Shaky's POV
After Lilly got out of the car, I decided to multitask a bit and make a call as I watched Lilly go up to Humphrey's house and go in. the phone rang two times until Stephanie finally answered. Yes I was talking to her again. It was a month ago when Lilly had convinced me to give her a call. When she answered she sounded surprised to hear from me. I told her that I was sorry and that we should meet up some time. She agreed and it wasn't until the next day when we got up and she explained everything to me. I forgave her for leaving us and we had been hanging out from time to time ever since. I really did miss hanging out with her, but it was the thought that she would just come back and try to replace Angel that made me so upset. I just wasn't in a good headspace back then. I still missed Angel and was shattered, but I didn't think about Stephanie the same way I did at least.
"Hello?" Stephanie answered as from the looks of it Humphrey's mom had answered the door. Good, she was let in. I began pulling out of the driveway as I kept the phone call going.
"Hey Stephanie. I just dropped Lilly off, did you still want me to come over?" I asked.
"If you wouldn't mind. But it is pretty late, I would understand if you didn't want to" Stephanie replied. I shrugged, even though she couldn't see me do it.
"I don't mind. It's not like we have school tomorrow. Just give me a few minute's and I'll be right over '' I said.
"Alright… see ya soon" she replied. I hung up and put my other hand on the steering wheel. It was only about a ten minute drive from her place to here since she was still staying in her grandma's place. She had told me that she was going to move once she graduated but wasn't completely sure on the count of her grandma needing her. It was nice that she took care of her. As I drove I thought about how things started off leading up to this. They were slow and awkward but didn't take long until it was like old times. Although sometimes she would bring up Rick and ask how he was doing. Every time I would tell her the same thing, but since I only went to visit him in the hospital twice I couldn't be too sure. From what Kate would tell me though when we would hang out it was all the same. I don't know how she went there every time with hope. I think she was losing it and that's why she's been the way she is recently. Can't say that I blamed her.
I pulled into the small gravel driveway and stepped out of my car, locking it and walking up to the front door. I rang the doorbell and waited for a moment. I had only been over here twice since we had started hanging out again so it's not like it was new. It was all just very small. The door opened revealing who else but Stephanie. I smiled at the sight of her and waved.
"Hey, what's goin on?" I asked. She didn't seem happy to see me though, she seemed more upset than anything. I guess this is why she wanted me to come over so soon.
"Come in Shaky" she invited, turning around and walking into the house. I stepped inside and closed the door behind me, locking it as I watched her grandma on the recliner that sat in front of the TV. as always she was watching her soap operas. I said a quick hi and then made my way into the thin hallway and over to Stephanie's very small and cramped room. I came in as she sat on the foot of the bed on her phone and walked past her, squeezing by to sit next to her on the bed.
"So what's up?" I asked. Stephanie sighed, standing up and shutting the door, taking the clothes off of it first to fully shut it. She came back over and sat next to me again.
"Sorry, I just don't want to hear her shows while I'm trying to talk to you" she apologized.
"It's okay Stephanie. What's wrong?" I asked, switching up the question. She seemed almost scared to answer it.
"So… Do you remember that guy I told you about? The one I sleep with?" she asked. She was referring to the guy who would have sex with her in a sort of friendship with benefits situation so that they had someone to have sex with until they found mates. I guess I saw where this was going.
"Yeah… What about him?" I asked.
"Well… he started dating this girl and… things have gotten pretty serious between them and… I guess he's through with me. He found a mate" she explained. I figured it was that.
"Oh… well your still friends aren't you?" I asked.
"Yeah… we're still friends. When we started our little arrangement we agreed to stay friends after. But you know… he works a lot and all of his spare time is going to her so it's… pretty pointless" she explained.
"You seem a little more upset. Did you like him?" I asked.
"Well you cant have a sexual relationship with someone and not develop some sort of feelings for them. You know?" she asked, looking at me with a gleam in her eye.
"I guess," I replied. Stephanie groaned, leaning over and putting her hands on her face.
"I'm never gonna find love, am I?" she asked.
"There's someone out there for everyone" I said, patting her on the back. She removed her hands from her face looking over to me again, this time I could see that she had begun to cry. Something I really hoped wouldn't happen.
"I've only ever loved one guy, Shaky. But he's in love with somebody else, and not only that but he's been in a coma for so long and I can't even talk to him. I was happy for him, but after everything I still wanted to be friends with him. I was so happy when I found out he was alive but… does it matter? Even if he does wake up he's taken, and even if we remain close friends who I tell my secrets to, that's still not a relationship. I just want someone who loves me. I'm tired of being a sex toy" Stephanie cried. I pulled her into a hug, her face against my chest as she sobbed, wetting my shirt.
"I didn't mean him… I know there's somebody out there for you. Ya just gotta find them. At least you still have that to look forward to. I found mine but…" I said, stopping after a certain point.
