How did it happen? How could I have let this happen? What's happening to my body?

I'm seeing everything happening, I can hear their words, I can hear my thoughts. But I can't move, my mouthpiece can't move. It's like something else has taken control of my body.

Wait, maybe someone...

Wait, I only hear my voice. It's so quiet. I don't get it. Where is the spirit's voice? Where is my mother's voice?

This doesn't make sense. That day when I witnessed Prime's rebirth, when I used the last bit of juice from the Forge, something happened to me. I felt a change happen inside my internal systems. It's like the Matrix did something to the gem inside my chestplate, the spirit's voice was a lot louder, his own urge and desperation to fight was stronger. I can hear it's disgruntled moan's and angered voice much more than before, the spot on my chestplate grew hotter than ever before. Luckily, no one noticed, no one at the base seemed to realize that something was off. I kept it under the radar, I've kept him hidden, I pretended everything was alright and normal once again.

I just can't silence him. And I can feel it's power spreading throughout my internal systems like a fresh battery, the power of my gem seems to be stronger now. I can still feel the pain when the spirit erected from my chestplate, I wouldn't be surprised if my gears and internal wires were burnt a bit. But wait, I have the power to heal. Oh great, I just now remember that? And I just wasted what little power was left in the Forge when I could've healed Prime?

Some soldier I'm turning out to be.

So, since I'm thinking words instead of saying them, then that must mean the spirit has taken over. I wonder if she's in here, where ever here is anyway. Am I in some purgatory? Or in some kind of spiritual world or is this one of those out of body experiences? I wonder...

Mom, can you hear my thoughts? I haven't been able to hear you since before my wedding day. Man, I need you so much right now. So, so much. I don't understand any of this, I can't control him, I have no idea what I'm doing. You came to me that one day when Bianna was hurt, you guided me to heal her. Why can't you guide me on how to control him? You've never abandoned me before, please don't tell me you did this time!

Someone! Please hear me! Please! Someone's gotta hear my voice!

"I can't...control..."

So I can speak, but it's so exhausting. I feel like I just got done with a huge battle, barely surviving with my spark. Even so, those are my words, but that's not my voice print.

"Dad!"

"DON'T! DON'T COME NEAR ME, STEELE! YOU'LL GET HURT!" I screamed the most static and shrilling voice print I've ever heard. That's not me. That's not my voice. But those are my words...I'm scared...no way...he wouldn't dare hurt Steele.

Wait, what is he doing? Why is he fighting his mother? Don't let go of him, Tier! He's...he's coming towards me...he can't help..stop...stop...STOP

No, don't hurt my son! Don't make me hurt my son!

...Thank Primas...Thank Primas you came with me Parate...you saved my boy...I'll have to thank you for that brother...

He's safe...she's safe...the very thought of harming him is like freshly forged daggers being thrusted into my spark. I would never hurt my boy. I would never hurt my mate. Right? I mean, this entity is a part of me, he sees what I see, he must know how important they are to me. I treasure both of them above my own life, I'd do anything to keep them safe.

Maybe that's why I did it.

Shockwave was making a run for the remains of a Predacon, and I know my spirit can heal my wounds, and Parate told me it can protect me. I thought that, if it protected me, maybe it will project some sort of force field and keep Shockwave away. He wouldn't have anymore samples, he wouldn't be able to make anymore Predacons. We could, actually, score another win. Man, it would be awesome if we could counter the Con's Predacon with one of our own, or that we could prevent that mad scientist from making more.

But I wanted to stop Shockwave, I wanted to protect and save us, I wanted us to make it back. And we did. Luckily, he followed Optimus Prime's orders like my own, so he understands to follow orders.

But, why can't I control him? I, barely, have any control over my own body. I can't feel anything, I can't respond, I can't do anything. What's happening to me?

My spark...

Mom? Mom!? Help me, Mom! I can't control him!

Relax, son. You are fighting him, you still have fear in your spark and that gives him power. If you continue down this path, he will never let go. Let me take control. I can help you.

But how?

You trust me, don't you?

What kind of question is that?

Have I ever let you down before? Be honest.

No, never.

Then let me take control. My carrier taught me how to control him. But you must allow me to download into your system. It's just temporary, long enough to make this end. You will...just be in power down mode. I can make this all end and no one else gets hurt.

Ok. But, if this backfires, do whatever you need to do so I don't hurt Tier and Steele. Don't let him hurt them.