It felt like hours sitting in that office, the doctor had told Tallon he could until Hector woke up. Tallon had gotten there close to 5pm after everything and now it was almost 6pm, visiting hours were over at 9pm from what the doctor told him and that was even if Tallon was allowed to see him. Doctor had said that Hector would need to be evaluated to diagnose treatment options based on Hector's answers to questions. Tallon had already updated Darius who would tell the others for him. Val and Heather knew too because Spencer apparently went right home after Tallon paid him a visit and told him it was his fault for what Hector did. Tallon told them not to bother coming down because right now, not even he was allowed to see Hector-that he was still waiting for Hector to wake up. Tallon sighed heavily, closing his eyes as the door opened and a nurse walked in quickly.
"Mr. Furysen?" she asked.
"Yes?" Tallon replied quickly.
"The doctor is asking for you in your husband's room. It would appear he has woken up rather afraid believing he's still at war. They've tried to calm him down but he won't listen, he keeps pushing everyone away and threatening to throw...grenades if we don't stay away from him. They will sedate him if you can't calm him down," the nurse explained to him.
"Take me to him," Tallon said with worry now. The nurse nodded and led him out of the office and down six doors to wear the a team of doctors and nurses were trying to talk to him.
"Oh good, there you are...can you calm him down?" Doctor Carter said with a sigh of relief.
"I'll do what I can...stay back for now," Tallon nodded as the doctors and nurses moved out of the way and let him in the room to see Hector off the bed near a wall. "Hec?" Hector quickly looked at him in fear.
"They captured you too!?" Hector said.
"No baby. No, it's okay...just calm down. We're not at war right now. We're in Berk, at the hospital..." Tallon tried getting closer to him.
"Why am I here! D-did I get hurt?" Hector asked quickly.
"Yes, yes you did and they just want to help you. It's okay, I promise. Just settle down, take a few breaths. I'm right here, it's me. Tallon, your husband...the man who loves you more than anything else in the world. Relax, Love...just give me your hand. I promise, I'm not going anywhere...please..." Tallon said putting his hand out. Hector was visibly shaking and scared as he put his hand out a bit.
"No! No, Tallon wouldn't have let me wake up alone-he never does!" Hector pulled his hand back now.
"Hector please...you know it's me. Look at your rin-" he stopped noticing it wasn't there as he looked back at the doctors. "You took his ring?"
"We take everything in case they hurt themselves with it," the doctor replied.
"Give me it," Tallon put his hand out as the doctor stepped outside a moment then returned and put it in his palm. "It's okay babe. I promise it is. Remember who always has your back on and off the battlefield, me. Tallon, your best friend, your battle buddy, your husband. I've never left you and I never will," Tallon said as he reached for Hector's hand and slid the ring back on his finger, holding his hand gently. "Our rings match baby. They are a pair, and so are we...you know me, better than anyone else. Would I ever give you reason to not to trust me, to not believe me. I've never hurt you, never lied to you. I'm sorry I couldn't be here when you woke up-they wouldn't let me. But I'm here now and it's all okay...it's okay..." he said softly.
Hector's eyes watered now as Tallon cupped his cheek gently and kissed him, Hector melted into it before it broke and Tallon pulled him close in a hug. "Tal?" Hector asked.
"It's me baby," Tallon nodded to him. Hector's knees gave out as he hit the floor and started crying hard, Tallon held him close and let him cry against him. The doctors tried to get closed but Tallon shook his head-a sign for them to stay back still. "Sssh now...it's alright. I promise it's alright babe. Just let it out, I've got you...I've got you now." Tallon told him. Hector just cried against him for about fifteen minutes before sniffling and wiping his eyes slowly
"Ho-how did...I get hurt, why am I here...where...is here?" Hector asked finally.
"Do you remember anything of the last few hours?" Tallon asked him gently.
"N-no...last I remember...I was taking...a bath because my stomach was bothering me and then...nothing after that..." Hector admitted slowly. Tallon kissed his forehead and helped him to his feet, "What happened?" and that's when he noticed his wrapped wrists as his eyes widened slightly and Tallon could tell he was likely remembering what happened-he could see his husband shaking and staring at his wrists, tears forming again.
"Baby? Hey, it's okay...talk to me," Tallon said with a hand on his shoulder and one hand lifting his chin a bit.