"I know… I miss her too" Stephanie sobbed. I said nothing and rubbed her back as she cried. I had no idea she craved love so much. I guess all the sex from that guy was more of a way to cope. I took a look over at her bed which only had two pillows and a thin blanket. From what she told me they would have sex here a lot and it showed. From the faint smell of it to the stains on the sheets, I could see it. "Do you think you could love again?" Stephanie asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Honestly… no… and even if I could I don't think I could move on from Angel'' I explained. Stephanie sniffed a couple of times and looked up at me, our lips only centimeters apart.
"What about… someone to have… at least until you're with her again" she added. I cocked my head to the side.
"Wait… are you suggesting-"
"I don't know," Stephanie said, breaking our embrace and standing up. She turned around and looked at me as I continued to sit on the bed. "I really just want someone to love. But with school, work and taking care of my grandma it's really hard to meet somebody. I've never connected well with anybody at my new school except for that guy and now he's taken. I guess I just wanted somebody who's in a similar boat as me" she explained.
"So… you want to start a thing where… you and I have sex… until you find a proper partner?" I asked, laying it all out so that I could get a crystal clear answer. It took a moment of Stephanie staring at me awkwardly before she finally nodded.
"Yes… I always thought you were cute but… I was busy thinking of other guys and… when I came back you were with Angel and… then everything with that happened… if anyone would understand it would be you, and you're the only person who I know who might agree to this. If you dont want to it's fine I really just needed somebody to vent to but… would you want to… have sex?" Stephanie asked finally. I sat there, looking at her.
"Steph-"
"I know you would never want to move on from Angel, I'm not asking that. I'm asking for you and me to have a thing where we do this until I find a partner. Come on… knowing Angel she would want you to move on and, if you're not gonna do that then at least treat yourself" Stephanie explained. At first I felt angry. How dare she talk about what Angel would have wanted, while at the same time I got the old feeling back of her trying to replace Angel. I had gotten over that though, I just had to face this head on and Honestly… she was probably right. That was the only reason I felt myself quickly calm down. That and my hormones were going. Not to mention that she understood that I didn't want to move on from Angel.
"Come here" I said, extending my arm out to her. Was I really about to do this? It took a second but eventually she walked over, taking one step and sat back down on the edge of the bed quietly. The room was dead quiet, nothing but the slight sound of muffled soap operas in the living room. We sat staring at each other for a moment until finally I accepted it. The offer was her, and my God was it a good one. Plus I would rather do this with someone I knew. I just hoped that Angel wouldn't be upset.
I brought my hand to Stephanie's cheek, rubbing her fur with my thumb. She closed her eyes and nuzzled against it, giving me the perfect opportunity to lean in and gently put my lips on hers. I had second thoughts as I leaned in, but as the air got warmer and warmer as I approached, the temptation was through the roof. I kissed her lower lip as she got my top one. We gave each other small pecks again and again until she opened her mouth a little, giving me a small taste of her saliva. As expected it tasted sweet but not as sweet as Angel. I had to stop this. If I was going to go through with this I couldn't think of Angel. It would be impossible.
I gave her tongue a small lick, making Stephanie exhale into my mouth. I smiled briefly and went to kiss her again, locking lips gently as I began to feel her up. I pulled her close to me as I reached out further with my tongue, giving it deep, long licks to intensify the kiss. I moved my hand from her cheek to her back to meet my other hand, pressing her breasts against my chest. She moaned into it and then pulled away. At first I thought something was wrong but that was quickly proven false as she took her shirt off. I smiled and took off my jean jacket, tossing it to the floor followed by my own shirt. Meanwhile Stephanie worked on her pants which was just one quick motion to pull them down as they were sweatpants. I unbuckled my belt and took off my jeans as Stephanie crawled further onto the bed, meanwhile I was taking off my shoes and socks to fully get my pants around my ankles.
When I turned around to face her I froze. Stephanie was sprawled out on the bed, reaching for her panties as she looked at me. Her white fur blended amazingly with her tan panties and bra. It also helped that I could see her wetness as her pussy leaked onto her panties. She kept a smile on me as she pulled them down her legs, keeping them close and making her hidden pussy look so warm and soft. It was only when she got to her feet and tossed the panties to the side that she spread her legs, showing me her drooling folds.
I exhaled shakily as I quickly took off my underwear. It had been so long since I had sex, since I felt the touch and feel of a lady. As disgusting as it was, I missed it. Maybe this wouldn't be so bad. Or maybe I was just extremely horny and would really regret this after my orgasim. Once my underwear were off I looked up to see Stephanie now completely naked, tossing her bra to the side with her panties. She then gripped the thin blanket and gestured for me to come over. I laughed nervously but quickly made my way over to her, crawling between her legs and laying on her as she threw the blanket over the two of us, having it land on my upper back, although our feet were still poking out. Quickly I grabbed her cheeks and began kissing her again as I felt my rock hard penis throb. It needed her. She moaned, relaxing into the bed as she kissed me back. I sucked on her lip before breaking away and looking down at her. We stared at each other for a moment before she gave me a nod.
