JENNIE

Waking up in a bed I'm unfamiliar with, far away from home, was saddening and as my eyes roamed over to the window, what I saw was exactly how I felt. It wasn't only raining, but it was pouring. Not only was I bothered that it was raining, but Lisa's scent in the room, in the bed, and on her clothes I was wearing were causing me to feel miserable more than I was. It was also causing my stomach to turn like a rotating washing machine.

I got out of bed, headed to the living room, sat on the couch, and picked up my phone, staring and debating about if I should turn it on or not. I know once I turn it on, messages will come flowing in. And sure enough, after turning on my phone, my phone was bombarded with numerous messages, mainly from Lisa, with some from three of my best friends.

I skipped looking at Lisa's and read the ones from Irene, Nayeon and Tae. All three asked where I was and if I was okay. Tae also asked if he needed to kill Lisa. That one had me smiling and giggling. No, Tae, You don't need to kill her. But if you want to kick his ass, you can.

I didn't want to talk to anyone, and I didn't want anyone knowing where I was, so I ignored the messages and set my phone down. Now that I read their messages, and even though I didn't respond, they'll see it on their end that I read their messages, and hopefully, they'll know I'm alright.

I leaned my head back against the couch and started thinking about Kendal and what she would do to me if she were to find out it's me who's been sleeping with her wife.

She would kill me.

Just the thought of it had me feeling sick to my stomach. I picked up my phone, called Kendal's office phone, and left her a message:

"Kendal, I'm calling to apologize about last night. I hadn't been feeling well all day, and then smelling the food had me feeling sicker, that I had to leave. I'm also calling to let you know I went away for a while, so come Monday, I won't be at work. Or for the rest of the week. And the reason I say that is, I quit. I'm sorry."

I closed my eyes for a bit, and after remembering I didn't have any clothes along, I opened my eyes and headed to the garage to see if there was a vehicle I could use. When I opened the door, I saw an old classic car and smiled. Then, on the other side of it, I noticed a familiar vehicle. Lisa's old car from when we first met, something I thought he sold a while ago.

I closed the door, then searched the kitchen for keys, and in a drawer, I found a set of keys that looked like the ones that belonged to her car.

On my google maps, I marked where I was, then I searched to see what was in the area, and found a store that sold everything I needed, from food to clothes. Perfect...

Along the way to the store, my phone kept ringing. If it wasn't Lisa, it was Irene, Nayeon, and Tae. And when I parked in front of the store, I sent out in oir group text to my friends:

To: [Buddies]

Hey, I just wanted to let you know I'm okay. I needed some time away from everyone and went out of town for a few days. I'll call you all when I get home. Love you all.


LISA

I was getting more worried and frustrated that Jennie wasn't answering my calls. The frustrating part was I knew her phone was on since it wasn't going straight to voicemail like before. Just when I was going to try her again, I received a text message from Irene.

Fr[Irene]

I just received a text from Jennie. She's okay. She said she needed to get away for a few days and will call us when she got home. I hope this helps!

To[Irene]

Thank you for letting me know. Did she happen to say where she was?

Fr[Irene]

No. All she said was that she needed to get away for a few days.

To[Irene]

Okay. Thanks.

Fr[Irene]

No problem!

I sighed while running my fingers through my hair. Where the hell did she go? After hearing her groan, I looked over to Kendal and lowered my brows when Kendal looked at me with a scowled look on her face and dropped her phone.

"What the fuck? My best employee left a message on my office phone saying she quit. I don't understand it. What in the fuck happened last night?"


JENNIE

After getting back to Lisa's cabin. I showered, changed, put the groceries away, and then sat on the couch listening to all the left messages. I hated not talking to my friends and worrying them like they were, but this was something I needed to do and to try to clear my head. Hearing Lisa's voice and what she said had me tearing up. I still cannot believe she's married. And out of all people, to Kendal!

What the fuck are the odds of that? Then to hear Lisa say at the end of her messages, she loves me? Not only does it upset me more, but it fucking pisses me off.

