Major TW! If you find depression/su!cide upsetting I request not reading this story.
Jays POV
Something was off with Hailey, she isn't herself, she is quiet at work, barely contributing on cases that isn't like her at all. She's not taking to me either, we have our thing but she's just gone. We finished our case like normal, it was a pretty easy open-shut case and Jay decided to go to Hailey's place, he needed her to open up to him or at least someone. I arrived at Hailey's place just after 5, I knocked on the door but nobody answered. I knew she was home because her car was here, unless she had gone for a jog I thought. I knocked again but again no answer so I turn around to leave, I'll come back and check on her later but before I could head down the hallway one of her neighbor stopped me.
"Hey do you know Hailey or something?" This lady asked.
"Yeah I'm her partner" I replied. "Have you seen her?" I asked.
"Yeah she's in there hasn't left since she came home"
"How do you know that?" I asked
"I was just leaving to go for a walk and she looked upset, but assured me it was nothing"
"Ok thank you ma'am"
I was started to freak out know.
"Hailey come on I know your in there, I just wanna help please." I heard something crash, and before I knew it I was busting the door open and that's when I saw her, her gun to her head, crying uncontrollably. My eyes opened so wide.
"Hailey what's happened, what are you doing?"
"Go away Jay, it's better this way, it's the way it has to be"
"Hey Hailey No it's not, come on tell me what happened, I can help I can but you just gotta put the gun down."
"No it's the way it has be"
"No it's not Hailey. Hey remember the thing that works between us, why didn't you come to me I could help you"
"You can't fix this Jay, your better off with another partner, a better partner who has your back 24/7 not some failure."
"Your not a failure, hey your not, you are Hailey Anne Upton the biggest bad-ass going. Just put the gun down and we can talk about it, come on just put it down. Please Hailey!" I pleaded. But she didn't loosen her grip on the gun. I edged closer to her, watching my every movement, being careful not to startle her.
"Stay back Jay! I mean it."
"Ok I'm staying, I'm not moving"
"Please just get out of here please"
"I'm not leaving you Hailey" and that's when my life flashed before my eyes. I noticed Hailey turn off the safety, she was gonna do it, I needed to think of something and fast. I moved slowly toward her again and BANG!
Hailey's POV
I didn't have any fight left in me, I'm so tired, I am a terrible partner, I have no friends, no family, no one would care if I just disappeared. Tonight is the night I said to myself, nobody would ever find me anyway, the smell would give me away. We had a case and to be honest I did nothing, the unit could probably tell that something was up, but none of it would matter in a few hours. We wrapped up the case and I went straight home avoiding everyone. I broke down in the car, I walked into my apartment building with red, puffy eyes, so I kept me head down but my neighbor saw me.
"You alright pet?" My neighbor asked.
"I'm fine just a bad case" I replied. My neighbor knew I was a cop so hopefully she believe the story. I sped walked the rest of my way to my door opened it and locked it. I dropped my bag on the floor and opened the liquor cupboard, grabbed the first alcohol I could grab, opened it and started drinking it. I pulled my gun out of my holster and just stared at it for a good 20 minutes. Jay would be better off without me, the unit would be better off without me. I finished off the bottle, stood up when I heard knocking on the door. The knocked continued until it stopped, I thought they'd gone but then the someone knocked on the door but this time a voice followed.
"Hailey Come on I know your in there, I just wanna help please" it was Jay. This has turned into a mess real quick. I lost my balance and knocked into the table, something falling off it causing a crash, then the door was knocked in and Jay was there and he wasn't supposed to be here, he's not supposed to see this. Everything's a bit of a blur from there, the last thing I remember is putting the gun under my chin and hearing the gunshot.
Jays POV
The sound of the gunshot rings out, I quickly check myself to see if I'm hit, I'm not. Then I see a body slumped on the floor, it's Hailey. She has some blood coming out her chin but that's it, the bullet must've just grazed her. I moved the gun just in time. My heart is racing so fast, what was I supposed to do, everybody would've heard the shots this was a mess. Jay still had his radio in his jacket though, so he turned it on and listened to see if someone had called it in. A few minutes later he heard Hailey's address being called out on the radio and Voight's voice quickly answering.
"This is Sargent Voight, show me as holding that address."
Why would sarge do that, did he know something was up was Hailey. Well that didn't matter at the moment, all that mattered was Hailey. I picked her up and just held her, she must've hit her head on the floor because she was unconscious, i didn't really know what to do, i didn't know what the right thing to do is. If I took her to the hospital I'd have to tell them what had happen and they may never let her be a cop again.
Voight had arrived pretty quickly, he pulled out his gun and entered Hailey's apartment and quickly saw the partners on the floor, Hailey's in Jays lap.
"What the hell happened Jay?"
"Umm...well I was worried about her so I checked in on her and I came in and she had her gun to her head and she wasn't really making sense and she said me and the unit would be better off without her and sh... she..." I tried to compose myself. "She pulled the trigger and I managed to move the gun, it grazed her chin but I think she hit her head when she went down, she hasn't woke up."
"Oh my god! Did you call an ambo?"
"No. Sarge if they find out what happened they'll never let her be a cop again"
He acknowledged what I had said but didn't reply and radioed for an ambo. It was Brett and Gabby who took the call, which made me a little more comfortable, I didn't want random people looking after her.
"Voight, Jay what happened?" Gabby asked.
"Umm... she uh... she tried to Kill herself" I said as a tear fell down his cheek.
"Ok, Jay we're gonna take care of her."
Brett went back to the rig and got the chair, while she was gone Hailey started to wake up. Her eyes fluttered open, it took her a few seconds to realize where she was, but when she did she started screaming and crying.
"Why did you let me live, I wanted to die, just let me die" she said crying. Me and Gabby tried to get closer to try and calm her down, but she was swinging her arms. I didn't care though, I pulled her into my lap and let her hit me as hard as she could. Gabby decided to give Hailey a little something that would calm her down. Then they headed off to Med.