Quickly I let go of her face with my right hand to grab my cock and put my fleshy tip to her wet pussy. The fur on it felt drenched and sticky as I put it there, making her moan again. Her hands gripped my back as I entered her. Once the tip was in and wet I knew I was ready. I put my hand back to her face, rubbing her head as I pushed in, looking up and moaning with closed eyes as Stephanie threw her head back into the pillow and moaned as well. The feeling of my penis cramming itself into her tight pussy made me tingle and shiver. It had been such a long time since I felt a lady's walls milk me. I exhaled again, looking down where my lips were greeted by hers again. I kept my eyes shut as I relaxed, feeling a sharp tingle in me. Finally I started to hump her, getting one, two, three, four, five, six thrusts in before I felt a huge tingle in me, the slightest clench from Stephanie, along with her breath hitting me, the feeling of her soft fur, and wetness was to much as I came almost instantly, filling her up and making her yelp and squeeze me as I groaned loudly with every shot. It had just been so long and it felt so good, feeling the hot, thick ropes shoot through my dick and into her womb. I yelped loudly three times as I came, and then buried my face in Stephanie's neck, grunting with the rest of the shots, finally offering relaxing moans with shorter ones until they were just dry throbs.
I could feel my semen and Stephanie's juices ooze out of her and onto our inner thighs. Her pussy winked, making me realize that she was still horny. Of course she was, I barely lasted ten seconds. Part of me didn't want to lift my head up to face what just happened. But the other part of me felt exhausted as I lay in between her drained. Still though I managed to get off of her and pull out, rolling on the other side of the bed and sighing.
"Sorry… I'm usually not bad I…"
"It's okay… I get it. I wasn't expecting much, I know it's been a long time for ya" Stephanie replied. Still though, I felt bad.
"Give me a few minutes and we can go again" I offered. Stephanie rolled over on her stomach, facing me as she lay in the same spot, her hand now on my chest.
"Sounds good" she smiled. I smiled back but only for a moment because I felt as though it would have been rude if I didn't. Honestly I was thinking about what I was before. "What?" she asked, concerned. I guess she saw that I was upset.
"I cant believe I just had sex with another girl… oh God do you think Angel would be upset?" I asked. I looked over to Stephanie as she rested her head on her hand, looking over from me a bit to think.
"Well… knowing Angel for as long as I did… I think that she would be okay… and like I said I think that you should move on, and if your not willing to do that, and it may hurt but… we're kind of in the same boat… best to go through this with a friend" she explained, looking back at me after she stopped talking, looking for some sort of response from me.
"Yeah… she's probably upset with me for being upset but… well what about you?" I asked.
"What about me?" Stephanie asked back.
"Well… when I die I'll be with Angel again, what about you? Don't you want to reunite with a partner?" I asked. Stephanie took a moment to reply, twirling some fur on my chest.
"Well… one, I already told you I don't think I could ever move on from Rick, the same way you never moved on from Angel. Two, maybe I can keep something like this going with other people who don't have partners" she explained, making me laugh.
"You want to sleep around in the afterlife?" I asked. She snickered, offering a sweet smile before it faded.
"Well… honestly I don't believe in God. I was never religious and honestly I don't think I would want to be'' she explained. I stared at her for a moment.
"So… where do you think Angel is then?" I asked. Again Stephanie took a moment to reply.
"I hope she's somewhere safe… somewhere happy… but honestly… I don't think there's anything after" she explained. My mind froze for a moment, getting scared of the thought of that being true.
"I respect your beliefs but… after what Rick talked to me about I cant believe that" I replied.
"What did Rick believe?" Stephanie asked.
"Jesus Steph… you talk about Rick like he's dead" I said.
"You know what I mean," she replied. "And when did you start calling me Steph," she added. That was right, only Rick called her that. I laughed lightly.
"Well… he doesn't want to think of his loved ones being out in nothing. So he believes in something where they can all be together without the problems, reunited with your loved ones. He isn't sure though which is why he's terrified of dying. He's not scared of it just… what comes after" I explained. Stephanie rubbed on my chest for a moment before speaking again.
"Well I hope I'm wrong" she said. Stephanie then reached down to my limp penis, grabbing it and playing with it. "How are ya feeling?" she asked, getting close. Already I could feel her hot breath on my lips, causing me to be aroused.
"Getting there. It'll get better" I said. Stephanie giggled and then crawled on top of me. Her pussy dripped my seed all over my legs as she got between them.
"I have no doubt. Just relax okay?" she said, giving me a wet smooch. I closed my eyes and accepted it, opening them slowly once she pulled away to line us up again.
