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Warning for slightly more mature content!
Unnecessary Worries
Tenten had woken up early, intending to remove all the traces of last night's gathering. She collected everything from the table and separated the things - some of them she put in the fridge and some of them she threw out. Then she cleaned the whole house one more time, followed by loading the washing machine.
She was overwhelmed with joy as Kankuro was coming out of the hospital today but she felt really worried at the same time. There was no real reason behind that. She spent a lot of time close to him during her stay in Suna, in his arms even - some of the most wonderful moments in her entire life. Though if she tried to define her worries as fear of eventual sexual encounter, there was no sense at all - Kankuro's physiological problems, even if it was temporal, was not going to let them have sex yet. And if she had to be honest at least to herself, she actually wanted to have sex with him quite a lot…
After a good three hours of cleaning Tenten had finally sat on the sofa with a cup of hot coffee. She placed her feet on the small table, smiling. Last evening, after they discussed Temari and Shikamaru's wedding, Henata had left so the rest came back to the intimate topics. However, those topics were uncomfortable for Tenten, though she kept quiet about it. Ino had come to talk about masturbation and an ex-lover of hers, loving just to stay aside and watch her. She said it creeped her out and made her uneasy but she actually liked it at one moment. Temari also mentioned about similar likings in an ex lover of hers, though she had decided to get rid of him quickly afterwards. On the other hand Sakura firmly stated that the act of masturbation is something she practised only with herself, no viewers or visitors were allowed and welcomed.
Tenten had liked Sakura's point of view and thought if she was alone, she may actually…try that out?
When all of the women left, she sat on the sofa, thinking over and over the last conversation about self-satisfaction. All of the others were accepting this act normally as something natural, just as drinking water for example. Tenten bit her lip and made a decision that it was about time she educated herself a bit on the matter. Also what pushed her in that direction was they all shared they had experience in this before the moment they started to have intimate relationships with men. Temari had stated this was the only way for one to discover her "yes" and "no", to find out about your honest preferences and to get used to the release itself. Tenten realised her chastity is to put it simply… stupid.
She laid down in her bed and hesitantly slid her hand under the covers. She needed some time to feel, to adjust her movements and the speed she felt most pleased with, though she succeeded with her enterprise with no real problem. Then she suddenly felt it was just not enough until her inner muscles started to tremble just before they pulsated rhythmically and a wave of relief washed over her whole body. The experience was new and a bit weird but now she knew the reason why the sensation was so desired. Well now it was clear to her the occasional appearing burning lust won't be simply put out just hard physical training…
Clearly,from now on the burning lust wouldn't be washed away with hard physical training only.
She didn't regret it though…
She regretted nothing…
She even felt kind of glad that she succeeded to get over her fear and do something she was so carefully avoiding up until now. Now she was just asking herself why…
She had realised she didn't have any expectations from the act of sex. Also she wasn't worried at all about the pain or if she would like it, or if she looked good enough - all the kunoichi had wonderfully shaped bodies. Plus Kankuro had shown her several times that he found her body, as her whole self, really beautiful… What she was worried about was if he would feel good having sex with her. Especially considering the big number of women he had shared his bed with. Though he had told her something imprinted really strongly in her mind: "Experience and skills come up with knowledge and practice. This applies to everything." Those words had brought her peace in moments she felt unsure of herself.
Tenten drank the last sip of the still warm coffee and got up on her feet. She went to get dressed - she knew she didn't have to put much effort into her looks. Firstly because Kankuro liked her no matter what she was wearing and secondly - he wouldn't be able to see her well, so she considered the comfortable outfit…
When she was ready, she went to the kitchen and checked one more time what she needed to pick up for the fridge.
So she sighed, put on her shoes and went out.
…
Her heart was going to burst out of her chest while she was waiting into the hospital's hallway. Tsunade-sama had insisted on talking with Kankuro eye to eye. In a few more minutes Godaimer left the room. She headed towards Tenten and stopped just before she passed by the younger woman. Then she placed a hand on Tenten's shoulder and said with a serious face…
"He must sleep well, feed himself well and not miss a single hospital appointment so he would eventually be able to leave for Suna in about a month." She smiled brightly. "And you will be leaving with him, of course."
Tenten smiled and nodded. The older woman squeezed lightly on her shoulder and headed down the hallway.
Kankuro exited the room and his face just lightened up with a smile - no, he couldn't see her clearly but he could definitely sense her. She gave him a tight hug.
"I just can't wait to get out of here," he whispered, smiling.
"I can believe you. It is way better at home."
She grabbed his hand and dragged him to the exit. But then they took a slow walk, there was nothing they needed to rush for. And none of them actually spoke during the first few minutes. It looked like all of their concentration was directed to their tangled fingers. As they went out on the street Kankuro grinned:
"Temari came to see me really early in the morning before her shift with Shizune. She told me about the very interesting conversation you all had yesterday evening."