I couldn't listen to any more of Lisa's messages without wanting to kill her myself and threw my phone on the table in front of me. I still wasn't feeling well and thought I needed a stiff drink, then walked into the kitchen, grabbed the bottle of Captain Morgan I had bought, and made myself the stiffest drink I could, hoping the drink I made will make me fall asleep and will get me to forget about everything that happened. At least for a little while, anyway.

I raised the glass to my lips, and the second the smell of the alcohol hit my nostrils, my stomach instantly turned. I closed my eyes, blocked out the aroma of the spiced rum, and took a long swallow, finishing it all in one swallow.

Wow... that was fucking strong, but absolutely perfect for what I want the drink to do to me.

Even though it made my stomach feeling sicker than it already was, I made myself another drink. I wasn't a big drinker to start with, and after drinking a few drinks, I immediately was feeling the effects of the alcohol and smiled.

It's working.

Only now, it was making me miss Lisa so much more, and I walked over to my phone. As I went to sit, I missed the couch and fell to the ground, causing me to giggle when I pulled myself up. I finally made it up to the couch and grabbed my phone to see what Lisa had to say.

My eyes were looking blurry, but I was still able to read them... slowly.

Fr[Babe]

Please talk to me. Will you please answer your phone?

Fr[Babe]

Jennie, please. You have to believe me, but I honestly do love you.

Fr[Babe]

Please talk to me. I can explain everything.

Fr[Babe]

Jennie...

Fr[Babe]

Please. I need you to hear me out. It's not what you think.

Fr[Babe]

Jennie, this is killing me. Will you please call me?

Fr[Babe]

I love you...

I couldn't read her messages any longer. For one, my eyes were refusing to cooperate, and two, it was upsetting me.

Especially the last message I stopped at with Lisa telling me she loves me. That's a fucking laugh.

I made myself one last drink, hoping this would be the one to knock me out, finally.

While taking another long swallow of my drink, my phone rang. Without looking to see who it was, and without thinking, I answered the phone, regretting it the second I heard who it was.

"Hello?" I slurred.

"Jennie.. thank God, you answered my phone call, finally."

I drunkenly rolled my eyes and hissed, "What the fuck do you want?"

"Where are you? Will you please tell me where I can find you?"

"I'm far, far away from you. Don't even bother to come looking for me either. I don't want to see you."

"Are you drunk?"

"Why do you care?" I snapped.

"Jennie, I do care. I care so much for you, and this is killing me for what I've done. Will you please tell me where you are so I can come and talk to you?"

"I have to go. You broke my heart, and I don't want to hear what you have to say."

"Please. I beg of you. I need to see and talk to you. I want, and I need you to hear me out. It's not what you think it is. Please, Jennie."

"Goodbye, Lisa," I hissed, hanging up on her.

Part of me wanted to hear what she had to say, with another part of me wanting to tell her to fuck off, and that I never wanted to hear or see from her again.

Maybe she does love me?

Should I give up on her, or do I give her the time to hear what she has to say?

I didn't know what to do. And now that I got to hear Lisa's voice and listen to her beg for me to hear what she had to say, I'm confused with our situation more than ever.

But she's married.

To Kendal...

But I fucking love her.

I reached over to the table, grabbed my phone, and stared down at it, thinking. After much thought. I sent Lisa a message:

To[Babe]

You fucking hurt me. I never thought that you would do that to me in a million years. You broke my heart. And it fucking kills me to know you're married to my boss. The one-woman I complain to you about all the time. I don't know what I was to you. Was I a toy? Was I some side for sex when you weren't getting it from Kendal? Then I sit here and wonder. How many times did you have sex with her, then with me? Or vise versa? That's fucking sick, Lisa. Just fucking sick. I do love you. But I can't do this with you. I can't be a mistress. I can't be with someone who's cheating on her wife. I can't and will not be known as a home-wrecker. You need to think long and hard about what and who you want. Otherwise, I'm gone forever.

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