"I'll relax when I get you to cum" I said, making us both laugh. It was a fun night that we both more than deserved. We had sex three times over the course of an hour before passing out in each others arms as a sweaty and cummy mess. He fan being turned on to cool us down which only worked somewhat as it turned left to right. The extremely cramped and extremely messy room felt somewhat cozy, making me fall asleep on top of all of the sex. It was the best night sleep I had in a very long time.
I awoke the next day feeling extremely relaxed. I smiled as I felt myself wake up in a heavenly state. When I opened my eyes though the smile faded once I realized that no one was there with me. No Stephanie, just a stain from last night. I lifted my head up to see the fan still on and the door partially opened along with the smell of something that was making me hungry. Already I put the pieces together. I layed back down, nuzzling the pillow and groaning. Part of me wanted to go back to sleep but that's just how I was no matter how long I slept. When I woke up I just wanted more sleep. I would be fine in a few minutes though. I just needed to snooze.
I reached to my right for my phone, feeling for it only to realize that it wasn't there. That's right, it was in my pants. I sighed and sat up, leaning across the bed and to the floor as I balanced myself, trying not to fall over. I grabbed my jeans and felt my pockets, finding my phone and taking it out. I tapped it to see it was twelve o'clock. I groaned as I rubbed my eyes, turning back to the bed and giving it another gaze. Last night was so good, but still I felt awful, as if I was moving on from Angel.
I know a lot of people including her would want e to move on and not be sad, some would even say that they would refuse to live their life sad, but I still felt really dirty. I would trade it all if it meant I could see my beautiful Angel again. I rubbed my eyes and stretched before getting out of the bed, tossing the thin sheet aside and squeezing in between the dresser and bed. After putting on my clothes I stepped out of the room and walked down the hallway, turning the corner to see Stephanie's grandmother in front of the TV as always, but Stephanie herself in the kitchen cooking. I chuckled and walked over. Just before I reached her she turned around and smiled.
"Morning, I didn't think you would ever wake up" she said.
"What is twelve late for you?" I asked.
"When you live with someone who eats, sleeps and breathes soap operas, yes. Very late" Stephanie answered. From the looks of it she was cooking bacon and eggs, all of it looking and smelling delicious.
"Since when do you cook?" I asked, looking over everything.
"Since middle school. I know I never talked about it but I never really did it before I moved here" Stephanie explained.
"So you do the cooking too?" I asked.
"Yep, it's not that my grandmother can't cook. I just spoil her. And she has so much shit in such a tiny place that… well you see that it's a wreck" she explained.
"Eh, I actually find it cozy" I replied, looking around again, seeing all the clutter that screamed elderly. Stephanie giggled and went back to cooking.
"Hey, breakfast is almost done. Want to eat with me? We can watch something in my room" Stephanie offered.
"What about your grandma?" I asked.
"I normally just sit in my room anyway. The shit she watches I have no interest in. So how bout it?" Stephanie asked.
"Sure," I smiled. Stephanie smiled back and then took both pans off the heat, turning the stove off afterwards. "So what do you normally watch?" I asked. Stephanie shrugged.
"SpongeBob" she answered, making me laugh as she smiled. "What, you don't like SpongeBob?" she asked.
"No I love SpongeBob, I just wasn't expecting that answer" I explained. She laughed and began getting plates, three of them to be exact.
"Listen… Thank you… for last night? I really needed it. I honestly didn't know if you would go for it but… I'm glad you did. Are you okay?" Stephanie asked, taking a moment from her task to make eye contact with me.
"Yeah. why wouldn't I be?" I asked. She bit her lip.
"Well… I just… I know how you feel about Angel that's all, and if it's ever too much just let me know okay? I do still care for you" Stephanie said. I smiled as I felt my tail start to wag.
"You're a good friend, Stephanie," I said. Stephanie laughed.
"Friend," she replied.
"Shut up" I laughed. I then turned to face her grandmother's recliner. In her very small house it was just the kitchen, and then next to that was the front door and living room, all just one big room. We were very close, making me wonder. "Hey, your grandmother can't hear us right?" I asked. Stephanie smiled again.
"No, believe me her hearing is long gone. Especially when she's watching her soaps" she explained, fixing the plates again. I laughed as I thought of a question.
"Was there ever a point where you saw us having sex?" I asked. Stephanie laughed again.
"Honestly no. but like I said I did think you were attractive. I was just always looking at Rick… hey… do you want to maybe stay the night again? Last night was just really good" she explained.
"Wow, was I? I woulda thought you chose someone else after the first round we had" I answered.
"Well… I know you've been going through it. Believe me when Rick wakes up and sleeps with Kate again I'm sure she's gonna do the same thing you did. It's just a lot of build up, and the smallest trigger will make you explode. I'm guessing that's why there was so much but… I don't know, I think I honestly enjoyed you more than the other guy. Yeah we were friends but I always felt closer to you. I'm so glad you gave me that call before. I was crushed when I thought you hated me" Stephanie explained, making me feel bad.
"Yeah… sorry about that" I said.
