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What Do You Want?
Setting: Post, "Michael" episode of Glee, Mercedes is still with Shane. Sam asks Mercedes for a study date. But can anything be kept innocent when it comes to these two?
The tension between them was so thick you could cut it with a knife.
Mercedes was sitting in a prone position on her bed, feet sticking up in the air and a textbook in her lap. She was trying to focus on her Spanish textbook, but couldn't help herself from glancing over at Sam every few minutes. He was currently sitting at her desk, facing away from her, chewing on a pencil eraser.
Her gaze subconsciously wandered to his mouth. Each tiny action he made distracted her; just the sight of his teeth poking out from his plump lips threw her mind in the gutter. It reminded Mercedes of every time his teeth had grazed her skin, the way he would suck and nip at her collarbone, the times he had clenched his teeth to suppress his gasps. An old memory surfaced, of Sam 's breath on her neck and his fingers down her jeans. She shivered at the memory.
That incident was in the summer, when Mercedes 's extended family was visiting for a reunion. Her house had been jam-packed with nosy, restless relatives. Sam had been working double overtime at the pizza shop. The two of them hadn't gotten any alone time that weekend which led to them having a quickie during Sam's break.
They were insatiable that summer up until he had to leave for Kentucky. He was her first everything and she only trusted him with her body. Even though she's been with Shane longer than she's been with Sam she couldn't give Shane that piece for her. She's been abstinent since the night Sam left. Now being in this close proximity with the boy she is still in love with, who declares in the hallway he wasn't afraid of Shane and hasn't let up on the chase to get her back. She knew she probably should've told him no when he asked for them to hangout and do homework. Especially when it was just the two of them.
Mercedes reluctantly brought her attention back to her homework. Staring at Sam wasn't going to do her any good; it was just a depressing reminder of the one thing she couldn't have, despite also being the one thing she wanted the most. Being around him without having him was torture.
She could have him, if she wasn't afraid that he was going to leave her again. She gave her all to him and him moving back even though he had no control over it left her in shambles. The amount of heartbreak she never thought she would experience. She's been so guarded when it comes to love. Promising herself that she would let any boy break her heart but then Sam came out of nowhere she was prepared. At least with Shane, she knows where that is going, with Sam there was so much to be discovered and the willingness for adventure.
Mercedes knew the fallout would be explosive if she left Shane for him. She knows they shouldn't be alone together in her room without anyone else in the home especially after their kiss in the auditorium. Despite her own warnings, Mercedes still found herself studying with Sam in an attempt to achieve a sense of normalcy. Maybe they could go back to being friends.
She absent-mindedly let out a sigh, once more taking a peek at Sam . This time, though, he turned his head and their eyes met. Sam 's were as intense as always, but also soft in a way he saved only for her. Mercedes gulped, refusing to look away, feeling both a sense of dread and anticipation.
"How's your homework going?" Sam asked, his voice as soft as his eyes, but also containing a hint of humor.
"Good...Um, actually… I sort of have no idea what any of this means and it's stressing me out." The last sentence came out a bit fast and unprepared, but still sincere.
"Do you want me to help you?" Sam a flirtatious and teasing way that Mercedes liked. He set his pencil down and turned his chair to face her.
"With what in particular?" She responds, in an equally flirtatious and teasing manner. Mercedes was playing a dangerous game. She couldn't help herself but she was horny and she's been craving for his attention.. The temptation was too strong.
The corners of Sam 's lips quirk upwards, Mercedes was finally reciprocating his advances. He's aware she's conflicted because of her relationship but was too watching her be with someone other than himself. Mercedes is the girl that got a way that came hell or high water he was going to get back. And honestly, he really wanted her to be with him in a way she was willing to give him, consequences be damned.
"The stress, of course. I don't know shit about Spanish, but I know a few ways to relax you." Sam inches the chair towards her bed.
Mercedes laughs for a few moments, sadness and contemplation overtakes her.
"You know I want to, but… We can't. My parents could-"
"-Aren't home." Sam finishes for her, more serious than before.
Sam watches her in keen interest as she nervously plays with her hands. Mercedes was heavily conflicted, and Sam was mindful of that. But he also knew that she wasn't acting in her own interests, and instead the interests of everyone else. He needed Mercedes to express what she wanted. Not Shane's, not even Sam's.
"Forget about Shane . What do you want?" He asks earnestly. Sam would respect whatever decision she made, but he had a feeling he knew the answer. Mercedes raised her head.
"I want you . You know that."
"Then have me."
Her face softens, but she still looks concerned.
"That would be selfish. I'm not the type of girl to cheat."
"It's okay to be selfish. If people weren't selfish, they wouldn't be alive. Is it cheating if your heart was never in the relationship to begin with. If the relationship is one sided? Shane does not listen to you. He mapped your future out without thinking about yours. He does not own your heart. He does not make you happy. I'm not gonna force you to do anything, but I want you to do what you want for once."
Mercedes listened closely as he spoke, processing the information. After he finishes, Sam gives her a moment to contemplate his words, and stays silent. Decisiveness flashes across her face, and not a second later their lips connect.
The kiss was short, and Mercedes pulled away soon after. Sam hoped to God it wasn't a goodbye.
"What were you saying about helping me relax?" Mercedes mumbles. Mercedes needed a release even more so than earlier. Homework was the least stressful thing on her mind.
"I..." It took Sam a moment to regain his composure, but once she smirked at him, he did the same.
"Lay down."
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