I can't belive I have almost ten chapters and 16k in words. primarily because before I started posting this I havent written in ten years, thanks to everyone for even reading my story and any feedback is appeicated. also my spell checker won't work I'll edit it later.


When they arrive at the station Lin gets to putting on her uniform in the stall of a bathroom. She felt at home in the station at least at work nobody dare comment about her appearance when she strolled was more worried people would comment abouT her age how silly ot was to dress like that but it never came up not even at the party. She had Saikan lead the investigation with Mako and Korra. The ride over had been a silent hostile quiet she wished she had gotten in the bison with anyone else but the very people who where mad at her. anyone could see the stewing had put on her uniform pants feeling comfy again she was wraping her chest down when Su knocked once again she asked her a million question. She wonders about death again how if she did try it had to be perfect. She stepped out of the stall and looked to the mirror to admire her handy work she had decided to keep the makeup on and her hair how Kya had styled it.

"Why do you bind?Lin, don't you feel uncomfortable?"Su asks noticing the difference she didn't think it was natural. Lin wondered what it would be like to have a body like her sisters.

"Not if you do it right besides, it helps me when I'm bending, and people don't treat me like I'm just the women who was handed the chief position because her mother."

"That's ridiculous, you almost died working for mom once remember? Katara said you had a brain injury."Lin felt angry but decided to hold her tongue , reminding herself that it was Toph's fault. She remembered how Toph acted like she didn't know her and allowed Lin's superior officers to treat her as they pleased she refused to be told she showed favoritism.

"When I look like one of them, they remember. Your scars also helped." She looked at her face noticing they where still covered, Su fliched she wondered if Lin felt unsightly because some people act like defects are hideous. Su knew it was a joke for a while Toph had told her. Su knew most rational people didn't think of it. It did make rumors of Lins father worst everyone thought it was Zuko who fathered her but nobody dare say it.

"Im still sorry I did that, I thought my life was over." Su awkwardly tried to jest

"It was years ago, forget it. Now, I have a criminal to interrogate." Lin took a deep breath putting on the face she wore for most of her life as a cop blank and intimidating.

Su let her know she would be with the others. As the pair split Lin walked down the hall mentally preparing herself to see Tarrlok. The last time she saw him he had blood bent them all, maybe he removed the people who confessed bending and sent them to their victims of their crimes, maybe he was working with Amon. She hoped he didn't know about the Haruk thing.

She stood on the other side of the interrogation window, she looked at Tarrloks face how it had been scarred how he looked like he had a robotic hand. So, he had been the one to blow up the boat she was surprised the blast didn't kill him but maybe his brother had saved him. She knew he thought about ending his life but she never knew why. it was an unspoken part of their relationship his past, Tenzin and admitting they loved each other. Lin realized she had been to lost in her feelings, she knocked on the window. Mako was getting aggressive he passed the line where it was just good cop and cop and Tarrloks silence got into his head instead. Saikan had him leave.

"Detective." Her voice treaded lightly she couldn't help being softer on him.

"He refuses to speak, to answer us. He said he wants to speak to you first privately.

"Well, that's not happening and you losing your cool is not helping me. So get those sketches since you apparently can't keep your anger in check." Lin's eyes glowed at him. Mako took a deep breath

"Hate that guy, I'm sorry." He hurried to do the task, he worried Lin would be disappointed in him. Lin was surprised he snapped that fast considering Korra had not. She marched into the room with authority.

" Alright, I'm going to show you a photo, and your going to tell me everything you know, Tarlok." she spat out his name, Tarrlok realizing he wasn't going to be able to speak to her alone. He felt good in a twisted way, she was still angry so she must still care.

"Chief Beifong," his tone had not changed in the slightest.

"I would be happy to help your investigation, however at this time I will have to let you know I cannot do that."

"You wont" Lins voice had cut.

"Why not Tarrlok." Korra said arms crossed she stood over him. Mako had returned sliding the photo over

"You working with him." Mako said cooled down

Tarlok looked at Lin, then Korra. Deciding not even bothering to give Mako a second glance would surely piss him off.

"That one might be the least of your problems." Tarlok smirked.

"To bad, I can't help." He said after a pregnant pause.

Meanwhile everyone else sat in a waiting room of some sort Asami flipped threw a manage trying not to think about her father or the horrible tension in this room. In the back ground where harsh voices.

"I can not believe you Bumi" Tenzin scolded, he couldn't even look at his brother

"It was all an act Tenzin, you wouldn't last undercover if you can't even understand that." Bumi said dryly.

"You flirted with his ex all night what is one suppose to think" Kya chimed in discarding what she was reading, Asami sneakily took it as it was the only intresting magazine in the sat beside her with Bolin, Opal and Pema. She was enjoying the front row seats, glad she came. Su expected Opal would need more comfort but instead she found herself in the mist of the juiciest scandal.

"Lin needs serious help guys,are you not paying attention?"

"And your really helping her out with your tongue down her throat." Tenzin's snipped

Pema felt uncomfortable, was Tenzin jealous? Sure it was weird because it was his older brother but to be that angry, it made her think.

"I was trying to talk to her, she looks like she's at the end of the rope, if somebody made her feel comfortable maybe she will talk" Bump's voice was thoughtful.