"Don't worry, you already apologized for it. I know you weren't in a good spot. But hey, your here now" Stephanie replied.
"Yeah… I am" I said, thinking about Angel again.
"So, want to stay the night again?" Stephanie asked, stopping her task to this time make eye contact with me.
"It's a school night," I said.
"Well don't you drive to school? It's not that far of a ride. Just go get some clothes and come back. Aren't I worth it?" Stephanie asked, getting close with bedroom eyes. I chuckled before giving her a kiss on the lips.
"Oh yeah… you are…. Alright I'll go get some things" I said. Her tail started to wag as she went back to finishing up the three plates. What took the longest was the toast.
"Good. Just dont forget your toothbrush. Your breath smells horrible" Stephanie said, making me feel embarrassed.
"Well I didn't know I was spending the night" I said jokingly. Stephanie simply laughed as she picked up a plate and began to walk it over to her grandmother. Just then I felt my phone begi to vibrate. I took it out of my pocket and looked at the caller ID to see it was Lilly. I answered the call and put the phone to my ear.
"What's up Lilly?" I greeted.
"Hey Shaky. Could you come pick me up from Humphrey's please?" Lilly asked. I could hear in her voice a hint of anger and frustration, although she was trying to hide it now that she was talking to me.
"Um… yeah are you alright?" I asked. Just then Stephanie walked back into the kitchen, grabbing both plates and walking past me.
"Be in my room sexy" she whispered before walking past me, brushing her tail up against me. I turned to face her but only for a moment before I went back to me and Lilly's conversation.
"I'm fine. Something just happened and I can't be here right now. I'll tell you about it. I just don't wanna be here. Could you please come?" she asked.
"Yeah… yeah of course. I'll be right over. Just give me like twenty minutes alright?" I said, trying to calm her down. Honestly after everything I could only think the worst. So immediately I began panicking with the thought of having to get to her as fast as I could.
"Thank you. See ya soon" Lilly said before the call ended. As I put my phone in my pocket I realized that Stephanie just got done cooking breakfast and here I was leaving before I so much as took a bite.
"Shit" I muttered to myself before walking into the hallway and over to Stephanie's room. I walked in to see her sitting on the bed with her plate on the bed in front of her. She ate as she looked at the screen in front of her, which was just a small flat screen on another dresser that barely fit in the room which was in front of the bed. My plate sat next to her, and the food was practically calling my name as it entered my nose.
"Who was that?" Stephanie asked.
"Lilly. Something happened with her and Humphrey and she wants me to go get her. You wouldn't be mad if I left would you?" I asked. Stephanie's ears flattened as she muted the TV and wiped her hands with a napkin.
"No… is she okay?" Stephanie asked.
"She said she is but… I don't know. I'm gonna go talk to her" I explained.
"Well… she's welcome to come here if she wants. I would ask to come but… I'm not exactly ready" Stephanie said, spreading her arms out to reveal her outfit. Honestly it looked cute. A white tank top and gray sweatpants.
"It's okay… listen, I'll try and be back later tonight okay?" I said as I sat down and began putting my shoes on.
"Alright. Sounds like fun… oh and don't feel bad about the food. I'll just put it in the fridge or something" Stephanie said. I froze for a moment, looking back at her.
"You put fried eggs in the fridge?" I asked. Stephanie winced.
"Um… not really. Maybe I'll see if my grandma is still hungry" she said. I chuckled and leaned over, being careful not to put my shoes on the bed.
"Be back tonight alright?" I said. Stephanie giggled.
"Sounds great," she said before pecking my lips. I smiled and gave her another peck before getting up and leaving the room. As I walked down the hall and across the tiny living room I put my jean jacket on, stepping out into the warm spring morning. Or I guess it would be afternoon now. I shut the door, walked down the steps and to my car and got in. Once inside I sat and thought about everything. The way I talked and interacted with Stephanie just now… the fact that I did anything with her at all… I guess I was glad I didn't eat. Otherwise I probably would have thrown up at the thought of my betrayal. I turned the car on and put it in reverse before pulling out and going to Humphrey's house. Hopefully everything wasn't too bad.
When I got to Humphrey's house I saw Lilly sitting in a chair on the front porch. She stood up as soon as I began to pull in, walking over to the car and hopping inside as I unlocked the doors with the familiar click around the car. She opened the door and sat, buckling her seatbelt and taking a deep breath.
"Hey. thanks for getting me" she said.
"No problem. Anywhere you wanna go?" I asked, tapping my hands on the steering wheel.
"Anywhere but home. I don't know if Kate's there right now but I don't want to see her" Lilly explained. What did this have to do with Kate?
"Um… are you hungry?" I asked. There was a moment of Lilly pondering her thoughts before coming out with an answer.
"Maybe a little. Why? are you?" she asked. I shrugged.
"Well you did sorta pull me away from my breakfast" I admitted. Instantly I saw Lilly's ears drop as I saw a small wave of guilt come over her.