"I-I cut...my-myself...earlier and...Oh Gods! I cut myself. I'm sorry, I'm so...sorry...I-I don't know...what came over...me..." Hector cried.
"Ssh, it's alright. It's okay...I'm not mad baby. But you really scared me when I found you in the bathroom unconscious," Tallon told him carefully.
"Y-you found me...in the bathroom?" Hector gasped a bit in fear.
"Yes...I came home a little early with the guys. I checked the bedroom and didn't see you there, the noticed the bathroom door closed and asked if you were okay but you didn't answer. I tried a few more times and still nothing so I got the screwdriver to pop the lock open and found you lying unconscious in the tub with your arms cut. I pulled you out, Thax and Vik wrapped your arms and I wrapped you to keep you warm until paramedics came. You were cold when I got you out. I've never been more scared in my life to find you like that..." Tallon told him-he wasn't going to lie to his husband about what happened.
"I-I wasn't...trying to kill myself...I just...felt so tired and..." Hector closed his eyes.
"It's okay, I'm not mad at you. You've been sick, and the hot water made you tired, that added to the blood loss and you blacked out. I'm just...lucky I got home early because you might have already been gone if it was after 4pm," Tallon sighed softly as he hugged Hector tightly.
"Do you remember what time it happened at?" one of the doctors asked.
"I...started the bath...a little after 3pm and then...I was working on lyrics and started having flashbacks, I cried for fifteen minutes...my stomach started hurting and I went to get out of the tub by my hand slipped and went over the razor...I looked at it to see how bad it was and then...I realized that when I got cut...the flashbacks went away...I told myself just once and...cut myself again, then...did it to the other arm...I didn't...mean to lay there for so long but I...got tired and then...everything went black..." Hector said whimpering a bit.
"Were you aware that in your state before blacking out you were writing things towards your father?" asked doctor Carter and Tallon almost glared at him.
"I-I did what?" Hector asked now with wide, worried eyes.
"You wrote: Am I enough now? Is this what you wanted from me? Did I finally do something right and make you proud of me? Is this...enough for you to care and love me, Dad. The paramedics found it before it was given to an officer, and then to your husband. Mr. Furysen...are you aware of where you are right now?" asked the doctor slowly. Hector shook his head. "You're at Berk Psychiatric. Your husband...had you brought here after finding you. He had you admitted for treatment,"
Hector's eyes slowly widened as they fell on Tallon who was in front of him, "Y-you had me admitted to the mental hospital?..."
"Your husband did the right thing, Mr. Furysen. He's worried for your well being is all, and we are here to help. Don't worry, your husband will be with you the entire time...except for when visiting hours end," doctor Carter offered a smile. Hector's eyes became fear filled as he almost held on to Tallon tightly.
"N-no...I want him to stay with me," Hector said quickly.
"That's not allowed, son." said another doctor now. Hector looked at Tallon now, pleading eyes it seemed.
"Please...please don't make me stay here," Hector asked holding onto his shirt.
"Hector...I don't want you to be here...but I also don't want you to die. You've had depression for years, you admitted that-since you were a kid you've had it and you've never had it treated...you need too. I don't...ever want to come home to what I did today...you don't know how scared I was and if I'd been any later, you might not be standing here right now...I have...to do what I feel is best for you. You need help baby...and here, you can get it." Tallon replied.
"I don't want...their help! I want yours. You always help me, you always have. Please...please, Tallon, don't make me stay here. I don't want to be here...I'll do anything...I'll...tell you everything on my mind, I'll go see a counselor once a week, I'll even take anti-depressants...I'll...do anything..." Hector cried against him as Tallon tried to comfort him. "Please...please don't make me stay here where I can't have you. The safest place I've ever been is in your arms knowing you're protecting me...please, Tallon...please...I'm begging you..." he whimpered.
"It's been a long day for you. I think you should get some sleep and we'll try this again in the morning," the doctor said as the nurse handed him a need and then moved closer to Hector who flinched and moved closer to Tallon.
"Hey, come on-there's no need for that...sedation is meant to control an out of control patient," Tallon mentioned.
