AN: hey! I exist (barely)


Part 1

That was the longest walk home of my life. My thoughts racing a thousand miles a minute, part of me wanted to scream and cry as hard as I could, the emotional strain the whole series of events had taken was almost more than I could take. However, I just kept walking. Darkness and Aqua had gone on ahead when I asked to be alone, so it was just me on that cobbled street. Rain pattered against me, wetting my hair and obscuring my vision. How pathetic I truly was in that moment.

I made it back to the house after what seemed like years, and opened the door to a resounding silence. Only one set of shoes lay in the cabinet by the door, as it had been for weeks.

I kicked my shoes off, and walked into the kitchen to grab a drink.

Glass of the strongest stuff I could find in hand, I silently stood in a solemn moment I couldn't find the words so summarise if I tried. Where is the point in my being here? Why should a useless loner like myself be given such a chance at another life? I've such a great chance here, I should be happy, but I'm not and the only way I can express it is by being angry, and I can't talk about it because who I am and how I act are different, and I fear if I open up the character I've created will fall apart too.

What I have right now would be a dream for many, another life, magic, a whole 'fantasy' and yet with each tumultuous event that happens allows upon me a revelation yet, I would give my place here if it meant I would cease to exist upon this very moment.

I'm alone, and I can't help that fact, because it's not in a literal sense. I have people I could talk to if I wanted, but something stops me every time

I don't get anymore time to think is the door to Megumin's room swings open, and I don't have enough time to focus myself before she can see the... whatever it is in my eyes.

She sees me and stands still for all of a moment, before stepping forward and embracing me. My arms remained at my sides as we stood in silence, me struggling to find the strength to offer any feeble resistance, knowing it was not what I wanted.

In that moment, she just might've made me a little more glad to exist.


AN: am back maybe, idk, wrote this instead of crying. Sorry it's been so long, I'm not doing the best. School is hell, some of my good friends are gone, and I feel like shit. Welp, hope you enjoyed, sorry if it was real depressing, peace for now /