"Aww, I'm sorry Shaky" she said.
"It's fine. I'm willing to go get something if you're hungry. And then maybe we can talk everything out" I offered. Again Lilly thought for a moment.
"Did you have anything in mind?" she asked.
"Honestly… I kinda wanted some Spanish food. It's been so long" I replied.
"Oh, at that corner store we always go to?" Lilly asked excitedly with a wag of her tail. I chuckled as I began driving away from the house.
"Yeah. that place. Sound good?" I asked. Lilly nodded.
"M-hm. It's been a few months since we went there with everyone" she said. I smiled but it faded as I realized additional details. Yeah the last time we went was with me, her, Rick, Humphrey, Stephanie… and Angel. My ears fell flat as I felt sadness along with a tear in my eye. I Missed her so much. And now more than ever I was thinking of her. Her sweet gray fur and cute face, with her long dark hair. She really was my perfect match.
The ride was silent as we rode to the small store. Once parked me and Lilly got out and walked inside. By now it was one in the afternoon so all the food was out. There was a small line but eventually we made it. Ordered a large box with yellow rice and chicken legs, along with some beans and a small pork chop. Lilly ordered something similar. Yellow rice, chicken, beans and potatoes. We walked over to the refrigerators and picked out a soda. I got a root beer as Lilly grabbed a Dr pepper. When we got to the cashier, he rang us up and mentioned what a cute couple we were. Lilly blushed as I laughed nervously, swiping my card and then walking back to the card. All in all we were in there for at most ten minutes. When the two of us sat down in the car we both laughed.
"Aren't we the cutest?" I teased. Lilly laughed again.
"Oh yeah, you're a regular old stud. Probably be better off though" Lilly said, catching me off guard. My ears perked up as I raised an eyebrow. "What?" she asked, noticing my sudden silence.
"Nothing. It's just that you said you would be better off with me. That's all" I said as I turned the car on and began to drive again.
"Sorry. Was that weird?" Lilly asked. I shook my head.
"No… no it aint. I would date ya if I wasn't in love" I replied. Lilly giggled and relaxed into the seat.
"So where do you wanna eat this? Usual spot?" she asked. I smiled.
"Yeah… we're on our way right now" I replied. Lilly seemed happy at the thought. I on the other hand kind of dreaded it. She was referring to the park down the street where there were multiple gazebos with small tables and chairs for hang out spots. It was nice and we always chose the one that hung over the lake, but it was just the memories of the place that made me nervous to go.
We made our way there. Silently I might add. When I parked and shut the car off, Lilly grabbed the bag of food and then we walked side by side over to the gazebo. Already the memories were flooding back, but I sucked it up for the sake of not being an ass. Me and Lilly sat opposite of each other so that we could both look out into the lake, and sorted out the food and drinks, along with the thin napkins which were placed underneath our food boxes so that they didn't fly away with the wind. Finally I gave Lilly her very small plastic fork, took my own and began eating my food after opening the box. As always it was amazing. Means Lilly ate for about three minutes in silence, nothing but the sound of water splashing towards the shore calmly as we ate. It was I who broke the silence.
"So… what happened?" I asked. Lilly Looked up from her food and finished chewing, making sure her mouth wasn't full before she answered me.
"Well… promise to keep it between us?" Lilly asked. I nodded.
"Yeah, I promise," I said. Lilly picked at her food, hesitating to tell me before she began to explain.
"Well, Humphrey almost slept with Kate. he went over to our house, she broke down I guess and they started making out. Humphrey almost had sex with her but apparently he stopped her and then me and him had sex later that night and when he came… he called out Kate's name… that's how I found out" Lilly explained, honestly making a small piece of my heart shatter. I thought if Kate was gonna sleep with anyone else it would be me. But I guess she didn't want to sleep with Humphrey and it was a thing of the moment. None of us have been well lately. "Shaky? Something wrong?" Lilly asked, snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Um… well… I guess I'm just a little bothered by it is all" I admitted. Lilly tilted her head in confusion.
"Huh? Why?" she asked.
"Well… I guess it's your turn to keep a secret. Could you do that?" I asked.
"Yeah" Lilly said, obviously very intrigued.
"Well… before we found out that Rick was alive… me and Kate almost… kissed'' I said, looking away but finally finding the courage to look over at Lilly. Her mouth hung open slightly as she stared at me.
"What?" she asked.
"We made a thing of it. That if for some reason Rick didn't make it that we would be a thing. Not together just… someone to have sex with until we died and were with our partners again. But that was after we found out Rick was alive and we never did anything. But we were closer than ever. I was there for her, we hung out a lot, and the deal was still there if anything happened… we don't want something to happen but the option is still on the table" I explained. Lilly seemed confused.
"So you two almost made out… but then didn't because you found out that Rick was alive? And so you two still have this deal open if anything happens" Lilly repeated. I nodded.