"What exactly did she tell you?" Tenten asked slowly.
"Well, that Hinata was interrogating you all." He shrugged.
It was not really true. Temari had told him about her own impression as a conclusion from the last night's conversation, which was that Tenten was feeling sexually awkward towards him. His sister had asked him to pay attention, to not neglect and to sooth her fears before doing anything sexual to Tenten, that's in case he still haven't done anything… Kankuro was more than certain he was not going to tell his wife that, but he was going to try and figure out if and what she was worried about exactly.
"Kankuro, what did Temari tell you exactly?" Tenten repeated seriously.
"All right… So she said Hinata asked you to share you advices about kissing and sex." He said bluntly.
"And what else?"
"Tenten, Temari is not the gossip type." He chuckled. "She never gave me any details or who said what. She just drew the conversation outlines, that's all."
Tenten exhaled with relief. She really didn't want to think that Temari would easily share personal information and she would have been really disappointed if Temari did it.
"That doesn't mean I am not curious though," he chuckled softly.
"What are you so curious about?" Tenten placed for a moment her head on his shoulder in unwillingly tender gestire.
"Was there something new for you in that conversation?"
"There was, actually," she confessed. "But I can't possibly tell you what without going into details and I don't want to do that."
"Right, you are right. It is not fair for me to pry that way." An impish smile remained on his lips and there was no hearable sign of any regret in his tone.
"Why do I have the feeling you don't take all of that seriously?"
"Oh, I take it very seriously." He turned to her and smiled. "That, though, doesn't stop me from imagining all kinds of variations of last night's conversations you all had and have a little fun, does it?"
Tenten shook her head in disbelief. She clicked her tongue unhappily and started pulling him ahead to the place where they were supposed to have lunch with Temari, Shikamaru and Sakura.
"Where are we going?" he asked.
"We have a formal lunch with your sister," she explained without looking at him.
"It sounds quite… obligational…" he said quietly and shrugged. He actually liked spending time with his sister and also it turned out Shikamaru is decent. Maybe a bit too decent and scary smart… "Ok, I see you have made some plans for lunch already. What have you planned for after lunch?" Kankuro asked curiously.
"After lunch we are going to supply you with the few nasty-tasted teas you must drink. When we go home afterwards, you are free to take a long shower and after that… we can sit on the sofa and talk."
"Let's say I agree with you to some extent." He said, smiling slightly.
"Why only to some extent?"
"Hmm… Do you happen to remember what you told me the evening before my last mission?" Kankuro's smile widened.
"I told you a lot of things… Maybe you should give me a hint?" Tenten frowned.
"If you happen to come back… There is no way you are going to sneak out of sex so easily," he quoted her exact words. "Do you remember those words?"
Tenten's face flushed and she didn't look at him.
"I can't see your face well, but I certainly can recognise the tomato's colour on it." He kept smiling. "But do you remember what I told you back then?" She silently nodded. "That's my plan."
"Wait a second… We can't…" Tenten whispered. "Weren't you…?"
"I still do have a problem, if that's what you imply. In the near future that problem will disappear anyway, so I am going to treat that problem as if it was already gone." He said that without a hint of discomfort.
"But… how?"
"You see, I'm the one with the problem, not you.." He put it out simply, causing her to reach a new redder shade, so dense that people started to notice it.
"Kankuro, this is not a place for those kinds of conversations!" she scolded. "Plus I do not agree with you!"
"Why do you not agree with me? Do you have a problem I don't know about?" His tone was cheerful.
Tenten opened her mouth to say something but no words came out. That was just something she couldn't imagine. She already had a picture in her head of when Kankuro and she would have sex, of course, and this image definately included a full-size erection. She wasn't able to react properly right now, which seemed to make Kankuro a bit too joyful.
"You are impossible!" she hissed.
The man laughed and didn't say a word anymore. He was going to stay silent and give her the opportunity to regain her normal face colour before they reach Temari.
…
It turned out Kankuro had adapted quite fast to the lack of fully functional eyesight. He was able to recognise the emotions only but the slight change of the face outlines. That was why, after they picked up the teas from the local pharmacy, he determined with no mistake Tenten's intense worries when they headed to her apartment. She was silent as if she was scared to talk.
"Are you afraid?" he asked.
"No." She denied right away, then sighted and obviously shrank. "Yes…"
"What are you afraid of?"
Tenten thought about his question and she couldn't name her fear. She was just feeling a strong uneasiness, discomfort, but in reality, she couldn't say why she was feeling that way.
"Look, I am not doing something against your will. It is enough if you say "no", you know that, right?" he asked quietly.
"I know… And if I must be honest you never hurt me. It is true you have surprised me a few times, but you never hurt me."
"How did I surprise you?" he asked. "What with?"
"Oh, well… Do you remember the first time you kissed me?"
"I do, we were in your apartment, just near the disassembled washing machine."
