"You're so warm." Semi muttered softly while his cheek was pressed firmly against his soft pillow as he's pressed up against Shirabu's.
The night was cold and dark, yet both Semi and Shirabu felt incredibly warm as they laid in each other's soft and tender embrace, while laying in their comfortable and big bed as they cuddled up against each other, both of them too tired to do anything else, but not like they actually wanted to do anything else.
They were both exhausted from all of the work they have been doing for the past few days, and because of that they haven't been able to spend much time together for quite some time, so the moment they got the chance to finally get to spend some time with each other they both jumped on the opportunity to do so, even if it's just laying in bed together while enjoying each other's warmth.
Semi's arm that had been lazily lying over Shirabu's side while the former was spooning him moved to gently caress Shirabu's soft belly, Semi has always loved how soft Shirabu's whole body is, and he absolutely loves getting to feel it up every time they layed next to each other, whether it be on the couch or the bed didn't matter, Semi just loves to touch Shirabu's soft body whenever he gets the chance to do so.
Though to Semi's surprise, as soon as he had placed his hand against Shirabu's doughy belly, Semi could instantly feel Shirabu sucking in his belly the moment he felt Semi's hand touching his body, which caused him to frown as he quickly took his hand away from Shirabu, not wanting to make him even more uncomfortable, before he sat up and leaned over his boyfriend with concerned written all over his face.
"Kenjirou, what's wrong?" Semi asked in a concerned tone as he looked down at Shirabu who was still laying down, not even bothering to look over at Semi as his body curled up slightly in discomfort.
Shirabu didn't say a thing in response as a expression of both sadness and discomfort made its way onto his round face, though despite not having said anything, Semi already knew what had most likely been the cause of Shirabu's discomfort without the boy having to tell him anything, and he desperately hopes his assumption was wrong.
Shirabu has always struggled with his own self image and the way his body looks, ever since Semu had first met him in highschool Shirabu had already been very overweight, which had caused him to be quite noticeable amongst all of the thin students that attended their school, and sadly it had caused him to be on the receiving end of many horrible insults.
Semi could still remember all of the times he has heard people saying terrible things about Shirabu, and he could still clearly remember all of the times he had tried to pick a fight with those who dared to insult his, at the time still precocious teammate, not to mention the times he's actually succeed at doing so and the amount of trouble he has gotten into because of it.
But despite how many times he got detention because of it, it had been worth it, because even though the bullying had never stopped completely, they did stop insulting Shirabu when his teammates were around, which Shirabu had been quite grateful for even if he hadn't been willing to admit it back then.
But even though the bullying did become a little less because of Semi and the other members of their team, it did end up leaving Shirabu with quite a bit of lasting insecurities, and honestly, Semi couldn't blame him, the things that they would say to Shirabu on a daily basis were absolutely horrible, if people said those things to Semi he would end up exactly the same, even if none of what they said was true.
Shirabu is most likely thinking all sorts of self-deprecating things about himself because of it, and Semi didn't like the thought of him doing so one bit.
Semi continued to look down at Shirabu while concern was written all over his face, but Shirabu still didn't say anything, he just pressed the side of face harder into his pillows as he continued to look away from Semi's concerned eyes, if it wasn't before, it was definitely clear to Semi that something is horribly wrong now.
Semi didn't know for how long he had been sitting in the dark waiting for Shirabu to say something, he was growing more concerned by the second, and Shirabu kept looking more uncomfortable, he obviously didn't want to talk to Semi, that or he doesn't know what to say to him, Semi did know which one, but when Shirabu finally chose to look up at him, he had an expression of pure sadness on his face.
Shirabu hesitated for a few long seconds before he finally opened his mouth, and what he had said ended up saddened Semi deeply. "What is it that you like so much about my body?" Shirabu suddenly whispered softly, he asked it so softly that Semi could hardly hear him.
But the one thing that Semi could hear clearly was how Shirabu's voice had been shaking and breaking while he had asked that question, like he was about to break down in tears, just hearing his boyfriend sound so vulnerable made Semi's heart shatter, it probably took Shirabu all of his mental strength to ask him that without completely breaking down.
The question itself hadn't come as a surprise to Semi, after all he knows how much Shirabu had struggled with his body all throughout his life, but that didn't mean he hadn't been taken aback by it, it has been quite a while since Shirabu had been openly insecure about his weight with him, he always prefers to keep it all bottled up inside, so Semi couldn't help but be slightly taken aback for a short second.
Semi opened his mouth to answer Shirabu's question but as soon as he did he quickly closed it, he just couldn't think about what to say, the question that Shirabu had decided to ask him was hard to answer, not because Semi couldn't name something he liked about Shirabu's body, it's because there are so many things that he absolutely loves about his boyfriend's body.
There isn't a single part of Shirabu's body that Semi doesn't absolutely adore, to him Shirabu is the most beautiful person that he has ever laid eyes on, that's why it hurts him so much every time he hears him saying such downgrading things about his appearance, and it hurts him even more when he sees Shirabu looking at himself with sad eyes every time he sees his own reflection, it's enough to bring Semi to tears.