"Pretty much yeah… I guess I'm just a little hurt that I was there for her, and Humphrey wasn't, but she still almost had sex with him after she knew Rick was alive, and that I was there and cared for her… and after what she told me…" I explained sadly.
"Well it's not like she wanted to have sex with Humphrey. He told me that she moaned Rick's name and that's why he stopped her" Lilly explained. It made me feel a bit better but not by much. I looked up at Lilly sadly, making her scoff. "Look Shaky… I love my sister, and I love Humphrey. But I need to vent so everything I'm about to say take with a grain of salt. Could you do that?" Lilly asked.
"Anything for ya Lilly" I said.
"Good…" Lilly replied before sighing. "I don't mean any of this, I don't mean any of this" Lilly repeated to herself quietly.
"Any of what?" I asked. Lilly looked at me angrily.
"Kate… she's just… she is such a fucking slut. I mean she could have any guy she wants. Oh she's such a pretty face. I'm so fucking tired of hearing about it, and guys drooling over her. What the fuck makes her so special? If I stood next to her, people wouldn't even think of us as sisters. They look at her and instantly want to fuck her, and then I'm the side bitch that ay or may not even be there. I mean, she even has my boyfriend now, which means I don't know if I can trust her around him. Again… any guy she wants, and she chose him? She has a boyfriend that apparently she loves. But she was ready to fuck you, she was ready to fuck Humphrey, and I bet she's willing to fuck someone else. She's so fucking horny that she lets her fucking pussy get in the way of everything, and she's allowed to do it because she's pretty. I've always been outshined by her, simply because people like her more, the way that she looks. People don't give me the same attention. And now I find out that Humphrey has been secretly drooling over her? I just cant help but wonder if he thinks about her every time we had sex. Did I waste my time with him? All the intimate moments, the gifts, the planning, the time. Was it all a waste? Did I give my virginity to the wrong wolf because this fucking semen demon wants every cock in the country? I cant fucking stand her anymore. She's a whore, and now she's an attention whore too. Cutting her wrist and becoming everyone's favorite little fucking victim. She even had me fooled. She killed some girl, got my best friend killed, almost got Rick killed, because some guy wanted her clit. She is such a fucking cancer that I don't even know if I want her in my life anymore. I hate her, I fucking hate her. She thinks she's so perfect with her looks. Back before she met Rick, she didn't even do her hair in the morning or anything. She went to school with fucking bed head, and everyone still wanted to fuck her. What a fucking joke! I can't believe I'm stuck with such a slut for a sister. Taking every dick she comes across. She's probably more cum than wolf! And you know what, I thought Rick was smarter than this. When he wakes up the first fucking thing he's gonna do is go to her. Why? Everything that's happened to him it's because of her! I have a thing for Rick, but would I ever try to fuck him? No! Because I know that Kate apparently cares so much about him. But it's fine whenever it's my fucking boyfriend. She can literally fuck who ever she wants. She even has you. Look at you, you're upset over it. She's taken, she has a boyfriend. And yet she still has you with the thought that you might be able to slip inside her. Why? Why do you hang onto that? Why did she even put that in your head? Because she's a fucking slut. The thought of her going to that hospital and acting like she cares or feels sorry for what happened makes me sick! When Rick wakes up, all she's gonna want to do is fuck him. She's disgusting. Coming after MY Humphrey. My fucking boyfriend. Fucking piece of shit bitch. She is such a slut. She's a fucking slut!" Lilly ranted, leaving me wide eyed.
"Um… feel better?" I asked nervously. Lilly closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
"Yeah… I just… needed to get that out… I didn't mean any of it… I know she loves Rick, and she would never cheat on him… she's never had se with anyone else, she doesnt WANT to have se with anyone else but… why my boyfriend? What if that's the part that's right? That he secretly wants Kate?" Lilly asked with sadness in her eyes and voice.
"Lilly… Humphrey loves you. I know he does. He cared for Kate, he loved her and still does… but he had his chance to sleep with Kate, and he didn't take it" I explained. Lilly's eyes darted away as she thought of what I said.
"What if it was you? Would you have slept with her?" Lilly asked.
"I… I don't know Lilly… I hope not" I answered. Lilly sighed again and rested her arms on the table, putting her face in them.
"Hey… I know there's a lot of guys in school who have a crush on you. And you got one of the cutest ones, at least that's what I hear girls say from time to time. None of them talk like that about me" I said. Lilly raised her head up and looked at me.
"Yeah… I guess I'm just scared about losing my Humphrey… I mean we've been through so much" Lilly said, tears beginning to form.
"Lilly… I can say with full confidence that you won't lose Humphrey. He loves you, and you can trust him with Kate. I mean I know you two talk about your problems, so why don't you just talk to him about it. I'm sure he would love to hear from you. I'm guessing you left him upset?" I asked. Lilly shrugged.
