The first thing he noticed when he woke up, was sweat sticking on his body completely soaking his blanket on his body . He tried to move or atleast push it off, but his body felt heavy and cold as chills made him shiver slightly .
The morning sun peeked a bit by the curtains, but it was still early in the morning .
He breathes in slowly in pain, and looked at his little stuff lion Kon . Feeling relief that it stayed with him in bed this time, he snuzzles it slightly as he whines at the pain on his legs that begin to sting .
He know he bleeded this night, the stings felt horrible as if someone still pushed their nails into it . He tried to get comfortable but it was hard as the pain still reminds him it was there .
He wanted to stay in bed today ..
But his father will not allow it, he never would always saying how much of a spoiled brat he is .
Maybe he is ..
"Ofcourse you are ." The voice was back like a echo in his mind .
""Look at you, getting all my love and attention, and then acting like a stupid spoiled brat ." He smirked revealing his sharp teeth, as he sat with a lazy position on his desk chair that he rarely uses these days .
"G-go away .." His throat felt dry and his voice was hoarse, he felt sick again as he started to sweat . The other laughed as his shoulders shoke with all his force ."Don't be like that, you have to get up you know . That ugly bastard will be here soon, and oh will daddy not pleased if you still are lay there all comfy ." He got up from the chair as he walked over at the bed, the figure was tall and not just because Ichigo was still laying down .
He was really tall that he almost touched the ceiling .
"You are just a waste of space, don't bother waking up next time ."
The sound of the opening door made Ichigo looked away for a second, before he looked back at the other but he was already gone .
It did not made him feel relieved at all .
He rather has the other with him alone in the room, then his father who stood at the door with a heavy frown ."Are you still in bed ?" He asked but Ichigo know better then to answer .
He swallowed his already dry throat one more time, before he atleast tried to get up . He felt dizzy as the heaviness was gone, and he got up too fast . Making gagging noises as his pale skin was shaking, telling him to lay back down .
"Always with the 'I am sick act' give it a rest will you ." He walked over and pulled the curtains wide open, before he looked at his eldest son who closed his eyes at the brightess of the sun .
Then he looked at the sheets, the bloody stained sheets ."You scratched yourself again ."
"No I didn't .." He choked out .
"Yes you did ." Isshin crossed his arms like any scolding parent would, if their child would misbehave ."No I didn't .."
"Ichigo you did ." He said again voice dissapointed and his face twisting into a sneer .
"I di ." He arm was suddenly grabbed as his own hand was almost pushed with a slam into his face ."Look at your nails boy ! You scratched yourself again, don't you lie to me !"
"I didn't !" Ichigo shook his head as he tried to get away, but his legs hurt so much and he felt dizzy like he would puke . He was scared as his trembling body tried to crawl back under the sheets .
"Ichigo !" Isshin tried to pull the sheets off him, as Ichigo started to cry out ."What are you doing old man !" It was Kon's voice as he half dressed ran into the room, and pushed his father off ."God did you drink again, go clean yourself up ! What will the patients say if they saw you !"
"Mind your own business !"
"And the girls ? Do our little sisters have to see, how you look right now ?" Silence followed ."Get out I take care of Ichigo ."
"He is .."
"I said get out ." Not leaving any space for his father to talk back, under the covers all Ichigo hear was silence .
Then heavy footsteps walking away and the door slamming shut .
The silence after felt long but then a gentle whisper called for him ."Ichigo ? Hey buddy it's okay .."
"I didn't .."
"You did not what ?"
"I didn't scratch myself .." Thick tears came out .
"Of course you didn't ." Kon pulled the sheets off and gave a small smile ."You believe .." Ichigo looked at him with wide eyes ."I believe you ." He nodded as he helped Ichigo get out of bed, he did his best not to stare at the blood or the open wounds too much ."Let's get you cleaned up okay ."
"I feel sick ."
"I think we have some medication, don't worry too much alright ."
As he led him to the bathroom, the last Ichigo saw was the other on his bed . Wide grin on his face as he waved at him ."See you later partner !"
The house was cold but homy, probably because of Kon and Yuzu . Both like warm colours and have the house with stuff they feel comfort in . Karin was more an outdoor person, she feels the most alive on the field kicking the other teams butt before scoring a goal .
Ichigo miss those games ..
But he can't go out ..
He is there ..
He is always there ..
Trying to get me ..
Ichigo almost fell as he leaned on the wall, Kon's gentle grip turned firm so that he has a better hold on his brother .
"You okay ?" Ichigo nodded slowly as they continued to the bathroom .
His father's comfort was his wife and his clinic, he sure did love his children .. But Ichigo can't feel the love of the man who claims to be his father .
The glaring, the comments, the screaming, and always those cold hands that will grab him .
His mother ..
She was the home .
The one he destroyed ..
"Because you are greedy ."
"You always take, take, take ."
"Little sinner ."
"Little bastard child ."
"Die ."
"Die, die, die, die, die, die, die .."
Ever since he was small his mother told him never to believe those voices, that she believes him to be stronger and have faith in himself .
How much he wished he could think the same .