Semi placed his hand against Shirabu's soft cheek and started caressing it softly, Shirabu's eyes had gone wide the moment he felt Semi's hand against his cheek, he wanted to tell his boyfriend to stop, but he didn't have the energy fo do so, so he just let him continue to do so. "Everything." Semi whispered softly in a gentle tone, but not soft enough for not to be able to hear him.
Shirabu just looked at him in surprise after hearing his boyfriends words, he looked like even after all of the times he still expected for him to say something negative, like he didn't believe that someone could actually like the way he looks, it was almost like he couldn't get himself to believe what Semi had said, which made his heat sink, because he truly does love every inch of his boyfriend's beautiful body.
He absolutely love's Shirabu's soft cheeks.
He loves the soft and round cheeks that Shirabu would always cutely puff up when whenever something isn't going his way, the cheeks that Semi always enjoys to gently caress with his soft hands and absolutely loves kissing endlessly whenever he feels like doing so, and when they are both cuddling up against each other late at night when they're both tired, just like tonight.
He absolutely love's Shirabus's hands.
The soft hands with chubby fingers that despite Shirabu's physique have made many successful tosses, which is something he had been quite known for all throughout both his middle and highschool volleyball career, the soft hands that Semi loves holding tightly in his own when they're going on quite walks together around the neighborhood, and when they need to feel each others touch.
He absolutely loves Shirabu's arms.
He loves the thick arms that jiggle every time Shirabu moves them even slightly, especially when he makes a successful toss, and he adores seeing the flappy bat wings hanging from his upper arms every time he raises his arms slightly, it always takes Semi's breath away, he loves them so much even if Shirabu rather has them go away because he thinks they're ugly.
He absolutely loves Shirabu's thighs.
He loves the thick legs that jiggle in every direction when he's running around during practice, the legs that despite how thick they are, still managed to carry around such a massive amount of weight all around the gym at a pace that you wouldn't ever expect from someone so heavy, the legs that Semi loves grabbing when they're being intimate together.
And most of all he love's Shirabu's belly.
Semi absolutely loves wrapping his arms tightly around his boyfriend wide middle while he touches his cute love handles and caresses his soft belly, Semi just can't help but want to gently touch his boyfriend body, it just makes him sad that Shirabu doesn't want Semi touching him purely because he doesn't think that his body is beautiful, he just wants Shirabu to look at himself like how Semi looks at him.
"Kenjirou, look at me." Semi said in the most gentle tone, and with the sweetest smile on his face. Shirabu hesitantly looked over at his boyfriend, but as soon as he saw his beautiful and gentle smile, he seemed to finally relax just a bit.
When he finally got Shirabu's full attention on him, Semi continued talking. "I love everything about your body, from your cheeks to your thighs, I love it all." He looked straight into his boyfriend's eyes when he said that, he needed his boyfriend to know that he had been completely serious.
Shirabu didn't know what to say in response, even though he knows that his boyfriend would never say anything bad about him, especially about something his is insecure about like his weight, yet he can't help but expect the worse, he's just gotten so used to people saying bad things about his weight, that every time his boyfriends says something nice about it, he just can't help but be surprised.
"But why!?" Shirabu asked with tears in his eyes and louder than he had wanted to, but he couldn't help it, his emotions were all over the place. Even though Semi is always telling him how much he loves Shirabu's body, Shirabu still couldn't understand how anyone could ever love a fat and ugly body like his.
Semi's smile didn't fade for even a second after Shirabu's outburst, if anything it only seemed to grow brighter. "Because you're absolutely beautiful." Semi wrapped his arms around Shirabu and hugged him tightly. "You may not think it yourself, but I've never thought of your body as anything other than absolutely beautiful."
After hearing his boyfriend sweet words, Shirabu just couldn't keep his tears in any longer, he hugged Semi tightly as he started crying loudly into his boyfriend's chest as he was shaking immensely, all the while Semi just started running his fingers through Shirabu's soft hair in a way to comfort his soft boyfriend, they sat there in each other's embrace for what felt like hours, all the while just cry loudly as Semi comforted him.
"Kenjirou, If you could see yourself through my eyes you would see the most beautiful person in the world." Semi said when Shirabu had finally seemed to calm down a little, while continuing to stroke his sniffling boyfriend's hair. He wasn't done complimenting his boyfriend yet.
"Don't ever think you're anything other than beautiful." Shirabu just hugged him tighter as he continued to sob silently into Semi's chest. He had been to overcome with emotions to actually say anything, but Shirabu knows that Semi knows just how grateful he is for his boyfriend's constant support and sweet words without him having to actually say anything.
They stayed like that for a little while longer until Shirabu finally fell asleep in Semi's arms, he had been so exhausted from crying that for the first time in a long while it didn't take long for him to fall asleep, and even while he was seeping in his boyfriend's strong arms, Semi just continued to stroke his hair gently, and for the first time in a very long time, Shirabu actually had a good night sleep.
That night Shirabu slept with a smile on his face.
