World Ending
"You're so lucky," Alice says, all dreamy eyed and envious. "I can't wait to go on a date." She flops back on mom's bed and sighs.
My sister is going to be the death of me.
Standing in front of the full length mirror, I check out my outfit. I look like a douche. I feel like a douche. I can be a douche for Bella.
Tonight's the night I take Bella on a date, and I'd be fucking lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I brought my shit to get ready at mom's. I need opinions. I need reassurance. I want my mom to tell me I look pretty.
Fuck, a kaleidoscope of butterflies are taking up residence in my stomach, and I feel like a teenage girl on her first date.
This is what Alice is going to feel like when she's 50 and I finally let her go on a date.
Mom reaches up and swipes at the scar on my eyebrow like she can make it go away. She will forever be livid with Angela because of it, and I'm fine with that shit. Mom's a fucking G.
"You look so handsome," Mom says, straightening my jacket and patting my chest. "Bella's a lucky girl."
I kiss her cheek and grab my shit from the dresser, shoving my wallet in my back pocket. I take one last look in the mirror, feeling edgy as fuck and wanting to sneak into Carlisle's office and pop a benzo, but at the same time I'm feeling pumped for this shit.
Alice hooks her arm through mine, going on and on about how she's going to find a boy just like me and date him and kiss him, and now she's my anxiety. She can't date a boy like me. I'm a horny motherfucker. No horny motherfucker will go near my sister.
Alexander's playing Legos when I stop by his room, and his eyes light up thinking I'm gonna stay and play, and isn't that just a fucking shot to the chest. "Sorry, buddy," I say, ruffling his hair.
"Edward's going on a date," Alice says, plopping onto the floor and pulling Alexander onto her lap.
"A date?" Alexander asks. "What's that?"
Alice giggles and whispers in Alexander's ears, and he scrunches his nose before grabbing his Lego ship. "I don't wanna go on a date."
"You will," Alice says. "Trust me."
Alexander shrugs like he couldn't care either way, but Alice is right. When he's older, Alexander's gonna get all the girls. He's the best looking kid around.
When I'm finally in the car on the way to Bella's, I'm a jittery fucking mess. I haven't wanted a cigarette since Angela, but right now, I'm so fucking nervous, I could smoke an entire pack. I want to. I won't.
It's fucking insane that I've seen my girl all twisted up and begging for my cock, but a date with her is gonna hurdle me into breakdown. She's got me all twisted up, and I don't like it. But I want it. I want her to twist me into knots with those tiny, little hands and that pretty face.
Parking up front, I hop out and make my way up the winding sidewalk, feeling like my nerves are going to fucking explode all over the place.
Bella opens the door before I can hit the doorbell, and holy fuck, she's gonna give me a meltdown. She's all pretty eyes and shy smiles, and I'm losing all sanity staring at her.
"Hi, Bella," I say, smiling at her, staring at her pretty, short dress. "Fuck, you look pretty." Fucking luscious. She's so fucking seductive, I can't take it. I want to fuck her with my words and make her fall in love with me.
Fuck.
"Hi, Edward," she says, fluttering those shy eyes and closing the door behind her.
I grab her hand, because I'm a forward motherfucker, and pull her down the sidewalk. Her hand is so small, and I know what she can do with it, so she's got me feeling all pent up and stimulated, but I'm not here to fuck B. I'm here to woo Bella. I want her begging for my heart when all is said and done. When she begs for my cock, it'll be a bonus.
Pulling the door open, I stare as she slides in, her bare legs looking so goddamn delicious. It's hard to turn this shit off - the need to yank her out of the car and beg her to take my dick in her mouth.
Falling into the driver's seat, I mentally slap the shit out of myself.
"Are you okay?" She asks, and I turn to look at her.
I shouldn't have looked at her. I could look at her all night.
"I'm good. Are you good?"
She reaches out and places a hand on my thigh, and fuck me, I don't know if I'm gonna get B or Bella right now. "You seem nervous," she says, stroking that small hand softly up and down my leg.
"I'm not nervous," I say, watching her pretty little hand destroy me. I want that hand to ruin me. I want to eat that hand.
Fuck, that's weird.
She squeezes my thigh, and I bloody my lip from biting down so hard. "I'm hungry, Edward," she says.
I don't know if she's asking for my cock or a taco, but I put my car in drive and go with the tacos.
"Your nose looks better," Bella says.
I lift a hand and push at the bridge of it, wincing a bit at the lingering pain. "It's almost back to normal."
"I don't know how to do this," she says. "I've never been on a date before." She squirms in her seat, and I glance over at her, wanting to kill every motherfucker that never took my girl on a date but had the nerve to stick their dick in her.
Reaching out, I grab her hand like I'm a smooth fucker, and hold onto it. "I've got it all under control."
I don't. I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm going to feed her and seduce her with my charm. I just have to find it first.
I want to know where her parents are. I want to know why she's raising her siblings. I want to know why she fucks guys like me - guys worse than me to earn a living. I want her to tell me I'm not a piece of shit for treating her like the rest of them.
"You do, huh?"
"Yep." I brush my lips across her smooth knuckles, feigning the confidence I don't fucking have. "I'm gonna dine you so good, Bella."
"Okay, Edward," she says, like she doesn't believe me.
I'll make her believe me. I'll show her. Then when the night's over, I'm gonna get that kiss with her clothes on. I have a feeling it'll be much sweeter than her sweet pussy, and her pussy is sweet.
Bella's lips on mine will end the fucking world.