"That's sweet bumi but you could have let her keep her clothes on, and not put your hands all over her." Kya said

"I'm serious, It was my biggest failure back when I was a commander. I should have helped more but instead I enabled, I still think about the funerals that happend because of the former commander's abuses and my neglect." Bumi looked down, ashamed his voice wasn't as boisterous as normal.

"Not lin, she would never end her life" Tenzin said he known all his life, she never backed down from anything, she wouldn't quit at life.

"I didn't mean to get wrapped up, besides she kissed me first. She was playing a part but I guess I got carried away" Bumi admitted

"I didn't know you where a therapist Bumi, it's pretty unporfessional to have lipstick on your neck, seriously how did you not notice?" Kya motions this still stained neck. nobody told him but she figures a civilized person would look at themselves to make sure. Bumi ignored Kya

"I really think she's acting this way because she's depressed, too many things have been coming at her. I, I still remember the day Toph brought her to the island for mom to check on her, she had that same empty look in her eye tonight."

"The annersivery of that day is coming up" Kya remembers quietly.

Su took in the information not seeing this as likely

"Lin's fine, she's a solider" Su said "She always gets back up and fights, she's fine." Kya ignored this still thinking. She felt angry remembering the love triangle that happened.

"Isn't the annerserivery coming up, do you still go visit the grave?" Bumi asked

"What aniversery?" Pema asks, Su sits up she didn't know either.

"Tenzin never told you, the stillbirth. Oh-" Bumi covered his mouth. Pema was glad she had Jinora take the kids home with sighed, saying "I haven't gone but I think about it every day." Asami thinks back to the spirit world.

"You left her for Pema and even admitted you where cheating, like she was nothing to you. after she forced herself to get pregnant again,knowing you would leave you didn't even wait a month when she miscarried again." Kya spat, he desvere to feel the rage. It felt like he didn't care at all to her.

Tenzin froze

Bolin and opals innocent eyes flashed with an emotion nobody seen on them. They looked like hornets. Pema slowly recalled that spring, then it all clicked a piece she always failed to understand.

"No wonder she, her hormones and grief must have been thorough the roof when she attacked temple island." Pemas normally cheery voice filled with disgust remembering how she felt when she had a miscarrige that one time between Meelo and Rohan.

"Don't act innocent," kya said coldly. "You knew, you were fine cheating with him." Kya tried to ease her anger. Pema was a older teenager when it happened, and she never had ill feelings for her. In fact Kya liked pema especially for tenzin. Her gripe was she decided she wanted to be involved with a man who been with a woman for most of his life. She couldn't ignore how Tenzin threw Lin away.

"Could you not bring her into this, I choose to agree to try with Pema. That is my responsibility." Tenzin took a breath before contuining, "I had to focus on the-"

"Airbenders, we get it." Bumi decided to team up with Kya now.

"No you don't." Tenzin snapped feeling tired of being attacked

"Excuse me, you act like its our fault" Kya snapped back.

"Well it is, do you think I had a choice. If one of you had lifted a single finger ,to help, to be proactive, or if one of you had children it wouldn't have matter, it would not have all rested on me! Do you think I wanted to leave her, especially like that. I can't even look at myself knowing how heartless that was!" His voice was raised like they never heard booming of pain

Asami, Opal and Bolin quietly felt the pain, it stung Tenzin had been like a father, to know he was able to hurt someone like that really ached but they stood quiet.

"You still think it all laid on you, and made everyone feel bad about it, then you went for a girl that was 20 years younger then you." Bumi crossed his arms feeling angry at the implication.

"No, you two were selfish taking your anger out on me and expecting me to just take over dad not including you to build sand castles. You both chose to run away to focus on your self could have helped, I was 34 when dad died and still had no children. I was the last air bender and neither of you did a thing for Air nomad culture either, you were off roaming the world like you wanted to. being mad at me because dad didn't share his culture with you when you could have just asked, as his children. I didn't know airbenders where going to come back, I- if I didn't leave then. I wouldn't ever leave her-"

He didn't notice his breathing, it was so heavy and his eyes where wet and red rimmed. He couldn't sleep at night when he thinks about the guilt ate him alive on a good day even if it gave him the most amazing gifts in the world his children the love of his life it still wretched within him.

Kya looked at her brother, realizing he truly felt remorseful he had failed to suppress a sob. Bumi wondered if this would be better one day, it sounded like a lose,lose for Tenzin back then. Bumi felt like he failed his little brother.

" We should have, I could have done more as Aang's kids." Bumi finally said softly

"I guess, we never thought about how we didn't help you not feel burdens. I just thought about the bending and how I let dad down" Kya stared at the floor for a second.

Bumi rubbed Tenzin's back as he wondered had he ever gotten to cry over his lost child, his lost love. Kya hugged Tenzin gingerly.

Pema approached them

"This year we all will go, as a family to honor the baby." Her eyes were red, she realized what a mess this all was.

Su looked at Opal feeling heavy thinking Bumi may be right about her sister, she never realized how much she went though when she left Rebublic City.

"When I have kids, I'm going to makes sure they all are connected to both sides bender or not." Opal said holding Bolin.

"That's right," Su said quietly no idea if anyone heard, it was a long night.