true. I don't remember anything, unfortunately only everything after the last drink.
I only notice that I woke up naked. With a killer headache. Which I never had before because of alcohol. Bulma next to me. I have to throw up. What have I done? I smell her, disgust myself, and I flee. Yes, the prince of all Saiyajin escapes. Run to my room, grab my spaceship and leave Earth. Refueled it was, after all. Also my wish for 2 tanks with new engine for space fuel I ordered white before at Panchy companions.
I consider briefly whether I say goodbye at least to Panchy. The shame is however too large. I leave without saying goodbye. But one last time I try to reach Piccolo. But the connection is still closed. I can't blame him now. I feel so ashamed.
My thoughts continue to circle to last night. I swallow, as Saiyajin mentally have to agree to breed. Shouldn't I be worried about the woman, right? Especially since I had actually told her this weeks ago. I was frustrated and drunk. Yes, I reported to Bulma that I was unhappily in love. She does not know who, but that he wanted to grow up, with his companions and swore never to leave him alone. The companions do not leave each other. Especially when they have children together. But afraid that now there could be an obvious proof, of his infidelity, he still. He hated these possible facts and he hated himself for his betrayal.
He also asks himself the question. Was it even a betrayal if Piccolo left him? Was the two of them even salvageable now. He felt hopeless and lonely. So he left Earth, with no destination and he didn't know where to go at first. He just wanted to leave, but then he saw the scouter. Was the Scouter his salvation? Or did he help with his redemption? He wished, as he had not wished for a long time in his life, that he had been on Planet Vegeta on the day of destruction and that he had been destroyed together with the planet.
But still he entered the coordinates that no longer belonged to any planet. Because he wanted to see it one last time. At least what was left of it.
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