"I was surprised then."
"I see." He suddenly stopped, pulled her to him and passionately kissed her in the middle of the street. When he let her out of his grip to get some air, he impishly smiled. "Were you surprised now?"
Tenten's sides slightly flushed and she tapped his chest.
"Let's say I am going to put out my plans sometime later. Would you like to debunk those fears of yours together?" he asked way more seriously. "Or at least we can try doing so. I really don't want you to feel fear. That… The sex with you is way beyond of simple satisfaction of physical needs." He gently caressed her face and nodded to her apartment. They had almost reached it.
She obviously relaxed.
"Yes, we could try to do that." While nodding, she climbed up the stairs, Kankuro followed her.
When they entered, Tenten went straight to the kitchen so she could put away the bags, filled with dry leaves and flower buds. Then she returned to the living room and sat beside Kankuro on the sofa. She cuddled against him, loving the sensation of just being so close.
"Because you don't give me any direction, I am just going to shoot in the dark."
Kankuro leaned back and wrapped tightly an arm around her.
"So… You have seen me fully naked just one time." He laughed. "And when you did, my body, again, wasn't able to produce an erection. Do your worries may be related to this issue?"
She took a deep breath. Here, between those four walls, were only the two of them. She could afford being bolder here and he was not going to judge her or laugh at her. So if she wanted to beat down her fears, she had to name them first.
"Actually that crossed my mind. But when it did, it was more like a wonder if I am going to affect you strongly enough to cause your erection." She bluntly said. "Then I remember about… the not so few times when I happen to touch you even if it's not so intimate and…"
"Ok, in order to sooth your worry in this matter, I must tell you - you, the whole you, affect me really strongly and especially make me painfully aroused. There is no doubt here."
"Also I feel ashamed of the idea of even getting myself naked in front of you. I have…never… I have never undressed myself in front of a man." she whispered.
"You don't have to undress yourself." He grinned. "Leave that one to me to handle."
Tenten laughed and suddenly felt way more relaxed. She realised all her worries were meaningless - she loved that man, she was ready to give herself away to him even before his last mission. He stopped her then… He was rational at the time. But her desire hadn't changed. She smiled and while feeling bold, she was over his tights, straddling them. And exactly the way she had done that evening before, she slid forward until her hip was resting in his lap.
"You know what I think? I think I want to know what I am afraid of by trial and error method." she quietly said.
She slid one palm on his chest and felt with pleasure how his breath was caught in his throat. Her other hand lifted his chin. Then she leaned down and pressed her lips onto his. The kiss became heated really fast. When his confident hands stroked down her back, her worries and fears were gone. She trusted him and knew everything would be all right. Soft moan escaped by her lips…
Kankuro kissed up a heated trail from her lips, down her jaw. Reaching her ear, he traced out its outline then whispered lowly:
"Please let me lead this time." he asked and when he did, his warm breath caused her to shiver. She nodded.
His fingers grabbed her top's edges and soon it was laying on the floor nead the sofa. Her tight bustier followed. Tenten felt an overwhelming desire to feel his skin and tugged his simple black shirt up impatiently. He smiled and complied with her wish to expose his skin so she could touch him. Right after that she pressed her bare breasts on his chest, biting her lips at the sensation.
Kankuro kept caressing and kissing her, and teasing her with his lips and teeth. But he was continuously watching out for her reactions, "listening" to her body's desires. He had felt familiar tangling in his manhood, which meant he still had some kind of reaction there. The man was aware that even if there was a reaction it was far away from normal erection, though it meant sensitivity was present.
Tenten obviously noticed it too, boldly dragging a finger over his pants. That strongly surprised him, but he did all he could to hide that surprise.
"I wouldn't call that lack of erection." She said quietly.
"The problem is still there. But you can see my body reacting with arousal in your presence, right?" He asked her, while caressing her hair, then pulled her in for the next lust-filled kiss.
"I still don't see how you would…" she breathed out with closed eyes, obviously loving the sensations the man caused in her with his kisses.
"You insist on knowing?" He asked, stopping all of his other doings.
"Actually I do," she nodded.
"The erection is not the only tool one can use to satisfy a woman. If there is a will, one can use other tools as well." He raised one of his hands. "A body has a lot of appendages one can use for such a purpose. Luckily, mine are very talented." Tiny chakra strings forced her up her feet just like a puppet. He joined his other hands and without really touching her, he removed all of the remaining clothes from her. She shyly looked away, though when she heard his deep sight of admiration, she looked back at him.
"I can't see you very well, but even what I could see is enough to take my breath away." He released her from his chakra strings so she could move on her own accord.
Tenten stepped to him and let herself be led through this new experience…
In the next hour she went through a lot that was happening to her for the first time. And when she finally relaxed onto Kankuro's chest, she smiled and couldn't help but think his fingers were indeed extremely talented…