"You admitted him to our care and we determine who needs and who doesn't. Your husband has a lot to work through and he's very emotional right now..." the doctor informed firmly, this time Tallon's eyes narrowed and he moved Hector behind him protectively.
"I also just said that he doesn't need to be sedated. It has been a long day for him, but that's not gonna do anything other than put him to sleep. It won't help him. I admitted him so he could get help and if all you're going to to is sedate him then he doesn't need to be here," Tallon stated as Hector held onto him still and buried his face into Tallon's back.
"You signed this, that puts him in our care. When admitted the patient has to stay at least three days for evaluation that he isn't a danger to himself or to others," the doctor challenged holding him the paper, the one Tallon signed earlier and sure enough that is what it said.
Tallon held it in his hands, he glanced back at Hector who was silently pleaded with his eyes for it not to be true. Tallon knew that Hector didn't want to stay because Tallon couldn't stay with him, Hector actually begged for Tallon to take him home and would agree to do anything in order to stay out of the psychiatric hospital and now these doctors were threatening to put him to sleep just because he was a little emotional but who wouldn't be after everything today.
It was true that Tallon was terrified for Hector, he never wanted to see him in such a state again but he also wanted to help him. And it was clear to Tallon now that all these doctors were going to do was sleep him into following their treatment plans, basically saying that they'd threaten to sedate him if he didn't do as they said. That wasn't helping Hector, it would make him worse and make him afraid. Tallon pulled his lighter out and lit the corner of the paper as it burned to nothing but ash. "I signed nothing. I've changed my mind, he doesn't need your help. He needs mine, now if you'll excuse me...I'm taking my husband back home where he belongs," Tallon took Hector's hand and walked past them-he knew they couldn't do anything without that paper which no longer existed. Tallon picked Hector up when he wobbled a bit, then set him in the passenger seat of the truck. Tallon moved to the driver's side and closed his eyes with his hands on the wheel, he took a breath and then started the truck and drove them back to the house in silence.
(Furysen Apartment)
Getting back to the house, Tallon noticed the others were still there. He sighed and parked the truck in the driveway, then turned it off and got out. Tallon helped Hector to the door and opened it as they walked in. "Hector?!" they said in shock to see him there.
"Tal, what the hell? What's he doing back home?" Darius asked.
"Enough." Tallon said firmly as they went quiet, he faced Hector now with serious eyes. "You. Go get changed out of that hospital wear and get back out here," Hector bit back slightly feeling like Tallon was mad at him now, he nodded not wanting to make him angrier and then moved to the bedroom to change.
"Why is he here?! You had him admitted a few hours ago, what the hell happened to wanting him to get help?" Skylar asked, it was now that Tallon noticed the girls were over too, including Val and Heather. Tallon didn't answer, he waited for Hector to come back out-which he did about ten minutes later.
"Thank you...for bringing me home," Hector said quietly.
"The only reason you are home is because they weren't going to help you. They were going to sedate you constantly until you did what they wanted. They were going to force you to do what they wanted and that isn't how you help people. I don't play that shit. I brought you home because you begged me to when you found out I wouldn't be able to stay with you, and because you said you only needed me, and that you'd do anything to stay with me. You said you wanted my help, then you're going to get it my way. Do you understand me?" Tallon asked.
"Yes..." Hector lowered his head sadly.
"Don't take my tone for anger. I am not mad at you as I said I wasn't," Tallon said now.
"Kind of...sounds like you are," Trent remarked as Tallon glared at him and he shut up and backed up.
"No. I'm not mad...well, not at him anyway. Hector, you have to understand how fucking scared I was earlier when I came home and found you the way I did. I found you barely alive in the tub with your wrists cut...I know now that you didn't mean to and things got overwhelming but for me to come home and see that...I started calling myself a failure for not seeing how much pain you were in. I felt like I was...no longer enough to help you. That is why I had you admitted but hearing how they planned to help you, I changed my mind and that is why you are home now. " Tallon stated firmly.
"I'm sorry..." Hector said to him slowly.
"I can do more for you than they can but I swear to God, you better not hide anything from me. Got it? Nothing at all. I don't care where I am, who we're with, or what's on your mind...I want to know everything. Understand? Do not make me regret this choice." Tallon told him.
"I understand," Hector replied softly. Tallon took his hand lightly and pulled him close for a hug, Hector wrapped his arms around him, burying his face against his husband's chest.