"Yeah… he wanted me to stay but… I was just so mad" Lilly replied.
"Talk to him, and I'm sure it will all get cleared up. And as for your sister. She has a soul mate, and I don't think she plans on sleeping around. Even if Rick died. The whole reason we made our thing was because we cared about and trusted each other. At least enough to have sex…" I explained.
"I know. I Don't actually think that Kate Is a slut… she's a sweet wolf but… it was just the anger talking" Lilly said, seemingly ashamed of herself. She rested her head on her hand and looked down.
"Sometimes… we all say things we don't mean… what matters is how we actually feel" I said before going back to my food, eating a fork full of rice. Lilly watched me.
"Yeah… hey Shaky thank you for this. I really appreciate it" Lilly said.
"Anytime" I said. Lilly stared at me for a few more seconds.
"So… I kind of want to ask you something" she said. I took a bite of chicken before speaking.
"Shoot," I said.
"Well… I'm just curious… did you… have se with Stephanie?" Lilly asked, making my eyes instantly widen as I panicked, choking on my food as I began to cough. "Hey are you alright?" Lilly asked. I coughed some more before answering, a tear in my eye from the coughing.
"Yeah… Why do you ask that?" I asked, trying to play it off.
"Well… I can smell it" Lilly admitted. That's right, I didn't shower after. I gained control of my breaths before looking over to Lilly, ashamed of myself.
"Lilly I… yes… I regret it but… she made an offer, I was there and… things happened" I said, putting my elbows on the table and covering my face with my hands.
"Hey… why do you regret it?" Lilly asked. Again I felt tears start to build up.
"Because… I belong with Angel… I miss her so much, and after me and Stephanie had sex I… I couldn't help but not stop thinking about her. I just miss her so damn much" I said, trying not to cry. Lilly looked at me as if she understood.
"I know you still love Angel… and you don't want to move on from her. But it's what she would have wanted" Lilly said. I shook my head, not looking at Lilly. "Shaky… Shaky look at me" Lilly said. Slowly but surely, I did. "Do you really think that Angel would be upset with you for not moving on?" Lilly asked.
"It… it's supposed to be a thing where we're just friends… just… with the sex… she had a thing with another guy but… he found a partner and she was alone so… she wanted to have sex with me… and start a similar thing" I explained.
"So… you two aren't-"
"No! No… I'll never get another partner" I said.
"But… what about when she finds love?" Lilly asked.
"She said that she can't because she already loved Rick. I hope she finds someone but… until she does I was gonna… oh God I'm so disgusting" I said, feeling a tear fall down my face.
"Hey don't cry okay? You deserve this. It's what Angel would want for you. Sex is a need for people, we all have it. And the fact that you found someone who understands that you don't want to move on. I mean if you're not gonna do that you might as well at least have someone to be intimate with" Lilly explained. I sniffed, trying to calm myself before replying.
"That's what Stephanie said" I replied.
"See? You deserve this. Is that where you were this morning?" Lilly asked. I nodded sadly.
"I just… I want my Angie back" I sobbed, feeling immense heartbreak as I thought of her again.
"Shaky…" Lilly said, grabbing my attention. "You deserve this… Angel would want this for you. Just do it, and if it lasts long enough… you can be with Angel again" Lilly said.
"I… I thought you didn't believe in God" I said. Lilly shook her head.
"I don't… but if it is real… then at least do this until your time comes" Lilly urged. I sniffed again.
"Promise to talk to Humphrey?" I asked. Lilly seemed to bite her lip before replying.
"Fine… but I don't want to go there right now. Mind if I hang with you until tonight?" Lilly asked. I nodded with a slight smile.
"Yeah… we can do that," I said. Lilly smiled back. And together we ate, relaxing before going back to my place and watching TV. at least that's what Lilly did as I showered, and brushed my teeth, along with picking out some clothes. It was weird. Even after all the convincing I still felt wrong. But I was excited for tonight. Was I wrong? We hung out until around eight o'clock. By then my dad came home, greeted us, and then I went to drop Lilly off at Humphrey's. I told her that he loved her and that everything would be fine and then she thanked me again before parting ways. Like last night I waited for her to go inside before riding over to Stephanie's. When I arrived I knocked on the door, which was answered shortly by her. She smiled at the sight of me and I smiled back.
"How did everything go?" she asked.
"Fine… it went fine" I said. She came closer and scooped up my lips with hers. At first I felt dirty again, but as I grew erect I hugged her, kissing her back with closed eyes. She moaned slightly before pulling away to break the kiss.
"I can taste you brushed your teeth," she teased. I chuckled before she offered me her hand. It took a second as I thought everything over again. I just felt so dirty but… the urge drove me as I convinced myself that everything was okay, and that I would indeed see Angel again where we would be together… happy… and in love. But for now, I had a friend where we could treat both of our needs. With that in mind I looked at Stephanie's hand, and walked with her to her bedroom for a good session of sex.