"I don't know what I'd do without you, Hector...don't ever scare me like that again," Tallon whispered as he held him tighter then pulled back to cup Hector's cheeks with both hands, "You mean the world to me and I don't know what I'd do without you. Remember...I can't imagine this world without you in it. I can deal...with anything else that gets thrown at me but losing you...Hector, I can't deal with that. I would kill myself if I ever lost you..." he said now as Hector let a few tears fall.
"I'm sorry...I never...meant to do it earlier..." Tallon put a finger to his lips and shook his head.
"Ssh..." he soothed softly, "It's alright. I know already...we'll talk about it when you feel better. You're still stick-I can feel how warm you are. How do you feel?"
"Stomach and head hurt, still kind of nauseated, tired...sore...arms mainly, and really itchy..." Hector told him.
"Well that's to be expected after what happened, baby. Are you hungry?" Tallon asked.
"A little, just don't know if I can hold anything down," Hector admitted calmly.
"We'll some saltines and ginger ale first, if you can hold that down for thirty minutes, we'll try a sandwich." Tallon kissed his forehead. "Go on and sit down, wait, what do you mean your arms are itchy?" he inquired.
"I don't know, they just are..." Hector shrugged as Tallon turned Hector's arms upright so he could see underneath-of course they were wrapped but he did notice a little red on the skin. Tallon went to take off the wrappings to get a better look but Hector pulled back some biting the bottom of his lip and Tallon understood that Hector didn't want his cuts showing. Tallon led him into the bedroom and turned on the light after shutting the door, then he started taking the wrappings off again.
"Looks like a rash, perhaps a reaction to the medication they put on your arms to help heal the cuts...go wash your arms in the bathroom and that should fix it. I'll wrap them for you afterwards," Tallon said softly. Hector nodded as he left the bedroom and went to the bathroom but he couldn't seem to step in it, Tallon noticed now and moved beside him. "It's okay..." Tallon said holding his hand gently. Hector took a deep breath and stepped inside to wash his arms-it still stung on the open wounds. When they were cleaned, Tallon had a towel ready so he could dry them, he took it while Tallon got the cream they had at home and wrappings out of the cabinet. Tallon applied it carefully, then wrapped them up with a smile. "How's that feel?"
"Better...thank you," Hector replied and then sighed.
"What's wrong?" Tallon asked.
"I just...feel really sick being in here after earlier...and I'm still really tired," Hector looked down. Tallon checked his forehead again, he was getting warmer.
"You really need to try and eat something." Tallon mentioned, at the sound of food alone, Hector heave a bit. "Hec?"
Hector brought a hand to his mouth and lurched a bit, Tallon's eyes widened as he moved Hector towards the toilet and not more than five seconds later, he threw up harshly. Hector lowered himself to his knees so he'd be closer to the toilet while it seemed to come in waves. Tallon rubbed his back in circles and sighed.
"I'm gonna send the others home, babe," Tallon told him and then got up shutting the bathroom door a bit.
"Still sick?" Evan asked.
"Yeah. Likely gonna let him finish throwing up and then let him get some sleep. You guys head home, I'll update you. If he doesn't feel better tomorrow, we're going to the doctors. It's been a long night..." Tallon sighed.
"Alright man, let us know when he's feeling better in...well, both senses and if you need anything then let us know." Drew stated.
"Will do. Don't worry, I got him." Tallon assured them as they all started to file out and leave. Tallon shut the door and locked it when the last person had left-he moved back to the bathroom and saw that Hector was just sitting here, half over the bow and whimpering a it. His arms were over his stomach and Tallon frowned, he didn't like seeing Hector like this. "Nausea passed?" Hector managed a slight nod. "Come on, let's get you to bed," Tallon slowly pulled Hector to his feet and led him out of the bathroom-then to the bedroom. Tallon took care of everything: water bottle by the bed, and garbage can. He cleaned up the bathroom a bit, made himself a sandwich and ate it in the kitchen while glancing in on Hector. After that, he covered Hector up seeing he had fallen asleep there. Tallon kissed his cheek and got into bed after shutting all the lights down and laying beside Hector, he fell asleep not more than ten minutes later. It had been a long day, sleep was definitely needed.
